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类别:其他 作者:Joseph Conrad字数:13516更新时间:18/12/25 10:26:37
Thechildreninhiscountrywerenottaughttothrowstonesatthosewhoaskedforcompassion。 Smith’sstrategyovercamehimcompletely。Thewood—lodgepresentedthehorribleaspectofadun— geon。Whatwouldbedonetohimnext?…… NowonderthatAmyFosterappearedtohiseyeswiththeaureoleofanangeloflight。Thegirlhadnotbeenabletosleepforthinkingofthepoorman,andinthemorning,beforetheSmithswereup,sheslippedoutacrossthebackyard。Holdingthedoorofthewood—lodgeajar,shelookedinandextendedtohimhalfaloafofwhitebread——’suchbreadasthericheatinmycountry,’heusedtosay。 \"Atthishegotupslowlyfromamongstallsortsofrubbish,stiff,hungry,trembling,miserable,anddoubtful。’Canyoueatthis?’sheaskedinhersoftandtimidvoice。Hemusthavetakenherfora’graciouslady。’Hedevouredferociously,andtearswerefallingonthecrust。Suddenlyhedroppedthebread,seizedherwrist,andim— printedakissonherhand。Shewasnotfright— ened。Throughhisforlornconditionshehadobservedthathewasgood—looking。Sheshutthedoorandwalkedbackslowlytothekitchen。 Muchlateron,shetoldMrs。Smith,whoshud— deredatthebareideaofbeingtouchedbythatcreature。 \"Throughthisactofimpulsivepityhewasbroughtbackagainwithinthepaleofhumanrela— tionswithhisnewsurroundings。Heneverforgotit——never。 \"ThatverysamemorningoldMr。Swaffer(Smith’snearestneighbour)cameovertogivehisadvice,andendedbycarryinghimoff。Hestood,unsteadyonhislegs,meek,andcakedoverinhalf— driedmud,whilethetwomentalkedaroundhiminanincomprehensibletongue。Mrs。Smithhadre— fusedtocomedownstairstillthemadmanwasoffthepremises;AmyFoster,farfromwithinthedarkkitchen,watchedthroughtheopenbackdoor;andheobeyedthesignsthatweremadetohimtothebestofhisability。ButSmithwasfullofmistrust。 ’Mind,sir!Itmaybeallhiscunning,’hecriedrepeatedlyinatoneofwarning。WhenMr。 Swafferstartedthemare,thedeplorablebeingsit— tinghumblybyhisside,throughweakness,nearlyfelloutoverthebackofthehightwo—wheeledcart。 Swaffertookhimstraighthome。AnditisthenthatIcomeuponthescene。 \"IwascalledinbythesimpleprocessoftheoldmanbeckoningtomewithhisforefingeroverthegateofhishouseasIhappenedtobedrivingpast。 Igotdown,ofcourse。 \"’I’vegotsomethinghere,’hemumbled,lead— ingthewaytoanouthouseatalittledistancefromhisotherfarm—buildings。 \"ItwastherethatIsawhimfirst,inalonglowroomtakenuponthespaceofthatsortofcoach— house。Itwasbareandwhitewashed,withasmallsquareapertureglazedwithonecracked,dustypaneatitsfurtherend。Hewaslyingonhisbackuponastrawpallet;theyhadgivenhimacoupleofhorse—blankets,andheseemedtohavespenttheremainderofhisstrengthintheexertionofclean— inghimself。Hewasalmostspeechless;hisquickbreathingundertheblanketspulleduptohischin,hisglittering,restlessblackeyesremindedmeofawildbirdcaughtinasnare。WhileIwasexamininghim,oldSwafferstoodsilentlybythedoor,passingthetipsofhisfingersalonghisshavenupperlip。 Igavesomedirections,promisedtosendabottleofmedicine,andnaturallymadesomeinquiries。 \"’SmithcaughthiminthestackyardatNewBarns,’saidtheoldchapinhisdeliberate,unmovedmanner,andasiftheotherhadbeenindeedasortofwildanimal。’That’showIcamebyhim。 Quiteacuriosity,isn’the?Nowtellme,doctor—— you’vebeenallovertheworld——don’tyouthinkthat’sabitofaHindoowe’vegotholdofhere。’ \"Iwasgreatlysurprised。Hislongblackhairscatteredoverthestrawbolstercontrastedwiththeolivepallorofhisface。ItoccurredtomehemightbeaBasque。Itdidn’tnecessarilyfollowthatheshouldunderstandSpanish;butItriedhimwiththefewwordsIknow,andalsowithsomeFrench。 