HepitiedMelburyforhisalmostchildishenthusiasm,andsawthattheagingmanmusthavesufferedacutelytobeweakenedtothisunreasoningdesire。
Winterbornewasfartoomagnanimoustoharboranycynicalconjecturethatthetimber-merchant,inhisintenseaffectionforGrace,wascourtinghimnowbecausethatyounglady,whendisunited,wouldbeleftinananomalousposition,toescapewhichabadhusbandwasbetterthannone。HefeltquitesurethathisoldfriendwassimplyontenterhooksofanxietytorepairthealmostirreparableerrorofdividingtwowhomNaturehadstriventojointogetherinearlierdays,andthatinhisardortodothishewasobliviousofformalities。Thecautioussupervisionofhispastyearshadoverleapeditselfatlast。hence,Winterborneperceivedthat,inthisnewbeginning,thenecessarycarenottocompromiseGracebytooearlyadvancesmustbeexercisedbyhimself。
PerhapsWinterbornewasnotquitesoardentasheretofore。Thereisnosuchthingasastationarylove:menareeitherlovingmoreorlovingless。ButGileshimselfrecognizednodeclineinhissenseofherdearness。IftheflamedidindeedburnlowernowthanwhenhehadfetchedherfromShertonatherlastreturnfromschool,themarvelwassmall。Hehadbeenlaboringeversincehisrejectionandhermarriagetoreducehisformerpassiontoadocilefriendship,outofpureregardtoitsexpediency;andtheirseparationmayhavehelpedhimtoapartialsuccess。
Aweekandmorepassed,andtherewasnofurthernewsofMelbury。
Buttheeffectoftheintelligencehehadalreadytransmittedupontheelastic-nerveddaughterofthewoodshadbeenmuchwhattheoldsurgeonJoneshadsurmised。Ithadsoothedherperturbedspiritbetterthanalltheopiatesinthepharmacopoeia。Shehadsleptunbrokenlyawholenightandaday。The“newlaw“wastoheramysterious,beneficent,godlikeentity,latelydescendeduponearth,thatwouldmakeherassheoncehadbeenwithouttroubleorannoyance。Herpositionfrettedher,itsabstractfeaturesrousinganaversionwhichwasevengreaterthanheraversiontothepersonalityofhimwhohadcausedit。Itwasmortifying,productiveofslights,undignified。Himshecouldforget;hercircumstancesshehadalwayswithher。
ShesawnothingofWinterborneduringthedaysofherrecovery;
andperhapsonthataccountherfancywoveabouthimamoreromantictissuethanitcouldhavedoneifhehadstoodbeforeherwithallthespecksandflawsinseparablefromcorporeity。Heroseuponhermemoryasthefruit-godandthewood-godinalternation;sometimesleafy,andsmearedwithgreenlichen,asshehadseenhimamongthesappyboughsoftheplantations;
sometimescider-stained,andwithapple-pipsinthehairofhisarms,asshehadmethimonhisreturnfromcider-makinginWhiteHartVale,withhisvatsandpressesbesidehim。Inhersecretheartshealmostapproximatedtoherfather’senthusiasminwishingtoshowGilesonceforallhowshestillregardedhim。
Thequestionwhetherthefuturewouldindeedbringthemtogetherforlifewasastandingwonderwithher。Sheknewthatitcouldnotwithanyproprietydosojustyet。Butreverentlybelievinginherfather’ssoundjudgmentandknowledge,asgoodgirlsarewonttodo,sherememberedwhathehadwrittenabouthergivingahinttoWinterbornelestthereshouldberiskindelay,andherfeelingswerenotaversetosuchastep,sofarasitcouldbedonewithoutdangeratthisearlystageoftheproceedings。
Frombeingafrailphantomofherformerequableselfshereturnedinboundstoaconditionofpassablephilosophy。Shebloomedagaininthefaceinthecourseofafewdays,andwaswellenoughtogoaboutasusual。OnedayMrs。MelburyproposedthatforachangesheshouldbedriveninthegigtoShertonmarket,whitherMelbury’smanwasgoingonothererrands。GracehadnobusinesswhateverinSherton;butitcrossedhermindthatWinterbornewouldprobablybethere,andthismadethethoughtofsuchadriveinteresting。
Onthewayshesawnothingofhim;butwhenthehorsewaswalkingslowlythroughtheobstructionsofSheepStreet,shediscernedtheyoungmanonthepavement。Shethoughtofthattimewhenhehadbeenstandingunderhisapple-treeonherreturnfromschool,andofthetenderopportunitythenmissedthroughherfastidiousness。
Herheartroseinherthroat。Sheabjuredallsuchfastidiousnessnow。Nordidsheforgetthelastoccasiononwhichshehadbeheldhiminthattown,makingciderinthecourt-yardoftheEarlofWessexHotel,whileshewasfiguringasafineladyinthebalconyabove。
Gracedirectedthemantosetherdownthereinthemidst,andimmediatelywentuptoherlover。Gileshadnotbeforeobservedher,andhiseyesnowsuppressedlylookedhispleasure,withouttheembarrassmentthathadformerlymarkedhimatsuchmeetings。
Whenafewwordshadbeenspoken,shesaid,archly,“Ihavenothingtodo。Perhapsyouaredeeplyengaged?”
