第41章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:5531更新时间:18/12/22 08:57:59
Shewalkedupthesoftgrassyride,screenedoneitherhandbynut-bushes,justnowheavywithclustersoftwosandthreesandfours。Alittlewayon,thetrackshepursuedwascrossedbyasimilaroneatrightangles。HereGracestopped;somefewyardsupthetransverseridethebuxomSukeDamsonwasvisible——hergowntuckeduphighthroughherpocket-hole,andnobonnetonherhead—— intheactofpullingdownboughsfromwhichshewasgatheringandeatingnutswithgreatrapidity,herloverTimTangsstandingnearherengagedinthesamepleasantmeal。 Crack,crackwentSuke’sjawseverysecondortwo。ByanautomaticchainofthoughtGrace’smindrevertedtothetooth- drawingscenedescribedbyherhusband;andforthefirsttimeshewonderedifthatnarrativewerereallytrue,Susan’sjawsbeingsoobviouslysoundandstrong。Graceturneduptowardsthenut- gatherers,andconqueredherreluctancetospeaktothegirlwhowasalittleinadvanceofTim。“Good-evening,Susan。”shesaid。 “Good-evening,MissMelbury“(crack)。 “Mrs。Fitzpiers。” “Ohyes,ma’am——Mrs。Fitzpiers。”saidSuke,withapeculiarsmile。 Grace,nottobedaunted,continued:“Takecareofyourteeth,Suke。Thataccountsforthetoothache。” “Idon’tknowwhatanacheis,eitherintooth,ear,orhead,thanktheLord“(crack)。 “Northelossofone,either?” “Seeforyourself,ma’am。”Shepartedherredlips,andexhibitedthewholedoublerow,fullupandunimpaired。 “Youhaveneverhadonedrawn?” “Never。” “Somuchthebetterforyourstomach。”saidMrs。Fitzpiers,inanalteredvoice。Andturningawayquickly,shewenton。 Asherhusband’scharacterthusshapeditselfunderthetouchoftime,Gracewasalmoststartledtofindhowlittleshesufferedfromthatjealousexcitementwhichisconventionallyattributedtoallwivesinsuchcircumstances。Butthoughpossessedbynoneofthatfelinewildnesswhichitwashermoraldutytoexperience,shedidnotfailtoknowthatshehadmadeafrightfulmistakeinhermarriage。Acquiescenceinherfather’swisheshadbeendegradationtoherself。Peoplearenotgivenpremonitionsfornothing;sheshouldhaveobeyedherimpulseonthatearlymorning,andsteadfastlyrefusedherhand。 Oh,thatplausibletalewhichherthenbetrothedhadtoldheraboutSuke——thedramaticaccountofherentreatiestohimtodrawtheachingenemy,andthefineartistictouchhehadgiventothestorybyexplainingthatitwasalovelymolarwithoutaflaw! Shetracedtheremainderofthewoodlandtrackdazedbythecomplicationsofherposition。Ifhisprotestationstoherbeforetheirmarriagecouldbebelieved,herhusbandhadfeltaffectionofsomesortforherselfandthiswomansimultaneously;andwasnowagainspreadingthesameemotionoverMrs。Charmondandherselfconjointly,hismannerbeingstillkindandfondattimes。 Butsurely,ratherthanthat,hemusthaveplayedthehypocritetowardsherineachcasewithelaboratecompleteness;andthethoughtofthissickenedher,foritinvolvedtheconjecturethatifhehadnotlovedher,hisonlymotiveformakingherhiswifemusthavebeenherlittlefortune。YethereGracemadeamistake,fortheloveofmenlikeFitzpiersisunquestionablyofsuchqualityastobeardivisionandtransference。Hehadindeed,oncedeclared,thoughnottoher,thatononeoccasionhehadnoticedhimselftobepossessedbyfivedistinctinfatuationsatthesametime。Thereinitdifferedfromthehighestaffectionasthelowerordersoftheanimalworlddifferfromadvancedorganisms,partitioncausing,notdeath,butamultipliedexistence。Hehadlovedhersincerely,andhadbynomeansceasedtolovehernow。 Butsuchdoubleandtreblebarrelledheartswerenaturallybeyondherconception。 OfpoorSukeDamson,Gracethoughtnomore。Shehadhadherday。 “IfhedoesnotlovemeIwillnotlovehim!”saidGrace,proudly。 Andthoughtheseweremerewords,itwasasomewhatformidablethingforFitzpiersthatherheartwasapproximatingtoastateinwhichitmightbepossibletocarrythemout。Thatveryabsenceofhotjealousywhichmadehiscoursessoeasy,andonwhich,indeed,hecongratulatedhimself,meant,unknowntoeitherwifeorhusband,moremischiefthantheinconvenientwatchfulnessofajaundicedeye。 