第61章

类别:其他 作者:H。 G。 Wells字数:3777更新时间:18/12/22 09:14:23
AndatlastIcouldholdoutnolongeragainsttheseaccumulatingpressures。 Itookanarrogant,outrageouslinethatlefthernoloopholes;I behavedasthoughwewerelivinginamelodrama。 “Youmustcomeandtalktome。”Iwrote,“orIwillcomeandtakeyou。Iwantyou——andthetimerunsaway。” Wemetinarideintheupperplantations。ItmusthavebeenearlyinJanuary,fortherewassnowonthegroundandonthebranchesofthetrees。Wewalkedtoandfroforanhourormore,andfromthefirstIpitchedthekeyhighinromanceandmadeunderstandingsimpossible。Itwasourworsttimetogether。I boastedlikeanactor,andshe,Iknownotwhy,wastiredandspiritless。 NowIthinkoverthattalkinthelightofallthathashappenedsince,IcanimaginehowshecametomefullofahumanappealI wastoofoolishtolethermake。Idon’tknow。IconfessIhavenevercompletelyunderstoodBeatrice。IconfessIamstillperplexedatmanythingsshesaidanddid。Thatafternoon,anyhow,Iwasimpossible。Iposedandscolded。Iwas——Isaidit——for“takingtheUniversebythethroat!” “Ifitwasonlythat。”shesaid,butthoughIheard,Ididnotheedher。 Atlastshegavewaytomeandtalkednomore。Insteadshelookedatme——asathingbeyondhercontrolling,butnonethelessinteresting——muchasshehadlookedatmefrombehindtheskirtsofLadyDrewintheWarrenwhenwewerechildrentogether。 OnceevenIthoughtshesmiledfaintly。 “Whatarethedifficulties“Icried。“there’snodifficultyI willnotovercomeforyou!DoyourpeoplethinkI’mnoequalforyou?Whosaysit?Mydear,tellmetowinatitle!I’lldoitinfiveyears!。 “HereamIjustgrownamanatthesightofyou。Ihavewantedsomethingtofightfor。Letmefightforyou!。 “I’mrichwithoutintendingit。Letmemeanit,givemeanhonourableexcuseforit,andI’llputallthisrottenoldWarrenofEnglandatyourfeet!” Isaidsuchthingsasthat。Iwritethemdownhereinalltheirresoundingbasepride。Isaidtheseemptyandfoolishthings,andtheyarepartofme。WhyshouldIstillclingtoprideandbeashamed?Ishoutedherdown。 Ipassedfromsuchmegalomaniatopettyaccusations。 “YouthinkCarnabyisabettermanthanI?”Isaid。 “No!”shecried,stungtospeech。“No!” “Youthinkwe’reunsubstantial。You’velistenedtoalltheserumoursBoomhasstartedbecausewetalkedofanewspaperofourown。WhenyouarewithmeyouknowI’maman;whenyougetawayfrommeyouthinkI’macheatandacad。There’snotawordoftruthinthethingstheysayaboutus。I’vebeenslack。I’veleftthings。Butwehaveonlytoexertourselves。Youdonotknowhowwideandfarwehavespreadournets。Evennowwehaveacoup——anexpedition——inhand。Itwillputusonafooting。”。 HereyesaskedmutelyandaskedinvainthatIwouldceasetoboastoftheveryqualitiessheadmiredinme。 InthenightIcouldnotsleepforthinkingofthattalkandthevulgarthingsIhadsaidinit。Icouldnotunderstandthedriftmymindhadtaken。Iwasacutelydisgusted。Andmyunwonteddoubtsaboutmyselfspreadfromamerelypersonaldiscontenttoourfinancialposition。ItwasallverywelltotalkasIhaddoneofwealthandpowerandpeerages,butwhatdidIknownowadaysofmyuncle’sposition?SupposeinthemidstofsuchboastingandconfidencetherecamesometurnIdidnotsuspect,somerottennesshehadconcealedfromme?IresolvedIhadbeenplayingwithaeronauticslongenough;thatnextmorningIwouldgotohimandhavethingsclearbetweenus。 IcaughtanearlytrainandwentuptotheHardingham。 IwentuptotheHardinghamthroughadenseLondonfogtoseehowthingsreallystood。BeforeIhadtalkedtomyunclefortenminutesIfeltlikeamanwhohasjustawakenedinableak,inhospitableroomoutofagrandiosedream。 “Wegottomakeafightforit。”saidmyuncle。“Wegottofacethemusic!” IrememberthatevenatthesightofhimIhadasenseofimpendingcalamity。Hesatundertheelectriclightwiththeshadowofhishairmakingbarsdownhisface。Helookedshrunken,andasthoughhisskinhadsuddenlygotlooseandyellow。Thedecorationsoftheroomseemedtohavelostfreshness,andoutsidetheblindswereup——therewasnotsomuchfogasadundarkness。Onesawthedingyoutlinesofthechimneysoppositequitedistinctly,andthenaskyofsuchbrownasonlyLondoncandisplay。 “Isawaplacard。”Isaid:“’MorePonderevity。’“ “That’sBoom。”hesaid。“Boomandhisdamnednewspapers。He’stryingtofightmedown。EversinceIofferedtobuytheDailyDecoratorhe’sbeenatme。AndhethinksconsolidatingDoUtcutdowntheads。Hewantseverything,damnhim!He’sgotnosenseofdealing。I’dliketobashhisface!” “Well。”Isaid,“what’stobedone?” “Keepgoing。”saidmyuncle。 “I’llsmashBoomyet。”hesaid,withsuddensavagery。 “Nothingelse?”Iasked。 “Wegottokeepgoing。There’sascareon。Didyounoticetherooms?Halfthepeopleouttherethismorningarereporters。 AndifItalktheytouchitup!。Theydidn’tusedtotouchthingsup!Nowtheyputincharactertouches——insultingyou。 Don’tknowwhatjournalism’scomingto。It’sallBoom’sdoing。” HecursedLordBoomwithconsiderableimaginativevigour。 “Well。”saidI,“whatcanhedo?” “Shoveusupagainsttime,George;makemoneytightforus。Webeenhandlingalotofmoney——andhetightensusup。” “We’resound?” “Oh,we’resound,George。Trustmeforthat!Butallthesame—— There’ssuchalotofimaginationinthesethings。We’resoundenough。That’snotit。” Heblew。“DamnBoom!”hesaid,andhiseyesoverhisglassesmetminedefiantly。 “Wecan’t,Isuppose,runclosehauledforabitstopexpenditure?” “Where?” “Well,——CrestHill“ “What!”heshouted。“MestopCrestHillforBoom!”Hewavedafistasiftohithisinkpot,andcontrolledhimselfwithdifficulty。Hespokeatlastinareasonablevoice。“IfIdid。” hesaid,“he’dkickupafuss。It’snogood,evenifIwantedto。Everybody’swatchingtheplace。IfIwastostopbuildingwe’dbedowninaweek。” Hehadanidea。“IwishIcoulddosomethingtostartastrikeorsomething。Nosuchluck。Treatthoseworkmenasighttoowell。No,sinkorswim,CrestHillgoesonuntilwe’reunderwater。” Ibegantoaskquestionsandirritatedhiminstantly。 “Oh,dashtheseexplanations,George!”hecried;“Youonlymakethingslookrottenerthantheyare。It’syourway。Itisn’tacaseoffigures。We’reallright——there’sonlyonethingwegottodo。” “Yes?” “Showvalue,George。That’swherethisquapcomesin;that’swhyIfellinsoreadilywithwhatyoubroughttomeweekbeforelast。Hereweare,wegotouroptionontheperfectfilament,andallwewant’scanadium。Nobodyknowsthere’smorecanadiumintheworldthanwillgoontheedgeofasixpenceexceptmeandyou。Nobodyhasanideetheperfectfilament’smorethanjustabitoftheorising。Fiftytonsofquapandwe’dturnthatbitoftheorisingintosomething。We’dmakethelamptradesitonitstailandhowl。We’dputEdiswanandallof’emintoaparcelwithourlastyear’strousersandahat,andswap’emoffforapotofgeraniums。See?We’ddoitthroughBusinessOrganisations,andthereyouare!See?Capern’sPatentFilament! TheIdealandtheReal!George,we’lldoit!We’llbringitoff!Andthenwe’llgivesuchafacertoBoom,he’llthinkforfiftyyears。He’slayingupforourLondonandAfricanmeeting。 Lethim。Hecanturnthewholepaperontous。HesaystheBusinessOrganisationssharesaren’tworthfifty-twoandwequote’emateighty-four。Well,herewearegettin’readyforhim——loadingourgun。” Hisposewastriumphant。 “Yes。”Isaid,“that’sallright。ButIcan’thelpthinkingwhereshouldwebeifwehadn’tjustbyaccidentgotCapern’sPerfectFilament。Because,youknowitwasanaccident——mybuyingupthat。” Hecrumpleduphisnoseintoanexpressionofimpatientdistasteatmyunreasonableness。 “Andafterall,themeeting’sinJune,andyouhaven’tbeguntogetthequap!Afterall,we’vestillgottoloadourgun。” “TheystartonToosday。” “Havetheygotthebrig?” “They’vegotabrig。” “Gordon-Nasmyth!”Idoubted。 “Safeasabank。”hesaid。“MoreIseeofthatmanthemoreI likehim。AllIwishiswe’dgotasteamerinsteadofasailingship“ “And。”Iwenton,“youseemtooverlookwhatusedtoweighwithusabit。ThiscanadiumsideofthebusinessandtheCapernchancehasrushedyouoffyourlegs。Afterall——it’sstealing,andinitswayaninternationaloutrage。They’vegottwogunboatsonthecoast。” Ijumpedupandwentandstaredoutatthefog。 “And,byJove,it’saboutouronlychance!Ididn’tdream。” Iturnedonhim。“I’vebeenupintheair。”Isaid。