第13章

类别:其他 作者:Anne Bronte字数:5285更新时间:18/12/22 09:13:11
Shesmiled,andoncemorebidmego,——and,atlength,Ijudgeditprudenttoobey;andshere-enteredthehouse,andIwentdownthehill。 ButasIwent,thetrampofhorses’hoofsfellonmyear,andbrokethestillnessofthedewyevening;and,lookingtowardsthelane,Isawasolitaryequestriancomingup。Incliningtoduskasitwas,Iknewhimataglance: itwasMrLawrenceonhisgreypony。Iflewacrossthefield——leapedthestonefence——andthenwalkeddownthelanetomeethim。Onseeingme,hesuddenlydrewinhislittlesteed,andseemedinclinedtoturnback,butonsecondthought,apparentlyjudgeditbettertocontinuehiscourseasbefore。Heaccostedmewithaslightbow,and,edgingclosetothewall,endeavouredtopasson——butIwasnotsominded:seizinghishorsebythebridle,Iexclaimed:—— `Now,Lawrence,Iwillhavethismysteryexplained!Tellmewhereyouaregoing,andwhatyoumeantodo——atonce,anddistinctly!’ `Willyoutakeyourhandoffthebridle?’saidhe,quietly——`you’rehurtingmypony’smouth。’ `Youandyourponybe——’ `Whatmakesyousocoarseandbrutal,Markham?I’mquiteashamedofyou。’ `Youanswermyquestions——beforeyouleavethisspot!Iwillknowwhatyoumeanbythisperfidiousduplicity?’ `Ishallanswernoquestionstillyouletgothebridle,——ifyoustandtillmorning。’ `Nowthen,’saidI,unclosingmyhand,butstillstandingbeforehim。 `Askmesomeothertime,whenyoucanspeaklikeagentleman,’ returnedhe,andhemadeanefforttopassmeagain;butIquicklyrecapturedthepony,scarcelessastonishedthanitsmasteratsuchuncivilusage。 `Really,MrMarkham,thisistoomuch!’saidthelatter。`CanInotgotoseemytenantonmattersofbusiness,withoutbeingassaultedinthismannerby——’ `Thisisnotimeforbusiness,sir!——I’lltellyou,now,whatIthinkofyourConduct。’ `You’dbetterdeferyouropiniontoamoreconvenientseason,’ interruptedhe,inalowtone——`here’sthevicar。’ Andintruth,thevicarwasjustbehindme,ploddinghomewardfromsomeremotecornerofhisparish。Iimmediatelyreleasedthesquire; andhewentonhisway,salutingMrMillwardashepassed。 `What,quarrelling,Markham?’criedthelatter,addressinghimselftome,——`andaboutthatyoungwidowIdoubt,’headded,reproachfullyshakinghishead。`Butletmetellyou,youngman(hereheputhisfaceintominewithanimportant,confidentialair),`the’snotworthit!’andheconfirmedtheassertionbyasolemnnod。 `MrMILLWARD!’Iexclaimed,inatoneofwrathfulmenacethatmadethereverendgentlemanlookround——aghast——astoundedatsuchunwontedinsolence,andstaremeintheface,withalookthatplainlysaid:`What,thistome!’ButIwastooindignanttoapologize,ortospeakanotherwordtohim:Iturnedaway,andhastenedhomewards,descendingwithrapidstridesthesteep,roughlane,andleavinghimtofollowashepleased。 TheTenantofWildfellHall:Chapter11CHAPTER11TheVicarAgainYoumustsupposeaboutthreeweekspassedover。MrsGrahamandIwerenowestablishedfriends——orbrotherandsister,asweratherchosetoconsiderourselves。ShecalledmeGilbert,bymyexpressdesire,andIcalledherHelen,forIhadseenthatnamewritteninherbooks。Iseldomattemptedtoseeherabovetwiceaweek;andstillImadeourmeetingsappeartheresultofaccidentasoftenasIcould——forIfounditnecessarytobeextremelycareful——and,altogether,Ibehavedwithsuchexceedingproprietythatsheneverhadoccasiontoreprovemeonce。YetIcouldnotbutperceivethatshewasattimesunhappyanddissatisfiedwithherself——orherposition,andtrulyImyselfwasnotquitecontentedwiththelatter:thisassumptionofbrotherlynonchalancewasveryhardtosustain,andIoftenfeltmyselfamostconfoundedhypocritewithitall;Isawtoo,orratherIfelt,that,inspiteofherself,`Iwasnotindifferenttoher。”asthenovelheroesmodestlyexpressit,andwhileIthankfullyenjoyedmypresentgoodfortune,Icouldnotfailtowishandhopeforsomethingbetterinfuture;butofcourse,Ikeptsuchdreamsentirelytomyself。 `Whereareyougoing,Gilbert?’saidRose,oneevening,shortlyaftertea,whenIhadbeenbusywiththefarmallday,`Totakeawalk,’wasthereply。 `Doyoualwaysbrushyourhatsocarefully,anddoyourhairsonicely,andputonsuchsmartnewgloveswhenyoutakeawalk?’ `Notalways。’ `You’regoingtoWildfellHall,aren’tyou?’ `Whatmakesyouthinkso?’ `Becauseyoulookasifyouwere——butIwishyouwouldn’tgosooften。’ `Nonsense,child!Idon’tgoonceinsixweeks——whatdoyoumean?’ `Well,butifIwereyou,Iwouldn’thavesomuchtodowithMrsGraham。’ `WhyRose,areyou,too,givingintotheprevailingopinion?’ `No,’returnedshe,hesitatingly——`butI’veheardsomuchaboutherlately,bothattheWilsons’andthevicarage;——andbesides,mammasays,ifshewereaproperperson,shewouldnotbelivingtherebyherself——anddon’tyourememberlastwinter,Gilbert,allthataboutthefalsenametothepicture;andhowsheexplainedit——sayingshehadfriendsoracquaintancesfromwhomshewishedherpresentresidencetobeconcealed,andthatshewasafraidoftheirtracingherout;——andthen,howsuddenlyshestartedupandlefttheroomwhenthatpersoncame——whomshetookgoodcarenottoletuscatchaglimpseof,andwhoArthur,withsuchanairofmystery,tolduswashismamma’sfriend?’ `Yes,Rose,Irememberitall;andIcanforgiveyouruncharitableconclusions;forperhaps,ifIdidnotknowhermyself,Ishouldputallthesethingstogether,andbelievethesameasyoudo;butthankGod,I doknowher;andIshouldbeunworthythenameofaman,ifIcouldbelieveanythingthatwassaidagainsther,unlessIhearditfromherownlips——I shouldassoonbelievesuchthingsofyou,Rose。’ `Oh,Gilbert!’ `Well,doyouthinkIcouldbelieveanythingofthekind,——whatevertheWilsonsandMillwardsdaredtowhisper?’ `Ishouldhopenotindeed!’ `Andwhynot?——BecauseIknowyou——well,andIknowherjustaswell。’ `Oh,no!youknownothingofherformerlife;andlastyearatthistime,youdidnotknowthatsuchapersonexisted。’ `Nomatter。Thereis’suchathingaslookingthroughaperson’seyesintotheheart,andlearningmoreoftheheight,andbreadth,anddepthofanother’ssoulinonehour,thanitmighttakeyoualifetimetodiscover,ifheorshewerenotdisposedtorevealit,——orifyouhadnotthesensetounderstandit。’ `Thenyouaregoingtoseeherthisevening?’ TobesureIam!’ `Butwhatwouldmammasay,Gilbert?’ `Mammaneedn’tknow。’ `Butshemustknowsometime,ifyougoon’ `Goon!——there’snogoingoninthematter——MrsGrahamandIaretwofriends——andwillbe;andnomanbreathingshallhinderit,——orhasarighttointerferebetweenus。’ `Butifyouknewhowtheytalk,youwouldbemorecareful——forhersakeaswellasforyourown。JaneWilsonthinksyourvisitstotheoldhallbutanotherproofofherdepravity——’ `ConfoundJaneWilson!’ `AndElizaMillwardisquitegrievedaboutyou。’ `Ihopesheis。’ `ButIwouldn’tifIwereyou。’ `Wouldn’twhat?——HowdotheyknowthatIgothere?’ `There’snothinghidfromthem:theyspyouteverything。’ `Oh,Ineverthoughtofthis!——Andsotheydaretoturnmyfriendshipintofoodforfurtherscandalagainsther!——Thatprovesthefalsehoodoftheirotherlies,atallevents,ifanyproofwerewanting——Mindyoucontradictthem,Rose,wheneveryoucan。’ `Buttheydon’tspeakopenlytomeaboutsuchthings:itisonlybyhintsandinnuendoes,andbywhatIhearotherssay,thatIknowwhattheythink。’ `Wellthen,Iwon’tgotoday,asit’sgettinglatish。Butoh,deucetaketheircursedenvenomedtongues!’Imuttered,inthebitternessofmysoul。 Andjustatthatmoment,thevicarenteredtheroom:wehadbeentoomuchabsorbedinourconversationtoobservehisknock。AlterhiscustomarycheerfulandfatherlygreetingofRose,whowasratherafavouritewiththeoldgentleman,heturnedsomewhatsternlytome:—— `Well,sir!’saidhe,`you’requiteastranger。Itis-let-me-see,’ hecontinued,slowly,ashedepositedhisponderousbulkinthearmchairthatRoseofficiouslybroughttowardshim,`itisjustsix——weeks——bymyreckoning,sinceyoudarkened——my——door!’Hespokeitwithemphasis,andstruckhisstickonthefloor。 `Isit,sir?’saidI。 `Ay!Itisso!’Headdedanaffiramatorynod,andcontinuedtogazeuponmewithakindofiratesolemnity,holdinghissubstantialstickbetweenhisknees,withhishandsclaspeduponitshead。 `Ihavebeenbusy,’Isaid,foranapologywasevidentlydemanded。 `Busy!’repeatedhe,derisively。 `Yes;youknowI’vebeengettinginmyhay:andnowtheharvestisbeginning。’ `Humph!’ Justthenmymothercamein,andcreatedadiversioninmyfavourbyherloquaciousandanimatedwelcomeofthereverendguest。Sheregretteddeeplythathehadnotcomealittleearlier,intimefortea,butofferedtohavesomeimmediatelyprepared,ifhewoulddoherthefavourtopartakeofit。 `Notanyforme,Ithankyou,’repliedhe;`Ishallbeathomeinafewminutes。’ `Oh,butdostayandtakealittle!itwillbereadyinfiveminutes。’ Butherejectedtheofferwithamajesticwaveofthehand。 `I’lltellyouwhatI’lltake,MrsMarkham,’saidhe:`I’lltakeaglassofyourexcellentale。’ `Withpleasure!’criedmymother,proceedingwithalacritytopull。thebellandorderthefavouredbeverage。 `Ithought,’continuedhe,`I’djustlookinuponyouasIpassed,andtasteyourhome-brewedale。I’vebeentocallonMrsGraham。’ `Haveyouindeed?’ Henoddedgravely,andaddedwithawfulemphasis—— Ithoughtitincumbentuponmetodoso。’ `Really!’ejaculatedmymother。 `Whyso,MrMillward?’askedI。Helookedatmewithsomeseverity,andturningagaintomymother,repeated—— `Ithoughtitincumbentuponme!’andstruckhisstickontheflooragain。Mymothersatopposite,anawe-struckbutadmiringauditor。 `“MrsGraham。”saidI,’hecontinued,shakinghisheadashespoke,`“theseareterriblereports!”“Whatsir?”saysshe,affectingtobeignorantofmymeaning。“Itismy——duty——as——yourpastor。”saidI,“totellyoubotheverythingthatImyselfseereprehensibleinyourconduct,andallIhavereasontosuspect,andwhatotherstellmeconcerningyou“——SoI toldher!’ `Youdidsir?’criedI,startingfrommyseat,andstrikingmyfistonthetable。Hemerelyglancedtowardsme,andcontinued——addressinghishostess: `Itwasapainfulduty,MrsMarkham——butItoldher!’ `Andhowdidshetakeit?’askedmymother。 `Hardened,Ifear——hardened!’hereplied,withadespondentshakeofthehead;`andatthesametime,therewasastrongdisplayofunchastened,misdirectedpassions。Sheturnedwhiteintheface,anddrewherbreaththroughherteethinasavagesortofway;——butsheofferednoextenuationordefence;andwithakindofshamelesscalmness——shockingindeedtowitness,inonesoyoung——asgoodastoldmethatmyremonstrancewasunavailing,andmypastoraladvicequitethrownawayuponher——nay,thatmyverypresencewasdispleasingwhileIspokesuchthings。AndIwithdrewatlength,tooplainlyseeingthatnothingcouldbedone——andsadlygrievedtofindhercasesohopeless。ButIamfullydetermined,MrsMarkham,thatmydaughters——shall——not——consortwithher。Doyouadoptthesameresolutionwithregardtoyours!——Asforyoursons——asforyou,youngman,’hecontinued,sternlyturningtome。 `AsforME,sir,——’Ibegan,butcheckedbysomeimpedimentinmyutterance,andfindingthatmywholeframetrembledwithfury,Isaidnomore——buttookthewiserpartofsnatchingupmyhatandboltingfromtheroom,slammingthedoorbehindmewithabangthatshookthehousetoitsfoundationsandmademymotherscream——andgaveamomentaryrelieftomyexcitedfeelings。 ThenextminutesawmehurryingwithrapidstridesinthedirectionofWildfellHall——towhatintentorpurposeIcouldscarcelytel!,butImustbemovingsomewhere,andnoothergoalwoulddo——Imustseeher,too,andspeaktoher——thatwascertain,butwhattosayorhowtoact,Ihadnodefiniteidea。Suchstormythoughts——somanydifferentresolutions——crowdedinuponme,hatmymindwaslittlebetterthanachaosofconflictingpassions。 TheTenantofWildfellHall:Chapter12