第9章

类别:其他 作者:Edmund Morris字数:4513更新时间:18/12/22 09:11:30
Therearetwokindsofsuccess,orrathertwokindsofabilitydisplayedintheachievementofsuccess。Thereis,first,thesuccesseitherinbigthingsorsmallthingswhichcomestothemanwhohasinhimthenaturalpowertodowhatnooneelsecando,andwhatnoamountoftraining,noperseveranceorwillpower,willenableanyordinarymantodo。Thissuccess,ofcourse,likeeveryotherkindofsuccess,maybeonaverybigscaleoronasmallscale。Thequalitywhichthemanpossessesmaybethatwhichenableshimtorunahundredyardsinnineandthree-fifthsseconds,ortoplaytenseparategamesofchessatthesametimeblindfolded,ortoaddfivecolumnsoffiguresatoncewithouteffort,ortowritethe“OdetoaGrecianUrn。”ortodelivertheGettysburgspeech,ortoshowtheabilityofFrederickatLeuthenorNelsonatTrafalgar。Noamountoftrainingofbodyormindwouldenableanygoodordinarymantoperformanyoneofthesefeats。Ofcoursetheproperperformanceofeachimpliesmuchpreviousstudyortraining,butinnooneofthemissuccesstobeattainedsavebythealtogetherexceptionalmanwhohasinhimthesomethingadditionalwhichtheordinarymandoesnothave。 Thisisthemoststrikingkindofsuccess,anditcanbeattainedonlybythemanwhohasinhimthequalitywhichseparateshiminkindnolessthanindegreefromhisfellows。Butmuchthecommonertypeofsuccessineverywalkoflifeandineveryspeciesofeffortisthatwhichcomestothemanwhodiffersfromhisfellowsnotbythekindofqualitywhichhepossessesbutbythedegreeofdevelopmentwhichhehasgiventhatquality。Thiskindofsuccessisopentoalargenumberofpersons,ifonlytheyseriouslydeterminetoachieveit。Itisthekindofsuccesswhichisopentotheaveragemanofsoundbodyandfairmind,whohasnoremarkablementalorphysicalattributes,butwhogetsjustasmuchaspossibleinthewayofworkoutoftheaptitudesthathedoespossess。Itistheonlykindofsuccessthatisopentomostofus。Yetsomeofthegreatestsuccessesinhistoryhavebeenthoseofthissecondclass——whenIcallitsecondclassIamnotrunningitdownintheleast,Iammerelypointingoutthatitdiffersinkindfromthefirstclass。Totheaveragemanitisprobablymoreusefultostudythissecondtypeofsuccessthantostudythefirst。 Fromthestudyofthefirsthecanlearninspiration,hecangetupliftandloftyenthusiasm。Fromthestudyofthesecondhecan,ifhechooses,findouthowtowinasimilarsuccesshimself。 IneedhardlysaythatallthesuccessesIhaveeverwonhavebeenofthesecondtype。Ineverwonanythingwithouthardlaborandtheexerciseofmybestjudgmentandcarefulplanningandworkinglonginadvance。Havingbeenarathersicklyandawkwardboy,Iwasasayoungmanatfirstbothnervousanddistrustfulofmyownprowess。Ihadtotrainmyselfpainfullyandlaboriouslynotmerelyasregardsmybodybutasregardsmysoulandspirit。 WhenaboyIreadapassageinoneofMarryat’sbookswhichalwaysimpressedme。InthispassagethecaptainofsomesmallBritishman- of-warisexplainingtotheherohowtoacquirethequalityoffearlessness。Hesaysthatattheoutsetalmosteverymanisfrightenedwhenhegoesintoaction,butthatthecoursetofollowisforthemantokeepsuchagriponhimselfthathecanactjustasifhewasnotfrightened。Afterthisiskeptuplongenoughitchangesfrompretensetoreality,andthemandoesinveryfactbecomefearlessbysheerdintofpracticingfearlessnesswhenhedoesnotfeelit。