第43章

类别:其他 作者:Clive Cussler (作者), Justin Sco字数:5608更新时间:18/12/22 09:08:35
confessthatIwenttobedwithoutoneworduponthematterofCarthew,butnotwithouthavingcovenantedwithmyrascalforavisittoChesterthenextday。AtChesterwedidtheCathedral,walkedonthewalls,discussedShakespeareandthemusicalglasses——andmadeafreshengagementforthemorrow。 Idonotknow,andIamgladtohaveforgotten,howlongthesetravelswerecontinued。Wevisitedatleast,bysingularzigzags,Stratford,Warwick,Coventry,Gloucester,Bristol,Bath,andWells。Ateachstagewespokedutifullyofthesceneanditsassociations;Isketched,theShysterspoutedpoetryandcopiedepitaphs。WhocoulddoubtweweretheusualAmericans,travellingwithadesignofself-improvement? Whowastoguessthatonewasablackmailer,tremblingtoapproachthesceneofaction——theotherahelpless,amateurdetective,waitingonevents? Itisunnecessarytoremarkthatnoneoccurred,ornonetheleastsuitablewithmydesignofprotectingCarthew。Twotrifles,indeed,completedthoughtheyscarcelychangedmyconceptionoftheShyster。ThefirstwasobservedinGloucester,wherewespentSunday,andIproposedweshouldhearserviceinthecathedral。Tomysurprise,thecreaturehadanISMofhisown,towhichhewasloyal;andheleftmetogoalonetothecathedral——orperhapsnottogoatall——andstoleoffdownadesertedalleytosomeBethelorEbenezerofthepropershade。 Whenwemetagainatlunch,Iralliedhim,andhegrewrestive。 “Youneedemploynocircumlocutionswithme,Mr。Dodd。”hesaidsuddenly。“Youregardmybehaviourfromanunfavourablepointofview:youregardme,Imuchfear,ashypocritical。” Iwassomewhatconfusedbytheattack。“YouknowwhatI thinkofyourtrade。”Ireplied,lamelyandcoarsely。 “Excuseme,ifIseemtopressthesubject。”hecontinued,“butifyouthinkmylifeerroneous,wouldyouhavemeneglectthemeansofgrace?Becauseyouconsidermeinthewrongononepoint,wouldyouhavemeplacemyselfonthewronginall? Surely,sir,thechurchisforthesinner。” “Didyouaskablessingonyourpresententerprise?”Isneered。 HehadabadattackofSt。Vitus,hisfacewaschanged,andhiseyesflashed。“IwilltellyouwhatIdid!”hecried。“Iprayedforanunfortunatemanandawretchedwomanwhomhetriestosupport。” IcannotpretendthatIfoundanyrepartee。 ThesecondincidentwasatBristol,whereIlostsightofmygentlemansomehours。Fromthiseclipse,hereturnedtomewiththickspeech,wanderingfootsteps,andabackallwhitenedwithplaster。Ihadhalfexpected,yetIcouldhavewepttoseeit。Alldisabilitieswerepiledonthatweakback—— domesticmisfortune,nervousdisease,adispleasingexterior,emptypockets,andtheslaveryofvice。 Iwillneverdenythatourprolongedconjunctionwastheresultofdoublecowardice。Eachwasafraidtoleavetheother,eachwasafraidtospeak,orknewnotwhattosay。Saveformyill- judgedallusionatGloucester,thesubjectuppermostinbothourmindswasburied。Carthew,Stallbridge-le-Carthew,Stallbridge-Minster——whichwehadlongsince(andseverally) identifiedtobetheneareststation——eventhenameofDorsetshirewasstudiouslyavoided。Andyetweweremakingprogressallthetime,tackingacrossbroadEnglandlikeanunweatherlyvesselonawind;approachingourdestination,notopenly,butbyasortofflyingsap。Andatlength,Icanscarcetellhow,weweresetdownbyadilatorybutt-endoflocaltrainontheuntenantedplatformofStallbridge-Minster。 Thetownwasancientandcompact:adominooftiledhousesandwalledgardens,dwarfedbythedisproportionatebignessofthechurch。Fromthemidstofthethoroughfarewhichdivideditinhalf,fieldsandtreeswerevisibleateitherend;andthroughthesally-portofeverystreet,thereflowedinfromthecountryasilentinvasionofgreengrass。Beesandbirdsappearedtomakethemajorityoftheinhabitants;everygardenhaditsrowofhives,theeavesofeveryhousewereplasteredwiththenestsofswallows,andthepinnaclesofthechurchwereflickeredaboutalldaylongbyamultitudeofwings。ThetownwasofRomanfoundation;andasIlookedoutthatafternoonfromthelowwindowsoftheinn,Ishouldscarcehavebeensurprisedtoseeacenturioncomingupthestreetwithafatiguedraftoflegionaries。