Fitzpiers’smentalsufferingsandsuspenseledhimatlasttotakeamelancholyjourneytotheneighborhoodofLittleHintock;andherehehoveredforhoursaroundthesceneofthepurestemotionalexperiencesthathehadeverknowninhislife。HewalkedaboutthewoodsthatsurroundedMelbury’shouse,keepingoutofsightlikeacriminal。Itwasafineevening,andonhiswayhomewardhepassednearMartySouth’scottage。Asusualshehadlightedhercandlewithoutclosinghershutters;hesawherwithinashehadseenhermanytimesbefore。
Shewaspolishingtools,andthoughhehadnotwishedtoshowhimself,hecouldnotresistspeakingintoherthroughthehalf-
opendoor。“Whatareyoudoingthatfor,Marty?”
“BecauseIwanttocleanthem。Theyarenotmine。”Hecouldsee,indeed,thattheywerenothers,foronewasaspade,largeandheavy,andanotherwasabill-hookwhichshecouldonlyhaveusedwithbothhands。Thespade,thoughnotanewone,hadbeensocompletelyburnishedthatitwasbrightassilver。
FitzpierssomehowdivinedthattheywereGilesWinterborne’s,andheputthequestiontoher。
Sherepliedintheaffirmative。“Iamgoingtokeep’em。”shesaid,“butIcan’tgethisapple-millandpress。Iwishcould;itisgoingtobesold,theysay。”
“ThenIwillbuyitforyou。”saidFitzpiers。“Thatwillbemakingyouareturnforakindnessyoudidme。”Hisglancefelluponthegirl’srare-coloredhair,whichhadgrownagain。“Oh,Marty,thoselocksofyours——andthatletter!Butitwasakindnesstosendit,nevertheless。”headded,musingly。
Afterthistherewasconfidencebetweenthem——suchconfidenceastherehadneverbeenbefore。Martywasshy,indeed,ofspeakingabouttheletter,andhermotivesinwritingit;butshethankedhimwarmlyforhispromiseofthecider-press。Shewouldtravelwithitintheautumnseason,ashehaddone,shesaid。Shewouldbequitestrongenough,witholdCreedleasanassistant。
“Ah!therewasonenearertohimthanyou。”saidFitzpiers,referringtoWinterborne。“Onewholivedwherehelived,andwaswithhimwhenhedied。”
ThenMarty,suspectingthathedidnotknowthetruecircumstances,fromthefactthatMrs。Fitzpiersandhimselfwerelivingapart,toldhimofGiles’sgenerositytoGraceingivinguphishousetoherattherisk,andpossiblythesacrifice,ofhisownlife。WhenthesurgeonheardithealmostenviedGileshischivalrouscharacter。HeexpressedawishtoMartythathisvisittohershouldbekeptsecret,andwenthomethoughtful,feelingthatinmorethatonesensehisjourneytoHintockhadnotbeeninvain。
HewouldhavegivenmuchtowinGrace’sforgivenessthen。Butwhateverhedaredhopeforinthatkindfromthefuture,therewasnothingtobedoneyet,whileGilesWinterborne’smemorywasgreen。Towaitwasimperative。Alittletimemightmeltherfrozenthoughts,andleadhertolookonhimwithtoleration,ifnotwithlove。
WeeksandmonthsofmourningforWinterbornehadbeenpassedbyGraceinthesoothingmonotonyofthememorialacttowhichsheandMartyhaddevotedthemselves。TwiceaweekthepairwentinthedusktoGreatHintock,and,likethetwomournersinCymbeline,sweetenedhissadgravewiththeirflowersandtheirtears。SometimesGracethoughtthatitwasapityneitheroneofthemhadbeenhiswifeforalittlewhile,andgiventheworldacopyofhimwhowassovaluableintheireyes。Nothingeverhadbroughthometoherwithsuchforceasthisdeathhowlittleacquirementsandcultureweighbesidesterlingpersonalcharacter。
