第1章

类别:其他 作者:Anne Bronte字数:5958更新时间:18/12/22 09:13:11
TheTenantofWildfellHallAnnBrontë;:TheTenantofWildfellHallTheTenantofWildfellHallADiscoveryYoumustgobackwithmetotheautumnof Myfather,asyouknow,wasasortofgentlemanfarmerin——shire; andI,byhisexpressdesire,succeededhiminthesamequietoccupation,notverywillingly,forambitionurgedmetohigheraims,andself-conceitassuredmethat,indisregardingitsvoice,Iwasburyingmytalentintheearth,andhidingmylightunderabushel。Mymotherhaddoneherutmosttopersuade’methatIwascapableofgreatachievements;butmyfather,whothoughtambitionwasthesurestroadtoruin,andchangebutanotherwordfordestruction,wouldlistentonoschemeforbetteringeithermyowncondition,orthatofmyfellowmortals。Heassuredmeitwasallrubbish,andexhortedme,withhisdyingbreath,tocontinueinthegoodoldway,tofollowhissteps,andthoseofhisfatherbeforehim,andletmyhighestambitionbe,towalkhonestlythroughtheworld,lookingneithertotherighthandnortotheleft,andtotransmitthepaternalacrestomychildrenin,atleast,asflourishingaconditionasheleftthemtome。 `Well!——anhonestandindustriousfarmerisoneofthemostusefulmembersofsociety;andifIdevotemytalentstothecultivationofmyfarm,andtheimprovementofagricultureingeneral,Ishalltherebybenefit,notonlymyownimmediateconnectionsanddependants,butinsomedegree,mankindatlarge:——henceIshallnothavelivedinvain。’ Withsuchreflectionsasthese,Iwasendeavouringtoconsolemyself,asIploddedhomefromthefield,onecold,damp,cloudyeveningtowardsthecloseofOctober。Butthegleamofabrightredfirethroughtheparlourwindowhadmoreeffectincheeringmyspirits,andrebukingmythanklessrepinings,thanallthesagereflectionsandgoodresolutionsIhadforcedmymindtoframe;——forIwasyoungthen,remember——onlyfourandtwenty——andhadnotacquiredhalftheruleovermyownspirit,thatInowpossess,——triflingasthatmaybe。 However,thathavenofblissmustnotbeenteredtillIhadexchangedmymirybootsforacleanpairofshoes,andmyroughsurtoutforarespectablecoat,andmademyselfgenerallypresentablebeforedecentsociety;formymother,withallherkindness,wasvastlyparticularoncertainpoints。 Inascendingtomyroom,Iwasmetuponthestairsbyasmart,prettygirlofnineteen,withatidy,dumpyfigure,aroundface,bright,bloomingcheeks,glossy,clusteringcurls,andlittlemerrybrowneyes。 IneednottellyouthiswasmysisterRose。Sheis,Iknow,acomelymatronstill,and,doubtless,nolesslovely——inyoureyes——thanonthehappydayyoufirstbeheldher。Nothingtoldmethen,thatshe,afewyearshence,wouldbethewifeofone——entirelyunknowntomeasyet,butdestined,hereafter,tobecomeacloserfriendthanevenherself,moreintimatethanthatunmannerlyladofseventeen,bywhomIwascollaredinthepassage,oncomingdown,andwellnighjerkedoffmyequilibrium,andwho,incorrectionforhisimpudence,receivedaresoundingwhackoverthesconce,which,however,sustainednoseriousinjuryfromtheinfliction;asbesidesbeingmorethancommonlythick,itwasprotectedbyaredundantshockofshort,reddishcurls,thatmymothercalledauburn。 Onenteringtheparlour,wefoundthathonouredladyseatedinherarmchairatthefireside,workingawayatherknitting,accordingtoherusualcustom,whenshehadnothingelsetodo。Shehadsweptthehearth,andmadeabrightblazingfireforourreception;theservanthadjustbroughtinthetea-tray;andRosewasproducingthesugar-basinandtea-caddyfromthecupboardintheblack,oaksideboard,thatshonelikepolishedebonyinthecheerfulparlourtwilight。 `Well!heretheybothare,’criedmymother,lookingrounduponuswithoutretardingthemotionofhernimblefingersandglitteringneedles。 `Nowshutthedoor,andcometothefire,whileRosegetstheteaready; I’msureyoumustbestarved;——andtellmewhatyou’vebeenaboutallday; Iliketoknowwhatmychildrenhavebeenabout。’ `I’vebeenbreakinginthegreycolt——noeasybusinessthat——directingtheploughingofthelastwheatstubble——fortheploughboyhasnotthesensetodirecthimself——andcarryingoutaplanfortheextensiveandefficientdrainingofthelowmeadow-lands。’ `That’smybraveboy!——andFergus——whathaveyoubeendoing?’ `Badger-baiting。’ Andhereheproceededtogiveaparticularaccountofhissport,andtherespectivetraitsofprowessevincedbythebadgerandthedogs; mymotherpretendingtolistenwithdeepattention,andwatchinghis。