第40章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:6130更新时间:18/12/22 08:57:59
Aweekhadpassed,andMrs。CharmondhadleftHintockHouse。 MiddletonAbbey,theplaceofhersojourn,wasabouttwentymilesdistantbyroad,eighteenbybridle-pathsandfootways。 Graceobserved,forthefirsttime,thatherhusbandwasrestless,thatatmomentsheevenwasdisposedtoavoidher。Thescrupulouscivilityofmereacquaintanceshipcreptintohismanner;yet,whensittingatmeals,heseemedhardlytohearherremarks。Herlittledoingsinterestedhimnolonger,whiletowardsherfatherhisbearingwasnotfarfromsupercilious。Itwasplainthathismindwasentirelyoutsideherlife,whereaboutsoutsideitshecouldnottell;insomeregionofscience,possibly,orofpsychologicalliterature。ButherhopethathewasagainimmersinghimselfinthoselucubrationswhichbeforehermarriagehadmadehislightalandmarkinHintock,wasfoundedsimplyontheslenderfactthatheoftensatuplate。 OneeveningshediscoveredhimleaningoveragateonRub-DownHill,thegateatwhichWinterbornehadoncebeenstanding,andwhichopenedonthebrinkofasteep,slantingdowndirectlyintoBlackmoorVale,ortheValeoftheWhiteHart,extendingbeneaththeeyeatthispointtoadistanceofmanymiles。Hisattentionwasfixedonthelandscapefaraway,andGrace’sapproachwassonoiselessthathedidnothearher。Whenshecamecloseshecouldseehislipsmovingunconsciously,astosomeimpassionedvisionarytheme。 Shespoke,andFitzpiersstarted。“Whatareyoulookingat?”sheasked。 “Oh!IwascontemplatingouroldplaceofBuckbury,inmyidleway。”hesaid。 Ithadseemedtoherthathewaslookingmuchtotherightofthatcradleandtombofhisancestraldignity;butshemadenofurtherobservation,andtakinghisarmwalkedhomebesidehimalmostinsilence。ShedidnotknowthatMiddletonAbbeylayinthedirectionofhisgaze。“AreyougoingtohaveoutDarlingthisafternoon?”sheasked,presently。Darlingbeingthelight-graymarewhichWinterbornehadboughtforGrace,andwhichFitzpiersnowconstantlyused,theanimalhavingturnedoutawonderfulbargain,incombiningaperfectdocilitywithanalmosthumanintelligence;moreover,shewasnottooyoung。Fitzpierswasunfamiliarwithhorses,andhevaluedthesequalities。 “Yes。”hereplied,“butnottodrive。Iamridingher。I practisecrossingahorseasoftenasIcannow,forIfindthatI cantakemuchshortercutsonhorseback。” Hehad,infact,takentheseridingexercisesforaboutaweek,onlysinceMrs。Charmond’sabsence,hisuniversalpracticehithertohavingbeentodrive。 Somefewdayslater,FitzpiersstartedonthebackofthishorsetoseeapatientintheaforesaidVale。Itwasaboutfiveo’clockintheeveningwhenhewentaway,andatbedtimehehadnotreachedhome。Therewasnothingverysingularinthis,thoughshewasnotawarethathehadanypatientmorethanfiveorsixmilesdistantinthatdirection。TheclockhadstruckonebeforeFitzpiersenteredthehouse,andhecametohisroomsoftly,asifanxiousnottodisturbher。 Thenextmorningshewasstirringconsiderablyearlierthanhe。 Intheyardtherewasaconversationgoingonaboutthemare;themanwhoattendedtothehorses,Darlingincluded,insistedthatthelatterwas“hag-rid;“forwhenhehadarrivedatthestablethatmorningshewasinsuchastateasnohorsecouldbeinbyhonestriding。