第68章

类别:其他 作者:H。 G。 Wells字数:3676更新时间:18/12/22 09:14:23
Ifirmlybelievethewatercamethroughthewood。Firstitbegantoooze,thentotrickle。Itwasliketryingtocarrymoistsugarinathinpaperbag。Soonweweretakinginwaterasthoughwehadopenedadoorinherbottom。 Onceitbegan,thethingwentaheadbeyondallfighting。Foradayorsowedidourbest,andIcanstillrememberinmylimbsandbackthepumping——thefatigueinmyarmsandthememoryofaclearlittledribbleofwaterthatjerkedasonepumped,andofknockingoffandthebeingawakenedtogoonagain,andoffatiguepilingupuponfatigue。Atlastweceasedtothinkofanythingbutpumping;onebecameathingoftormentenchanted,doomedtopumpforever。IstillrememberitaspurereliefwhenatlastPollackcametomepipeinmouth。 “Thecaptainsaysthedamnedthing’sgoingdownrightnow;’heremarked,chewinghismouthpiece。“Eh?” “Goodidea!”Isaid。“Onecan’tgoonpumpingforever。” Andwithouthurryoralacrity,sullenlyandwearilywegotintotheboatsandpulledawayfromtheMaudMaryuntilwewereclearofher,andthenwestayedrestingonouroars,motionlessuponaglassysea,waitingforhertosink。Wewereallsilent,eventhecaptainwassilentuntilshewentdown。Andthenhespokequitemildlyinanundertone。 “DatisthefirstshipIhafeverlost。Anditwasnotafairgame!Itwassnotacargoanymanshouldtake。No!” IstaredatthesloweddiesthatcircledabovethedepartedMaudMary,andthelastchanceofBusinessOrganisations。I feltwearybeyondemotion。IthoughtofmyheroicstoBeatriceandmyuncle,ofmyprompt“I’LLgo。”andofalltheineffectualmonthsIhadspentafterthisheadlongdecision。Iwasmovedtolaughteratmyselfandfate。 Butthecaptainandthemendidnotlaugh。Themenscowledatmeandrubbedtheirsoreandblisteredhands,andsetthemselvestorow。 AsalltheworldknowswewerepickedupbytheUnionCastleliner,PortlandCastle。 Thehairdresseraboardwasawonderfulman,andheevenimprovisedmeadresssuit,andproducedacleanshirtandwarmunderclothing。Ihadahotbath,anddressedanddinedanddrankabottleofBurgundy。 “Now。”Isaid,“arethereanynewspapers?Iwanttoknowwhat’sbeenhappeningintheworld。” Mystewardgavemewhathehad,butIlandedatPlymouthstilllargelyignorantofthecourseofevents。IshookoffPollack,andleftthecaptainandmateinanhotel,andthemeninaSailor’sHomeuntilIcouldsendtopaythemoff,andImademywaytothestation。 ThenewspapersIbought,theplacardsIsaw,allEnglandindeedresoundedtomyuncle’sbankruptcy。 ThateveningItalkedwithmyuncleintheHardinghamforthelasttime。Theatmosphereoftheplacehadalteredquiteshockingly。Insteadofthecrowdofimportunatecourtierstherewerejusthalfadozenuninvitingmen,journalistswaitingforaninterview。Ropperthebigcommissionairewasstillthere,butnowindeedhewasdefendingmyunclefromsomethingmorethantime-wastingintrusions。Ifoundthelittlemanaloneintheinnerofficepretendingtowork,butreallybrooding。Hewaslookingyellowanddeflated。 “Lord!”hesaidatthesightofme。“You’relean,George。Itmakesthatscarofyoursshowup。” Weregardedeachothergravelyforatime。 “Quap。”Isaid,“isatthebottomoftheAtlantic。There’ssomebills——We’vegottopaythemen。” “Seenthepapers?” “Read’emallinthetrain。” “Atbay。”hesaid。“Ibeenatbayforaweek。Yelpingroundme。Andmefacingthemusic。I’mfeelin’abittired。” Heblewandwipedhisglasses。 “Mystomackisn’twhatitwas。”heexplained。“Onefindsit——thesetimes。Howdiditallhappen,George?YourMarconigram——ittookmeinthewindabit。” Itoldhimconcisely。Henoddedtotheparagraphsofmynarrativeandattheendhepouredsomethingfromamedicinebottleintoastickylittlewineglassanddrankit。Ibecameawareofthepresenceofdrugs,ofthreeorfoursmallbottlesbeforehimamonghisdisorderofpapers,ofafaintelusivelyfamiliarodourintheroom。 “Yes。”hesaid,wipinghislipsandrecorkingthebottle。 “You’vedoneyourbest,George。Theluck’sbeenagainstus。” Hereflected,bottleinhand。“Sometimestheluckgoeswithyouandsometimesitdoesn’t。