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类别:其他 作者:Thomas Hardy字数:5822更新时间:18/12/22 08:57:59
Theystartedforhome,MartyandCreedleremainingbehind。ForatimeGraceandherfatherwalkedsidebysidewithoutspeaking。 Itwasjustintheblueofthedawn,andthechillingtoneoftheskywasreflectedinhercold,wetface。Thewholewoodseemedtobeahouseofdeath,pervadedbylosstoitsuttermostlengthandbreadth。Winterbornewasgone,andthecopsesseemedtoshowthewantofhim;thoseyoungtrees,somanyofwhichhehadplanted,andofwhichhehadspokensotrulywhenhesaidthatheshouldfallbeforetheyfell,wereatthatverymomentsendingouttheirrootsinthedirectionthathehadgiventhemwithhissubtlehand。 “Onethingmadeittolerabletousthatyourhusbandshouldcomebacktothehouse。”saidMelburyatlast——“thedeathofMrs。 Charmond。” “Ah,yes。”saidGrace,arousingslightlytotherecollection,“hetoldmeso。” “Didhetellyouhowshedied?ItwasnosuchdeathasGiles’s。 Shewasshot——byadisappointedlover。ItoccurredinGermany。 Theunfortunatemanshothimselfafterwards。HewasthatSouthCarolinagentlemanofverypassionatenaturewhousedtohauntthisplacetoforcehertoaninterview,andfollowedherabouteverywhere。SoendsthebrilliantFeliceCharmond——onceagoodfriendtome——butnofriendtoyou。” “Icanforgiveher。”saidGrace,absently。“DidEdgartellyouofthis?” “No;butheputaLondonnewspaper,givinganaccountofit,onthehalltable,foldedinsuchawaythatweshouldseeit。ItwillbeintheShertonpaperthisweek,nodoubt。Tomaketheeventmoresolemnstilltohim,hehadjustbeforehadsharpwordswithher,andlefther。HetoldLucythis,asnothingabouthimappearsinthenewspaper。Andthecauseofthequarrelwas,ofallpeople,shewe’veleftbehindus。” “DoyoumeanMarty?”Gracespokethewordsbutperfunctorily。 For,pertinentandpointedasMelbury’sstorywas,shehadnoheartforitnow。 “Yes。MartySouth。”Melburypersistedinhisnarrative,todivertherfromherpresentgrief,ifpossible。“Beforehewentawayshewrotehimaletter,whichhekeptinhis,pocketalongwhilebeforereading。HechancedtopullitoutinMrs。 Charmond’s,presence,andreaditoutloud。Itcontainedsomethingwhichteasedherverymuch,andthatledtotherupture。 Shewasfollowinghimtomakeitupwhenshemetwithherterribledeath。” Melburydidnotknowenoughtogivethegistoftheincident,whichwasthatMartySouth’sletterhadbeenconcerningacertainpersonaladornmentcommontoherselfandMrs。Charmond。Herbulletreacheditsbilletatlast。ThescenebetweenFitzpiersandFelicehadbeensharp,asonlyascenecanbewhicharisesoutofthemortificationofonewomanbyanotherinthepresenceofalover。True,Martyhadnoteffecteditbywordofmouth;thechargeaboutthelocksofhairwasmadesimplybyFitzpiersreadingherlettertohimaloudtoFeliceintheplayfullyironicaltonesofonewhohadbecomealittlewearyofhissituation,andwasfindinghisfriend,inthephraseofGeorgeHerbert,a“flatdelight。”Hehadstrokedthosefalsetresseswithhishandmanyatimewithoutknowingthemtobetransplanted,anditwasimpossiblewhenthediscoverywassoabruptlymadetoavoidbeingfinelysatirical,despitehergenerousdisposition。 Thatwashowithadbegun,andtragedyhadbeenitsend。Onhisabruptdepartureshehadfollowedhimtothestationbutthetrainwasgone;andintravellingtoBadeninsearchofhimshehadmethisrival,whosereproachesledtoanaltercation,andthedeathofboth。OfthatprecipitatesceneofpassionandcrimeFitzpiershadknownnothingtillhesawanaccountofitinthepapers,where,fortunatelyforhimself,nomentionwasmadeofhisprioracquaintancewiththeunhappylady;norwasthereanyallusiontohiminthesubsequentinquiry,thedoubledeathbeingattributedtosomegamblinglosses,though,inpointoffact,neitheroneofthemhadvisitedthetables。 Melburyandhisdaughterdrewneartheirhouse,havingseenbutonelivingthingontheirway,asquirrel,whichdidnotrunupitstree,but,droppingthesweetchestnutwhichitcarried,criedchut-chut-chut,andstampedwithitshindlegsontheground。 Whentheroofsandchimneysofthehomesteadbegantoemergefromthescreenofboughs,Gracestarted,andcheckedherselfinherabstractedadvance。 “Youclearlyunderstand。”