第50章

类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:5111更新时间:18/12/22 08:57:59
Whilemovinghereandthereshefanciedthatsheheardaslightnoiseout-of-doors,andstoodstill。Surelyitwasatappingatthewindow。Athoughtenteredhermind,andburnedhercheek。Hehadcometothatwindowbefore;yetwasitpossiblethatheshoulddaretodosonow!Alltheservantswereinbed,andintheordinarycourseofaffairsshewouldhaveretiredalso。Thensherememberedthatonsteppinginbythecasementandclosingit,shehadnotfastenedthewindow-shutter,sothatastreakoflightfromtheinterioroftheroommighthaverevealedhervigiltoanobserveronthelawn。HowallthingsconspiredagainstherkeepingfaithwithGrace! Thetappingrecommenced,lightasfromthebillofalittlebird; herillegitimatehopeovercamehervow;shewentandpulledbacktheshutter,determining,however,toshakeherheadathimandkeepthecasementsecurelyclosed。 Whatshesawoutsidemighthavestruckterrorintoaheartstouterthanahelplesswoman’satmidnight。Inthecentreofthelowestpaneofthewindow,closetotheglass,wasahumanface,whichshebarelyrecognizedasthefaceofFitzpiers。Itwassurroundedwiththedarknessofthenightwithout,corpse-likeinitspallor,andcoveredwithblood。AsdisclosedinthesquareareaofthepaneitmetherfrightenedeyeslikeareplicaoftheSudariumofSt。Veronica。 Hemovedhislips,andlookedatherimploringly。Herrapidmindpiecedtogetherinaninstantapossibleconcatenationofeventswhichmighthaveledtothistragicalissue。Sheunlatchedthecasementwithaterrifiedhand,andbendingdowntowherehewascrouching,pressedherfacetohiswithpassionatesolicitude。 Sheassistedhimintotheroomwithoutaword,todowhichitwasalmostnecessarytolifthimbodily。Quicklyclosingthewindowandfasteningtheshutters,shebentoverhimbreathlessly。 “Areyouhurtmuch——much?”shecried,faintly。“Oh,oh,howisthis!” “Rathermuch——butdon’tbefrightened。”heansweredinadifficultwhisper,andturninghimselftoobtainaneasierpositionifpossible。“Alittlewater,please。” Sheranacrossintothedining-room,andbroughtabottleandglass,fromwhichheeagerlydrank。Hecouldthenspeakmuchbetter,andwithherhelpgotuponthenearestcouch。 “Areyoudying,Edgar?”shesaid。“Dospeaktome!” “Iamhalfdead。”saidFitzpiers。“ButperhapsIshallgetoverit。Itischieflylossofblood。” “ButIthoughtyourfalldidnothurtyou。”saidshe。“Whodidthis?” “Felice——myfather-in-law!。Ihavecrawledtoyoumorethanamileonmyhandsandknees——God,IthoughtIshouldneverhavegothere!。Ihavecometoyou——be-causeyouaretheonlyfriend——I haveintheworldnow。IcannevergobacktoHintock——never——totheroofoftheMelburys!Notpoppynormandragorawillevermedicinethisbitterfeud!。IfIwereonlywellagain——“ “Letmebindyourhead,nowthatyouhaverested。” “Yes——butwaitamoment——ithasstoppedbleeding,fortunately,orIshouldbeadeadmanbeforenow。WhileinthewoodImanagedtomakeatourniquetofsomehalf-penceandmyhandkerchief,aswellasIcouldinthedark。Butlisten,dearFelice!CanyouhidemetillIamwell?Whatevercomes,IcanbeseeninHintocknomore。 Mypracticeisnearlygone,youknow——andafterthisIwouldnotcaretorecoveritifIcould。” BythistimeFelice’stearsbegantoblindher。Wherewerenowherdiscreetplansforsunderingtheirlivesforever?Toadministertohiminhispain,andtrouble,andpoverty,washersinglethought。Thefirststepwastohidehim,andsheaskedherselfwhere。Aplaceoccurredtohermind。 Shegothimsomewinefromthedining-room,whichstrengthenedhimmuch。Thenshemanagedtoremovehisboots,and,ashecouldnowkeephimselfuprightbyleaninguponherononesideandawalking-stickontheother,theywentthusinslowmarchoutoftheroomandupthestairs。