animatedcountenancewithadegreeofmaternaladmirationIthoughthighlydisproportionedtoitsobject。 `It’stimeyoushouldbedoingsomethingelse,Fergus,’saidI,assoonasamomentarypauseinhisnarrationallowedmetogetinaword。 `WhatcanIdo?’repliedhe;`mymotherwon’tletmegotoseaorenterthearmy;andI’mdeterminedtodonothingelse——exceptmakemyselfsuchanuisancetoyouall,thatyouwillbethankfultogetridofme,onanyterms。’ Ourparentsoothinglystrokedhisstiff。,shortcurls。Hegrowled,andtriedtolooksulky,andthen,wealltookourseatsatthetable,inobediencetothethricerepeatedsummonsofRose。 `Nowtakeyourtea,’saidshe;`andI’lltellyouwhatI’vebeendoing。I’vebeentocallontheWilsons;andit’sathousandpitiesyoudidn’tgowithme,Gilbert,forElizaMillwardwasthere!’ `Well!whatofher?’ `Ohnothing!——I’mnotgoingtotellyouabouther;——onlythatshe’sanice,amusinglittlething,whensheisinamerryhumour,andIshouldn’tmindcallingher——` `Hush,hush,mydear!yourbrotherhasnosuchidea!’whisperedmymother,earnestly,holdingupherfinger。 `Well,’resumedRose;`IwasgoingtotellyouanimportantpieceofnewsIheardthere——I’vebeenburstingwithiteversince。Youknowitwasreportedamonthago,thatsomebodywasgoingtotakeWildfellHall——and——whatdoyouthink?Ithasactuallybeeninhabitedaboveaweek!——andweneverknew!’ `Impossible!’criedmymother。 `Preposterous!!!’shriekedFergus。 `Ithasindeed!——andbyasinglelady!’ `Goodgracious,mydear!Theplaceisinruins!’ `Shehashadtwoorthreeroomsmadehabitable;andthereshelives,allalone——exceptanoldwomanforaservant!’ `Ohdear!thatspoilsit——I’dhopedshewasawitch,’observedFergus,whilecarvinghisinch-thicksliceofbreadandbutter。 `Nonsense,Fergus!Butisn’titstrange,mamma?’ `Strange!Icanhardlybelieveit。’ `Butyoumaybelieveit;forJaneWilsonhasseenher。Shewentwithhermother,who,ofcourse,whensheheardofastrangerbeingintheneighbourhood,wouldbeonpinsandneedlestillshehadseenherandgotallshecouldoutofher。SheiscalledMrsGraham,andsheisinmourning——notwidow’sweeds,butslightishmourning——andsheisquiteyoung,theysay,——notabovefiveorsixandtwenty,——butsoreserved!Theytriedalltheycouldtofindoutwhoshewas,andwhereshecamefrom,andallabouther,butneitherMrsWilson,withherpertinaciousandimpertinenthomethrusts,norMissWilson,withherskilfulmanoeuvering,couldmanagetoelicitasinglesatisfactoryanswer,orevenacasualremark,orchanceexpressioncalculatedtoallaytheircuriosity,orthrowthefaintestrayoflightuponherhistory,circumstances,orconnexions。Moreover,shewasbarelyciviltothem,andevidentlybetterpleasedtosay“goodbye。”than“howdoyoudo。”ButElizaMillwardsaysherfatherintendstocalluponhersoon,tooffersomepastoraladvice,whichhefearssheneeds,asthoughsheisknowntohaveenteredtheneighbourhoodearlylastweek,shedidnotmakeherappearanceatchurchonSunday;andshe——Eliza,thatis——willbegtoaccompanyhim,andissureshecansucceedinwheedlingsomethingoutofher——youknow,Gilbert,shecandoanything。Andweshouldcallsometime,mamma;it’sonlyproper,youknow。’ `Ofcourse,mydear。Poorthing!howlonelyshemustfeel!’ `Andpraybequickaboutit;andmindyoubringmewordhowmuchsugarsheputsinhertea,andwhatsortofcapsandapronsshewears,andallaboutit;forIdon’tknowhowIcanlivetillIknow,’saidFergus,verygravely。 Butifheintendedthespeechtobehailedasamaster-strokeofwit,hesignallyfailed,fornobodylaughed。However,hewasnotmuchdisconcertedatthat;forwhenhehadtakenamouthfulofbreadandbutter,andwasabouttoswallowagulpoftea,thehumourofthethingburstuponhimwithsuchirresistibleforce,thathewasobligedtojumpupfromthetable,andrushsnortingandchokingfromtheroom;andaminuteafter,washeardscreaminginfearfulagonyinthegarden。 Asforme,Iwashungry,andcontentedmyselfwithsilentlydemolishingthetea,ham,andtoast,whilemymotherandsisterwentontalking,andcontinuedtodiscusstheapparent,ornon-apparentcircumstances,andprobable,orimprobablehistoryofthemysteriouslady;butImustconfessthat,aftermybrother’smisadventure,Ionceortwiceraisedthecuptomylips,andputitdownagainwithoutdaringtotastethecontents,lestIshouldinjuremydignitybyasimilarexplosion。 