Itwastruethatthedoctorhadstabledherhimselfwhenhegothome,sothatshewasnotlookedafterasshewouldhavebeenifhehadgroomedandfedher;butthatdidnotaccountfortheappearanceshepresented,ifMr。Fitzpiers’sjourneyhadbeenonlywherehehadstated。ThephenomenalexhaustionofDarling,asthusrelated,wassufficienttodevelopawholeseriesoftalesaboutridingwitchesanddemons,thenarrationofwhichoccupiedaconsiderabletime。 Gracereturnedin-doors。Inpassingthroughtheouterroomshepickedupherhusband’sovercoatwhichhehadcarelesslyflungdownacrossachair。Aturnpiketicketfelloutofthebreast- pocket,andshesawthatithadbeenissuedatMiddletonGate。HehadthereforevisitedMiddletonthepreviousnight,adistanceofatleastfive-and-thirtymilesonhorseback,thereandback。 Duringthedayshemadesomeinquiries,andlearnedforthefirsttimethatMrs。CharmondwasstayingatMiddletonAbbey。Shecouldnotresistaninference——strangeasthatinferencewas。 Afewdayslaterhepreparedtostartagain,atthesametimeandinthesamedirection。Sheknewthatthestateofthecottagerwholivedthatwaywasamerepretext;shewasquitesurehewasgoingtoMrs。Charmond。Gracewasamazedatthemildnessofthepassionwhichthesuspicionengenderedinher。Shewasbutlittleexcited,andherjealousywaslanguideventodeath。Ittoldtalesofthenatureofheraffectionforhim。Intruth,herantenuptialregardforFitzpiershadbeenratherofthequalityofawetowardsasuperiorbeingthanoftendersolicitudeforalover。Ithadbeenbaseduponmysteryandstrangeness——themysteryofhispast,ofhisknowledge,ofhisprofessionalskill,ofhisbeliefs。Whenthisstructureofidealswasdemolishedbytheintimacyofcommonlife,andshefoundhimasmerelyhumanastheHintockpeoplethemselves,anewfoundationwasindemandforanenduringandstanchaffection——asympatheticinterdependence,whereinmutualweaknessesweremadethegroundsofadefensivealliance。Fitzpiershadfurnishednoneofthatsingle-mindedconfidenceandtruthoutofwhichalonesuchasecondunioncouldspring;henceitwaswithacontrollableemotionthatshenowwatchedthemarebroughtround。 “I’llwalkwithyoutothehillifyouarenotinagreathurry。” shesaid,ratherloath,afterall,tolethimgo。 “Do;there’splentyoftime。”repliedherhusband。Accordinglyheledalongthehorse,andwalkedbesideher,impatientenoughnevertheless。Thustheyproceededtotheturnpikeroad,andascendedRub-DownHilltothegatehehadbeenleaningoverwhenshesurprisedhimtendaysbefore。Thiswastheendofherexcursion。Fitzpiersbadeheradieuwithaffection,evenwithtenderness,andsheobservedthathelookedweary-eyed。 “Whydoyougoto-night?”shesaid。“Youhavebeencalleduptwonightsinsuccessionalready。” “Imustgo。”heanswered,almostgloomily。“Don’twaitupforme。”Withthesewordshemountedhishorse,passedthroughthegatewhichGraceheldopenforhim,andambleddownthesteepbridle-tracktothevalley。 Sheclosedthegateandwatchedhisdescent,andthenhisjourneyonward。Hiswaywaseast,theeveningsunwhichstoodbehindherbackbeamingfulluponhimassoonashegotoutfromtheshadeofthehill。Notwithstandingthisuntowardproceedingshewasdeterminedtobeloyalifheprovedtrue;andthedeterminationtoloveone’sbestwillcarryaheartalongwaytowardsmakingthatbestanever-growingthing。Theconspicuouscoatoftheactivethoughblanchingmaremadehorseandridereasyobjectsforthevision。