Whilehersimplesorrowforhislosstookasofteredgewiththelapseoftheautumnandwinterseasons,herself-reproachathavinghadapossiblehandincausingitknewlittleabatement。
LittleoccurredatHintockduringthesemonthsofthefallanddecayoftheleaf。DiscussionofthealmostcontemporaneousdeathofMrs。Charmondabroadhadwaxedandwaned。Fitzpiershadhadamarvellousescapefrombeingdraggedintotheinquirywhichfollowedit,throughtheaccidentoftheirhavingpartedjustbeforeundertheinfluenceofMartySouth’sletter——thetinyinstrumentofacausedeepinnature。
Herbodywasnotbroughthome。Itseemedtoaccordwellwiththefitfulfeverofthatimpassionedwoman’slifethatsheshouldnothavefoundanativegrave。Shehadenjoyedbutalife-interestintheestate,which,afterherdeath,passedtoarelativeofherhusband’s——onewhoknewnotFelice,onewhosepurposeseemedtobetoblotouteveryvestigeofher。
OnacertaindayinFebruary——thecheerfuldayofSt。Valentine,infact——aletterreachedMrs。Fitzpiers,whichhadbeenmentallypromisedherforthatparticulardayalongtimebefore。
ItannouncedthatFitzpierswaslivingatsomemidlandtown,wherehehadobtainedatemporarypracticeasassistanttosomelocalmedicalman,whosecurativeprincipleswereallwrong,thoughhedarednotsetthemright。Hehadthoughtfittocommunicatewithheronthatdayoftendertraditionstoinquireif,intheeventofhisobtainingasubstantialpracticethathehadinviewelsewhere,shecouldforgetthepastandbringherselftojoinhim。
Therethepracticalpartended;hethenwenton——
“Mylastyearofexperiencehasaddedtenyearstomyage,dearGraceanddearestwifethatevererringmanundervalued。YoumaybeabsolutelyindifferenttowhatIsay,butletmesayit:IhaveneverlovedanywomanaliveordeadasIlove,respect,andhonoryouatthispresentmoment。WhatyoutoldmeintheprideandhaughtinessofyourheartIneverbelieved[this,bytheway,wasnotstrictlytrue];butevenifIhadbelievedit,itcouldneverhaveestrangedmefromyou。Isthereanyuseintellingyou——no,thereisnot——thatIdreamofyourripelipsmorefrequentlythanIsaymyprayers;thattheoldfamiliarrustleofyourdressoftenreturnsuponmymindtillitdistractsme?Ifyoucouldcondescendevenonlytoseemeagainyouwouldbebreathinglifeintoacorpse。Mypure,pureGrace,modestasaturtledove,howcameI
evertopossessyou?Forthesakeofbeingpresentinyourmindonthislovers’day,IthinkIwouldalmostratherhaveyouhatemealittlethannotthinkofmeatall。Youmaycallmyfancieswhimsical;butremember,sweet,lostone,that’natureisoneinlove,andwhere’tisfineitsendssomeinstanceofitself。’I
willnotintrudeuponyoufurthernow。Makemealittlebithappybysendingbackonelinetosaythatyouwillconsent,atanyrate,toashortinterview。Iwillmeetyouandleaveyouasamereacquaintance,ifyouwillonlyaffordmethisslightmeansofmakingafewexplanations,andofputtingmypositionbeforeyou。
Believeme,inspiteofallyoumaydoorfeel,Yourloveralways(onceyourhusband),“E。”
Itwas,oddlyenough,thefirstoccasion,ornearlythefirstonwhichGracehadeverreceivedalove-letterfromhim,hiscourtshiphavingtakenplaceunderconditionswhichrenderedletter-writingunnecessary。Itsperusal,therefore,hadacertainnoveltyforher。Shethoughtthat,uponthewhole,hewrotelove-
