第10章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:4159更新时间:18/12/22 08:57:59
Atthetimber-merchant’s,inthemeantime,theconversationflowed;and,asGilesWinterbornehadrightlyenoughdeemed,onsubjectsinwhichhehadnoshare。Amongtheexcludingmatterstherewas,forone,theeffectuponMr。Melburyofthewomanlymienandmannersofhisdaughter,whichtookhimsomuchunawaresthat,thoughitdidnotmakehimabsolutelyforgettheexistenceofherconductorhomeward,thrustGiles’simagebackintoquitetheobscurestcellarageofhisbrain。AnotherwashisinterviewwithMrs。Charmond’sagentthatmorning,atwhichtheladyherselfhadbeenpresentforafewminutes。Melburyhadpurchasedsomestandingtimberfromheralongtimebefore,andnowthatthedatehadcomeforfellingithewaslefttopursuealmosthisowncourse。ThiswaswhatthehouseholdwereactuallytalkingofduringGiles’scogitationwithout;andMelbury’ssatisfactionwiththeclearatmospherethathadarisenbetweenhimselfandthedeityofthegroveswhichenclosedhisresidencewasthecauseofacounterbalancingmistinessonthesidetowardsWinterborne。 “Sothoroughlydoesshetrustme。”saidMelbury,“thatImightfell,top,orlop,onmyownjudgment,anysticko’timberwhateverinherwood,andfixthepriceo’t,andsettlethematter。But,nameitall!Iwouldn’tdosuchathing。However,itmaybeusefultohavethisgoodunderstandingwithher。I wishshetookmoreinterestintheplace,andstayedherealltheyearround。” “Iamafraid’tisnotherregardforyou,butherdislikeofHintock,thatmakeshersoeasyaboutthetrees。”saidMrs。 Melbury。 Whendinnerwasover,Gracetookacandleandbegantoramblepleasurablythroughtheroomsofheroldhome,fromwhichshehadlatterlybecomewellnighanalien。Eachnookandeachobjectrevivedamemory,andsimultaneouslymodifiedit。Thechambersseemedlowerthantheyhadappearedonanypreviousoccasionofherreturn,thesurfacesofbothwallsandceilingsstandinginsuchrelationstotheeyethatitcouldnotavoidtakingmicroscopicnoteoftheirirregularitiesandoldfashion。Herownbedroomworeatoncealookmorefamiliarthanwhenshehadleftit,andyetafaceestranged。Theworldoflittlethingsthereingazedatherinhelplessstationariness,asthoughtheyhadtriedandbeenunabletomakeanyprogresswithoutherpresence。Overtheplacewherehercandlehadbeenaccustomedtostand,whenshehadusedtoreadinbedtillthemidnighthour,therewasstillthebrownspotofsmoke。Shedidnotknowthatherfatherhadtakenespecialcaretokeepitfrombeingcleanedoff。 Havingconcludedherperambulationofthisnowuselesslycommodiousedifice,Gracebegantofeelthatshehadcomealongjourneysincethemorning;andwhenherfatherhadbeenuphimself,aswellashiswife,toseethatherroomwascomfortableandthefireburning,shepreparedtoretireforthenight。Nosooner,however,wassheinbedthanhermomentarysleepinesstookitselfoff,andshewishedshehadstayeduplonger。Sheamusedherselfbylisteningtotheoldfamiliarnoisesthatshecouldheartobestillgoingondown-stairs,andbylookingtowardsthewindowasshelay。Theblindhadbeendrawnup,assheusedtohaveitwhenagirl,andshecouldjustdiscernthedimtree-topsagainsttheskyontheneighboringhill。Beneaththismeeting- lineoflightandshadenothingwasvisiblesaveonesolitarypointoflight,whichblinkedasthetree-twigswavedtoandfrobeforeitsbeams。Fromitspositionitseemedtoradiatefromthewindowofahouseonthehill-side。Thehousehadbeenemptywhenshewaslastathome,andshewonderedwhoinhabitedtheplacenow。 Herconjectures,however,werenotintentlycarriedon,andshewaswatchingthelightquiteidly,whenitgraduallychangedcolor,andatlengthshoneblueassapphire。Thusitremainedseveralminutes,andthenitpassedthroughviolettored。 Hercuriositywassowidelyawakenedbythephenomenonthatshesatupinbed,andstaredsteadilyattheshine。Anappearanceofthissort,sufficienttoexciteattentionanywhere,wasnolessthanamarvelinHintock,asGracehadknownthehamlet。Almosteverydiurnalandnocturnaleffectinthatwoodlandplacehadhithertobeenthedirectresultoftheregularterrestrialrollwhichproducedtheseason’schanges;butherewassomethingdissociatedfromthesenormalsequences,andforeigntolocalhabitandknowledge。 ItwasaboutthismomentthatGraceheardthehouseholdbelowpreparingtoretire,themostemphaticnoiseintheproceedingbeingthatofherfatherboltingthedoors。Thenthestairscreaked,andherfatherandmotherpassedherchamber。ThelasttocomewasGrammerOliver。 