shesaidtoherstep-mothersomeofheroldmisgivingreturning,“thatIamcomingbackonlyonconditionofhisleavingashepromised?Willyoulethimknowthis,thattheremaybenomistake?” Mrs。Melbury,whohadsomelongprivatetalkswithFitzpiers,assuredGracethatsheneedhavenodoubtsonthatpoint,andthathewouldprobablybegonebytheevening。GracethenenteredwiththemintoMelbury’swingofthehouse,andsatdownlistlesslyintheparlor,whileherstep-motherwenttoFitzpiers。 Thepromptobediencetoherwisheswhichthesurgeonshoweddidhonortohim,ifanythingcould。BeforeMrs。MelburyhadreturnedtotheroomGrace,whowassittingontheparlorwindow-bench,sawherhusbandgofromthedoorundertheincreasinglightofmorning,withabaginhishand。Whilepassingthroughthegateheturnedhishead。Thefirelightoftheroomshesatinthrewherfigureintodarkreliefagainstthewindowasshelookedthroughthepanes,andhemusthaveseenherdistinctly。Inamomenthewenton,thegatefellto,andhedisappeared。Atthehutshehaddeclaredthatanotherhaddisplacedhim;andnowshehadbanishedhim。 FitzpiershadhardlybeengoneanhourwhenGracebegantosicken。 Thenextdayshekeptherroom。OldJoneswascalledin;hemurmuredsomestatementsinwhichthewords“feverishsymptoms“ occurred。Graceheardthem,andguessedthemeansbywhichshehadbroughtthisvisitationuponherself。 Oneday,whileshestilllaytherewithherheadthrobbing,wonderingifshewerereallygoingtojoinhimwhohadgonebefore,GrammerOlivercametoherbedside。“Idon’tknowwhe’rthisismeantforyoutotake,ma’am。”shesaid,“butIhavefounditonthetable。ItwasleftbyMarty,Ithink,whenshecamethismorning。” GraceturnedherhoteyesuponwhatGrammerheldup。ItwasthephialleftatthehutbyherhusbandwhenhehadbeggedhertotakesomedropsofitscontentsifshewishedtopreserveherselffromfallingavictimtothemaladywhichhadpulleddownWinterborne。Sheexamineditaswellasshecould。Theliquidwasofanopalinehue,andborealabelwithaninscriptioninItalian。Hehadprobablygotitinhiswanderingsabroad。SheknewbutlittleItalian,butcouldunderstandthatthecordialwasafebrifugeofsomesort。Herfather,hermother,andallthehouseholdwereanxiousforherrecovery,andsheresolvedtoobeyherhusband’sdirections。Whatevertherisk,ifany,shewaspreparedtorunit。Aglassofwaterwasbrought,andthedropsdroppedin。 Theeffect,thoughnotmiraculous,wasremarkable。Inlessthananhourshefeltcalmer,cooler,betterabletoreflect——lessinclinedtofretandchafeandwearherselfaway。Shetookafewdropsmore。Fromthattimethefeverretreated,andwentoutlikeadampedconflagration。 “Howcleverheis!”shesaid,regretfully。“Whycouldhenothavehadmoreprinciple,soastoturnhisgreattalentstogoodaccount?Perhapshehassavedmyuselesslife。Buthedoesn’tknowit,anddoesn’tcarewhetherhehassaveditornot;andonthataccountwillneverbetoldbyme!Probablyheonlygaveittomeinthearroganceofhisskill,toshowthegreatnessofhisresourcesbesidemine,asElijahdrewdownfirefromheaven。” Assoonasshehadquiterecoveredfromthisfoiledattackuponherlife,GracewenttoMartySouth’scottage。ThecurrentofherbeinghadagainsettowardsthelostGilesWinterborne。 “Marty。”shesaid,“webothlovedhim。Wewillgotohisgravetogether。” GreatHintockchurchstoodattheupperpartofthevillage,andcouldbereachedwithoutpassingthroughthestreet。IntheduskofthelateSeptemberdaytheywentthitherbysecretways,walkingmostlyinsilencesidebyside,eachbusiedwithherownthoughts。GracehadatroubleexceedingMarty’s——thathauntingsenseofhavingputoutthelightofhislifebyherownhastydoings。Shehadtriedtopersuadeherselfthathemighthavediedofhisillness,evenifshehadnottakenpossessionofhishouse。 Sometimesshesucceededinherattempt;sometimesshedidnot。 Theystoodbythegravetogether,andthoughthesunhadgonedown,theycouldseeoverthewoodlandformiles,anddowntothevaleinwhichhehadbeenaccustomedtodescendeveryyear,withhisportablemillandpress,tomakecideraboutthistime。 PerhapsGrace’sfirstgrief,thediscoverythatifhehadlivedhecouldneverhaveclaimedher,hadsomepowerinsofteningthis,thesecond。OnMarty’sparttherewasthesameconsideration; neverwouldshehavebeenhis。Asnoanticipationofgratifiedaffectionhadbeeninexistencewhilehewaswiththem,therewasnonetobedisappointednowthathehadgone。 