第36章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:4677更新时间:18/12/22 08:57:59
Heappearedtotakenoheed,andshesaidasecondtime,“Mr。 Winterborne!” Evennowheseemednottohear,thoughapersoncloseenoughtohimtoseetheexpressionofhisfacemighthavedoubtedit;andshesaidathirdtime,withatimidloudness,“Mr。Winterborne! What,haveyouforgottenmyvoice?”Sheremainedwithherlipspartedinawelcomingsmile。 Heturnedwithoutsurprise,andcamedeliberatelytowardsthewindow。“Whydoyoucallme?”hesaid,withasternnessthattookhercompletelyunawares,hisfacebeingnowpale。“Isitnotenoughthatyouseemeheremoilingandmuddlingformydailybreadwhileyouaresittingthereinyoursuccess,thatyoucan’trefrainfromopeningoldwoundsbycallingoutmyname?” Sheflushed,andwasstruckdumbforsomemoments;butsheforgavehisunreasoninganger,knowingsowellinwhatithaditsroot。 “IamsorryIoffendedyoubyspeaking。”shereplied,meekly。 “Believeme,Ididnotintendtodothat。Icouldhardlysitheresonearyouwithoutawordofrecognition。” Winterborne’shearthadswollenbig,andhiseyesgrownmoistbythistime,somuchhadthegentleanswerofthatfamiliarvoicemovedhim。Heassuredherhurriedly,andwithoutlookingather,thathewasnotangry。Hethenmanagedtoaskher,inaclumsy,constrainedway,ifshehadhadapleasantjourney,andseenmanyinterestingsights。Shespokeofafewplacesthatshehadvisited,andsothetimepassedtillhewithdrewtotakehisplaceatoneoftheleverswhichpulledroundthescrew。 Forgottenhervoice!Indeed,hehadnotforgottenhervoice,ashisbitternessshowed。Butthoughintheheatofthemomenthehadreproachedherkeenly,hissecondmoodwasafarmoretenderone——thatwhichcouldregardherrenunciationofsuchasheashergloryandherprivilege,hisownfidelitynotwithstanding。Hecouldhavedeclaredwithacontemporarypoet—— “IfIforget,Thesaltcreekmayforgettheocean; IfIforgetTheheartwhenceflowsmyheart’sbrightmotion,MayIsinkmeanlierthantheworstAbandoned,outcast,crushed,accurst,IfIforget。 “Thoughyouforget,Nowordofmineshallmaryourpleasure; Thoughyouforget,Youfilledmybarrenlifewithtreasure,Youmaywithdrawthegiftyougave; Youstillarequeen,Istillamslave,Thoughyouforget。” Shehadtearsinhereyesatthethoughtthatshecouldnotremindhimofwhatheoughttohaveremembered;thatnotherselfbutthepressureofeventshaddissipatedthedreamsoftheirearlyyouth。 Gracewasthusunexpectedlyworstedinherencounterwithheroldfriend。Shehadopenedthewindowwithafaintsenseoftriumph,buthehadturneditintosadness;shedidnotquitecomprehendthereasonwhy。Intruthitwasbecauseshewasnotcruelenoughinhercruelty。Ifyouhavetousetheknife,useit,saythegreatsurgeons;andforherownpeaceGraceshouldhavecontemnedWinterbornethoroughlyornotatall。Asitwas,onclosingthewindowanindescribable,somemighthavesaiddangerous,pityquaveredinherbosomforhim。 Presentlyherhusbandenteredtheroom,andtoldherwhatawonderfulsunsettherewastobeseen。 “Ihavenotnoticedit。ButIhaveseensomebodyouttherethatweknow。”shereplied,lookingintothecourt。 Fitzpiersfollowedthedirectionofhereyes,andsaidhedidnotrecognizeanybody。 “Why,Mr。Winterborne——thereheis,cider-making。Hecombinesthatwithhisotherbusiness,youknow。” “Oh——thatfellow。”saidFitzpiers,hiscuriositybecomingextinct。 She,reproachfully:“What,callMr。