Graceslidoutofbed,ranacrosstheroom,andliftingthelatch,said,“Iamnotasleep,Grammer。Comeinandtalktome。” Beforetheoldwomanhadentered,Gracewasagainunderthebedclothes。Grammersetdownhercandlestick,andseatedherselfontheedgeofMissMelbury’scoverlet。 “IwantyoutotellmewhatlightthatisIseeonthehill-side。” saidGrace。 Mrs。Oliverlookedacross。“Oh,that。”shesaid,“isfromthedoctor’s。He’softendoingthingsofthatsort。Perhapsyoudon’tknowthatwe’veadoctorlivingherenow——Mr。Fitzpiersbyname?” Graceadmittedthatshehadnotheardofhim。 “Well,then,miss,he’scomeheretogetupapractice。Iknowhimverywell,throughgoingtheretohelp’emscrubsometimes,whichyourfathersaidImightdo,ifIwantedto,inmysparetime。Beingabachelor-man,he’veonlyaladinthehouse。Ohyes,Iknowhimverywell。Sometimeshe’lltalktomeasifI werehisownmother。” “Indeed。” “Yes。’Grammer,’hesaidoneday,whenIaskedhimwhyhecameherewherethere’shardlyanybodyliving,’I’lltellyouwhyI camehere。Itookamap,andImarkedonitwhereDr。Jones’spracticeendstothenorthofthisdistrict,andwhereMr。 Taylor’sendsonthesouth,andlittleJimmyGreen’sontheeast,andsomebodyelse’stothewest。ThenItookapairofcompasses,andfoundtheexactmiddleofthecountrythatwasleftbetweenthesebounds,andthatmiddlewasLittleHintock;sohereI am。’But,Lord,there:pooryoungman!” “Why?” “Hesaid,’GrammerOliver,I’vebeenherethreemonths,andalthoughthereareagoodmanypeopleintheHintocksandthevillagesround,andascatteredpracticeisoftenaverygoodone,Idon’tseemtogetmanypatients。Andthere’snosocietyatall; andI’mprettynearmelancholymad,’hesaid,withagreatyawn。 ’Ishouldbequiteifitwerenotformybooks,andmylab—— laboratory,andwhatnot。Grammer,Iwasmadeforhigherthings。’ Andthenhe’dyawnandyawnagain。” “Washereallymadeforhigherthings,doyouthink?Imean,isheclever?” “Well,no。Howcanhebeclever?Hemaybeabletojineupabrokenmanorwomanafterafashion,andputhisfingeruponanacheifyoutellhimnearlywhere’tis;buttheseyoungmen——theyshouldlivetomytimeoflife,andthenthey’dseehowclevertheywereatfive-and-twenty!Andyethe’saprojick,arealprojick,andsaystheoddestofrozums。’Ah,Grammer,’hesaid,atanothertime,’letmetellyouthatEverythingisNothing。 There’sonlyMeandnotMeinthewholeworld。’Andhetoldmethatnoman’shandscouldhelpwhattheydid,anymorethanthehandsofaclock。Yes,he’samanofstrangemeditations,andhiseyesseemtoseeasfarasthenorthstar。” “Hewillsoongoaway,nodoubt。” “Idon’tthinkso。”Gracedidnotsay“Why?”andGrammerhesitated。Atlastshewenton:“Don’ttellyourfatherormother,miss,ifIletyouknowasecret。” Gracegavetherequiredpromise。 “Well,hetalksofbuyingme;sohewon’tgoawayjustyet。” “Buyingyou!——how?” “Notmysoul——mybody,whenI’mdead。OnedaywhenIwastherecleaning,hesaid,’Grammer,you’vealargebrain——averylargeorganofbrain,’hesaid。’Awoman’sisusuallyfourounceslessthanaman’s;butyoursisman’ssize。’Well,then——hee,hee!—— afterhe’dflatteredmeabitlikethat,hesaidhe’dgivemetenpoundstohavemeasanatomyaftermydeath。Well,knowingI’dnochicknorchielleft,andnobodywithanyinterestinme,I thought,faith,ifIcanbeofanyusetomyfellow-creaturesafterI’mgonetheyarewelcometomyservices;soIsaidI’dthinkitover,andwouldmostlikelyagreeandtakethetenpounds。Nowthisisasecret,miss,betweenustwo。Themoneywouldbeveryusefultome;andIseenoharminit。” “Ofcoursethere’snoharm。Butoh,Grammer,howcanyouthinktodoit?Iwishyouhadn’ttoldme。” “IwishIhadn’t——ifyoudon’tliketoknowit,miss。Butyouneedn’tmind。Lord——hee,hee!——Ishallkeephimwaitingmanyayearyet,blessye!” “Ihopeyouwill,Iamsure。” Thegirlthereuponfellintosuchdeepreflectionthatconversationlanguished,andGrammerOliver,takinghercandle,wishedMissMelburygood-night。Thelatter’seyesrestedonthedistantglimmer,aroundwhichsheallowedherreasoningfancytoplayinvagueeddiesthatshapedthedoingsofthephilosopherbehindthatlightonthelinesofintelligencejustreceived。ItwasstrangetohertocomebackfromtheworldtoLittleHintockandfindinoneofitsnooks,likeatropicalplantinahedge- row,anucleusofadvancedideasandpracticeswhichhadnothingincommonwiththelifearound。Chemicalexperiments,anatomicalprojects,andmetaphysicalconceptionshadfoundastrangehomehere。 Thussheremainedthinking,theimaginedpursuitsofthemanbehindthelightinterminglingwithconjecturalsketchesofhispersonality,tillhereyesfelltogetherwiththeirownheaviness,andsheslept。