lettersverywell。ButthechiefrationalinterestofthelettertothereflectiveGracelayinthechancethatsuchameetingasheproposedwouldaffordherofsettingherdoubtsatrest,onewayortheother,onheractualshareinWinterborne’sdeath。Thereliefofconsultingaskilledmind,theoneprofessionalmanwhohadseenGilesatthattime,wouldbeimmense。Asforthatstatementthatshehadutteredinherdisdainfulgrief,whichatthetimeshehadregardedashertriumph,shewasquitepreparedtoadmittohimthathisbeliefwasthetrueone;forinwrongingherselfasshedidwhenshemadeit,shehaddonewhattoherwasafarmoreseriousthing,wrongedWinterborne’smemory。
Withoutconsultingherfather,oranyoneinthehouseoroutofit,Gracerepliedtotheletter。SheagreedtomeetFitzpiersontwoconditions,ofwhichthefirstwasthattheplaceofmeetingshouldbethetopofRubdownHill,thesecondthathewouldnotobjecttoMartySouthaccompanyingher。
Whateverpart,muchorlittle,theremayhavebeeninFitzpiers’sso-calledvalentinetohiswife,hefeltadelightasoftheburstingofspringwhenherbriefreplycame。Itwasoneofthefewpleasuresthathehadexperiencedoflateyearsatallresemblingthoseofhisearlyyouth。Hepromptlyrepliedthatheacceptedtheconditions,andnamedthedayandhouratwhichhewouldbeonthespotshementioned。
Afewminutesbeforethreeontheappointeddayfoundhimclimbingthewell-knownhill,whichhadbeentheaxisofsomanycriticalmovementsintheirlivesduringhisresidenceatHintock。
Thesightofeachhomelyandwell-rememberedobjectswelledtheregretthatseldomlefthimnow。Whateverpathsmightlieopentohisfuture,thesoothingshadesofHintockwereforbiddenhimforeverasapermanentdwelling-place。
HelongedforthesocietyofGrace。Buttolayofferingsonherslightedaltarwashisfirstaim,anduntilherpropitiationwascompletehewouldconstrainherinnowaytoreturntohim。Theleastreparationthathecouldmake,inacasewherehewouldgladlyhavemademuch,wouldbetoletherfeelherselfabsolutelyfreetochoosebetweenlivingwithhimandwithouthim。
Moreover,asubtlistinemotions,hecultivatedasunderglassesstrangeandmournfulpleasuresthathewouldnotwillinglyletdiejustatpresent。ToshowanyforwardnessinsuggestingamodusvivenditoGracewouldbetoputanendtotheseexotics。Tobethevassalofhersweetwillforatime,hedemandednomore,andfoundsolaceinthecontemplationofthesoftmiseriesshecausedhim。
Approachingthehill-topwithamindstrungtothesenotions,Fitzpiersdiscernedagayprocessionofpeoplecomingoverthecrest,andwasnotlonginperceivingittobeawedding-party。
Thoughthewindwaskeenthewomenwereinlightattire,andthefloweredwaistcoatsofthemenhadapleasingvividnessofpattern。Eachofthegentleronesclungtothearmofherpartnersotightlyastohavewithhimonestep,rise,swing,gait,almostonecentreofgravity。InthebuxombrideFitzpiersrecognizednootherthanSukeDamson,whoinherlightgownlookedagiantess;
thesmallhusbandbesideherhesawtobeTimTangs。
Fitzpierscouldnotescape,fortheyhadseenhim;thoughofallthebeautiesoftheworldwhomhedidnotwishtomeetSukewasthechief。Butheputthebestfaceonthematterthathecouldandcameon,theapproachingcompanyevidentlydiscussinghimandhisseparationfromMrs。Fitzpiers。Asthecouplescloseduponhimheexpressedhiscongratulations。
“Webejustwalkingroundtheparishestoshowourselvesabit。”
saidTim。“FirstwehetacrosstoDelborough,thenathwarttohere,andfromherewegotoRubdownandMillshot,andthenroundbythecross-roadshome。HomesaysI,butitwon’tbethatlong!
Webeoffnextmonth。”