第18章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:4419更新时间:18/12/22 08:57:59
Charmondshouldhaveheardthevillagenews,andbecomequitedisappointedinherexpectationsofGraceatfindingshekeptsuchcompany? Fullofthisposthocargument,Mr。Melburyoverlookedtheinfinitethrongofotherpossiblereasonsandunreasonsforawomanchanginghermind。Forinstance,whileknowingthathisGracewasattractive,hequiteforgotthatMrs。Charmondhadalsogreatpretensionstobeauty。Inhissimpleestimate,anattractivewomanattractedallaround。 SoitwassettledinhismindthathersuddenminglingwiththevillagersattheunluckyWinterborne’swasthecauseofhermostgrievousloss,ashedeemedit,inthedirectionofHintockHouse。 “’Tisathousandpities!”hewouldrepeattohimself。“Iamruiningherforconscience’sake!” Itwasonemorninglateron,whilethesethingswereagitatinghismind,that,curiouslyenough,somethingdarkenedthewindowjustastheyfinishedbreakfast。Lookingup,theysawGilesinpersonmountedonhorseback,andstraininghisneckforward,ashehadbeendoingforsometime,tocatchtheirattentionthroughthewindow。Gracehadbeenthefirsttoseehim,andinvoluntarilyexclaimed,“Thereheis——andanewhorse!” OntheirfacesastheyregardedGileswerewrittentheirsuspendedthoughtsandcompoundfeelingsconcerninghim,couldhehavereadthemthroughthoseoldpanes。Buthesawnothing:hisfeaturesjustnowwere,forawonder,litupwitharedsmileatsomeotheridea。Sotheyrosefrombreakfastandwenttothedoor,Gracewithananxious,wistfulmanner,herfatherinareverie,Mrs。 Melburyplacidandinquiring。“Wehavecomeouttolookatyourhorse。”shesaid。 Itcouldbeseenthathewaspleasedattheirattention,andexplainedthathehadriddenamileortwototrytheanimal’spaces。“Iboughther。”headded,withwarmthsoseverelyrepressedastoseemindifference,“becauseshehasbeenusedtocarryalady。” StillMr。Melburydidnotbrighten。Mrs。Melburysaid,“Andisshequiet?” Winterborneassuredherthattherewasnodoubtofit。“Itookcareofthat。She’sfive-and-twenty,andverycleverforherage。” “Well,getoffandcomein。”saidMelbury,brusquely;andGilesdismountedaccordingly。 ThiseventwastheconcreteresultofWinterborne’sthoughtsduringthepastweekortwo。Thewantofsuccesswithhiseveningpartyhehadacceptedinasphilosophicamoodashewascapableof;buttherehadbeenenthusiasmenoughleftinhimonedayatShertonAbbasmarkettopurchasethisoldmare,whichhadbelongedtoaneighboringparsonwithseveraldaughters,andwasofferedhimtocarryeitheragentlemanoralady,andtodooddjobsofcartingandagricultureatapinch。ThisobligingquadrupedseemedtofurnishGileswithameansofreinstatinghimselfinMelbury’sgoodopinionasamanofconsideratenessbythrowingoutfuturepossibilitiestoGrace。 Thelatterlookedathimwithintensifiedinterestthismorning,inthemoodwhichisaltogetherpeculiartowoman’snature,andwhich,whenreducedintoplainwords,seemsasimpossibleasthepenetrabilityofmatter——thatofentertainingatenderpityfortheobjectofherownunnecessarycoldness。TheimperturbablepoisewhichmarkedWinterborneingeneralwasenlivenednowbyafreshnessandanimationthatsetabrightnessinhiseyeandonhischeek。Mrs。Melburyaskedhimtohavesomebreakfast,andhepleasurablyrepliedthathewouldjointhem,withhisusuallackoftacticalobservation,notperceivingthattheyhadallfinishedthemeal,thatthehourwasinconvenientlylate,andthatthenotepipedbythekettledenotedittobenearlyempty;sothatfreshwaterhadtobebroughtin,troubletakentomakeitboil,andageneralrenovationofthetablecarriedout。Neitherdidheknow,sofullwasheofhistenderulteriorobjectinbuyingthathorse,howmanycupsofteahewasgulpingdownoneafteranother,norhowthemorningwasslipping,norhowhewaskeepingthefamilyfromdispersingabouttheirduties。 Thenhetoldthroughoutthehumorousstoryofthehorse’spurchase,lookingparticularlygrimatsomefixedobjectintheroom,awayhealwayslookedwhenhenarratedanythingthatamusedhim。Whilehewasstillthinkingofthescenehehaddescribed,Graceroseandsaid,“Ihavetogoandhelpmymothernow,Mr。 Winterborne。” “H’m!”heejaculated,turninghiseyessuddenlyuponher。 Sherepeatedherwordswithaslightblushofawkwardness; whereuponGiles,becomingsuddenlyconscious,tooconscious,jumpedup,saying,“Tobesure,tobesure!”wishedthemquicklygood-morning,andboltedoutofthehouse。 Neverthelesshehad,uponthewhole,strengthenedhisposition,withheratleast。Time,too,wasonhisside,for(asherfathersawwithsomeregret)alreadythehomelinessofHintocklifewasfastbecomingeffacedfromherobservationasasingularity;justasthefirststrangenessofafacefromwhichwehaveforyearsbeenseparatedinsensiblypassesoffwithrenewedintercourse,andtonesitselfdownintosimpleidentitywiththelineamentsofthepast。 