workeditoutafterwards。Andherewearespikedontheoff-chance。IfI’dhaveonlykeptbackalittle,I’dhavehaditonU。P。nextday,likeashot,andcomeoutontherise。Thereyouare!”
Histhoughtstookagraverturn。
“It’swhereyou’llbumpupagainstChancelikethis,George,thatyoufeeltheneedofreligion。Yourhard-and-fastscientificmen——yourSpencersandHuxleys——theydon’tunderstandthat。I
do。I’vethoughtofitalotlately——inbedandabout。IwasthinkingofitthismorningwhileIshaved。It’snotirreverentformetosayit,Ihope——butGodcomesinontheoff-chance,George。See?Don’tyoubetoococksureofanything,goodorbad。That’swhatImakeoutofit。Icouldhavesworn。Well,doyouthinkI——particularasIam——wouldhavetouchedthoseUnionPacificswithtrustmoneyatall,ifIhadn’tthoughtitathoroughlygoodthing——goodwithoutspotorblemish?。Anditwasbad!
“It’salessontome。Youstartintogetahundredpercent。
andyoucomeoutwiththat。Itmeans,inaway,areproofforPride。I’vethoughtofthat,George——intheNightWatches。I
wasthinkingthismorningwhenIwasshaving,thatthat’swherethegoodofitallcomesin。AtthebottomI’mamysticintheseaffairs。Youcalculateyou’regoingtodothisorthat,butatbottomwhoknowsatallWHAThe’sdoing?Whenyoumostthinkyou’redoingthings,they’rebeingdonerightoveryourhead。
YOU’REbeingdone——inasense。Takeahundred-toonechance,oronetoahundred——whatdoesitmatter?You’rebeingLed。”
It’soddthatIheardthisatthetimewithunutterablecontempt,andnowthatIrecallit——well,Iaskmyself,whathaveIgotbetter?
“Iwish。”saidI,becomingforamomentoutrageous,“YOUwerebeingLedtogivemesomeaccountofmymoney,uncle。”
“Notwithoutabitofpapertofigureon,George,Ican’t。Butyoutrustmeaboutthatneverfear。Youtrustme。”
AndintheendIhadto。
Ithinkthebankruptcyhitmyauntprettyhard。Therewas,sofarasIcanremembernow,acompletecessationofallthosecheerfuloutbreaksofelasticity,nomoreskylarkingintheshopnorscamperingaboutthehouse。ButtherewasnofussthatI
saw,andonlylittlesignsinhercomplexionofthefitsofweepingthatmusthavetakenher。Shedidn’tcryattheend,thoughtomeherfacewithitsstrainofself-possessionwasmorepatheticthananyweeping。“Well“shesaidtomeasshecamethroughtheshoptothecab,“Here’soldorf,George!OrftoMomenumbertwo!Good-bye!”Andshetookmeinherarmsandkissedmeandpressedmetoher。ThenshedivedstraightforthecabbeforeIcouldanswerher。
Myunclefollowed,andheseemedtomeatrifletoovaliantandconfidentinhisbearingforreality。Hewasunusuallywhiteintheface。Hespoketohissuccessoratthecounter。“Herewego!”hesaid。“Onedown,theotherup。You’llfinditaquietlittlebusinesssolongasyourunitonquietlines——anicequietlittlebusiness。There’snothingmore?No?Well,ifyouwanttoknowanythingwritetome。I’llalwaysexplainfully。
Anything——business,placeorpeople。You’llfindPilAntibil。alittleoverstockedby-the-by,Ifounditsoothedmymindthedaybeforeyesterdaymaking’em,andImade’emallday。Thousands!
Andwhere’sGeorge?Ah!thereyouare!I’llwritetoyou,George,FULLY,aboutallthataffair。Fully!”
Itbecamecleartomeasifforthefirsttime,thatIwasreallypartingfrommyauntSusan。Iwentoutontothepavementandsawherheadcranedforward,herwide-openblueeyesandherlittlefaceintentontheshopthathadcombinedforherallthecharmsofabigdoll’shouseandalittlehomeofherveryown。
“Good-bye!”shesaidtoitandtome。Oureyesmetforamoment——perplexed。Myunclebustledoutandgaveafewtotallyunnecessarydirectionstothecabmanandgotinbesideher。“Allright?”askedthedriver。“Right。”saidI;andhewokeupthehorsewithaflickofhiswhip。Myaunt’seyessurveyedmeagain。“Sticktoyouroldscienceandthings,George,andwriteandtellmewhentheymakeyouaProfessor。”shesaidcheerfully。
Shestaredatmeforasecondlongerwitheyesgrowingwiderandbrighterandasmilethathadbecomefixed,glancedagainatthebrightlittleshopstillsaying“Ponderevo“withalltheemphasisofitsfascia,andthenfloppedbackhastilyoutofsightofmeintotherecessesofthecab。ThenithadgonefrombeforemeandIbeheldMr。Snape,thehairdresser,insidehisstoreregardingitsdeparturewithaquietsatisfactionandexchangingsmilesandsignificantheadshakeswithMr。Marbel。
Iwasleft,Isay,aspartofthelock,stock,andbarrel,atWimblehurstwithmynewmaster,aMr。Mantell;whoplaysnopartintheprogressofthisstoryexceptinsofarasheeffacedmyuncle’straces。Sosoonasthefreshnessofthisnewpersonalityfaded,IbegantofindWimblehurstnotonlyadullbutalonelyplace,andtomissmyauntSusanimmensely。TheadvertisementsofthesummertermsforCoughLinctuswereremoved;thebottlesofcolouredwater——red,green,andyellow——restoredtotheirplaces;thehorseannouncingveterinarymedicine,whichmyuncle,sizzlingallthewhile,hadcolouredincarefulportraitureofaGoodwoodfavourite,rewhitened;andIturnedmyselfevenmoreresolutelythanbeforetoLatin(untilthepassingofmypreliminaryexaminationenabledmetodropthat),andthentomathematicsandscience。
