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类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:5448更新时间:18/12/22 08:57:59
ThatFitzpierscouldallowhimselftolookonanyothercreatureforamomentthanGracefilledMelburywithgriefandastonishment。Inthepureandsimplelifehehadledithadscarcelyoccurredtohimthataftermarriageamanmightbefaithless。ThathecouldsweeptotheheightsofMrs。Charmond’sposition,lifttheveilofIsis,sotospeak,wouldhaveamazedMelburybyitsaudacityifhehadnotsuspectedencouragementfromthatquarter。WhatcouldheandhissimpleGracedotocountervailthepassionsofsuchasthosetwosophisticatedbeings——versedintheworld’sways,armedwitheveryapparatusforvictory?Insuchanencounterthehomelytimber-dealerfeltasinferiorasabow-and-arrowsavagebeforethepreciseweaponsofmodernwarfare。 Gracecameoutofthehouseasthemorningdrewon。Thevillagewassilent,mostofthefolkhavinggonetothefair。Fitzpiershadretiredtobed,andwassleepingoffhisfatigue。ShewenttothestableandlookedatpoorDarling:inallprobabilityGilesWinterborne,byobtainingforherahorseofsuchintelligenceanddocility,hadbeenthemeansofsavingherhusband’slife。Shepausedoverthestrangethought;andthenthereappearedherfatherbehindher。Shesawthatheknewthingswerenotastheyoughttobe,fromthetroubleddulnessofhiseye,andfromhisface,differentpointsofwhichhadindependentmotions,twitchings,andtremblings,unknowntohimself,andinvoluntary。 “Hewasdetained,Isuppose,lastnight?”saidMelbury。 “Ohyes;abadcaseinthevale。”shereplied,calmly。 “Nevertheless,heshouldhavestayedathome。” “Buthecouldn’t,father。” Herfatherturnedaway。Hecouldhardlybeartoseehiswhilomtruthfulgirlbroughttothehumiliationofhavingtotalklikethat。 ThatnightcarkingcaresatbesideMelbury’spillow,andhisstifflimbstossedatitspresence。“Ican’tliehereanylonger。”hemuttered。Strikingalight,hewanderedabouttheroom。“WhathaveIdone——whathaveIdoneforher?”hesaidtohiswife,whohadanxiouslyawakened。“IhadlongplannedthatsheshouldmarrythesonofthemanIwantedtomakeamendsto;doyemindhowI toldyouallaboutit,Lucy,thenightbeforeshecamehome?Ah! butIwasnotcontentwithdoingright,Iwantedtodomore!” “Don’traftyourselfwithoutgoodneed,George。”shereplied。“I won’tquitebelievethatthingsaresomuchamiss。Iwon’tbelievethatMrs。Charmondhasencouragedhim。Evensupposingshehasencouragedagreatmany,shecanhavenomotivetodoitnow。 Whatsolikelyasthatsheisnotyetquitewell,anddoesn’tcaretoletanotherdoctorcomenearher?” Hedidnotheed。“Graceusedtobesobusyeveryday,withfixingacurtainhereanddrivingatin-tackthere;butshecaresfornoemploymentnow!” “DoyouknowanythingofMrs。Charmond’spasthistory?Perhapsthatwouldthrowsomelightuponthings。PeforeshecamehereasthewifeofoldCharmondfourorfiveyearsago,notasoulseemstohaveheardaughtofher。Whynotmakeinquiries?Andthendoyewaitandseemore;there’llbeplentyofopportnnity。Timeenoughtocrywhenyouknow’tisacryingmatter;and’tisbadtomeettroubleshalf-way。” Therewassomegood-senseinthenotionofseeingfurther。 Melburyresolvedtoinquireandwait,hopingstill,hutoppressedbetween-whileswithmuchfear。 ExamineGraceasherfathermight,shewouldadmitnothing。Forthepresent,therefore,hesimplywatched。 ThesuspicionthathisdarlingchildwasbeingslightedwroughtalmostamiraculouschangeinMelbury’snature。Nomansofurtiveforthetimeastheingenuouscountrymanwhofindsthathisingenuousnesshasbeenabused。Melbury’sheretoforeconfidentialcandortowardshisgentlemanlyson-in-lawwasdisplacedbyafelinestealththatdidinjnrytohiseveryaction,thought,andmood。Heknewthatawomanoncegiventoamanforlifetook,asarule,herlotasitcameandmadethebestofit,withoutexternalinterference;butforthefirsttimeheaskedhimselfwhythissogenerallyshouldbeso。Moreover,thiscasewasnot,heargued,likeordinarycases。