Hersleepthatnightwasnervous。Thewingallottedtoherandherhusbandhadneverseemedsolonely。Atlastshegotup,putonherdressing-gown,andwentdown-stairs。Herfather,whosleptlightly,heardherdescend,andcametothestair-head。 “Isthatyou,Grace?What’sthematter?”hesaid。 “NothingmorethanthatIamrestless。EdgarisdetainedbyacaseatOwlscombeinWhiteHartVale。” “Buthow’sthat?Isawthewoman’shusbandatGreatHintockjustaforebedtime;andshewasgoingonwell,andthedoctorgonethen。” “Thenhe’sdetainedsomewhereelse。”saidGrace。“Nevermindme; hewillsoonbehome。Iexpecthimaboutone。” Shewentbacktoherroom,anddozedandwokeseveraltimes。Oneo’clockhadbeenthehourofhisreturnonthelastoccasion;butitpassednowbyalongway,andFitzpiersdidnotcome。Justbeforedawnsheheardthemenstirringintheyard;andtheflashesoftheirlanternsspreadeverynowandthenthroughherwindow-blind。Sherememberedthatherfatherhadtoldhernottobedisturbedifshenoticedthem,astheywouldberisingearlytosendofffourloadsofhurdlestoadistantsheep-fair。Peepingout,shesawthembustlingabout,thehollow-turneramongtherest;hewasloadinghiswares——wooden-bowls,dishes,spigots,spoons,cheese-vats,funnels,andsoon——upononeofherfather’swagons,whocarriedthemtothefairforhimeveryyearoutofneighborlykindness。 Thesceneandtheoccasionwouldhaveenlivenedherbutthatherhusbandwasstillabsent;thoughitwasnowfiveo’clock。Shecouldhardlysupposehim,whateverhisinfatuation,tohaveprolongedtoalaterhourthantenanostensiblyprofessionalcallonMrs。CharmondatMiddleton;andhecouldhaveriddenhomeintwohoursandahalf。What,then,hadbecomeofhim?Thathehadbeenoutthegreaterpartofthetwoprecedingnightsaddedtoheruneasiness。 Shedressedherself,descended,andwentout,theweirdtwilightofadvancingdaychillingtheraysfromthelanterns,andmakingthemen’sfaceswan。AssoonasMelburysawherhecameround,showinghisalarm。 “Edgarisnotcome。”shesaid。“AndIhavereasontoknowthathe’snotattendinganybody。Hehashadnorestfortwonightsbeforethis。Iwasgoingtothetopofthehilltolookforhim。” “I’llcomewithyou。”saidMelbury。 Shebeggedhimnottohinderhimself;butheinsisted,forhesawapeculiarandrigidgloominherfaceoverandaboveheruneasiness,anddidnotlikethelookofit。Tellingthemenhewouldbewiththemagainsoon,hewalkedbesideherintotheturnpike-road,andpartlyupthehillwhenceshehadwatchedFitzpiersthenightbeforeacrosstheGreatWhiteHartorBlackmoorValley。Theyhaltedbeneathahalf-deadoak,hollow,anddisfiguredwithwhitetumors,itsrootsspreadingoutlikeaccipitrineclawsgraspingtheground。Achillywindcircledroundthem,uponwhosecurrentstheseedsofaneighboringlime- tree,supportedparachute-wisebythewingattached,flewoutoftheboughsdownwardlikefledglingsfromtheirnest。Thevalewaswrappedinadimatmosphereofunnaturalness,andtheeastwaslikealividcurtainedgedwithpink。TherewasnosignnorsoundofFitzpiers。 “Itisnousestandinghere。”saidherfather。“Hemaycomehomefiftyways。why,lookhere!——herebeDarling’stracks——turnedhomewardandnearlyblowndryandhard!Hemusthavecomeinhoursagowithoutyourseeinghim。” “Hehasnotdonethat。”saidshe。 Theywentbackhastily。Onenteringtheirowngatestheyperceivedthatthemenhadleftthewagons,andwerestandingroundthedoorofthestablewhichhadbeenappropriatedtothedoctor’suse。“Isthereanythingthematter?”criedGrace。 “Ohno,ma’am。All’swellthatendswell。”saidoldTimothyTangs。“I’veheardofsuchthingsbefore——amongworkfolk,thoughnotamongyourgentlepeople——that’strue。” Theyenteredthestable,andsawthepaleshapeofDarlingstandinginthemiddleofherstall,withFitzpiersonherback,soundasleep。Darlingwasmunchinghayaswellasshecouldwiththebitinhermonth,andthereins,whichhadfallenfromFitzpiers’shand,hunguponherneck。 Gracewentandtouchedhishand;shookitbeforeshecouldarousehim。