Thenextday,mymotherandRosehastenedtopaytheircomplimentstothefairrecluse;andcamebackbutlittlewiserthantheywent;thoughmymotherdeclaredshedidnotregretthejourney,forifshehadnotgainedmuchgood,sheflatteredherselfshehadimpartedsome,andthatwasbetter: shehadgivensomeusefuladvice,which,shehoped,wouldnotbethrownaway;forMrsGraham,thoughshesaidlittletoanypurpose,andappearedsomewhatself-opinionated,seemednotincapableofreflection,——thoughshedidnotknowwhereshehadbeenallherlife,poorthing,forshebetrayedalamentableignoranceoncertainpoints,andhadnoteventhesensetobeashamedofit。 `Onwhatpoints,mother?’askedI。 `Onhouseholdmatters,andallthelittlenicetiesofcookery,andsuchthings,thateveryladyoughttobefamiliarwith,whethersheberequiredtomakeapracticaluseofherknowledgeornot。Igavehersomeusefulpiecesofinformation,however,andseveralexcellentreceipts,thevalueofwhich,sheevidentlycouldnotappreciate,forshebeggedIwouldnottroublemyself,asshelivedinsuchaplain,quietway,thatshewas。suresheshouldnevermakeuseofthem。“Nomatter,mydear。” saidI;“itiswhateveryrespectablefemaleoughttoknow;——andbesides,thoughyouarelonenow,youwillnotbealwaysso;youhavebeenmarried,andprobably——Imightsayalmostcertainly——willbeagain。”“Youaremistakenthere,ma’am。”saidshe,almosthaughtily;“Iamcertainnevershall。”——ButItoldherIknewbetter。’ `Someromanticyoungwidow,Isuppose,’saidI,`cometheretoendherdaysinsolitude,andmourninsecretforthedeardeparted——butitwon’tlastlong。’ `No,Ithinknot,’observedRose,`forshedidn’tseemverydisconsolateafterall;andshe’sexcessivelypretty——handsomerather——youmustseeher,Gilbert;youwillcallheraperfectbeauty,thoughyoucouldhardlypretendtodiscoveraresemblanceb~tweenherandElizaMillward。’ `Well,IcanimaginemanyfacesmorebeautifulthanEliza’s,thoughnotmorecharming。Iallowshehassmallclaimstoperfection;butthen,Imaintainthat,ifsheweremoreperfect,shewouldbelessinteresting。’ `Andsoyoupreferherfaultstootherpeople’sperfections?’ `Justso——savingmymother’spresence。’ `Oh,mydearGilbert,whatnonsenseyoutalk!——Iknowyoudon’tmeanit;it’squiteoutofthequestion,’saidmymother,gettingup,andbustlingoutoftheroom,underpretenceofhouseholdbusiness,inordertoescapethecontradictionthatwastremblingonmytongue。 Afterthat,RosefavouredmewithfurtherparticularsrespectingMrsGraham。Herappearance,manners,anddress,andtheveryfurnitureoftheroomsheinhabited,wereallsetbeforeme,withrathermoreclearnessandprecisionthanIcaredtoseethem;but,asIwasnotaveryattentivelistener,IcouldnotrepeatthedescriptionifIwould。 ThenextdaywasSaturday;and,onSunday,everybodywonderedwhetherornotthefairunknownwouldprofitbythevicar’sremonstrance,andcometochurch。Iconfess,Ilookedwithsomeinterestmyselftowardstheoldfamilypew,appertainingtoWildfellHall,wherethefadedcrimsoncushionsandlininghadbeenunpressedandunrenewedsomanyyears,andthegrimescutcheons,withtheirlugubriousbordersofrustyblackcloth,frownedsosternlyfromthewallabove。 AndthereIbeheldatall,lady-likefigure,cladinblack。Herfacewastowardsme,andtherewassomethinginit,which,onceseen,invitedmetolookagain。Herhairwasravenblack,anddisposedinlongglossyringlets,astyleofcoiffureratherunusualinthosedays,butalwaysgracefulandbecoming;hercomplexionwasclearandpale,hereyesIcouldnotsee,forbeingbentupon,herprayerbooktheywereconcealedbytheirdroopinglidsandlongblacklashes,butthebrowsabovewereexpressiveandwelldefined,theforeheadwasloftyandintellectual,thenose,aperfectaquiline,andthefeaturesingeneral,unexceptionable——onlytherewasaslighthollownessaboutthecheeksandeyes,andthelips,thoughfinelyformed,werealittletoothin,alittletoofirmlycompressed,andhadsomethingaboutthemthatbetokened,Ithought,noverysoftoramiabletemper;andIsaidinmyheart—— `Iwouldratheradmireyoufromthisdistance,fairlady,thanbethepartnerofyourhome。’ Justthen,shehappenedtoraisehereyes,andtheymetmine; Idl~dnotchoosetowithdrawmygaze,andsheturnedagaintoherbook,butwithamomentary,indefinableexpressionofquietscorn,thatwasinexpressiblyprovokingtome。