Winterborneafellow,Edgar? ItistrueIwasjustsayingtomyselfthatInevercouldhavemarriedhim;butIhavemuchregardforhim,andalwaysshall。” “Well,dobyallmeans,mydearone。IdaresayIaminhuman,andsupercilious,andcontemptiblyproudofmypooroldramshacklefamily;butIdohonestlyconfesstoyouthatIfeelasifI belongedtoadifferentspeciesfromthepeoplewhoareworkinginthatyard。” “Andfrommetoo,then。Formybloodisnobetterthantheirs。” Helookedatherwithadrollsortofawakening。Itwas,indeed,astartlinganomalythatthiswomanofthetribewithoutshouldbestandingtherebesidehimashiswife,ifhissentimentswereashehadsaid。Intheirtravelstogethershehadrangedsounerringlyathislevelinideas,tastes,andhabitsthathehadalmostforgottenhowhishearthadplayedhavocwithhisprinciplesintakinghertohim。 “AhYOU——youarerefinedandeducatedintosomethingquitedifferent。”hesaid,self-assuringly。 “Idon’tquiteliketothinkthat。”shemurmuredwithsoftregret。 “AndIthinkyouunderestimateGilesWinterborne。Remember,IwasbroughtupwithhimtillIwassentawaytoschool,soIcannotberadicallydifferent。Atanyrate,Idon’tfeelso。Thatis,nodoubt,myfault,andagreatblemishinme。ButIhopeyouwillputupwithit,Edgar。” Fitzpierssaidthathewouldendeavortodoso;andasitwasnowgettingonfordusk,theypreparedtoperformthelaststageoftheirjourney,soastoarriveatHintockbeforeitgrewverylate。 Inlessthanhalfanhourtheystarted,thecider-makersintheyardhavingceasedtheirlaborsandgoneaway,sothattheonlysoundsaudibletherenowwerethetricklingofthejuicefromthetightlyscrewedpress,andthebuzzofasinglewasp,whichhaddrunkitselfsotipsythatitwasunconsciousofnightfall。Gracewasverycheerfulatthethoughtofbeingsooninhersylvanhome,butFitzpierssatbesideheralmostsilent。Anindescribableoppressivenesshadovertakenhimwiththenearapproachofthejourney’sendandtherealitiesoflifethatlaythere。 “Youdon’tsayaword,Edgar。”sheobserved。“Aren’tyougladtogetback?Iam。” “Youhavefriendshere。Ihavenone。” “Butmyfriendsareyours。” “Ohyes——inthatsense。” Theconversationlanguished,andtheydrewneartheendofHintockLane。Ithadbeendecidedthattheyshould,atleastforatime,takeuptheirabodeinherfather’sroomyhouse,onewingofwhichwasquiteattheirservice,beingalmostdisusedbytheMelburys。 Workmenhadbeenpainting,papering,andwhitewashingthissetofroomsintheweddedpair’sabsence;andsoscrupuloushadbeenthetimber-dealerthatthereshouldoccurnohitchordisappointmentontheirarrival,thatnotthesmallestdetailremainedundone。 Tomakeitallcompleteaground-floorroomhadbeenfittedupasasurgery,withanindependentouterdoor,towhichFitzpiers’sbrassplatewasscrewed——formereornament,suchasignbeingquitesuperfluouswhereeverybodyknewthelatitudeandlongitudeofhisneighborsformilesround。 Melburyandhiswifewelcomedthetwainwithaffection,andallthehousewithdeference。Theywentuptoexploretheirrooms,thatopenedfromapassageonthelefthandofthestaircase,theentrancetowhichcouldbeshutoffonthelandingbyadoorthatMelburyhadhungforthepurpose。Afriendlyfirewasburninginthegrate,althoughitwasnotcold。Fitzpierssaiditwastoosoonforanysortofmeal,theyonlyhavingdinedshortlybeforeleavingSherton-Abbas。Hewouldwalkacrosstohisoldlodging,tolearnhowhislocumtenenshadgotoninhisabsence。 