(Iamusingmyownlanguage,notMarryat’s。)ThiswasthetheoryuponwhichIwent。TherewereallkindsofthingsofwhichI wasafraidatfirst,rangingfromgrizzlybearsto“mean“horsesandgun-fighters;butbyactingasifIwasnotafraidIgraduallyceasedtobeafraid。Mostmencanhavethesameexperienceiftheychoose。 Theywillfirstlearntobearthemselveswellintrialswhichtheyanticipateandwhichtheyschoolthemselvesinadvancetomeet。Afterawhilethehabitwillgrowonthem,andtheywillbehavewellinsuddenandunexpectedemergencieswhichcomeuponthemunawares。 Itisofcoursemuchpleasanterifoneisnaturallyfearless,andI envyandrespectthemenwhoarenaturallyfearless。Butitisagoodthingtorememberthatthemanwhodoesnotenjoythisadvantagecanneverthelessstandbesidethemanwhodoes,andcandohisdutywiththelikeefficiency,ifhechoosesto。Ofcoursehemustnotlethisdesiretaketheformmerelyofaday-dream。Lethimdreamaboutbeingafearlessman,andthemorehedreamsthebetterhewillbe,alwaysprovidedhedoeshisbesttorealizethedreaminpractice。Hecandohisparthonorablyandwellprovidedonlyhesetsfearlessnessbeforehimselfasanideal,schoolshimselftothinkofdangermerelyassomethingtobefacedandovercome,andregardslifeitselfasheshouldregardit,notassomethingtobethrownaway,butasapawntobepromptlyhazardedwheneverthehazardiswarrantedbythelargerinterestsofthegreatgameinwhichweareallengaged。 4 WhenIleftHarvard,Itookupthestudyoflaw。IfIhadbeensufficientlyfortunatetocomeunderProfessorThayer,oftheHarvardLawSchool,itmaywellbethatIwouldhaverealizedthatthelawyercandoagreatworkforjusticeandagainstlegalism。 But,doubtlesschieflythroughmyownfault,someoftheteachingofthelawbooksandoftheclassroomseemedtometobeagainstjustice。 The/caveatemptor/sideofthelaw,likethe/caveatemptor/sideofbusiness,seemedtomerepellent;itdidnotmakeforsocialfairdealing。The“letthebuyerbeware“maxim,whentranslatedintoactualpractice,whetherinlaworbusiness,tendstotranslateitselffurtherintothesellermakinghisprofitattheexpenseofthebuyer,insteadofbyabargainwhichshallbetotheprofitofboth。Itdidnotseemtomethatthelawwasframedtodiscourageasitshouldsharppractice,andallotherkindsofbargainsexceptthosewhicharefairandofbenefittobothsides。Iwasyoung;therewasmuchinthejudgmentwhichIthenformedonthismatterwhichIshouldnowrevise; but,thenasnow,manyofthebigcorporationlawyers,towhomtheordinarymembersofthebarthenasnowlookedup,heldcertainstandardswhichweredifficulttorecognizeascompatiblewiththeidealismIsupposeeveryhigh-mindedyoungmanisapttofeel。IfI hadbeenobligedtoearneverycentIspent,Ishouldhavegonewhole- heartedlyintothebusinessofmakingbothendsmeet,andshouldhavetakenupthelaworanyotherrespectableoccupation——forIthenheld,andnowhold,thebeliefthataman’sfirstdutyistopullhisownweightandtotakecareofthosedependentuponhim;andIthenbelieved,andnowbelieve,thatthegreatestprivilegeandgreatestdutyforanymanistobehappilymarried,andthatnootherformofsuccessorservice,foreithermanorwoman,canbewiselyacceptedasasubstituteoralternative。ButithappenedthatIhadbeenleftenoughmoneybymyfathernottomakeitnecessaryformetothinksolelyofearningbreadformyselfandmyfamily。