“Ihavesomethingtotell——somebadnews。”shesaid。“Butyoumustnotbealarmed,asitisnotsobadasitmighthavebeen。
Edgarhasbeenthrownoffhishorse。Wedon’tthinkheishurtmuch。IthappenedinthewoodtheothersideofNellcombeBottom,where’tissaidtheghostsofthebrotherswalk。”
Shewentontogiveafewoftheparticulars,butnoneoftheinventedhorrorsthathadbeencommunicatedbytheboy。“I
thoughtitbettertotellyouatonce。”sheadded,“incaseheshouldnotbeverywellabletowalkhome,andsomebodyshouldbringhim。”
Mrs。Melburyreallythoughtmattersmuchworsethansherepresented,andGraceknewthatshethoughtso。Shesatdowndazedforafewminutes,returninganegativetoherstep-mother’sinquiryifshecoulddoanythingforher。“Butpleasegointothebedroom。”Gracesaid,onsecondthoughts,“andseeifallisreadythere——incaseitisserious。”Mrs。MelburythereuponcalledGrammer,andtheydidasdirected,supplyingtheroomwitheverythingtheycouldthinkoffortheaccommodationofaninjuredman。
Nobodywasleftinthelowerpartofthehouse。NotmanyminutespassedwhenGraceheardaknockatthedoor——asingleknock,notloudenoughtoreachtheearsofthoseinthebedroom。Shewenttothetopofthestairsandsaid,faintly,“Comeup。”knowingthatthedoorstood,asusualinsuchhouses,wideopen。
Retreatingintothegloomofthebroadlandingshesawriseupthestairsawomanwhomatfirstshedidnotrecognize,tillhervoicerevealedhertobeSukeDamson,ingreatfrightandsorrow。A
streakoflightfromthepartiallycloseddoorofGrace’sroomfelluponherfaceasshecameforward,anditwasdrawnandpale。
“Oh,MissMelbury——IwouldsayMrs。Fitzpiers。”shesaid,wringingherhands。“Thisterriblenews。Ishedead?Ishehurtedverybad?Tellme;Icouldn’thelpcoming;pleaseforgiveme,MissMelbury——Mrs。FitzpiersIwouldsay!”
Gracesankdownontheoakchestwhichstoodonthelanding,andputherhandstohernowflushedfaceandhead。CouldsheorderSukeDamsondown-stairsandoutofthehouse?Herhusbandmightbebroughtinatanymoment,andwhatwouldhappen?Butcouldsheorderthisgenuinelygrievedwomanaway?
Therewasadeadsilenceofhalfaminuteorso,tillSukesaid,“Whydon’tyespeak?Ishehere?Ishedead?Ifso,whycan’tI
seehim——woulditbesoverywrong?”
BeforeGracehadansweredsomebodyelsecametothedoorbelow——afoot-falllightasaroe’s。Therewasahurriedtappinguponthepanel,asifwiththeimpatienttipsoffingerswhoseownerthoughtnotwhetheraknockerwerethereorno。Withoutapause,andpossiblyguidedbythestraybeamoflightonthelanding,thenewcomerascendedthestaircaseasthefirsthaddone。Gracewassufficientlyvisible,andthelady,foraladyitwas,cametoherside。
“Icouldmakenobodyheardown-stairs。”saidFeliceCharmond,withlipswhosedrynesscouldalmostbeheard,andpanting,asshestoodlikeonereadytosinkonthefloorwithdistress。“Whatis——thematter——tellmetheworst!Canhelive?”ShelookedatGraceimploringly,withoutperceivingpoorSuke,who,dismayedatsuchapresence,hadshrunkawayintotheshade。
Mrs。Charmond’slittlefeetwerecoveredwithmud;shewasquiteunconsciousofherappearancenow。“Ihaveheardsuchadreadfulreport。”shewenton;“Icametoascertainthetruthofit。Ishe——killed?”