Hemoved,started,openedhiseyes,andexclaimed,“Ah,Felice!。Oh,it’sGrace。Icouldnotseeinthegloom。What——amIinthesaddle?” “Yes。”saidshe。“Howdoyoucomehere?” Hecollectedhisthoughts,andinafewminutesstammered,“Iwasridingalonghomewardthroughthevale,very,verysleepy,havingbeenupsomuchoflate。WhenIcameoppositeHolywellspringthemareturnedherheadthatway,asifshewantedtodrink。Ilethergoin,andshedrank;Ithoughtshewouldneverfinish。Whileshewasdrinking,theclockofOwlscombeChurchstrucktwelve。I distinctlyremembercountingthestrokes。FromthatmomentI positivelyrecollectnothingtillIsawyouherebymyside。” “Thename!Ifithadbeenanyotherhorsehe’dhavehadabrokenneck!”murmuredMelbury。 “’Tiswonderful,sure,howaquiethosswillbringamanhomeatsuchtimes!”saidJohnUpjohn。“Andwhat’smorewonderfulthankeepingyourseatinadeep,slumberingsleep?I’veknowedmendrowzeoffwalkinghomefromrandieswherethemeadandotherliquorshavegoneroundwell,andkeepwalkingformorethanamileonendwithoutwaking。Well,doctor,Idon’tcarewhothemanis,’tisamercyyouwasn’tadrownded,orasplintered,orahangeduptoatreelikeAbsalom——alsoahandsomegentlemanlikeyerself,astheprophetssay。” “True。”murmuredoldTimothy。“Fromthesoulofhisfoottothecrownofhisheadtherewasnoblemishinhim。” “Orleastwiseyoumightha’beena-wowndedintotattersa’most,andnodoctortojineyourfewlimbstogetherwithinsevenmile!” Whilethisgrimaddresswasproceeding,Fitzpiershaddismounted,andtakingGrace’sarmwalkedstifflyin-doorswithher。Melburystoodstaringatthehorse,which,inadditiontobeingveryweary,wasspatteredwithmud。TherewasnomudtospeakofabouttheHintocksjustnow——onlyintheclammyhollowsofthevalebeyondOwlscombe,thestiffsoilofwhichretainedmoistureforweeksaftertheuplandsweredry。Whiletheywererubbingdownthemare,Melbury’smindcoupledwiththeforeignqualityofthemudthenamehehadheardunconsciouslymutteredbythesurgeonwhenGracetookhishand——“Felice。”WhowasFelice?Why,Mrs。 Charmond;andshe,asheknew,wasstayingatMiddleton。 MelburyhadindeedpouncedupontheimagethatfilledFitzpiers’shalf-awakenedsoul——whereintherehadbeenapictureofarecentinterviewonalawnwithacapriciouslypassionatewomanwhohadbeggedhimnottocomeagainintoneswhosevibrationincitedhimtodisobey。“Whatareyoudoinghere?Whydoyoupursueme? Anotherbelongstoyou。Iftheyweretoseeyoutheywouldseizeyouasathief!”AndshehadturbulentlyadmittedtohiswringingquestionsthathervisittoMiddletonhadbeenundertakenlessbecauseoftheinvalidrelativethaninshamefacedfearofherownweaknessifsheremainednearhishome。AtriumphthenitwastoFitzpiers,poorandhamperedashehadbecome,torecognizehisrealconquestofthisbeauty,delayedsomanyyears。HiswastheselfishpassionofCongreve’sMillamont,towhomlove’ssupremedelightlayin“thatheartwhichothersbleedfor,bleedforme。” WhenthehorsehadbeenattendedtoMelburystooduneasilyhereandthereabouthispremises;hewasrudelydisturbedinthecomfortableviewswhichhadlatelypossessedhimonhisdomesticconcerns。ItistruethathehadforsomedaysdiscernedthatGracemoreandmoresoughthiscompany,preferredsupervisinghiskitchenandbakehousewithherstep-mothertooccupyingherselfwiththelighterdetailsofherownapartments。Sheseemednolongerabletofindinherownhearthanadequatefocusforherlife,andhence,likeaweakqueen-beeafterleadingofftoanindependenthome,hadhoveredagainintotheparenthive。Buthehadnotconstruedtheseandotherincidentsofthekindtillnow。 Somethingwaswronginthedove-cot。Aghastlysensethathealonewouldberesponsibleforwhateverunhappinessshouldbebroughtuponherforwhomhealmostsolelylived,whomtoretainunderhisroofhehadfacedthenumerousinconveniencesinvolvedingivingupthebestpartofhishousetoFitzpiers。Therewasnoroomfordoubtthat,hadheallowedeventstotaketheirnaturalcourse,shewouldhaveacceptedWinterborne,andrealizedhisolddreamofrestitutiontothatyoungman’sfamily。