Gracewasabasedwhen,bydegrees,shefoundthatshehadneverunderstoodGilesasMartyhaddone。MartySouthalone,ofallthewomeninHintockandtheworld,hadapproximatedtoWinterborne’slevelofintelligentintercoursewithnature。Inthatrespectshehadformedthecomplementtohimintheothersex,hadlivedashiscounterpart,hadsubjoinedherthoughttohisasacorollary。 ThecasualglimpseswhichtheordinarypopulationbestoweduponthatwondrousworldofsapandleavescalledtheHintockwoodshadbeenwiththesetwo,GilesandMarty,acleargaze。Theyhadbeenpossessedofitsfinermysteriesasofcommonplaceknowledge;hadbeenabletoreaditshieroglyphsasordinarywriting;tothemthesightsandsoundsofnight,winter,wind,storm,amidthosedenseboughs,whichhadtoGraceatouchoftheuncanny,andeventhesupernatural,weresimpleoccurrenceswhoseorigin,continuance,andlawstheyforeknew。Theyhadplantedtogether,andtogethertheyhadfelled;togethertheyhad,withtherunoftheyears,mentallycollectedthoseremotersignsandsymbolswhich,seeninfew,wereofrunicobscurity,butalltogethermadeanalphabet。 Fromthelightlashingofthetwigsupontheirfaces,whenbrushingthroughtheminthedark,theycouldpronounceuponthespeciesofthetreewhencetheystretched;fromthequalityofthewind’smurmurthroughaboughtheycouldinlikemannernameitssortafaroff。Theyknewbyaglanceatatrunkifitsheartweresound,ortaintedwithincipientdecay,andbythestateofitsuppertwigs,thestratumthathadbeenreachedbyitsroots。Theartificesoftheseasonswereseenbythemfromtheconjuror’sownpointofview,andnotfromthatofthespectator’s。 “HeoughttohavemarriedYOU,Marty,andnobodyelseintheworld!”saidGrace,withconviction,afterthinkingsomewhatintheabovestrain。 Martyshookherhead。“Inallourout-doordaysandyearstogether,ma’am。”shereplied,“theonethingheneverspokeoftomewaslove;norItohim。” “Yetyouandhecouldspeakinatonguethatnobodyelseknew——notevenmyfather,thoughhecamenearestknowing——thetongueofthetreesandfruitsandflowersthemselves。” ShecouldindulgeinmournfulfancieslikethistoMarty;butthehardcoretohergrief——whichMarty’shadnot——remained。HadshebeensurethatGiles’sdeathresultedentirelyfromhisexposure,itwouldhavedrivenherwell-nightoinsanity;buttherewasalwaysthatbarepossibilitythathisexposurehadonlyprecipitatedwhatwasinevitable。Shelongedtobelievethatithadnotdoneeventhis。 Therewasonlyonemanwhoseopiniononthecircumstancesshewouldbeatalldisposedtotrust。Herhusbandwasthatman。YettoaskhimitwouldbenecessarytodetailthetrueconditionsinwhichsheandWinterbornehadlivedduringthesethreeorfourcriticaldaysthatfollowedherflight;andinwithdrawingheroriginaldefiantannouncementonthatpoint,thereseemedaweaknessshedidnotcaretoshow。SheneverdoubtedthatFitzpierswouldbelieveherifshemadeacleanconfessionoftheactualsituation;buttovolunteerthecorrectionwouldseemlikesignallingforatruce,andthat,inherpresentframeofmind,waswhatshedidnotfeeltheneedof。 Itwillprobablynotappearasurprisingstatement,afterwhathasbeenalreadydeclaredofFitzpiers,thatthemanwhomGrace’sfidelitycouldnotkeepfaithfulwasstungintopassionatethrobsofinterestconcerningherbyheravowalofthecontrary。 Hedeclaredtohimselfthathehadneverknownherdangerouslyfullcompassifshewerecapableofsuchareprisal;and,melancholyasitmaybetoadmitthefact,hisownhumiliationandregretengenderedasmoulderingadmirationofher。 HepassedamonthortwoofgreatmiseryatExbury,theplacetowhichhehadretired——quiteasmuchmiseryindeedasGrace,couldshehaveknownofit,wouldhavebeeninclinedtoinflictuponanylivingcreature,howmuchsoeverhemighthavewrongedher。Thenasuddenhopedawneduponhim;hewonderedifheraffirmationweretrue。Heaskedhimselfwhetheritwerenottheactofawomanwhosenaturalpurityandinnocencehadblindedhertothecontingenciesofsuchanannouncement。Hiswideexperienceofthesexhadtaughthimthat,inmanycases,womenwhoventuredonhazardousmattersdidsobecausetheylackedanimaginationsensuousenoughtofeeltheirfullforce。InthislightGrace’sboldavowalmightmerelyhavedenotedthedesperationofonewhowasachildtotherealitiesofobliquity。