“Sometimes——sometimesIthinkheis——inourblood。InMINE。”
Heregardedmeformyopinionveryearnestly,withhispipeinthecornerofhismouth。
“You’retheremotestcousinheeverhad。”Isaid。
Ireflected。“Lookhere,Ewart。”Iasked,“howwouldyouhavethingsdifferent?”
Hewrinkleduphisqueerface,regardedthewaitandmadehispipegurgleforaspace,thinkingdeeply。
“Therearecomplications,Iadmit。We’vegrownupundertheterrorofGrundyandthatinnocentbutdocileand——yes——formidablelady,hiswife。Idon’tknowhowfarthecomplicationsaren’tadisease,asortofbleachingundertheGrundyshadow。ItispossibletherearethingsIhavestilltolearnaboutwomen。ManhaseatenoftheTreeofKnowledge。
Hisinnocenceisgone。Youcan’thaveyourcakeandeatit。
We’reinforknowledge;let’shaveitplainandstraight。I
shouldbegin,Ithink,byabolishingtheideasofdecencyandindecency。”
“Grundywouldhavefits!”Iinjected。
“Grundy,Ponderevo,wouldhavecolddouches——publicly——ifthesightwasnottoopainful——threetimesaday。ButIdon’tthink,mindyou,thatIshouldletthesexesrunabouttogether。
No。Thefactbehindthesexes——issex。It’snogoodhumbugging。
Ittrailsabout——eveninthebestmixedcompany。Tugsatyourankle。Themengetshowingoffandquarrelling——andthewomen。
Orthey’rebored。Isupposetheancestralmaleshavecompetedfortheancestralfemaleseversincetheywerebothsomesortofgrubbylittlereptile。Youaren’tgoingtoalterthatinathousandyearsorso。Nevershouldyouhaveamixedcompany,never——exceptwithonlyonemanoronlyonewoman。Howwouldthatbe?。
“Orduetsonly?。
“Howtomanageit?Someruleofetiquette,perhaps。”。Hebecameportentouslygrave。
Thenhislonghandwentoutinweirdgestures。
“Iseemtosee——Iseemtosee——asortofCityofWomen,Ponderevo。Yes。Awalledenclosure——goodstone-mason’swork——acitywall,highasthewallsofRome,goingaboutagarden。Dozensofsquaremilesofgarden——trees——fountains——
arbours——lakes。Lawnsonwhichthewomenplay,avenuesinwhichtheygossip,boats。Womenlikethatsortofthing。Anywomanwho’sbeentoagoodeventfulgirls’schoollivesonthememoryofitfortherestofherlife。It’soneofthepatheticthingsaboutwomen——thesuperiorityofschoolandcollege——toanythingtheygetafterwards。Andthiscity-gardenofwomenwillhavebeautifulplacesformusic,placesforbeautifuldresses,placesforbeautifulwork。Everythingawomancanwant。Nurseries。
Kindergartens。Schools。Andnoman——excepttodoroughwork,perhaps——evercomesin。Themenliveinaworldwheretheycanhuntandengineer,inventandmineandmanufacture,sailships,drinkdeepandpracticethearts,andfight——“
“Yes。”Isaid,“but——“
Hestilledmewithagesture。
“I’mcomingtothat。Thehomesofthewomen,Ponderevo,willbesetinthewalloftheircity;eachwomanwillhaveherownparticularhouseandhome,furnishedafterherownheartinherownmanner——withalittlebalconyontheoutsidewall。Builtintothewall——andalittlebalcony。Andthereshewillgoandlookout,whenthemoodtakesher,andallroundthecitytherewillbeabroadroadandseatsandgreatshadytrees。Andmenwillstrollupanddowntherewhentheyfeeltheneedoffemininecompany;when,forinstance,theywanttotalkabouttheirsoulsortheircharactersoranyofthethingsthatonlywomenwillstand。Thewomenwillleanoverandlookatthemenandsmileandtalktothemastheyfancy。Andeachwomanwillhavethis;
shewillhavealittlesilkenladdershecanletdownifshechooses——ifshe“wantstotalkcloser。”
“Themenwouldstillbecompeting。”
“Thereperhaps——yes。Butthey’dhavetoabidebythewomen’sdecisions。”
Iraisedoneortwodifficulties,andforawhileweplayedwiththisidea。
“Ewart。”Isaid,“thisislikeDoll’sIsland。
“Suppose。”Ireflected,“anunsuccessfulmanlaidsiegetoabalconyandwouldn’tlethisrivalcomenearit?”