Atthetopshetookhimalongagallery,pausingwheneverherequiredrest,andthenceupasmallerstaircasetotheleastusedpartofthehouse,wheresheunlockedadoor。Withinwasalumber-room,containingabandonedfurnitureofalldescriptions,builtupinpileswhichobscuredthelightofthewindows,andformedbetweenthemnooksandlairsinwhichapersonwouldnotbediscernedevenshouldaneyegazeinatthedoor。Thearticlesweremainlythosethathadbelongedtothepreviousownerofthehouse,andhadbeenboughtinbythelateMr。Charmondattheauction;butchangingfashion,andthetastesofayoungwife,hadcausedthemtoberelegatedtothisdungeon。 HereFitzpierssatontheflooragainstthewalltillshehadhauledoutmaterialsforabed,whichshespreadonthefloorinoneoftheaforesaidnooks。Sheobtainedwaterandabasin,andwashedthedriedbloodfromhisfaceandhands;andwhenhewascomfortablyreclining,fetchedfoodfromthelarder。Whileheatehereyeslingeredanxiouslyonhisface,followingitseverymovementwithsuchloving-kindnessasonlyafondwomancanshow。 Hewasnowinbettercondition,anddiscussedhispositionwithher。 “WhatIfancyIsaidtoMelburymusthavebeenenoughtoenrageanyman,ifutteredincoldblood,andwithknowledgeofhispresence。ButIdidnotknowhim,andIwasstupefiedbywhathehadgivenme,sothatIhardlywasawareofwhatIsaid。Well—— theveilofthattempleisrentintwain!。AsIamnotgoingtobeseenagaininHintock,myfirsteffortsmustbedirectedtoallayanyalarmthatmaybefeltatmyabsence,beforeIamabletogetclearaway。NobodymustsuspectthatIhavebeenhurt,ortherewillbeacountrytalkaboutme。Felice,Imustatonceconcoctalettertocheckallsearchforme。IthinkifyoucanbringmeapenandpaperImaybeabletodoitnow。Icouldrestbetterifitweredone。Poorthing!howItireherwithrunningupanddown!” Shefetchedwritingmaterials,andhelduptheblotting-bookasasupporttohishand,whilehepennedabriefnotetohisnominalwife。 “Theanimosityshowntowardsmebyyourfather。”hewrote,inthiscoldestofmaritalepistles,“issuchthatIcannotreturnagaintoaroofwhichishis,eventhoughitsheltersyou。Apartingisunavoidable,asyouaresuretobeonhissideinthisdivision。 IamstartingonajourneywhichwilltakemealongwayfromHintock,andyoumustnotexpecttoseemethereagainforsometime。” Hethengaveherafewdirectionsbearinguponhisprofessionalengagementsandotherpracticalmatters,concludingwithoutahintofhisdestination,oranotionofwhenshewouldseehimagain。 HeofferedtoreadthenotetoFelicebeforehecloseditup,butshewouldnothearorseeit;thatsideofhisobligationsdistressedherbeyondendurance。SheturnedawayfromFitzpiers,andsobbedbitterly。 “Ifyoucangetthispostedataplacesomemilesaway。”hewhispered,exhaustedbytheeffortofwriting——“atShottsfordorPort-Bredy,orstillbetter,Budmouth——itwilldivertallsuspicionfromthishouseastheplaceofmyrefuge。” “Iwilldrivetooneorotheroftheplacesmyself——anythingtokeepitunknown。”shemurmured,hervoiceweightedwithvagueforeboding,nowthattheexcitementofhelpinghimhadpassedaway。 Fitzpierstoldherthattherewasyetonethingmoretohedone。 “Increepingoverthefenceontothelawn。”hesaid,“Imadetherailbloody,anditshowsrathermuchonthewhitepaint——Icouldseeitinthedark。Atallhazardsitshouldbewashedoff。 Couldyoudothatalso,Felice?” Whatwillnotwomendoonsuchdevotedoccasions?wearyasshewasshewentallthewaydowntheramblingstaircasestotheground- floor,thentosearchforalantern,whichshelightedandhidunderhercloak;thenforawetsponge,andnextwentforthintothenight。Thewhiterailingstaredoutinthedarknessatherapproach,andarayfromtheenshroudedlanternfellupontheblood——justwherehehadtoldheritwouldbefound。sheshuddered。Itwasalmosttoomuchtobearinoneday——butwithashakinghandshespongedtherailclean,andreturnedtothehouse。 