ThusMr。Melburywentoutofthehousestillunreconciledtothesacrificeofthegemhehadbeenatsuchpainsinmounting。Hefaincouldhope,inthesecretnetherchamberofhismind,thatsomethingwouldhappen,beforethebalanceofherfeelinghadquiteturnedinWinterborne’sfavor,torelievehisconscienceandpreserveheronherelevatedplane。 HecouldnotforgetthatMrs。Charmondhadapparentlyabandonedallinterestinhisdaughterassuddenlyasshehadconceivedit,andwasasfirmlyconvincedaseverthatthecomradeshipwhichGracehadshownwithGilesandhiscrewbyattendinghispartyhadbeenthecause。 Matterslingeredonthus。Andthen,asahoopbygentleknocksonthissideandonthatismadetotravelinspecificdirections,thelittletouchesofcircumstanceinthelifeofthisyounggirlshapedthecurvesofhercareer。 Itwasadayofratherbrightweatherfortheseason。MissMelburywentoutforamorningwalk,andherever-regardfulfather,havinganhour’sleisure,offeredtowalkwithher。Thebreezewasfreshandquitesteady,filteringitselfthroughthedenudedmassoftwigswithoutswayingthem,butmakingthepointofeachivy-leafonthetrunksscratchitsunderlyingneighborrestlessly。Grace’slipssuckedinthisnativeairofherslikemilk。Theysoonreachedaplacewherethewoodrandownintoacorner,andwentoutsideittowardscomparativelyopenground。 Havinglookedroundabout,theywereintendingtore-enterthecopsewhenafoxquietlyemergedwithadraggingbrush,trottedpastthemtamelyasadomesticcat,anddisappearedamidsomedeadfern。Theywalkedon,herfathermerelyobserving,afterwatchingtheanimal,“Theyarehuntingsomewherenear。” Fartheruptheysawinthemid-distancethehoundsrunninghitherandthither,asiftherewerelittleornoscentthatday。Soondiversmembersofthehuntappearedonthescene,anditwasevidentfromtheirmovementsthatthechasehadbeenstultifiedbygeneralpuzzle-headednessastothewhereaboutsoftheintendedvictim。Inaminuteafarmerrodeuptothetwopedestrians,pantingwithacteonicexcitement,andGracebeingafewstepsinadvance,headdressedher,askingifshehadseenthefox。 “Yes。”saidshe。“Wesawhimsometimeago——justoutthere。” “DidyoucryHalloo?” “Wesaidnothing。” “Thenwhythed——didn’tyou,orgettheoldbuffertodoitforyou?”saidtheman,ashecanteredaway。 Shelookedratherdisconcertedatthisreply,andobservingherfather’sface,sawthatitwasquitered。 “Heoughtnottohavespokentoyelikethat!”saidtheoldman,inthetoneofonewhoseheartwasbruised,thoughitwasnotbytheepithetappliedtohimself。“Andhewouldn’tifhehadbeenagentleman。’Twasnotthelanguagetousetoawomanofanyniceness。You,sowellreadandcultivated——howcouldheexpectyetoknowwhattom-boyfield-folkareinthehabitofdoing?Ifsobeyouhadjustcomefromtrimmingswedesormangolds——jokingwiththeroughwork-folkandallthat——Icouldhavestoodit。Buthasn’titcostmenearahundredayeartoliftyououtofallthat,soastoshowanexampletotheneighborhoodofwhatawomancanbe?Grace,shallItellyouthesecretofit?’TwasbecauseI wasinyourcompany。Ifablack-coatedsquireorpa’sonhadbeenwalkingwithyouinsteadofmehewouldn’thavespokenso。” “No,no,father;there’snothinginyouroughorill-mannered!” “Itellyouitisthat!I’venoticed,andI’venoticeditmanytimes,thatawomantakeshercolorfromthemanshe’swalkingwith。Thewomanwholooksanunquestionableladywhenshe’swithapolished-upfellow,looksameretawdryimitationarticlewhenshe’shobbingandnobbingwithahomelyblade。Yousha’n’tbetreatedlikethatforlong,oratleastyourchildrensha’n’t。 YoushallhavesomebodytowalkwithyouwholooksmoreofadandythanI——pleaseGodyoushall!” “But,mydearfather。”shesaid,muchdistressed,“Idon’tmindatall。Idon’twishformorehonorthanIalreadyhave!” “Aperplexingandticklishpossessionisadaughter。”accordingtoMenanderorsomeoldGreekpoet,andtonobodywasoneevermoresothantoMelbury,byreasonofherverydearnesstohim。AsforGrace,shebegantofeeltroubled;shedidnotperhapswishthereandthentounambitiouslydevoteherlifetoGilesWinterborne,butshewasconsciousofmoreandmoreuneasinessatthepossibilityofbeingthesocialhopeofthefamily。 “Youwouldliketohavemorehonor,ifitpleasesme?”askedherfather,incontinuationofthesubject。 Despiteherfeelingsheassentedtothis。Hisreasoninghadnotbeenwithoutitsweightuponher。 “Grace。”hesaid,justbeforetheyhadreachedthehouse,“ifitcostsmemylifeyoushallmarrywell!To-dayhasshownmethatwhateverayoungwoman’sniceness,shestandsfornothingalone。 Youshallmarrywell。” Hebreathedheavily,andhisbreathingwascaughtupbythebreeze,whichseemedtosighasoftremonstrance。 Shelookedcalmlyathim。“AndhowaboutMr。Winterborne?”sheasked。“Imentionit,father,notasamatterofsentiment,butasaquestionofkeepingfaith。” Thetimber-merchant’seyesfellforamoment。“Idon’tknow——I