Inshort,Stallbridge- MinsterwasoneofthosetownswhichappeartobemaintainedbyEnglandfortheinstructionanddelightoftheAmericanrambler;towhichheseemsguidedbyaninstinctnotlesssurprisingthanthesetter’s;andwhichhevisitsandquitswithequalenthusiasm。 Iwasnotatallinthehumourofthetourist。Ihadwastedweeksoftimeandaccomplishednothing;wewereontheeveoftheengagement,andIhadneitherplansnorallies。Ihadthrustmyselfintothetradeofprivateprovidenceandamateurdetective;IwasspendingmoneyandIwasreapingdisgrace。 Allthetime,IkepttellingmyselfthatImustatleastspeak; thatthisignominioussilenceshouldhavebeenbrokenlongago,andmustbebrokennow。IshouldhavebrokenitwhenhefirstproposedtocometoStallbridge-Minster;Ishouldhavebrokenitinthetrain;Ishouldbreakitthereandthen,ontheinndoorstep,astheomnibusrolledoff。Iturnedtowardhimatthethought;heseemedtowince,thewordsdiedonmylips,andIproposedinsteadthatweshouldvisittheMinster。 Whilewewereengageduponthisduty,itcameontoraininamannerworthyofthetropics。Thevaultreverberated;everygargoyleinstantlypoureditsfulldischarge;wewadedbacktotheinn,ankle-deepinimpromptubrooks;andtherestoftheafternoonsatweatherbound,hearkeningtothesonorousdeluge。FortwohoursItalkedofindifferentmatters,laboriouslyfeedingtheconversation;fortwohoursmymindwasquitemadeuptodomydutyinstantly——andateachparticularinstantIpostponedittillthenext。Toscrewupmyfalteringcourage,Icalledatdinnerforsomesparklingwine。Itprovedwhenitcametobedetestable;Icouldnotputittomylips;andBellairs,whohadasmuchpalateasaweevil,waslefttofinishithimself。Doubtlessthewineflushedhim;doubtlesshemayhaveobservedmyembarrassmentoftheafternoon; doubtlesshewasconsciousthatwewereapproachingacrisis,andthatthatevening,ifIdidnotjoinwithhim,Imustdeclaremyselfanopenenemy。Atleasthefled。Dinnerwasdone;thiswasthetimewhenIhadboundmyselftobreakmysilence;nomoredelaysweretobeallowed,nomoreexcusesreceived。I wentupstairsaftersometobacco;whichIfelttobeamerenecessityinthecircumstances;andwhenIreturned,themanwasgone。Thewaitertoldmehehadleftthehouse。 Therainstillplumped,likeavastshower-bath,overthedesertedtown。Thenightwasdarkandwindless:thestreetlitglimmeringlyfromendtoend,lamps,housewindows,andthereflectionsintherain-poolsallcontributing。Fromapublic- houseontheothersideoftheway,Iheardaharptwangandadolefulvoiceupraisedinthe“LarboardWatch。”“TheAnchor’sWeighed。”andothernavalditties。WherehadmyShysterwandered?Inalllikelihoodtothatlyricaltavern;therewasnochoiceofdiversion;incomparisonwithStallbridge-Minsteronarainynight,asheepfoldwouldseemgay。 AgainIpassedinreviewthepointsofmyinterview,onwhichI wasalwaysconstantlyresolvedsolongasmyadversarywasabsentfromthescene:andagaintheystruckmeasinadequate。 FromthisdispiritingexerciseIturnedtothenativeamusementsoftheinncoffee-room,andstudiedforsometimethemezzotintsthatfrowneduponthewall。Therailwayguide,aftershowingmehowsoonIcouldleaveStallbridgeandhowquicklyIcouldreachParis,failedtoholdmyattention。Anillustratedadvertisementbookofhotelsbroughtmeverylowindeed;andwhenitcametothelocalpaper,Icouldhavewept。 Atthispoint,IfoundapassingsolaceinacopyofWhittaker’sAlmanac,andobtainedinfiftyminutesmoreinformationthanI haveyetbeenabletouse。 Thenafreshapprehensionassailedme。SupposeBellairshadgivenmetheslip?supposehewasnowrollingontheroadtoStallbridge-le-Carthew?orperhapstherealreadyandlayingbeforeaverywhite-facedauditorhisthreatsandpropositions? Ahastypersonmighthaveinstantlypursued。WhateverIam,I amnothasty,andIwasawareofthreegraveobjections。Inthefirstplace,IcouldnotbecertainthatBellairswasgone。Inthesecond,Ihadnotastewhateverforalongdriveatthathourofthenightandinsomercilessarain。Inthethird,IhadnoideahowIwastogetadmittedifIwent,andnoideawhatIshouldsayifIgotadmitted。