ThoughDarlinghadbeenchosenwithsuchpainsbyWinterborneforGrace,shehadneverriddenthesleekcreature; butherhusbandhadfoundtheanimalexceedinglyconvenient,particularlynowthathehadtakentothesaddle,plentyofstayingpowerbeingleftinDarlingyet。Fitzpiers,likeothersofhischaracter,whiledespisingMelburyandhisstation,didnotatalldisdaintospendMelbury’smoney,orappropriatetohisownusethehorsewhichbelongedtoMelbury’sdaughter。 AndsotheinfatuatedyoungsurgeonwentalongthroughthegorgeousautumnlandscapeofWhiteHartVale,surroundedbyorchardslustrouswiththeredsofapple-crops,berries,andfoliage,thewholeintensifiedbythegildingofthedecliningsun。Theearththisyearhadbeenprodigallybountiful,andnowwasthesuprememomentofherbounty。Inthepoorestspotsthehedgeswerebowedwithhawsandblackberries;acornscrackedunderfoot,andthebursthusksofchestnutslayexposingtheirauburncontentsasifarrangedbyanxioussellersinafruit- market。Inallthisproudshowsomekernelswereunsoundasherownsituation,andshewonderediftherewereoneworldintheuniversewherethefruithadnoworm,andmarriagenosorrow。 HerrTannhauserstillmovedon,hisploddingsteedrenderinghimdistinctlyvisibleyet。CouldshehaveheardFitzpiers’svoiceatthatmomentshewouldhavefoundhimmurmuring—— “。TowardstheloadstarofmyonedesireIflitted,evenasadizzymothintheowletlight。” Buthewasasilentspectacletohernow。Soonheroseoutofthevalley,andskirtedahighplateauofthechalkformationonhisright,whichrestedabruptlyuponthefruitydistrictofloamyclay,thecharacterandherbageofthetwoformationsbeingsodistinctthatthecalcareousuplandappearedbutasadepositofafewyears’antiquityuponthelevelvale。Hekeptalongtheedgeofthishigh,unenclosedcountry,andtheskybehindhimbeingdeepviolet,shecouldstillseewhiteDarlinginreliefuponit—— amerespecknow——aWouvermanseccentricityreducedtomicroscopicdimensions。Uponthishighgroundhegraduallydisappeared。 Thusshehadbeheldthepetanimalpurchasedforherownuse,inpureloveofher,byonewhohadalwaysbeentrue,impressedtoconveyherhusbandawayfromhertothesideofanew-foundidol。 Whileshewasmusingonthevicissitudesofhorsesandwives,shediscernedshapesmovingupthevalleytowardsher,quitenearathand,thoughtillnowhiddenbythehedges。SurelytheywereGilesWinterborne,withhistwohorsesandcider-apparatus,conductedbyRobertCreedle。Up,upwardtheycrept,astraybeamofthesunalightingeverynowandthenlikeastaronthebladesofthepomace-shovels,whichhadbeenconvertedtosteelmirrorsbytheactionofthemalicacid。Sheopenedthegatewhenhecameclose,andthepantinghorsesrestedastheyachievedtheascent。 “Howdoyoudo,Giles?”saidshe,underasuddenimpulsetobefamiliarwithhim。 Herepliedwithmuchmorereserve。“Youaregoingforawalk,Mrs。Fitzpiers?”headded。“Itispleasantjustnow。” “No,Iamreturning。”saidshe。 Thevehiclespassedthrough,thegateslammed,andWinterbornewalkedbyhersideintherearoftheapple-mill。 HelookedandsmeltlikeAutumn’sverybrother,hisfacebeingsunburnttowheat-color,hiseyesblueascorn-flowers,hisbootsandleggingsdyedwithfruit-stains,hishandsclammywiththesweetjuiceofapples,hishatsprinkledwithpips,andeverywhereabouthimthatatmosphereofciderwhichatitsfirstreturneachseasonhassuchanindescribablefascinationforthosewhohavebeenbornandbredamongtheorchards。