第5章

类别:其他 作者:Anne Bronte字数:5396更新时间:18/12/22 09:13:11
MyElizawascharmingbeyonddescription,coquettishwithoutaffectation,andevidentlymoredesiroustoengagemyattentionthanthatofalltheroombesides。Herdelightinhavingmenearher,seatedorstandingbyherside,whisperinginherear,orpressingherhandinthedance,wasplainlylegibleinherglowingfaceandheavingbosom,howeverbeliedbysaucywordsandgestures。ButIhadbetterholdmytongue:ifIboastofthesethingsnow,Ishallhavetoblushhereafter。 Toproceedthen,withthevariousindividualsofourparty;Rosewassimpleandnaturalasusual,andfullofmirthandvivacity。 Ferguswasimpertinentandabsurd;buthisimpertinenceandfollyservedtomakeotherslaugh,iftheydidnotraisehimselfintheirestimation。 Andfinally(forIomitmyself),MrLawrencewasgentlemanlyandinoffensivetoall,andpolitetothevicarandtheladies,especiallyhishostessandherdaughter,andMissWilson——misguidedman;hehadnotthetastetopreferElizaMillward。MrLawrenceandIwereontolerablyintimateterms。Essentiallyofreservedhabits,andbutseldomquittingthesecludedplaceofhisbirth,wherehehadlivedinsolitarystatesincethedeathofhisfather,hehadneithertheopportunitynortheinclinationforformingmanyacquaintances;and,ofallhehadeverknown,I(judgingbytheresults)wasthecompanionmostagreeabletohistaste。Ilikedthemanwellenough,buthewastoocold,andshy,andself-contained,toobtainmycordialsympathies。Aspiritofcandourandfrankness,whenwhollyunaccompaniedwithcoarseness,headmiredinothers,buthecouldnotacquireithimself。Hisexcessivereserveuponallhisownconcernswas,indeed,provokingandchillyenough;butIforgaveit,fromaconvictionthatitoriginated,lessinprideandwantofconfidenceinhisfriends,thaninacertainmorbidfeelingofdelicacy,andapeculiardiffidence,thathewassensibleof,butwantedenergytoovercome。 Hisheartwaslikeasensitiveplant,thatopensforamomentinthesunshine,butcurlsupandshrinksintoitselfattheslightesttouchofthefinger,orthelightestbreathofwind。And,uponthewhole,ourintimacywasratheramutualpredilectionthanadeepandsolidfriendship,suchashassincearisenbetweenmyselfandyou,Halford,whom,inspiteofyouroccasionalcrustiness,Icanlikentonothingsowellasanoldcoat,unimpeachableintexture,buteasyandloose——thathasconformeditselftotheshapeofthewearer,andwhichhemayuseashepleases,withoutbeingbotheredwiththefearofspoilingit;——whereasMrLawrencewaslikeanewgarment,allveryneatandtrimtolookat,butsotightintheelbowsthatyouwouldfeartosplittheseamsbytheunrestrictedmotionofyourarms,andsosmoothandfineinsurfacethatyouscrupletoexposeittoasingledropofrain。 Soonafterthearrivaloftheguests,mymothermentionedMrsGraham,regrettedshewasnottheretomeetthem,andexplainedtotheMillwardsandWilsonsthereasonsshehadgivenforneglectingtoreturntheircalls,hopingtheywouldexcuseher,asshewassureshedidnotmeantobeuncivil,andwouldbegladtoseethematanytime;—— `Butsheisaverysingularlady,MrLawrence,’addedshe;`wedon’tknowwhattomakeofher——butIdaresayyoucantellussomethingabouther;forsheisyourtenant,youknow,——andshesaidsheknewyoualittle。’ AlleyeswereturnedtoMrLawrence。Ithoughthelookedunnecessarilyconfusedatbeingsoappealedto。 `I,MrsMarkham!’saidhe,`youaremistaken——Idon’t——thatis——I haveseenhercertainly;butIamthelastpersonyoushouldapplytoforinformationrespectingMrsGraham。’ HethenimmediatelyturnedtoRose,andaskedhertofavourthecompanywithasong,oratuneonthepiano。 `No,’saidshe;`youmustaskMissWilson:sheoutshinesusallinsinging,andmusictoo。’ MissWilsondemurred。 `She’llsingreadilyenough,’saidFergus,`ifyou’llundertaketostandbyher,MrLawrence,andturnovertheleavesforher。’ `Ishallbemosthappytodoso。MissWilson,willyouallowme?’ Shebridledherlongneckandsmiled,andsufferedhimtoleadhertotheinstrument,wheresheplayedandsang,inherverybeststyle,onepieceafteranother;whilehestoodpatientlyby,leaningonehandonthebackofherchair,andturningovertheleavesofherbookwiththeother。Perhapshewasasmuchcharmedwithherperformanceasshewas。 Itwasallveryfineinitsway;butIcannotsaythatitmovedmeverydeeply。Therewasplentyofskillandexecution,butpreciouslittlefeeling。 ButwehadnotdonewithMrsGrahamyet。 `Idon’ttakewine,MrsMarkham,’saidMrMillward,upontheintroductionofthatbeverage;`I’lltakealittleofyourhome-brewedale。Ialwayspreferyourhome-brewedtoanythingelse。’ Flatteredatthiscompliment,mymotherrangthebell,andachinajugofourbestalewaspresentlybrought,andsetbeforetheworthygentlemanwhosowellknewhowtoappreciateitsexcellencies。 `NowTHISisthething!’criedhe,pouringoutaglassofthesameinalongstream,skilfullydirectedfromthejugtothetumbler,soastoproducemuchfoamwithoutspillingadrop;and,havingsurveyeditforamomentoppositethecandle,hetookadeepdraught,andthensmackedhislips,drewalongbreath,andrefilledhisglass,mymotherlookingonwiththegreatestsatisfaction。 `There’snothinglikethis,MrsMarkham!’saidhe;`Ialwaysmaintainthatthere’snothingtocomparewithyourhome-brewedale。’ `I’msureI’mgladyoulikeit,sir。Ialwayslookafterthebrewingmyself,aswellasthecheeseandthebutter——Iliketohavethingswelldone,whilewe’reaboutit。’ `Quiteright,MrsMarkham!’ `Butthen,MrMillward,youdon’tthinkitwrongtotakealittlewinenowandthen——oralittlespiritseither?’saidmymother,asshehandedasmoKingtumblerofginandwatertoMrsWilson,whoaffirmedthatwinesatheavyonherstomach,andwhosesonRobertwasatthatmomenthelpinghimselftoaprettystiffglassofthesame。 `Bynomeans!’repliedtheoracle,withaJove-likenod;`thesethingsareallblessingsandmercies,ifweonlyknewhowtomakeuseofthem。’ `ButMrsGrahamdoesn’tthinkso。Youshalljusthearnow,whatshetoldustheotherday——ItoldherI’dtellyou。’ Andmymotherfavouredthecompanywithaparticularaccountofthatlady’smistakenideasandconductregardingthematterinhand,concludingwith,`Nowdon’tyouthinkitiswrong?’ `Wrong!’repeatedthevicar,withmorethancommonsolemnity——`criminal,Ishouldsay——criminal!——Notonlyisitmakingafooloftheboy,butitisdespisingthegiftsofprovidence,andteachinghimtotramplethemunderhisfeet。’ Hethenenteredmorefullyintothequestion,andexplainedatlargethefollyandimpietyofsuchaproceeding。Mymotherheardhimwithprofoundestreverence;andevenMrsWilsonvouchsafedtoresthertongueforamoment,andlisteninsilence,whileshecomplacentlysippedherginandwater。MrLawrencesatwithhiselbowonthetable,carelesslyplayingwithhishalf-emptywine-glass,andcovertlysmilingtohimself。 `Butdon’tyouthink,MrMillward,’suggestedhe,whenatlengththatgentlemanpausedinhisdiscourse,`thatwhenachildmaybenaturallypronetointemperance——bythefaultofitsparentsorancestors,forinstance——someprecautionsareadvisable?’(NowitwasgenerallybelievedthatMrLawrence’sfatherhadshortenedhisdaysbyintemperance。) `Someprecautions,itmaybe;buttemperance,sir,isonething,andabstinenceanother。’ `ButIhaveheardthat,withsomepersons,temperance——thatismoderation——isalmostimpossible;andifabstinencebeanevil(whichsomehavedoubted),noonewilldenythatexcessisagreater。Someparentshaveentirelyprohibitedtheirchildrenfromtastingintoxicatingliquors; butaparent’sauthoritycannotlistforever:childrenarenaturallypronetohankerafterforbiddenthings;andachild,insuchacase,wouldbelikelytohaveastrongcuriositytotaste,andtrytheeffectofwhathasbeensolaudedandenjoyedbyothers,sostrictlyforbiddentohimself——whichcuriositywouldgenerallybegratifiedonthefirstconvenientopportunity; andtherestraintoncebroken,seriousconsequencesmightensue。