ThewhisperedsoundsIcaughtbybendingmyeartohislipspuzzledmeutterly。ThatafternoontheyoungladiesfromtheRectory(oneofthemreadGoethewithadictionary,andtheotherhadstrug— gledwithDanteforyears),comingtoseeMissSwaffer,triedtheirGermanandItalianonhimfromthedoorway。Theyretreated,justtheleastbitscaredbythefloodofpassionatespeechwhich,turningonhispallet,heletoutatthem。Theyad— mittedthatthesoundwaspleasant,soft,musical—— but,inconjunctionwithhislooksperhaps,itwasstartling——soexcitable,soutterlyunlikeanythingonehadeverheard。Thevillageboysclimbedupthebanktohaveapeepthroughthelittlesquareaperture。EverybodywaswonderingwhatMr。 Swafferwoulddowithhim。 \"Hesimplykepthim。 \"Swafferwouldbecalledeccentricwerehenotsomuchrespected。TheywilltellyouthatMr。 Swaffersitsupaslateasteno’clockatnighttoreadbooks,andtheywilltellyoualsothathecanwriteachequefortwohundredpoundswithoutthinkingtwiceaboutit。HehimselfwouldtellyouthattheSwaffershadownedlandbetweenthisandDarnfordforthesethreehundredyears。 Hemustbeeighty—fiveto—day,buthedoesnotlookabitolderthanwhenIfirstcamehere。Heisagreatbreederofsheep,anddealsextensivelyincat— tle。Heattendsmarketdaysformilesaroundineverysortofweather,anddrivessittingbowedlowoverthereins,hislankgreyhaircurlingoverthecollarofhiswarmcoat,andwithagreenplaidrugroundhislegs。Thecalmnessofadvancedagegivesasolemnitytohismanner。Heisclean— shaved;hislipsarethinandsensitive;somethingrigidandmonarchalinthesetofhisfeatureslendsacertainelevationtothecharacterofhisface。Hehasbeenknowntodrivemilesintheraintoseeanewkindofroseinsomebody’sgarden,oramon— strouscabbagegrownbyacottager。Helovestoheartellofortobeshownsomethingthathecalls’outlandish。’Perhapsitwasjustthatoutlandish— nessofthemanwhichinfluencedoldSwaffer。Per— hapsitwasonlyaninexplicablecaprice。AllI knowisthatattheendofthreeweeksIcaughtsightofSmith’slunaticdigginginSwaffer’skitch— engarden。Theyhadfoundouthecoulduseaspade。Hedugbarefooted。 \"Hisblackhairflowedoverhisshoulders。I supposeitwasSwafferwhohadgivenhimthestripedoldcottonshirt;butheworestillthena— tionalbrownclothtrousers(inwhichhehadbeenwashedashore)fittingtothelegalmostliketights;wasbeltedwithabroadleathernbeltstud— dedwithlittlebrassdiscs;andhadneveryetven— turedintothevillage。Thelandhelookeduponseemedtohimkeptneatly,likethegroundsroundalandowner’shouse;thesizeofthecart—horsesstruckhimwithastonishment;theroadsresembledgardenwalks,andtheaspectofthepeople,espe— ciallyonSundays,spokeofopulence。Hewon— deredwhatmadethemsohardheartedandtheirchildrensobold。Hegothisfoodatthebackdoor,carrieditinbothhandscarefullytohisouthouse,and,sittingaloneonhispallet,wouldmakethesignofthecrossbeforehebegan。Besidethesamepal— let,kneelingintheearlydarknessoftheshortdays,herecitedaloudtheLord’sPrayerbeforeheslept。 WheneverhesawoldSwafferhewouldbowwithvenerationfromthewaist,andstanderectwhiletheoldman,withhisfingersoverhisupperlip,sur— veyedhimsilently。HebowedalsotoMissSwaffer,whokepthousefrugallyforherfather——abroad— shouldered,big—bonedwomanofforty—five,withthepocketofherdressfullofkeys,andagrey,steadyeye。ShewasChurch——aspeoplesaid(whileherfatherwasoneofthetrusteesoftheBaptistChapel)——andworealittlesteelcrossatherwaist。Shedressedseverelyinblack,inmem— oryofoneoftheinnumerableBradleysoftheneighbourhood,towhomshehadbeenengagedsometwenty—fiveyearsago——ayoungfarmerwhobrokehisneckouthuntingontheeveofthewed— dingday。