LeavingoutthequestionofGracebeinganythingbutanordinarywoman,herpeculiarsituation,asitwereinmid-airbetweentwoplanesofsociety,togetherwiththelonelinessofHintock,madeahusband’sneglectafarmoretragicalmattertoherthanitwouldbetoonewhohadalargecircleoffriendstofallbackupon。Wiselyorunwisely,andwhateverotherfathersdid,heresolvedtofighthisdaughter’sbattlestill。 Mrs。Charmondhadreturned。ButHintockHousescarcelygaveforthsignsoflife,soquietlyhadshereenteredit。HewenttochurchatGreatHintockoneafternoonasusual,therebeingnoserviceatthesmallervillage。Afewminutesbeforehisdeparture,hehadcasuallyheardFitzpiers,whowasnochurch-goer,tellhiswifethathewasgoingtowalkinthewood。Melburyenteredthebuildingandsatdowninhispew;theparsoncamein,thenMrs。 Charmond,thenMr。Fitzpiers。 Theserviceproceeded,andthejealonsfatherwasquitesurethatamutualconsciousnesswasuninterruptedlymaintainedbetweenthosetwo;hefanciedthatmorethanoncetheireyesmet。Attheend,FitzpierssotimedhismovementintotheaislethatitexactlycoincidedwithFeliceCharmond’sfromtheoppositeside,andtheywalkedoutwiththeirgarmentsincontact,thesurgeonbeingjustthattwoorthreeinchesinherrearwhichmadeitconvenientforhiseyestorestuponhercheek。Thecheekwarmeduptoarichertone。 Thiswasaworsefeatureintheflirtationthanhehadexpected。 Ifshehadbeenplayingwithhiminanidlefreakthegamemightsoonhaveweariedher;butthesmallestgermofpassion——andwomenoftheworlddonotchangecolorfornothing——wasathreateningdevelopment。ThemerepresenceofFitzpiersinthebuilding,afterhisstatement,waswellnighconclusiveasfarashewasconcerned;butMelburyresolvedyettowatch。 Hehadtowaitlong。Autumndrewshiveringlytoitsend。Onedaysomethingseemedtobegonefromthegardens;thetendererleavesofvegetableshadshrunkunderthefirstsmartfrost,andhunglikefadedlinenrags;thentheforestleaves,whichhadbeendescendingatleisure,descendedinhasteandinmultitudes,andallthegoldencolorsthathadhungoverheadwerenowcrowdedtogetherinadegradedmassunderfoot,wherethefallenmyriadsgotredderandhornier,andcurledthemselvesuptorot。TheonlysuspiciousfeaturesinMrs。Charmond’sexistenceatthisseasonweretwo:thefirst,thatshelivedwithnocompanionorrelativeabouther,which,consideringherageandattractions,wassomewhatunusualconductforayoungwidowinalonelycountry- house;theother,thatshedidnot,asinpreviousyears,startfromHintocktowinterabroad。InFitzpiers,theonlychangefromhislastautnmn’shabitslayinhisabandonmentofnightstudy—— hislampnevershonefromhisnewdwellingasfromhisold。 Ifthesuspectedonesmet,itwasbysuchadroitcontrivancesthatevenMelbury’svigilancecouldnotencounterthemtogether。A simplecallatherhousebythedoctorhadnothingirregularaboutit,andthathehadpaidtwoorthreesuchcallswascertain。 Whathadpassedatthoseinterviewswasknownonlytothepartiesthemselves;butthatFeliceCharmondwasundersomeone’sinfluenceMelburysoonhadopportunityofperceiving。 Winterhadcomeon。Owlsbegantobenoisyinthemorningsandevenings,andflocksofwood-pigeonsmadethemselvesprominentagain。OnedayinFebruary,aboutsixmonthsafterthemarriageofFitzpiers,MelburywasreturningfromGreatHintockonfootthroughthelane,whenhesawbeforehimthesurgeonalsowalking。 Melburywouldhaveovertakenhim,butatthatmomentFitzpiersturnedinthroughagatetooneoftheramblingdrivesamongthetreesatthissideofthewood,whichledtonowhereinparticular,andthebeautyofwhoseserpentinecurveswastheonlyjustificationoftheirexistence。Felicealmostsimultaneouslytrotteddownthelanetowardsthetimber-dealer,inalittlebasket-carriagewhichshesometimesdroveabouttheestate,unaccompaniedbyaservant。SheturnedinatthesameplacewithouthavingseeneitherMelburyorapparentlyFitzpiers。 Melburywassoonatthespot,despitehisachesandhissixtyyears。Mrs。Charmondhadcomeupwiththedoctor,whowasstandingimmediatelybehindthecarriage。