Sometimesitdoesn’t。Andthenwhereareyou?Grassintheoven!Fightornofight。” Heaskedafewquestionsandthenhisthoughtscamebacktohisownurgentaffairs。Itriedtogetsomecomprehensiveaccountofthesituationfromhim,buthewouldnotgiveit。 “Oh,IwishI’dhadyou。IwishI’dhadyou,George。I’vehadalotonmyhands。You’reclearheadedattimes。” “Whathashappened?” “Oh!Boom!——infernalthings。” “Yes,but——how?I’mjustoffthesea,remember。” “It’dworrymetoomuchtotellyounow。It’stiedupinaskein。” Hemutteredsomethingtohimselfandmuseddarkly,androusedhimselftosay—— “Besides——you’dbetterkeepoutofit。It’sgettingtight。Get’emtalking。GodowntoCrestHillandfly。That’sYOUR affair。” Foratimehismannersetfreequeeranxietiesinmybrainagain。 IwillconfessthatthatMordetIslandnightmareofminereturned,andasIlookedathimhishandwentoutforthedrugagain。“Stomach,George。”hesaid。 “Ibeenfightin’onthat。Everymanfightsonsomething——giveswaysomewheres——head,heart,liver——something。Zzzz。Giveswaysomewhere。Napoleondidatlast。AllthroughtheWaterloocampaign,hisstomach——itwasn’tastomach!Worsethanmine,noend。” Themoodofdepressionpassedasthedrugworkedwithinhim。Hiseyesbrightened。Hebegantotalkbig。Hebegantodressupthesituationformyeyes,torecoverwhathehadadmittedtome。 HeputitasaretreatfromRussia。TherewerestillthechancesofLeipzig。 “It’sabattle,George——abigfight。We’refightingformillions。I’vestillchances。There’sstillacardorso。I can’ttellallmyplans——likespeakingonthestroke。” “Youmight。”Ibegan。 “Ican’t,George。It’slikeaskingtolookatsomeembryo。Yougottowait。Iknow。Inasortofway,Iknow。Buttotellit——No!Youbeenawaysolong。Andeverything’sgotcomplicated。” Myperceptionofdisastrousentanglementsdeepenedwiththeriseofhisspirits。ItwasevidentthatIcouldonlyhelptotiehimupinwhatevernetwasweavingroundhismindbyforcingquestionsandexplanationsuponhim。Mythoughtsflewoffatanotherangle。“How’sAuntSusan?”saidI。 Ihadtorepeatthequestion。Hisbusywhisperinglipsstoppedforamoment,andheansweredinthenoteofonewhorepeatsaformula。 “She’dliketobeinthebattlewithme。She’dliketobehereinLondon。Butthere’scornersIgottoturnalone。”Hiseyerestedforamomentonthelittlebottlebesidehim。“Andthingshavehappened。 “Youmightgodownnowandtalktoher。”hesaid,inadirectervoice。“Ishallbedownto-morrownight,Ithink。” Helookedupasthoughhehopedthatwouldendourtalk。 “Fortheweek-end?”Iasked。 “Fortheweek-end。ThankGodforweek-ends,George!” MyreturnhometoLadyGrovewasaverydifferentthingfromwhatIhadanticipatedwhenIhadgotouttoseawithmyloadofquapandfanciedthePerfect-Filamentwassafewithinmygrasp。AsI walkedthroughtheeveninglightalongthedowns,thesummerstillnessseemedlikethestillnessofsomethingnewlydead。 Therewerenolurkingworkmenanymore,nocyclistsonthehighroad。 Cessationwasmanifesteverywhere。Therehadbeen,Ilearntfrommyaunt,atouchingandquitevoluntarydemonstrationwhentheCrestHillworkhadcometoanendandthemenhaddrawntheirlastpay;theyhadcheeredmyuncleandhootedthecontractorsandLordBoom。 IcannotnowrecallthemannerinwhichmyauntandIgreetedoneanother。Imusthavebeenverytiredthere,butwhateverimpressionwasmadehasgoneoutofmymemory。ButIrecallveryclearlyhowwesatatthelittleroundtablenearthebigwindowthatgaveontheterrace,anddinedandtalked。Irememberhertalkingofmyuncle。 Sheaskedafterhim,andwhetherheseemedwell。“IwishIcouldhelp。”shesaid。“ButI’veneverhelpedhimmuch,never。Hiswayofdoingthingswasnevermine。Andsince——since。Sincehebegantogetsorich,he’skeptthingsfromme。Intheolddays——itwasdifferent。 “Thereheis——Idon’tknowwhathe’sdoing。Hewon’thavemenearhim。 “More’skeptfrommethananyone。Theveryservantswon’tletmeknow。Theytryandstoptheworstofthepapers——Boom’sthings——fromcomingupstairs。Isupposethey’vegothiminacorner,George。PooroldTeddy!PooroldAdamandEveweare!