Thetimeoccupiedbytheseseveralproceedingswasnotmuchlessthantwohours。Whenallwasdone,andshehadsmoothedhisextemporizedbed,andplacedeverythingwithinhisreachthatshecouldthinkof,shetookherleaveofhim,andlockedhimin。 Whenherhusband’sletterreachedGrace’shands,bearinguponitthepostmarkofadistanttown,itneveroncecrossedhermindthatFitzpierswaswithinamileofherstill。shefeltrelievedthathedidnotwritemorebitterlyofthequarrelwithherfather,whateveritsnaturemighthavebeen;butthegeneralfrigidityofhiscommunicationquenchedinhertheincipientsparkthateventshadkindledsoshortlybefore。 FromthiscentreofinformationitwasmadeknowninHintockthatthedoctorhadgoneaway,andasnonebuttheMelburyhouseholdwasawarethathedidnotreturnonthenightofhisaccident,noexcitementmanifesteditselfinthevillage。 ThustheearlydaysofMaypassedby。Nonebutthenocturnalbirdsandanimalsobservedthatlateoneevening,towardsthemiddleofthemonth,acloselywrappedfigure,withacrutchunderonearmandastickinhishand,creptoutfromHintockHouseacrossthelawntotheshelterofthetrees,takingthenceaslowandlaboriouswalktothenearestpointoftheturnpike-road。Themysteriouspersonagewassodisguisedthathisownwifewouldhardlyhaveknownhim。FeliceCharmondwasapractisedhandatmake-ups,aswellshemightbe;andshehaddoneherutmostinpaddingandpaintingFitzpierswiththeoldmaterialsofherartintherecessesofthelumber-room。 Inthehighwayhewasmetbyacoveredcarriage,whichconveyedhimtoSherton-Abbas,whenceheproceededtothenearestportonthesouthcoast,andimmediatelycrossedtheChannel。 ButitwasknowntoeverybodythatthreedaysafterthistimeMrs。 Charmondexecutedherlong-deferredplanofsettingoutforalongtermoftravelandresidenceontheContinent。Shewentoffonemorningasunostentatiouslyascouldbe,andtooknomaidwithher,having,shesaid,engagedonetomeetheratapointfartheroninherroute。Afterthat,HintockHouse,sofrequentlydeserted,wasagaintobelet。Springhadnotmergedinsummerwhenaclinchingrumor,foundedonthebestofevidence,reachedtheparishandneighborhood。Mrs。CharmondandFitzpiershadbeenseentogetherinBaden,inrelationswhichsetatrestthequestionthathadagitatedthelittlecommunityeversincethewinter。 MelburyhadenteredtheValleyofHumiliationevenfartherthanGrace。Hisspiritseemedbroken。 Butonceaweekhemechanicallywenttomarketasusual,andhere,ashewaspassingbytheconduitoneday,hismentalconditionexpressedlargelybyhisgait,heheardhisnamespokenbyavoiceformerlyfamiliar。HeturnedandsawacertainFredBeaucock—— onceapromisinglawyer’sclerkandlocaldandy,whohadbeencalledthecleverestfellowinSherton,withoutwhosebrainsthefirmofsolicitorsemployinghimwouldbenowhere。ButlateronBeaucockhadfallenintothemire。Hewasinvitedoutagooddeal,sangsongsatagriculturalmeetingsandburgesses’dinners; insum,victualledhimselfwithspiritsmorefrequentlythanwasgoodforthecleverbrainsorbodyeither。Helosthissituation,andafteranabsencespentintryinghispowerselsewhere,camebacktohisnativetown,where,atthetimeoftheforegoingeventsinHintock,hegavelegaladviceforastonishinglysmallfees——mostlycarryingonhisprofessiononpublic-housesettles,inwhoserecesseshemightoftenhavebeenoverheardmakingcountry-people’swillsforhalfacrown;callingwithalearnedvoiceforpen-and-inkandahalfpennysheetofpaper,onwhichhedrewupthetestamentwhilerestingitinalittlespacewipedwithhishandonthetableamidtheliquidcirclesformedbythecupsandglasses。Anideaimplantedearlyinlifeisdifficulttouproot,andmanyelderlytradespeoplestillclungtothenotionthatFredBeaucockknewagreatdealoflaw。