TherewereclassesinElectricityandMagnetismattheGrammarSchool。Itookalittle“elementary“prizeinthatinmyfirstyearandamedalinmythird;andinChemistryandHumanPhysiologyandSound,LightandHeat,Ididwell。Therewasalsoalighter,morediscursivesubjectcalledPhysiography,inwhichonerangedamongthesciencesandencounteredGeologyasaprocessofevolutionfromEozoontoEastryHouse,andAstronomyasarecordofcelestialmovementsofthemostaustereandinvariableintegrity。Ilearntoutofbadly-written,condensedlittletext-books,andwiththeminimumofexperiment,butstillIlearnt。Onlythirtyyearsagoitwas,andIrememberIlearntoftheelectriclightasanexpensive,impracticabletoy,thetelephoneasacuriosity,electrictractionasapracticalabsurdity。Therewasnoargon,noradium,nophagocytes——atleasttomyknowledge,andaluminiumwasadear,infrequentmetal。Thefastestshipsintheworldwentthenatnineteenknots,andnoonebutalunatichereandthereeverthoughtitpossiblethatmenmightfly。
Manythingshavehappenedsincethen,butthelastglanceIhadofWimblehursttwoyearsagoremarkednochangewhateverinitspleasanttranquillity。Theyhadnotevenbuiltanyfreshhouses——atleastnotactuallyinthetown,thoughaboutthestationtherehadbeensomebuilding。Butitwasagoodplacetodoworkin,forallitsquiescence。IwassoonbeyondthesmallrequirementsofthePharmaceuticalSociety’sexamination,andastheydonotpermitcandidatestositforthatuntiloneandtwenty,IwaspresentlyfillingupmytimeandpreventingmystudiesbecomingtoodesultorybymakinganattackupontheLondonUniversitydegreeofBachelorofScience,whichimpressedmethenasaverysplendidbutalmostimpossibleachievement。
Thedegreeinmathematicsandchemistryappealedtomeasparticularlycongenial——albeitgiddilyinaccessible。Isettowork。IhadpresentlytoarrangeaholidayandgotoLondontomatriculate,andsoitwasIcameuponmyauntanduncleagain。
Inmanywaysthatvisitmarkedanepoch。ItwasmyfirstimpressionofLondonatall。Iwasthennineteen,andbyaconspiracyofchancesmynearestapproachtothathumanwildernesshadbeenmybriefvisittoChatham。Chathamtoohadbeenmylargesttown。SothatIgotLondonatlastwithanexceptionalfreshnessofeffect,asthesuddenrevelationofawholeunsuspectedothersidetolife。
IcametoitonadullandsmokydaybytheSouthEasternRailway,andourtrainwashalfanhourlate,stoppingandgoingonandstoppingagain。ImarkedbeyondChiselhurstthegrowingmultitudeofvillas,andsocamestagebystagethroughmultiplyinghousesanddiminishinginterspacesofmarketgardenanddingygrasstoregionsofinterlacingrailwaylines,bigfactories,gasometersandwidereekingswampsofdingylittlehomes,moreofthemandmoreandmore。Thenumberoftheseandtheirdinginessandpovertyincreased,andhereroseagreatpublichouseandhereaBoardSchoolandthereagauntfactory;
andawaytotheeastthereloomedforatimeaqueer,incongruousforestofmastsandspars。Thecongestionofhousesintensifiedandpileduppresentlyintotenements;Imarveledmoreandmoreatthisboundlessworldofdingypeople;whiffsofindustrialsmell,ofleather,ofbrewing,driftedintothecarriage;theskydarkened,Irumbledthunderouslyoverbridges,van-crowdedstreets,peereddownonandcrossedtheThameswithanabrupteclatofsound。Igotaneffectoftallwarehouses,ofgreywater,bargecrowded,ofbroadbanksofindescribablemud,andthenIwasinCannonStreetStation——amonstrousdirtycavernwithtrainspackedacrossitsvastfloorandmoreportersstandingalongtheplatformthanIhadeverbeeninmylifebefore。Ialightedwithmyportmanteauandstruggledalong,realisingforthefirsttimejusthowsmallandweakIcouldstilluponoccasionfeel。Inthisworld,Ifelt,anHonoursmedalinElectricityandmagnetismcountedfornothingatall。
AfterwardsIdroveinacabdownacanonofrushingstreetbetweenhighwarehouses,andpeepedupastonishedattheblackenedgreysofSaintPaul’s。ThetrafficofCheapside——itwasmostlyinhorseomnibusesinthosedays——seemedstupendous,itsroarwasstupendous;Iwonderedwherethemoneycamefromtoemploysomanycabs,whatindustrycouldsupporttheendlessjostlingstreamofsilk-hatted,frock-coated,hurryingmen。DownaturningIfoundtheTemperanceHotelMr。Mantellhadrecommendedtome。Theporterinagreenuniformwhotookovermyportmanteau,seemed,Ithought,todespisemeagooddeal。