InleavingMelbury’sdoorhelookedbackatthehouse。Therewaseconomyinlivingunderthatroof,andeconomywasdesirable,butinsomewayhewasdissatisfiedwiththearrangement;itimmersedhimsodeeplyinson-in-lawshiptoMelbury。Hewentontohisformerresidence。Hisdeputywasout,andFitzpiersfellintoconversationwithhisformerlandlady。 “Well,Mrs。Cox,what’sthebestnews?”heaskedofher,withcheeryweariness。 Shewasalittlesouredatlosingbyhismarriagesoprofitableatenantasthesurgeonhadprovedtobedulinghisresidenceunderherroof;andthemoresointherebeinghardlytheremotestchanceofhergettingsuchanothersettlerintheHintocksolitudes。“’TiswhatIdon’twishtorepeat,sir;leastofalltoyou。”shemumbled。 “Nevermindme,Mrs。Cox;goahead。” “Itiswhatpeoplesayaboutyourhastymarrying,Dr。Fitzpiers。 Whereastheywon’tbelieveyouknowsuchcleverdoctrinesinphysicastheyoncesupposedofye,seeingasyoucouldmarryintoMr。Melbury’sfamily,whichisonlyHintock-born,suchasme。” “Theyarekindlywelcometotheiropinion。”saidFitzpiers,notallowinghimselftorecognizethathewinced。“Anythingelse?” “Yes;SHE’Scomehomeatlast。” “Who’sshe?” “Mrs。Charmond。” “Oh,indeed!”saidFitzpiers,withbutslightinterest。“I’veneverseenher。” “Shehasseenyou,sir,whetherorno。” “Never。” “Yes;shesawyouinsomehotelorstreetforaminuteortwowhileyouwereawaytravelling,andaccidentallyheardyourname; andwhenshemadesomeremarkaboutyou,MissEllis——that’shermaid——toldheryouwasonyourwedding-towerwithMr。Melbury’sdaughter;andshesaid,’Heoughttohavedonebetterthanthat。 Ifearhehasspoiledhischances,’shesays。” Fitzpiersdidnottalkmuchlongertothischeeringhousewife,andwalkedhomewithnoverybriskstep。Heenteredthedoorquietly,andwentstraightup-stairstothedrawing-roomextemporizedfortheirusebyMelburyinhisandhisbride’sabsence,expectingtofindherthereashehadlefther。Thefirewasburningstill,buttherewerenolights。Helookedintothenextapartment,fittedupasalittledining-room,butnosupperwaslaid。Hewenttothetopofthestairs,andheardachorusofvoicesinthetimber-merchant’sparlorbelow,Grace’sbeingoccasionallyintermingled。 Descending,andlookingintotheroomfromthedoor-way,hefoundquitealargegatheringofneighborsandotheracquaintances,praisingandcongratulatingMrs。Fitzpiersonherreturn,amongthembeingthedairyman,FarmerBawtree,andthemaster-blacksmithfromGreatHintock;alsothecooper,thehollow-turner,theexciseman,andsomeothers,withtheirwives,wholivedhardby。 Grace,girlthatshewas,hadquiteforgottenhernewdignityandherhusband’s;shewasinthemidstofthem,blushing,andreceivingtheircomplimentswithallthepleasureofold- comradeship。 Fitzpiersexperiencedaprofounddistasteforthesituation。 Melburywasnowhereintheroom,butMelbury’swife,perceivingthedoctor,cametohim。“Wethought,GraceandI。”shesaid,“thatastheyhavecalled,hearingyouwerecome,wecoulddonolessthanaskthemtosupper;andthenGraceproposedthatweshouldallsuptogether,asitisthefirstnightofyourreturn。” BythistimeGracehadcomeroundtohim。“Isitnotgoodofthemtowelcomemesowarmly?”sheexclaimed,withtearsoffriendshipinhereyes。“AftersomuchgoodfeelingIcouldnotthinkofourshuttingourselvesupawayfromtheminourowndining-room。” “Certainlynot——certainlynot。”saidFitzpiers;andheenteredtheroomwiththeheroicsmileofamartyr。