Shehadtheunmovedcountenanceofthedeaf,spokeveryseldom,andherlips,thinlikeherfather’s,astonishedonesometimesbyamyste— riouslyironiccurl。 \"Thesewerethepeopletowhomheowedalle— giance,andanoverwhelminglonelinessseemedtofallfromtheleadenskyofthatwinterwithoutsun— shine。Allthefacesweresad。Hecouldtalktonoone,andhadnohopeofeverunderstandinganybody。Itwasasifthesehadbeenthefacesofpeoplefromtheotherworld——deadpeople——heusedtotellmeyearsafterwards。Uponmyword,Iwonderhedidnotgomad。Hedidn’tknowwherehewas。Somewhereveryfarfromhismoun— tains——somewhereoverthewater。WasthisAmer— ica,hewondered? \"Ifithadn’tbeenforthesteelcrossatMissSwaffer’sbelthewouldnot,heconfessed,haveknownwhetherhewasinaChristiancountryatall。Heusedtocaststealthyglancesatit,andfeelcomforted。Therewasnothingherethesameasinhiscountry!Theearthandthewaterwerediffer— ent;therewerenoimagesoftheRedeemerbytheroadside。Theverygrasswasdifferent,andthetrees。AllthetreesbutthethreeoldNorwaypinesonthebitoflawnbeforeSwaffer’shouse,andtheseremindedhimofhiscountry。Hehadbeendetectedonce,afterdusk,withhisforeheadagainstthetrunkofoneofthem,sobbing,andtalkingtohimself。Theyhadbeenlikebrotherstohimatthattime,heaffirmed。Everythingelsewasstrange。 Conceiveyouthekindofanexistenceovershad— owed,oppressed,bytheeverydaymaterialappear— ances,asifbythevisionsofanightmare。Atnight,whenhecouldnotsleep,hekeptonthinkingofthegirlwhogavehimthefirstpieceofbreadhehadeateninthisforeignland。Shehadbeenneitherfiercenorangry,norfrightened。Herfaceherememberedastheonlycomprehensiblefaceamongstallthesefacesthatwereasclosed,asmys— terious,andasmuteasthefacesofthedeadwhoarepossessedofaknowledgebeyondthecompre— hensionoftheliving。Iwonderwhetherthemem— oryofhercompassionpreventedhimfromcuttinghisthroat。Butthere!IsupposeIamanoldsen— timentalist,andforgettheinstinctiveloveoflifewhichittakesallthestrengthofanuncommonde— spairtoovercome。 \"HedidtheworkwhichwasgivenhimwithanintelligencewhichsurprisedoldSwaffer。By—and— byitwasdiscoveredthathecouldhelpattheploughing,couldmilkthecows,feedthebullocksinthecattle—yard,andwasofsomeusewiththesheep。Hebegantopickupwords,too,veryfast; andsuddenly,onefinemorninginspring,heres— cuedfromanuntimelydeathagrand—childofoldSwaffer。 \"Swaffer’syoungerdaughterismarriedtoWillcox,asolicitorandtheTownClerkofCole— brook。Regularlytwiceayeartheycometostaywiththeoldmanforafewdays。Theironlychild,alittlegirlnotthreeyearsoldatthetime,ranoutofthehousealoneinherlittlewhitepinafore,and,toddlingacrossthegrassofaterracedgarden,pitchedherselfoveralowwallheadfirstintothehorsepondintheyardbelow。 \"Ourmanwasoutwiththewaggonerandtheploughinthefieldnearesttothehouse,andashewasleadingtheteamroundtobeginafreshfur— row,hesaw,throughthegapofthegate,whatforanybodyelsewouldhavebeenamereflutterofsomethingwhite。Buthehadstraight—glancing,quick,far—reachingeyes,thatonlyseemedtoflinchandlosetheiramazingpowerbeforetheimmensityofthesea。Hewasbarefooted,andlookingasout— landishastheheartofSwaffercoulddesire。Leav— ingthehorsesontheturn,totheinexpressibledis— ustofthewaggonerheboundedoff,goingovertheploughedgroundinlongleaps,andsuddenlyappearedbeforethemother,thrustthechildintoherarms,andstrodeaway。 \"Thepondwasnotverydeep;butstill,ifhehadnothadsuchgoodeyes,thechildwouldhaveperished——miserablysuffocatedinthefootorsoofstickymudatthebottom。OldSwafferwalkedoutslowlyintothefield,waitedtilltheploughcameovertohisside,hadagoodlookathim,andwith— outsayingawordwentbacktothehouse。