“I?Notabit。Mybusinessnowatthebestoftimesissmall,I
amsorrytosay。”
“Well,then,IamgoingintotheAbbey。Comealongwithme。”
Thepropositionhadsuggesteditselfasaquickescapefrompublicity,formanyeyeswereregardingher。Shehadhopedthatsufficienttimehadelapsedfortheextinctionofcuriosity;butitwasquiteotherwise。Thepeoplelookedatherwithtenderinterestasthedesertedgirl-wife——withoutobtrusiveness,andwithoutvulgarity;butshewasillpreparedforscrutinyinanyshape。
TheywalkedabouttheAbbeyaisles,andpresentlysatdown。Notasoulwasinthebuildingsavethemselves。Sheregardedastainedwindow,withherheadsideways,andtentativelyaskedhimifherememberedthelasttimetheywereinthattownalone。
Heremembereditperfectly,andremarked,“Youwereaproudmissthen,andasdaintyasyouwerehigh。Perhapsyouarenow?”
Graceslowlyshookherhead。“Afflictionhastakenallthatoutofme。”sheanswered,impressively。“PerhapsIamtoofartheotherwaynow。”Astherewassomethinglurkinginthisthatshecouldnotexplain,sheadded,soquicklyasnottoallowhimtimetothinkofit,“Hasmyfatherwrittentoyouatall?”
“Yes。”saidWinterborne。
Sheglancedponderinglyupathim。“Notaboutme?”
“Yes。”
Hismouthwaslinedwithcharacterywhichtoldherthathehadbeenbiddentotakethehintastothefuturewhichshehadbeenbiddentogive。TheunexpecteddiscoverysentascarletpulsationthroughGraceforthemoment。However,itwasonlyGileswhostoodthere,ofwhomshehadnofear;andherself-possessionreturned。
“HesaidIwastosoundyouwithaviewto——whatyouwillunderstand,ifyoucareto。”continuedWinterborne,inalowvoice。Havingbeenputonthistrackbyherself,hewasnotdisposedtoabandonitinahurry。
Theyhadbeenchildrentogether,andtherewasbetweenthemthatfamiliarityastopersonalaffairswhichonlysuchacquaintanceshipcangive。“Youknow,Giles。”sheanswered,speakinginaverypracticaltone,“thatthatisallverywell;
butIaminaveryanomalouspositionatpresent,andIcannotsayanythingtothepointaboutsuchthingsasthose。”
“No?”hesaid,withastrayairasregardedthesubject。Hewaslookingatherwithacuriousconsciousnessofdiscovery。Hehadnotbeenimaginingthattheirrenewedintercoursewouldshowhertohimthus。Forthefirsttimeherealizedanunexpectednessinher,which,afterall,shouldnothavebeenunexpected。ShebeforehimwasnotthegirlGraceMelburywhomheusedtoknow。
Ofcourse,hemighteasilyhaveprefiguredasmuch;butithadneveroccurredtohim。Shewasawomanwhohadbeenmarried;shehadmovedon;andwithouthavinglosthergirlishmodesty,shehadlosthergirlishshyness。Theinevitablechange,thoughknowntohim,hadnotbeenheeded;anditstruckhimintoamomentaryfixity。ThetruthwasthathehadnevercomeintoclosecomradeshipwithhersinceherengagementtoFitzpiers,withthebriefexceptionoftheeveningencounteronRubdownHill,whenshemethimwithhisciderapparatus;andthatinterviewhadbeenoftoocursoryakindforinsight。
Winterbornehadadvanced,too。Hecouldcriticiseher。TimeshadbeenwhentocriticiseasingletraitinGraceMelburywouldhavelainasfarbeyondhispowersastocriticiseadeity。Thisthingwassure:itwasanewwomaninmanywayswhomhehadcomeouttosee;acreatureofmoreideas,moredignity,and,aboveall,moreassurance,thantheoriginalGracehadbeencapableof。Hecouldnotatfirstdecidewhetherhewerepleasedordispleasedatthis。
Butuponthewholethenoveltyattractedhim。
Shewassosweetandsensitivethatshefearedhissilencebetokenedsomethinginhisbrainofthenatureofanenemytoher。
“Whatareyouthinkingofthatmakesthoselinescomeinyourforehead?”sheasked。“Ididnotmeantooffendyoubyspeakingofthetimebeingprematureasyet。”
Touchedbythegenuineloving-kindnesswhichhadlainatthefoundationofthesewords,andmuchmoved,Winterborneturnedhisfaceaside,ashetookherbythehand。Hewasgrievedthathehadcriticisedher。
“Youareverygood,dearGrace。”hesaid,inalowvoice。“Youarebetter,muchbetter,thanyouusedtobe。”
“How?”
