第59章

类别:其他 作者:H。 G。 Wells字数:2861更新时间:18/12/22 09:14:23
ThenIhadlanded,andwasgoingbacktowhereherhorsestoodstillandtrembling。 Weexchangednogreetings。Sheslidfromhersaddleintomyarms,andforoneinstantIheldher。 “Thosegreatwings。”shesaid,andthatwasall。 Shelayinmyarms,andIthoughtforamomentshehadfainted。 “Verynearanastyaccident。”saidCothope,comingupandregardingourgroupingwithdisfavour。Hetookherhorsebythebridle。“Verydangerousthingcomingacrossuslikethat。” Beatricedisengagedherselffromme,stoodforamomenttrembling,andthensatdownontheturf“I’lljustsitdownforamoment。”shesaid。 “Oh!”shesaid。 Shecoveredherfacewithherhands,whileCothopelookedatherwithanexpressionbetweensuspicionandimpatience。 Forsomemomentsnobodymoved。ThenCothoperemarkedthatperhapshe’dbettergetherwater。 Asforme,Iwasfilledwithanewoutrageousidea,begottenI scarcelyknowhowfromthisincident,withitsinstantcontactsandswiftemotions,andthatwasthatImustmakelovetoandpossessBeatrice。Iseenoparticularreasonwhythatthoughtshouldhavecometomeinthatmoment,butitdid。IdonotbelievethatbeforethenIhadthoughtofourrelationsinsuchtermsatall。Suddenly,asIrememberit,thefactorofpassioncame。Shecrouchedthere,andIstoodoverher,andneitherofussaidaword。Butitwasjustasthoughsomethinghadbeenshoutedfromthesky。 Cothopehadgonetwentypacesperhapswhensheuncoveredherface。“Ishan’twantanywater。”shesaid。“Callhimback。” Afterthatthespiritofourrelationschanged。Theoldeasehadgone。Shecametomelessfrequently,andwhenshecameshewouldhavesomeonewithher,usuallyoldCarnaby,andhewoulddothebulkofthetalking。AllthroughSeptembershewasaway。 Whenwewerealonetogethertherewasacuriousconstraint。Webecamecloudsofinexpressiblefeelingtowardsoneanother;wecouldthinkofnothingthatwasnottoomomentousforwords。 ThencamethesmashofLordRobertsA,andIfoundmyselfwithabandagedfaceinabedroomintheBedleyCornerdower-housewithBeatricepresidingoveraninefficientnurse,LadyOspreyverypinkandshockedinthebackground,andmyauntjealouslyintervening。 Myinjuriesweremuchmoreshowythanserious,andIcouldhavebeentakentoLadyGrovenextday,butBeatricewouldnotpermitthat,andkeptmeatBedleyCornerthreecleardays。Intheafternoonoftheseconddayshebecameextremelysolicitousfortheproperaerationofthenurse,packedheroffforanhourinabriskrain,andsatbymealone。 Iaskedhertomarryme。 AllthewholeImustadmititwasnotasituationthatlentitselftoeloquence。Ilayonmybackandtalkedthroughbandages,andwithsomelittledifficulty,formytongueandmouthhadswollen。ButIwasfeverishandinpain,andtheemotionalsuspenseIhadbeeninsolongwithregardtoherbecamenowanunendurableimpatience。 “Comfortable?”sheasked。 “Yes。” “ShallIreadtoyou?” “No。Iwanttotalk。” “Youcan’t。I’dbettertalktoyou。” “No。”Isaid,“Iwanttotalktoyou。” Shecameandstoodbymybedsideandlookedmeintheeyes。“I don’t——Idon’twantyoutotalktome。”shesaid。