“Shewon’ttellus——he’sdying——he’sinthatroom!”burstoutSuke,regardlessofconsequences,assheheardthedistantmovementsofMrs。MelburyandGrammerinthebedroomattheendofthepassage。
“Where?”saidMrs。Charmond;andonSukepointingoutthedirection,shemadeasiftogothither。
Gracebarredtheway。“Heisnotthere。”shesaid。“Ihavenotseenhimanymorethanyou。Ihaveheardareportonly——notsobadasyouthink。Itmusthavebeenexaggeratedtoyou。”
“Pleasedonotconcealanything——letmeknowall!”saidFelice,doubtingly。
“YoushallknowallIknow——youhaveaperfectrighttoknow——whocanhaveabetterthaneitherofyou?”saidGrace,withadelicatestingwhichwaslostuponFeliceCharmondnow。“Irepeat,Ihaveonlyheardalessalarmingaccountthanyouhaveheard;howmuchitmeans,andhowlittle,Icannotsay。IprayGodthatitmeansnotmuch——incommonhumanity。Youprobablypraythesame——forotherreasons。”
Sheregardedthemboththereinthedimlightawhile。
Theystooddumbintheirtrouble,notstingingbackather;notheedinghermood。AtendernessspreadoverGracelikeadew。Itwaswell,verywell,conventionally,toaddresseitheroneoftheminthewife’sregulationtermsofvirtuoussarcasm,aswoman,creature,orthing,forlosingtheirheartstoherhusband。Butlife,whatwasit,andwhowasshe?Shehad,likethesingerofthepsalmofAsaph,beenplaguedandchastenedallthedaylong;
butcouldshe,byretributivewords,inordertopleaseherself——
theindividual——“offendagainstthegeneration。”ashewouldnot?
“Heisdying,perhaps。”blubberedSukeDamson,puttingheraprontohereyes。
Intheirgesturesandfacestherewereanxieties,affection,agonyofheart,allforamanwhohadwrongedthem——hadneverreallybehavedtowardseitherofthemanyhowbutselfishly。Neitheronebutwouldhavewellnighsacrificedhalfherlifetohim,evennow。
Thetearswhichhispossiblycriticalsituationcouldnotbringtohereyessurgedoveratthecontemplationofthesefellow-women。
Sheturnedtothebalustrade,bentherselfuponit,andwept。
ThereuponFelicebegantocryalso,withoutusingherhandkerchief,andlettingthetearsrundownsilently。Whilethesethreepoorwomenstoodtogetherthus,pityinganotherthoughmosttobepitiedthemselves,thepacingofahorseorhorsesbecameaudibleinthecourt,andinamomentMelbury’svoicewasheardcallingtohisstableman。Graceatoncestartedup,randownthestairsandoutintothequadrangleasherfathercrossedittowardsthedoor。“Father,whatisthematterwithhim?”shecried。
“Who——Edgar?”saidMelbury,abruptly。“Matter?Nothing。What,mydear,andhaveyougothomesafe?Why,youarebetteralready!Butyououghtnottobeoutintheairlikethis。”
“Buthehasbeenthrownoffhishorse!”
“Iknow;Iknow。Isawit。Hegotupagain,andwalkedoffaswellasever。Afallontheleavesdidn’thurtaspryfellowlikehim。Hedidnotcomethisway。”headded,significantly。“I
supposehewenttolookforhishorse。Itriedtofindhim,butcouldnot。ButafterseeinghimgoawayunderthetreesIfoundthehorse,andhaveledithomeforsafety。Sohemustwalk。
Now,don’tyoustayouthereinthisnightair。
Shereturnedtothehousewithherfather。whenshehadagainascendedtothelandingandtoherownroomsbeyonditwasagreatrelieftohertofindthatbothPetticoattheFirstandPetticoattheSecondofherBien-aimehadsilentlydisappeared。Theyhad,inallprobability,heardthewordsofherfather,anddepartedwiththeiranxietiesrelieved。
PresentlyherparentscameuptoGrace,andbusiedthemselvestoseethatshewascomfortable。Perceivingsoonthatshewouldprefertobeleftalonetheywentaway。
Gracewaitedon。Theclockraiseditsvoicenowandthen,butherhusbanddidnotreturn。Atherfather’susualhourforretiringheagaincameintoseeher。“Donotstayup。”shesaid,assoonasheentered。“Iamnotatalltired。Iwillsitupforhim。”
“Ithinkitwillbeuseless,Grace。”saidMelbury,slowly。
“Why?”
“Ihavehadabitterquarrelwithhim;andonthataccountI
hardlythinkhewillreturnto-night。”
“Aquarrel?Wasthatafterthefallseenbytheboy?”
Melburynoddedanaffirmative,withouttakinghiseyesoffthecandle。
“Yes;itwasaswewerecominghometogether。”hesaid。
SomethinghadbeenswellingupinGracewhileherfatherwasspeaking。“Howcouldyouwanttoquarrelwithhim?”shecried,suddenly。“Whycouldyounotlethimcomehomequietlyifhewereinclinedto?Heismyhusband;andnowyouhavemarriedmetohimsurelyyouneednotprovokehimunnecessarily。Firstyouinducemetoaccepthim,andthenyoudothingsthatdivideusmorethanweshouldnaturallybedivided!”