“Inshort。”Iconcluded,“thewholesituationisthemerestfarce。Youhavethrustyourselfinwhereyouhadnobusinessandhavenopower。YouwouldbequiteasusefulinSanFrancisco;farhappierinParis;andbeing(bythewrathofGod)atStallbridge-Minster,thewisestthingistogoquietlytobed。”Onthewaytomyroom,Isaw(inaflash) thatwhichIoughttohavedonelongago,andwhichitwasnowtoolatetothinkof——writtentoCarthew,Imean,detailingthefactsanddescribingBellairs,lettinghimdefendhimselfifhewereable,andgivinghimtimetofleeifhewerenot。Itwasthelastblowtomyself-respect;andIflungmyselfintomybedwithcontumely。 Ihavenoguesswhathouritwas,whenIwaswakenedbytheentranceofBellairscarryingacandle。Hehadbeendrunk,forhewasbedaubedwithmirefromheadtofoot;buthewasnowsoberandundertheempireofsomeviolentemotionwhichhecontrolledwithdifficulty。Hetrembledvisibly;andmorethanonce,duringtheinterviewwhichfollowed,tearssuddenlyandsilentlyoverflowedhischeeks。 “Ihavetoaskyourpardon,sir,forthisuntimelyvisit。”hesaid。 “Imakenodefence,Ihavenoexcuse,Ihavedisgracedmyself,Iamproperlypunished;Iappearbeforeyoutoappealtoyouinmercyforthemosttriflingaidor,Godhelpme!IfearImaygomad。” “Whatonearthiswrong?”Iasked。 “Ihavebeenrobbed。”hesaid。“Ihavenodefencetooffer;itwasofmyownfault,Iamproperlypunished。” “But,graciousgoodnessme!”Icried,“whoistheretorobyouinaplacelikethis?” “Icanformnoopinion。”hereplied。“Ihavenoidea。Iwaslyinginaditchinanimate。Thisisadegradingconfession,sir; Icanonlysayinself-defencethatperhaps(inyourgoodnature) youhavemadeyourselfpartlyresponsibleformyshame。Iamnotusedtotheserichwines。” “Inwhatformwasyourmoney?Perhapsitmaybetraced。”I suggested。 “ItwasinEnglishsovereigns。IchangeditinNewYork;Igotverygoodexchange。”hesaid,andthen,withamomentaryoutbreak,“Godinheaven,howItoiledforit!”hecried。 “Thatdoesn’tsoundencouraging。”saidI。“Itmaybeworthwhiletoapplytothepolice,butitdoesn’tsoundahopefulcase。” “AndIhavenohopeinthatdirection。”saidBellairs。“Myhopes,Mr。Dodd,areallfixeduponyourself。Icouldeasilyconvinceyouthatasmall,averysmalladvance,wouldbeinthenatureofanexcellentinvestment;butIprefertorelyonyourhumanity。Ouracquaintancebeganonanunusualfooting; butyouhavenowknownmeforsometime,wehavebeensometime——Iwasgoingtosaywehadbeenalmostintimate。 Undertheimpulseofinstinctivesympathy,Ihavebaredmyhearttoyou,Mr。Dodd,asIhavedonetofew;andIbelieve——I trust——ImaysaythatIfeelsure——youheardmewithakindlysentiment。Thisiswhatbringsmetoyoursideatthismostinexcusablehour。Butputyourselfinmyplace——howcouldI sleep——howcouldIdreamofsleeping,inthisblacknessofremorseanddespair?Therewasafriendathand——soIventuredtothinkofyou;itwasinstinctive;Ifledtoyourside,asthedrowningmanclutchesatastraw。Theseexpressionsarenotexaggerated,theyscarcelyservetoexpresstheagitationofmymind。Andthink,sir,howeasilyyoucanrestoremetohopeand,Imaysay,toreason。Asmallloan,whichshallbefaithfullyrepaid。Fivehundreddollarswouldbeample。”Hewatchedmewithburningeyes。“Fourhundredwoulddo。I believe,Mr。Dodd,thatIcouldmanagewitheconomyontwo。” “AndthenyouwillrepaymeoutofCarthew’spocket?”Isaid。 “Iammuchobliged。ButIwilltellyouwhatIwilldo:Iwillseeyouonboardasteamer,payyourfarethroughtoSanFrancisco,andplacefiftydollarsinthepurser’shands,tobegivenyouinNewYork。” Hedrankinmywords;hisfacerepresentedanecstasyofcunningthought。Icouldreadthere,plainasprint,thathebutthoughttooverreachme。 “AndwhatamItodoin’Frisco?”heasked。“Iamdisbarred,I havenotrade,Icannotdig,tobeg——“hepausedinthecitation。“AndyouknowthatIamnotalone。”headded,“othersdependuponme。” “IwillwritetoPinkerton。”Ireturned。“Ifeelsurehecanhelpyoutosomeemployment,andinthemeantime,andforthreemonthsafteryourarrival,heshallpaytoyourselfpersonally,onthefirstandthefifteenth,twenty-fivedollars。”