Hecouldnotverywelltellherhow,andsaid,withanevasivesmile,“Youareprettier;“whichwasnotwhathereallyhadmeant。
Hethenremainedstillholdingherrighthandinhisownright,sothattheyfacedinoppositeways;andashedidnotletgo,sheventureduponatenderremonstrance。
“Ithinkwehavegoneasfarasweoughttogoatpresent——andfarenoughtosatisfymypoorfatherthatwearethesameasever。
Yousee,Giles,mycaseisnotsettledyet,andif——Oh,supposeI
NEVERgetfree!——thereshouldbeanyhitchorinformality!”
Shedrewacatchingbreath,andturnedpale。Thedialoguehadbeenaffectionatecomedyuptothispoint。Thegloomyatmosphereofthepast,andthestillgloomyhorizonofthepresent,hadbeenfortheintervalforgotten。Nowthewholeenvironmentcameback,theduebalanceofshadeamongthelightwasrestored。
“Itissuretobeallright,Itrust?”sheresumed,inuneasyaccents。“Whatdidmyfathersaythesolicitorhadtoldhim?”
“Oh——thatallissureenough。Thecaseissoclear——nothingcouldbeclearer。Butthelegalpartisnotyetquitedoneandfinished,asisnatural。”
“Ohno——ofcoursenot。”shesaid,sunkinmeekthought。“ButfathersaiditwasALMOST——didhenot?Doyouknowanythingaboutthenewlawthatmakesthesethingssoeasy?”
“Nothing——exceptthegeneralfactthatitenablesill-assortedhusbandsandwivestopartinawaytheycouldnotformerlydowithoutanActofParliament。”
“Haveyoutosignapaper,orswearanything?Isitsomethinglikethat?”
“Yes,Ibelieveso。”
“Howlonghasitbeenintroduced?”
“Aboutsixmonthsorayear,thelawyersaid,Ithink。”
TohearthesetwopoorArcadianinnocentstalkofimperiallawwouldhavemadeahumanepersonweepwhoshouldhaveknownwhatadangerousstructuretheywerebuildingupontheirsupposedknowledge。Theyremainedinthought,likechildreninthepresenceoftheincomprehensible。
“Giles。”shesaid,atlast,“itmakesmequitewearywhenIthinkhowseriousmysituationis,orhasbeen。Shallwenotgooutfromherenow,asitmayseemratherfastofme——ourbeingsolongtogether,Imean——ifanybodyweretoseeus?Iamalmostsure。”
sheadded,uncertainly,“thatIoughtnottoletyouholdmyhandyet,knowingthatthedocuments——orwhateveritmaybe——havenotbeensigned;sothatI——amstillasmarriedasever——oralmost。
Mydearfatherhasforgottenhimself。NotthatIfeelmorallyboundtoanyoneelse,afterwhathastakenplace——nowomanofspiritcould——now,too,thatseveralmonthshavepassed。ButI
wishtokeeptheproprietiesaswellasIcan。”
“Yes,yes。Still,yourfatherremindsusthatlifeisshort。I
myselffeelthatitis;thatiswhyIwishedtounderstandyouinthisthatwehavebegun。Attimes,dearGrace,sincereceivingyourfather’sletter,Iamasuneasyandfearfulasachildatwhathesaid。Ifoneofusweretodiebeforetheformalsigningandsealingthatistoreleaseyouhavebeendone——ifweshoulddropoutoftheworldandneverhavemadethemostofthislittle,short,butrealopportunity,IshouldthinktomyselfasIsunkdowndying,’WouldtomyGodthatIhadspokenoutmywholeheart——
givenheronepoorlittlekisswhenIhadthechancetogiveit!
ButIneverdid,althoughshehadpromisedtobeminesomeday;
andnowInevercan。’That’swhatIshouldthink。”