Ihadenoughtogetbread。WhatIhadtodo,ifIwantedbutterandjam,wastoprovidethebutterandjam,buttocounttheircostascomparedwithotherthings。Inotherwords,Imadeupmymindthat,whileImustearnmoney,Icouldaffordtomakeearningmoneythesecondaryinsteadoftheprimaryobjectofmycareer。IfIhadhadnomoneyatall,thenmyfirstdutywouldhavebeentoearnitinanyhonestfashion。AsIhadsomemoneyIfeltthatmyneedformoremoneywastobetreatedasasecondaryneed,andthatwhileitwasmybusinesstomakemoremoneywhereIlegitimatelyandproperlycould,yetthatitwasalsomybusinesstotreatotherkindsofworkasmoreimportantthanmoney- making。 AlmostimmediatelyafterleavingHarvardin1880Ibegantotakeaninterestinpolitics。Ididnotthenbelieve,andIdonotnowbelieve,thatanymanshouldeverattempttomakepoliticshisonlycareer。Itisadreadfulmisfortuneforamantogrowtofeelthathiswholelivelihoodandwholehappinessdependuponhisstayinginoffice。Suchafeelingpreventshimfrombeingofrealservicetothepeoplewhileinoffice,andalwaysputshimundertheheavieststrainofpressuretobarterhisconvictionsforthesakeofholdingoffice。 Amanshouldhavesomeotheroccupation——Ihadseveralotheroccupations——towhichhecanresortifatanytimeheisthrownoutofoffice,orifatanytimehefindsitnecessarytochooseacoursewhichwillprobablyresultinhisbeingthrownout,unlessheiswillingtostayinatcosttohisconscience。 Atthatday,in1880,ayoungmanofmybringingupandconvictionscouldjoinonlytheRepublicanparty,andjoinitIaccordinglydid。 Itwasnosimplethingtojoinitthen。Thatwaslongbeforetheeraofballotreformandthecontrolofprimaries;longbeforetheerawhenwerealizedthattheGovernmentmusttakeofficialnoticeofthedeedsandactsofpartyorganizations。Thepartywasstilltreatedasaprivatecorporation,andineachdistricttheorganizationformedakindofsocialandpoliticalclub。Amanhadtoberegularlyproposedforandelectedintothisclub,justasintoanyotherclub。Asafriendofminepicturesquelyphrasedit,I“hadtobreakintotheorganizationwithajimmy。” Underthesecircumstancestherewassomedifficultyinjoiningthelocalorganization,andconsiderableamusementandexcitementtobeobtainedoutofitafterIhadjoined。 Itwasoverthirty-threeyearsagothatIthusbecameamemberoftheTwenty-firstDistrictRepublicanAssociationinthecityofNewYork。 ThemenIknewbestwerethemenintheclubsofsocialpretensionandthemenofcultivatedtasteandeasylife。WhenIbegantomakeinquiriesastothewhereaboutsofthelocalRepublicanAssociationandthemeansofjoiningit,thesemen——andthebigbusinessmenandlawyersalso——laughedatme,andtoldmethatpoliticswere“low“; thattheorganizationswerenotcontrolledby“gentlemen“;thatI wouldfindthemrunbysaloon-keepers,horse-carconductors,andthelike,andnotbymenwithanyofwhomIwouldcomeincontactoutside; and,moreover,theyassuredmethatthemenImetwouldberoughandbrutalandunpleasanttodealwith。IansweredthatifthisweresoitmerelymeantthatthepeopleIknewdidnotbelongtothegoverningclass,andthattheotherpeopledid——andthatIintendedtobeoneofthegoverningclass;thatiftheyprovedtoohard-bitformeI supposedIwouldhavetoquit,butthatIcertainlywouldnotquituntilIhadmadetheeffortandfoundoutwhetherIreallywastooweaktoholdmyownintheroughandtumble。