Shehadturnedtohim,herarmbeingthrowncarelesslyoverthebackoftheseat。Theylookedineachother’sfaceswithoututteringaword,anarchyetgloomysmilewreathingherlips。Fitzpiersclaspedherhanginghand,and,whileshestillremainedinthesamelistlessattitude,lookingvolumesintohiseyes,hestealthilyunbuttonedherglove,andstrippedherhandofitbyrollingbackthegauntletoverthefingers,sothatitcameoffinsideout。Hethenraisedherhandtohismonth,shestillrecliningpassively,watchinghimasshemighthavewatchedaflyuponherdress。Atlastshesaid,“Well,sir,whatexcuseforthisdisobedience?” “Imakenone。” “Thengoyourway,andletmegomine。”Shesnatchedawayherhand,touchedtheponywiththewhip,andlefthimstandingthere,holdingthereversedglove。 Melbury’sfirstimpulsewastorevealhispresencetoFitzpiers,andupbraidhimbitterly。Butamoment’sthoughtwassufficienttoshowhimthefutilityofanysuchsimpleproceeding。Therewasnot,afterall,somuchinwhathehadwitnessedasinwhatthatscenemightbethesurfaceandfrothof——probablyastateofmindonwhichcensureoperatesasanaggravationratherthanasacure。 Moreover,hesaidtohimselfthatthepointofattackshouldbethewoman,ifeither。Hethereforekeptoutofsight,andmusingsadly,eventearfully——forhewasmeekasachildinmattersconcerninghisdaughter——continuedhiswaytowardsHintock。 Theinsightwhichisbredofdeepsympathywasnevermorefinelyexemplifiedthaninthisinstance。Throughherguardedmanner,herdignifiedspeech,herplacidcountenance,hediscernedtheinteriorofGrace’slifeonlytootruly,hiddenaswereitsincidentsfromeveryoutereye。 Theseincidentshadbecomepainfulenough。FitzpiershadlatterlydevelopedanirritablediscontentwhichventeditselfinmonologueswhenGracewaspresenttohearthem。Theearlymorningofthisdayhadbeendull,afteranightofwind,andonlookingoutofthewindowFitzpiershadobservedsomeofMelbury’smendraggingawayalargelimbwhichhadbeensnappedoffabeech- tree。Everythingwascoldandcolorless。 “MygoodHeaven!”hesaid,ashestoodinhisdressing-gown。 “Thisislife!”HedidnotknowwhetherGracewasawakeornot,andhewouldnotturnhisheadtoascertain。“Ah,fool。”hewentontohimself,“toclipyourownwingswhenyouwerefreetosoar!。ButIcouldnotresttillIhaddoneit。WhydoIneverrecognizeanopportunitytillIhavemissedit,northegoodorillofasteptillitisirrevocable!。Ifellinlove。Love,indeed!—— “’Love’sbutthefrailtyofthemindWhen’tisnotwithambitionjoined; Asicklyflamewhichifnotfed,expires,Andfeeding,wastesinself-consumingfires!’ Ah,oldauthorof’TheWayoftheWorld,’youknew——youknew!” Gracemoved。Hethoughtshehadheardsomepartofhissoliloquy。 Hewassorry——thoughhehadnottakenanyprecautiontopreventher。 Heexpectedasceneatbreakfast,butsheonlyexhibitedanextremereserve。Itwasenough,however,tomakehimrepentthatheshouldhavedoneanythingtoproducediscomfort;forheattributedhermannerentirelytowhathehadsaid。ButGrace’smannerhadnotitscauseeitherinhissayingsorinhisdoings。 Shehadnotheardasinglewordofhisregrets。Somethingevennearerhomethanherhusband’sblightedprospects——ifblightedtheywere——wastheoriginofhermood,amoodthatwasthemerecontinuationofwhatherfatherhadnoticedwhenhewouldhavepreferredapassionatejealousyinher,asthemorenatural。 Shehadmadeadiscovery——onewhichtoagirlofhonestnaturewasalmostappalling。Shehadlookedintoherheart,andfoundthatherearlyinterestinGilesWinterbornehadbecomerevitalizedintoluxuriantgrowthbyherwideningperceptionsofwhatwasgreatandlittleinlife。Hishomelinessnolongeroffendedheracquiredtastes;hiscomparativewantofso-calledculturedidnotnowjaronherintellect;hiscountrydressevenpleasedhereye; hisexteriorroughnessfascinatedher。Havingdiscoveredbymarriagehowmuchthatwashumanlynotgreatcouldco-existwithattainmentsofanexceptionalorder,therewasarevulsioninhersentimentsfromallthatshehadformerlyclungtointhiskind: