第27章

类别:其他 作者:Anne Bronte字数:5262更新时间:18/12/22 09:13:11
`You’dbettertryoncemore,’saidGrimsby,leaningacrossthetable。Andthenhewinkedatme。 `I’venothingtotrywith。”saidthepoordevil,withaghastlysmile。 `Oh,Huntingdonwilllendyouwhatyouwant,’saidtheother。 `No;youheardmyoath,’answeredLowborough,turningawayinquietdespair。AndItookhimbythearmandledhimout。 `Isittobethelast,Lowborough?’Iasked,whenIgothimintothestreet。 `Thelast,’heanswered,somewhatagainstmyexpectation。AndItookhimhome——thatis,toourclub——forhewasassubmissiveasachild,andpliedhimwithbrandyandwatertillhetolookratherbrighter——rathermorealive,atleast。 `Huntingdon,I’mruined!’saidhe,takingthethirdglassfrommyhand——hehaddrunktheothersindeadsilence。 `Notyou!’saidI。`You’llfindamancanlivewithouthismoneyasmerrilyasatortoisewithoutitshead,orawaspwithoutitsbody。’ `ButI’mindebt,’saidhe——`deepindebt!AndIcannever,nevergetoutofit!’ `Well,whatofthat?manyabettermanthanyouhaslivedanddiedindebt,andtheycan’tputyouinprison,youknow,becauseyou’reapeer。’AndIhandedhimhisfourthtumbler。 `ButIhatetobeindebt!’heshouted。`Iwasn’tbornforit,andIcannotbearit!’ `Whatcan’tbecuredmustbeendured,’saidI,beginningtomixthefifth。 `Andthen,I’velostmyCaroline,’Andhebegantosnivelthen,forthebrandyhadsoftenedhisheart。 `Nomatter,’Ianswered,`therearemoreCarolinesintheworldthanone。’ `There’sonlyoneforme,’hereplied,withadoloroussigh。`Andiftherewerefiftymore,who’stogetthem,Iwonder,withoutmoney?’ `Oh,somebodywilltakeyouforyourtitle;andthenyou’veyourfamilyestateyet;that’sentailed,youknow,’ `IwishtoGodIcouldsellittopaymydebts,’hemuttered。 `Andthen,’saidGrimsby,whohadjustcomein,`youcantryagain,youknow。IwouldhaveonemorechanceifIwereyou。 I’dneverstophere。’ `Iwon’t,Itellyou!’shoutedhe。Andhestartedupandlefttheroom——walkingratherunsteadily,fortheliquorhadgotintohishead。 Hewasnotsomuchusedtoitthen,butafterthat,hetooktoitkindlytosolacehiscares。 `Hekepthisoathaboutgambling(notalittletothesurpriseofusall),thoughGrimsbydidhisutmosttotempthimtobreakit:buthowhehadgotholdofanotherhabitthatbotheredhimnearlyasmuch,forhesoondiscoveredthatthedemonofdrinkwasasblackasthedemonofplay,andnearlyashardtogetridof——especiallyashiskindfriendsdidalltheycouldtosecondthepromptingsofhisowninsatiablecravings。’ `Then,theyweredemonsthemselves,’criedI,unabletocontainmyindignation。`Andyou,MrHuntingdon,itseems,werethefirsttotempthim。’ `Well,whatcouldwedo?’repliedhe,deprecatingly——`Wemeantitinkindness——wecouldn’tbeartoseethepoorfellowsomiserable:——andbesides,hewassuchadamperuponus,sittingthere,silentandglum,whenhewasunderthethreefoldinfluenceofthelossofhissweetheart,thelossofhisfortune,andthereactionofthelastnight’sdebauch; whereas,whenhehadsomethinginhim,ifhewasnotmerryhimself,hewasanunfailingsourceofmerrimenttous。EvenGrimsbycouldchuckleoverhisoddSayings:theydelightedhimfarmorethanmymerryjestsorHattersleysriotousmirth。Butoneevening,whenweweresittingoverourwine,afteroneofourclubdinners,andhadallbeenheartytogether,——Lowboroughgivingusmadtoasts,andheatingourwildsongsandbearingahandintheapplause,ifhedidnothelpustosingthemhimself,——hesuddenlyrelapsedintosilence,sinkinghisheadonhishand,andneverliftinghisglasstohislips;——butthiswasnothingnew;sowelethimalone,andwentonwithourjollification,till,suddenlyraisinghishead,heinterruptedusinthemiddleofaroaroflaughterbyexclaiming,—— `Gentlemen,whereisallthistoend?——Willyoujusttellmethatnow?——Whereisitalltoend?’ `Inhellfire,’growledGrimsby。 `You’vehitit——Ithoughtso!’criedhe。