“Ithoughtyoucouldn’ttalk。” “Igetfewchances——ofyou。” “You’dbetternottalk。Don’ttalknow。Letmechatterinstead。 Yououghtnottotalk。” “Itisn’tmuch“Isaid。 “I’dratheryoudidn’t。” “I’mnotgoingtobedisfigured。”Isaid。“Onlyascar。” “Oh!”shesaid,asifshehadexpectedsomethingquitedifferent。“Didyouthinkyou’dbecomeasortofgargoyle?” “L’HommequiRit!——Ididn’tknow。Butthat’sallright。Jollyflowersthoseare!” “Michaelmasdaisies。”shesaid。“I’mgladyou’rnotdisfigured,andthoseareperennialsunflowers。Doyouknownoflowersatall?WhenIsawyouonthegroundIcertainlythoughtyouweredead。Yououghttohavebeen,byalltherulesofthegame。” Shesaidsomeotherthings,butIwasthinkingofmynextmove。 “Arewesocialequals?”Isaidabruptly。 Shestaredatme。“Queerquestion。”shesaid。 “Butarewe?” “H’m。Difficulttosay。Butwhydoyouask?IsthedaughterofacourtesyBaronwhodied——ofgeneraldisreputableness,I believe——beforehisfather——?Igiveitup。Doesitmatter?” “No。Mymindisconfused。Iwanttoknowifyouwillmarryme。” Shewhitenedandsaidnothing。IsuddenlyfeltImustpleadwithher。“Damnthesebandages!”Isaid,breakingintoineffectualfebrilerage。 Sherousedherselftoherdutiesasnurse。“Whatareyoudoing? Whyareyoutryingtositup?Sitdown!Don’ttouchyourbandages。Itoldyounottotalk。” Shestoodhelplessforamoment,thentookmefirmlybytheshouldersandpushedmebackuponthepillow。ShegrippedthewristofthehandIhadraisedtomyface。 “Itoldyounottotalk。”shewhisperedclosetomyface。“I askedyounottotalk。Whycouldn’tyoudoasIaskedyou?” “You’vebeenavoidingmeforamonth。”Isaid。 “Iknow。Youmighthaveknown。Putyourhandback——downbyyourside。” Iobeyed。Shesatontheedgeofthebed。Aflushhadcometohercheeks,andhereyeswereverybright。“Iaskedyou。”sherepeated,“nottotalk。” Myeyesquestionedhermutely。 Sheputherhandonmychest。Hereyesweretormented。 “HowcanIansweryounow?”shesaid。 “HowcanIsayanythingnow?” “Whatdoyoumean?”Iasked。 Shemadenoanswer。 “Doyoumeanitmustbe’No’?” Shenodded。 “But“Isaid,andmywholesoulwasfullofaccusations。 “Iknow。”shesaid。“Ican’texplain。Ican’t。Butithastobe’No!’Itcan’tbe。It’sutterly,finally,foreverimpossible。Keepyourhandsstill!” “But。”Isaid,“whenwemetagain——“ “Ican’tmarry。Ican’tandwon’t。” Shestoodup。“Whydidyoutalk?”shecried,“couldn’tyouSEE?” Sheseemedtohavesomethingitwasimpossibletosay。 ShecametothetablebesidemybedandpulledtheMichaelmasdaisiesawry。“Whydidyoutalklikethat?”shesaidinatoneofinfinitebitterness。“Tobeginlikethat!” “Butwhatisit?”Isaid。“Isitsomecircumstance——mysocialposition?” “Oh,DAMNyoursocialposition!”shecried。 Shewentandstoodatthefurtherwindow,staringoutattherain。Foralongtimewewereabsolutelystill。Thewindandraincameinlittlegustsuponthepane。Sheturnedtomeabruptly。 “Youdidn’taskmeifIlovedyou。”shesaid。 “Oh,ifit’sTHAT!”saidI。 “It’snotthat。”shesaid。“Butifyouwanttoknow——“Shepaused。 “Ido。”shesaid。 Westaredatoneanother。 “Ido——withallmyheart,ifyouwanttoknow。” “Then,whythedevil——?”Iasked。