“Howcanyouspeaksounjustlytome,Grace?”saidMelbury,withindignantsorrow。“Idivideyoufromyourhusband,indeed!Youlittlethink——“
Hewasinclinedtosaymore——totellherthewholestoryoftheencounter,andthattheprovocationhehadreceivedhadlainentirelyinhearingherdespised。Butitwouldhavegreatlydistressedher,andheforbore。“Youhadbetterliedown。Youaretired。”hesaid,soothingly。“Good-night。”
Thehouseholdwenttobed,andasilencefelluponthedwelling,brokenonlybytheoccasionalskirrofahalterinMelbury’sstables。Despiteherfather’sadviceGracestillwaitedup。Butnobodycame。
ItwasacriticaltimeinGrace’semotionallifethatnight。Shethoughtofherhusbandagooddeal,andforthenonceforgotWinterborne。
“HowtheseunhappywomenmusthaveadmiredEdgar!”shesaidtoherself。“Howattractivehemustbetoeverybody;and,indeed,heisattractive。”Thepossibilityisthat,piquedbyrivalry,theseideasmighthavebeentransformedintotheircorrespondingemotionsbyashowoftheleastreciprocityinFitzpiers。Therewas,intruth,alove-birdyearningtoflyfromherheart;anditwantedalodgingbadly。
Butnohusbandcame。ThefactwasthatMelburyhadbeenmuchmistakenabouttheconditionofFitzpiers。Peopledonotfallheadlongonstumpsofunderwoodwithimpunity。HadtheoldmanbeenabletowatchFitzpiersnarrowlyenough,hewouldhaveobservedthatonrisingandwalkingintothethickethedroppedbloodashewent;thathehadnotproceededfiftyyardsbeforeheshowedsignsofbeingdizzy,and,raisinghishandstohishead,reeledandfelldown。
GracewasnottheonlyonewhowatchedandmeditatedinHintockthatnight。FeliceCharmondwasinnomoodtoretiretorestatacustomaryhour;andoverherdrawing-roomfireattheManorHouseshesatasmotionlessandinasdeepareverieasGraceinherlittleapartmentatthehomestead。
HavingcaughtearofMelbury’sintelligencewhileshestoodonthelandingathishouse,andbeeneasedofmuchofhermentaldistress,hersenseofpersonaldecorumreturneduponherwitharush。Shedescendedthestairsandleftthedoorlikeaghost,keepingclosetothewallsofthebuildingtillshegotroundtothegateofthequadrangle,throughwhichshenoiselesslypassedalmostbeforeGraceandherfatherhadfinishedtheirdiscourse。
SukeDamsonhadthoughtitwelltoimitatehersuperiorinthisrespect,and,descendingthebackstairsasFelicedescendedthefront,wentoutatthesidedoorandhometohercottage。
OnceoutsideMelbury’sgatesMrs。CharmondranwithallherspeedtotheManorHouse,withoutstoppingorturningherhead,andsplittingherthinbootsinherhaste。Sheenteredherowndwelling,asshehademergedfromit,bythedrawing-roomwindow。
Inothercircumstancesshewouldhavefeltsometimidityatundertakingsuchanunpremeditatedexcursionalone;butheranxietyforanotherhadcastoutherfearforherself。
Everythinginherdrawing-roomwasjustasshehadleftit——thecandlesstillburning,thecasementclosed,andtheshuttersgentlypulledto,soastohidethestateofthewindowfromthecursoryglanceofaservantenteringtheapartment。Shehadbeengoneaboutthree-quartersofanhourbytheclock,andnobodyseemedtohavediscoveredherabsence。Tiredinbodybuttenseinmind,shesatdown,palpitating,round-eyed,bewilderedatwhatshehaddone。
Shehadbeenbetrayedbyaffrightedloveintoavisitwhich,nowthattheemotioninstigatingithadcalmeddownunderherbeliefthatFitzpierswasinnodanger,wasthesaddestsurprisetoher。
Thiswashowshehadsetaboutdoingherbesttoescapeherpassionatebondagetohim!Somehow,indeclaringtoGraceandtoherselftheunseemlinessofherinfatuation,shehadgrownaconverttoitsirresistibility。IfHeavenwouldonlygiveherstrength;butHeavenneverdid!Onethingwasindispensable;shemustgoawayfromHintockifshemeanttowithstandfurthertemptation。Thestrugglewastoowearying,toohopeless,whilesheremained。Itwasbutacontinualcapitulationofconsciencetowhatshedarednotname。
Bydegrees,asshesat,Felice’smind——helpedperhapsbytheanticlimaxoflearningthatherloverwasunharmedafterallherfrightabouthim——grewwondrouslystronginwiseresolve。Forthemomentshewasinamood,inthewordsofMrs。ElizabethMontagu,“torunmadwithdiscretion;“andwassopersuadedthatdiscretionlayindeparturethatshewishedtosetaboutgoingthatveryminute。Jumpingupfromherseat,shebegantogathertogethersomesmallpersonalknick-knacksscatteredabouttheroom,tofeelthatpreparationswerereallyintrain。