“Movehimon。”saidEwart,“byaspecialregulation。Asonedoesorgan-grinders。Nodifficultyaboutthat。Andyoucouldforbidit——makeitagainsttheetiquette。Nolifeisdecentwithoutetiquette。Andpeopleobeyetiquettesoonerthanlaws。”
“H’m。”Isaid,andwasstruckbyanideathatisremoteintheworldofayoungman。“Howaboutchildren?”Iasked;“intheCity?Girlsareallverywell。Butboys,forexample——growup。”
“Ah!”saidEwart。“Yes。Iforgot。Theymustn’tgrowupinside。They’dturnouttheboyswhentheywereseven。Thefathermustcomewithalittleponyandalittlegunandmanlywear,andtaketheboyaway。Thenonecouldcomeafterwardstoone’smother’sbalcony。Itmustbefinetohaveamother。
Thefatherandtheson。”
“Thisisallveryprettyinitsway。”Isaidatlast,“butit’sadream。Let’scomebacktoreality。WhatIwanttoknowis,whatareyougoingtodoinBrompton,letussay,orWalhamGreenNOW?”
“Oh!damnit!”heremarked,“WalhamGreen!Whatachapyouare,Ponderevo!”andhemadeanabruptendtohisdiscourse。Hewouldn’tevenreplytomytentativesforatime。
“WhileIwastalkingjustnow。”heremarkedpresently,“Ihadaquitedifferentidea。”
“What?”
“Foramasterpiece。Aseries。LikethebustsoftheCaesars。
Onlynotheads,youknow。Wedon’tseethepeoplewhodothingstousnowadays。”
“Howwillyoudoit,then?”
“Hands——aseriesofhands!ThehandsoftheTwentiethCentury。
I’lldoit。Somedaysomeonewilldiscoverit——gothere——seewhatIhavedone,andwhatismeantbyit。”
“Seeitwhere?”
“Onthetombs。Whynot?TheUnknownMasteroftheHighgateSlope!Allthelittle,softfemininehands,thenervousuglymales,thehandsoftheflops,andthehandsofthesnatchers!
AndGrundy’sloose,lean,knucklyaffair——Grundytheterror!——thelittlewrinklesandthethumb!Onlyitoughttoholdalltheotherstogether——inaslightlydisturbingsqueeze。LikeRodin’sgreatHand——youknowthething!”
IV
IforgethowmanydaysintervenedbetweenthatlastbreakingoffofourengagementandMarion’ssurrender。ButIrecallnowthesharpnessofmyemotion,theconcentratedspiritoftearsandlaughterinmythroatasIreadthewordsofherunexpectedletter——“Ihavethoughtovereverything,andIwasselfish。”
IrushedofftoWalhamGreenthateveningtogivebackallshehadgivenme,tobeatheraltogetheratgiving。Shewasextraordinarilygentleandgenerousthattime,Iremember,andwhenatlastIlefther,shekissedmeverysweetly。
Soweweremarried。
Weweremarriedwithallthecustomaryincongruity。I
gave——perhapsafterawhilenotaltogetherungrudgingly——andwhatIgave,Mariontook,withamanifestsatisfaction。Afterall,Iwasbeingsensible。Sothatwehadthreeliverycarriagestothechurch(oneofthepairsofhorsesmatched)andcoachmen——withimprovisedflavourandveryshabbysilkhats——bearingwhitefavoursontheirwhips,andmyuncleintervenedwithsplendourandinsisteduponhavingaweddingbreakfastsentinfromacaterer’sinHammersmith。Thetablehadagreatdisplayofchrysanthemums,andtherewasorangeblossominthesignificantplaceandawonderfulcake。Wealsocirculatedupwardsofascoreofwedgesofthataccompaniedbysilver-printedcardsinwhichMarion’snameofRamboatwasstrickenoutbyanarrowinfavourofPonderevo。WehadalittlerallyofMarion’srelations,andseveralfriendsandfriends’
friendsfromSmithie’sappearedinthechurchanddriftedvestry-ward。Iproducedmyauntanduncleaselectgroupoftwo。Theeffectinthatshabbylittlehousewasoneofexhilaratingcongestion。Theside-board,inwhichlivedthetable-clothandthe“Apartments“card,wasusedforadisplayofthepresents,ekedoutbytheunusedbalanceofthesilver-printedcards。
Marionworethewhiteraimentofabride,whitesilkandsatin,thatdidnotsuither,thatmadeherseemlargeandstrangetome;sheobtrudedbowsandunfamiliarcontours。ShewentthroughallthisstrangeritualofanEnglishweddingwithasacramentalgravitythatIwasaltogethertooyoungandegotisticaltocomprehend。Itwasallextraordinarilycentralandimportanttoher;itwasnomorethananoffensive,complicated,anddisconcertingintrusionofaworldIwasalreadybeginningtocriticiseverybitterly,tome。Whatwasallthisfussfor?ThemereindecentadvertisementthatIhadbeenpassionatelyinlovewithMarion!Ithink,however,thatMarionwasonlyveryremotelyawareofmysmoulderingexasperationathavingintheendbehaved“nicely。”Ihadplayed——uptotheextentofdressingmypart;Ihadanadmirablycutfrock——coat,anewsilkhat,trousersaslightasIcouldendurethem——lighter,infact——awhitewaistcoat,nighttie,lightgloves。Marion,seeingmedespondenthadtheunusualenterprisetowhispertomethatI