Herheartrosefromitslatesadnesslikeareleasedspring;hersensesrevelledinthesuddenlapsebacktonatureunadorned。Theconsciousnessofhavingtobegenteelbecauseofherhusband’sprofession,theveneerofartificialitywhichshehadacquiredatthefashionableschools,werethrownoff,andshebecamethecrude,countrygirlofherlatent,earliestinstincts。 Naturewasbountiful,shethought。NosoonerhadshebeenstarvedoffbyEdgarFitzpiersthananotherbeing,impersonatingbareandundilutedmanliness,hadarisenoutoftheearth,readytohand。 Thiswasanexcursionoftheimaginationwhichshedidnotencourage,andshesaidsuddenly,todisguisetheconfusedregardwhichhadfollowedherthoughts,“Didyoumeetmyhusband?” Winterborne,withsomehesitation,“Yes。” “Wheredidyoumeethim?” “AtCalfhayCross。IcomefromMiddletonAbbey;Ihavebeenmakingthereforthelastweek。” “Haven’ttheyamilloftheirown?” “Yes,butit’soutofrepair。” “Ithink——IheardthatMrs。Charmondhadgonetheretostay?” “Yes。Ihaveseenheratthewindowsonceortwice。” Gracewaitedanintervalbeforeshewenton:“DidMr。FitzpierstakethewaytoMiddleton?” “Yes。ImethimonDarling。”Asshedidnotreply,headded,withagentlerinflection,“Youknowwhythemarewascalledthat?” “Ohyes——ofcourse。”sheanswered,quickly。 Theyhadrisensofaroverthecrestofthehillthatthewholewestskywasrevealed。Betweenthebrokencloudstheycouldseefarintotherecessesofheaven,theeyejourneyingonunderaspeciesofgoldenarcades,andpastfieryobstructions,fanciedcairns,logan-stones,stalactitesandstalagmiteoftopaz。Deeperthanthistheirgazepassedthinflakesofincandescence,tillitplungedintoabottomlessmediumofsoftgreenfire。 Herabandonmenttotheluscioustimeafterhersenseofill-usage,herrevoltforthenonceagainstsociallaw,herpassionatedesireforprimitivelife,mayhaveshowedinherface。Winterbornewaslookingather,hiseyeslingeringonaflowerthatsheworeinherbosom。Almostwiththeabstractionofasomnambulisthestretchedouthishandandgentlycaressedtheflower。 Shedrewback。“Whatareyoudoing,GilesWinterborne!”sheexclaimed,withalookofseveresurprise。Theevidentabsenceofallpremeditationfromtheact,however,speedilyledhertothinkthatitwasnotnecessarytostanduponherdignityhereandnow。 “Youmustbearinmind,Giles。”shesaid,kindly,“thatwearenotaswewere;andsomepeoplemighthavesaidthatwhatyoudidwastakingaliberty。” Itwasmorethansheneedhavetoldhim;hisactionofforgetfulnesshadmadehimsoangrywithhimselfthatheflushedthroughhistan。“Idon’tknowwhatIamcomingto!”heexclaimed,savagely。“Ah——Iwasnotoncelikethis!”Tearsofvexationwereinhiseyes。 “No,now——itwasnothing。Iwastooreproachful。” “ItwouldnothaveoccurredtomeifIhadnotseensomethinglikeitdoneelsewhere——atMiddletonlately。”hesaid,thoughtfully,afterawhile。 “Bywhom?” “Don’taskit。” Shescannedhimnarrowly。“Iknowquitewellenough。”shereturned,indifferently。“Itwasbymyhusband,andthewomanwasMrs。Charmond。Associationofideasremindedyouwhenyousawme。Giles——tellmeallyouknowaboutthat——pleasedo,Giles! Butno——Iwon’thearit。Letthesubjectcease。Andasyouaremyfriend,saynothingtomyfather。” Theyreachedaplacewheretheirwaysdivided。Winterbornecontinuedalongthehighwaywhichkeptoutsidethecopse,andGraceopenedagatethatenteredit。