`Wellthen,I’lltellyouwhat’——herose,`Aspeech,aspeech!’shoutedwe。`Hear,hear!Lowborough’sgoingtogiveusaspeech!’ `Hewaitedcalmlytillthethundersofapplauseandjinglingofglasseshadceased,andthenproceeded,—— `It`sonlythis,gentlemen,——thatIthinkwe’dlettergonofarther。 We’dbetterstopwhilewecan,’ `Justso!’criedHattersley—— `Stoppoorsinner,stopandthinkBeforeyoufarthergo,NolongersportuponthebrinkOfeverlastingwoe。’ `Exactly!’repliedhislordship,withtheutmostgravity。`Andifyouchoosetovisitthebottomlesspit,Iwon’tgowithyou——wemustpartcompany,forIswearI’llnotmoveanothersteptowardsit!——What’sthis?’hesaid,takinguphisglassofwine。 `Tasteit,’suggestedI。 `Thisishellbroth!’heexclaimed。`Irenounceitforever!’ Andhethrewitoutintothemiddleofthetable,`Fillagain!’saidI,handinghimthebottle——`andletusdrinktoyourrenunciation。’ `Itsrankpoison,’saidhe,graspingthebottlebytheneck,`andIforswearit!I’vegivenupgambling,andI’llgiveupthistoo。’Hewasonthepointofdeliberatelypouringthewholecontentsofthebottleontothetable,butHargravewresteditfromhim,`Onyoubethecurse,then!’ saidhe。Andbackingfromtheroom,heshouted,`Farewell,yetempters!’ andvanishedamidshoutsoflaughterandapplause。 `Weexpectedhimbackamongusthenextday;buttooursurprise,theplaceremainedvacant:wesawnothingofhimforawholeweek;andwereallybegantothinkhewasgoingtokeephisword。Atlast,oneevening,whenweweremostofusassembledtogetheragain,heentered,silentandgrimasaghost,andwouldhavequietlyslippedintohisusualseatatmyelbow,butweallrosetowelcomehim,andseveralvoiceswereraisedtoaskwhathewouldhave,andseveralhandswerebusywithbottleandglasstoservehim;butIknewasmokingtumblerofbrandyandwaterwouldcomforthimbest,andhadnearlypreparedit,whenhepeevishlypusheditaway,saying,`DoletmealoneHuntingdon!Dobequiet,allofyou!I’mnotcometojoinyou:I’monlycometobewithyouawhile,becauseIcan’tbearmyownthoughts。’Andhefoldedhisarmsandleantbackinhischair; sowelethimbe。ButIlefttheglassbyhim;andafterawhile,GrimsbyBedmyattentiontowardsit,byasignificantwink;and,onturningmyhead,Isawitwasdrainedtothebottom。Hemadeasigntoreplenish,andquietlypushedupthebottle。Iwillinglycomplied;butLowboroughdetectedthepantomime,and,nettledattheintelligentgrinsthatwerepassingbetweenus,snatchedtheglassfrommyhand,dashedthecontentsofitinGrimsby’sface,threwtheemptytumbleratme,andthenboltedfromtheroom。’ `Ihopehebrokeyourhead,’saidI。 `No,love,’repliedhe,laughingimmoderatelyattherecollectionofthewholeaffair,`hewouldhavedoneso,——andperhapsspoiltmyface,too,butprovidentially,thisforestofcurls’(takingoffhishatandshowinghisluxuriantchestnutlocks)`savedmyskull,andpreventedtheglassfrombreakingtillitreachedthetable。’ `Afterthat,’hecontinued,`Lowboroughkeptalooffromusaweekortwolonger。Iusedtomeethimoccasionallyinthetown;andthen,asIwastoogood-naturedtoresenthisunmannerlyconduct,andheborenomaliceagainstme,——hewasneverunwillingtotalktome;onthecontrary,hewouldclingtomeandfollowmeanywhere,——buttotheclub,andthegaminghouses,andsuchlikedangerousplacesofresort——hewassowearyofhisownmoping,melancholymind。Atlast,Igothimtocomeinwithmetotheclub,onconditionthatIwouldnottempthimtodrink;andforsometime,hecontinuedtolookinuponusprettyregularlyofanevening,——stillabstaining,withwonderfulperseverance,fromthe`rankpoison’hehadsobravelyforsworn。Butsomeofourmembersprotestedagainstthisconduct。 Theydidnotliketohavehimsittingtherelikeaskeletonatafeast,6 insteadofcontributinghisquotatothegeneralamusement,castingacloudoverall,andwatching,withgreedyeyes,everydroptheycarriedtotheirlips,theyvoweditwasnotfair:andsomeofthemmaintainedthatheshouldeitherbecompelledtodoasothersdidorexpelledfromthesociety,andsworethat,nexttimeheshowedhimself,theywouldtellhimasmuch,and,ifhedidnottakethewarning,proceedtoactivemeasures。