Idon’tpretendtobeajudgeofsuchmatters,butitseemstome,thatthisplanofMrsGraham’s,asyoudescribeit,MrsMarkham,extraordinaryasitmaybe,isnotwithoutitsadvantages;forhereyousee,thechildisdeliveredatoncefromtemptation;hehasnosecretcuriosity,nohankeringdesire; heisaswellacquaintedwiththetemptingliquorsasheeverwishestobe;andisthoroughlydisgustedwiththemwithouthavingsufferedfromtheireffects。’ `Andisthatright,sir?’HaveInotproventoyouhowwrongitis——howcontrarytoScriptureandtoreasontoteachachildtolookwithcontemptanddisgustupontheblessingsofprovidence,insteadoftousethemaright?’ `Youmayconsiderlaudanumablessingofprovidence,sir,’repliedMrLawrence,smiling;`andyet,youwillallowthatmostofushadbetterabstainfromit,eveninmoderation;but,’addedhe,`Iwouldnotdesireyoutofollowoutmysimiletooclosely——inwitnesswhereofIfinishmyglass。’ `AndtakeanotherIhope,MrLawrence,’saidmymother,pushingthebottletowardshim。 Hepolitelydeclined,andpushinghischairalittlewayfromthetable,leantbacktowardsme——Iwasseatedatriflebehind,onthesofabesideElizaMillward——andcarelesslyaskedmeifIknewMrsGraham。 `Ihavemetheronceortwice,’Ireplied。`Whatdoyouthinkofher?’ `IcannotsaythatIlikehermuch。Sheishandsome——orratherIshouldsaydistinguishedandinteresting——inherappearance,butbynomeansamiable——awomanliabletotakestrongprejudices,Ishouldfancy,andsticktothemthroughthickandthin,twistingeverythingintoconformitywithherownpreconceivedopinions——toohard,toosharp,toobitterformytaste。’ Hemadenoreply,butlookeddownandbithislip,andshortlyafterroseandsauntereduptoMissWilson,asmuchrepelledbyme,Ifancy,asattractedbyher。Iscarcelynoticeditatthetime,butafterwards,Iwasledtorecallthisandothertriflingfacts,ofasimilarnature,tomyremembrance,when——butImustnotanticipate。 Wewounduptheeveningwithdancing——ourworthypastorthinkingitnoscandaltobepresentontheoccasion,thoughoneofthevillagemusicianswasengagedtodirectourevolutions’withhisviolin。ButMaryMillwardobstinatelyrefusedtojoinus;andsodidRichardWilson,thoughmymotherearnestlyentreatedhimtodoso,andevenofferedtobehispartner。 Wemanagedverywellwithoutthem,however。Withasinglesetofquadrilles,andseveralcountrydances,wecarrieditontoaprettylatehour;andatlength,havingcalleduponourmusiciantostrikeupawaltz,IwasjustabouttowhirlElizaroundinthatdelightfuldance,accompaniedbyLawrenceandJaneWilson,andFergusandRose,whenMrMillwardinterposedwith,—— `No,no,Idon’tallowthat!Come,it’stimetobegoingnow。’ `Oh,no,papal’pleadedEliza。 `Hightime,mygirl——hightime!——Moderationinallthings,remember! That’stheplan——“letyourmoderationbeknownuntoallmen“!’5 Butinrevenge,IfollowedElizaintothedimly-lightedpassage,whereunderpretenceofhelpingheronwithhershawl,IfearImustpleadguiltytosnatchingakissbehindherfather’sback,whilehewasenvelopinghisthroatandchininthefoldsofamightycomforter。Butalas!inturninground,therewasmymotherclosebesideme。Theconsequencewas,thatnosoonerweretheguestsdeparted,thanIwasdoomedtoaveryseriousremonstrance,whichunpleasantlycheckedthegallopingcourseofmyspirits,andmadeadisagreeableclosetotheevening。 `MydearGilbert,’saidshe,`Iwishyouwouldn’tdoso!YouknowhowdeeplyIhaveyouradvantageatheart,howIloveyouandprizeyouaboveeverythingelseintheworld,andhowmuchIlongtoseeyouwellsettledinlife——andhowbitterlyitwouldgrievemetoseeyoumarriedtothatgirl——oranyotherintheneighbourhood。WhatyouseeinherI don’tknow。Itisn’tonlythewantofmoneythatIthinkabout——nothingofthekind——butthere’sneitherbeauty,norcleverness,norgoodness,noranythingelsethat’sdesirable。IfyouknewyourownvalueasIdo,youwouldn’tdreamofit。Dowaitawhileandsee!ifyoubindyourselftoher,you’llrepentitallyourlifetimewhenyoulookroundyouandseehowmanybetterthereare。Takemywordforit,youwill。’