However,I befriendedhimonthisoccasion,andrecommendedthemtolethimbeforawhile,intimatingthat,withalittlepatienceonourparts,hewouldsooncomeroundagain——But,tobesure,itwasratherprovoking;forthoughherefusedtodrinklikeanhonestChristian,itwaswellknowntome,thathekeptaprivatebottleoflaudanumabouthim,whichhewascontinuallysoakingat——orrather,holdingoffandonwith,abstainingonedayandexceedingthenext,justlikethespirits。 `Onenight,however,duringoneofourorgies——oneofourhighfestivals,Imeanbeglidedin,liketheghostinMacbeth,andseatedhimself,asusual,alittlebackfromthetable,inthechairwealwaysplacedfor`thespectre,’whetheritchosetofillitornot。Isawbyhisfacethathewassufferingfromtheeffectsofanoverdoseofhisinsidiouscomforter; butnobodyspoketohim,andhespoketonobody。Afewsidelongglances,andawhisperedobservationthat`theghostwascome,’wasallthenoticehedrewbyhisappearance,andwewentonwithourmerrycarousalsasbefore,tillhestartledusallbysuddenlydrawinginhischairandleaningforwardwithhiselbowsonthetable,andexclaimingwithportentoussolemnity,—— `Well!itpuzzlesmewhatyoucanfindtobesomerryabout。WhatyouseeinlifeIdon’tknow——Iseeonlytheblacknessofdarknessandafearfullookingforofjudgmentandfieryindignation!’ `Allthecompanysimultaneouslypusheduptheirglassestohim,andIsetthembeforehiminasemicircle,and,tenderlypattinghimontheback,bidhimdrinkandhewouldsoonseeasbrightaprospectasanyofus;buthepushedthemback,muttering,—— `Takethemaway!Iwon’ttasteit,Itellyou——Iwon’t——Iwon’t!’ SoIhandedthemdownagaintotheowners;butIsawthathefollowedthemwithaglareofhungryregretastheyde+parted。Then,heclaspedhishandsbeforehiseyestoshutoutthesight,andtwominutesafter,liftedhisheadagain,andsaid,inahoarsebutvehementwhisper,—— `AndyetImust!Huntingdon,getmeaglass。!’ `Takethebottle,man!saidI,thrustingthebrandy-bottleintohishand——butstop,I’mtellingtoomuch,’mutteredthenarrator,startledatthelookIturneduponhim。`Butnomatter,’herecklesslyadded,andthuscontinuedhisrelation——`Inhisdesperateeagerness,heseizedthebottleandsuckedaway,tillhesuddenlydroppedfromhischair,disappearingunderthetableamidatempestofapplause。Theconsequenceofthisimprudencewassomethinglikeanapoplecticfit,followedbyaratherseverebrainfever——’ `Andwhatdidyouthinkofyourself,sir?’saidI,quickly。 `Ofcourse,Iwasverypenitent,’hereplied。`Iwenttoseehimonceortwice——nay,twiceorthrice——or,by’rLady,somefourtimes,——andwhenhegotbetter,Itenderlybroughthimbacktothefold。’ `Whatdoyoumean?’ `Imean,Irestoredhimtothebosomoftheclub,andcompassionatingthefeeblenessofhishealthandextremelownessofhisspirits,Irecommendedhimto`takealittlewineforhisstomachssake,’and,whenhewassufficientlyre-established,toembracethemedia-via,ni-jamais-ni-toujoursplan——nottokillhimselflikeafool,andnottoabstainlikeaninny——inaword,toenjoyhimselflikearationalcreature,anddoasIdid;——fordon’tthink,Helen,thatI’matippler;I’mnothingatallofthekind,andneverwas,andnevershallbe。Ivaluemycomfortfartoomuch。IseethatamanCannotgivehimselfuptodrinkingwithoutbeingmiserableonehalfhisdaysandmadtheother;——besides,Iliketoenjoymylifeatallsidesandends,whichcannotbedonebyonethatsuffershimselftobetheslaveofasinglepropensity——andmoreover,drinkingspoilsone’sgoodlooks,’heconcluded,withamostconceitedsmilethatoughttohaveprovokedmemorethanitdid。 `AnddidLordLowboroughprofitbyyouradvice?’Iasked。