Butfromthattimetheylaidouthismealsonthekitch— entable;andatfirst,MissSwaffer,allinblackandwithaninscrutableface,wouldcomeandstandinthedoorwayoftheliving—roomtoseehimmakeabigsignofthecrossbeforehefellto。Ibelievethatfromthatday,too,Swafferbegantopayhimreg— ularwages。 \"Ican’tfollowstepbystephisdevelopment。 Hecuthishairshort,wasseeninthevillageandalongtheroadgoingtoandfrotohisworklikeanyotherman。Childrenceasedtoshoutafterhim。 Hebecameawareofsocialdifferences,butre— mainedforalongtimesurprisedatthebarepov— ertyofthechurchesamongsomuchwealth。Hecouldn’tunderstandeitherwhytheywerekeptshutuponweekdays。Therewasnothingtostealinthem。Wasittokeeppeoplefromprayingtoooften?Therectorytookmuchnoticeofhimaboutthattime,andIbelievetheyoungladiesattemptedtopreparethegroundforhisconversion。Theycouldnot,however,breakhimofhishabitofcross— inghimself,buthewentsofarastotakeoffthestringwithacoupleofbrassmedalsthesizeofasixpence,atinymetalcross,andasquaresortofscapularywhichheworeroundhisneck。Hehungthemonthewallbythesideofhisbed,andhewasstilltobeheardeveryeveningrecitingtheLord’sPrayer,inincomprehensiblewordsandinaslow,ferventtone,ashehadheardhisoldfatherdoattheheadofallthekneelingfamily,bigandlittle,oneveryeveningofhislife。Andthoughheworecorduroysatwork,andaslop—madepepper—and— saltsuitonSundays,strangerswouldturnroundtolookafterhimontheroad。Hisforeignnesshadapeculiarandindeliblestamp。Atlastpeoplebe— cameusedtoseehim。Buttheyneverbecameusedtohim。Hisrapid,skimmingwalk;hisswarthycomplexion;hishatcockedontheleftear;hishab— it,onwarmevenings,ofwearinghiscoatoveroneshoulder,likeahussar’sdolman;hismannerofleapingoverthestiles,notasafeatofagility,butintheordinarycourseofprogression——allthesepeculiaritieswere,asonemaysay,somanycausesofscornandoffencetotheinhabitantsofthevil— lage。Theywouldn’tintheirdinnerhourlieflatontheirbacksonthegrasstostareatthesky。 Neitherdidtheygoaboutthefieldsscreamingdis— maltunes。ManytimeshaveIheardhishigh— pitchedvoicefrombehindtheridgeofsomeslop— ingsheep—walk,avoicelightandsoaring,likealark’s,butwithamelancholyhumannote,overourfieldsthathearonlythesongofbirds。AndI shouldbestartledmyself。Ah!Hewasdifferent: innocentofheart,andfullofgoodwill,whichno— bodywanted,thiscastaway,that,likeamantrans— plantedintoanotherplanet,wasseparatedbyanimmensespacefromhispastandbyanimmenseignorancefromhisfuture。Hisquick,ferventut— terancepositivelyshockedeverybody。’Anexcit— abledevil,’theycalledhim。Oneevening,inthetap—roomoftheCoachandHorses(havingdrunksomewhisky),heupsetthemallbysingingalovesongofhiscountry。Theyhootedhimdown,andhewaspained;butPreble,thelamewheelwright,andVincent,thefatblacksmith,andtheothernota— blestoo,wantedtodrinktheireveningbeerinpeace。Onanotheroccasionhetriedtoshowthemhowtodance。Thedustroseincloudsfromthesandedfloor;heleapedstraightupamongstthedealtables,struckhisheelstogether,squattedononeheelinfrontofoldPreble,shootingouttheotherleg,utteredwildandexultingcries,jumpeduptowhirlononefoot,snappinghisfingersabovehishead——andastrangecarterwhowashavingadrinkintherebegantoswear,andclearedoutwithhishalf—pintinhishandintothebar。Butwhensud— denlyhespranguponatableandcontinuedtodanceamongtheglasses,thelandlordinterfered。 Hedidn’twantany’acrobattricksinthetap— room。’Theylaidtheirhandsonhim。Havinghadaglassortwo,Mr。Swaffer’sforeignertriedtoexpostulate:wasejectedforcibly:gotablackeye。 \"Ibelievehefeltthehostilityofhishumansur— roundings。Buthewastough——toughinspirit,too,aswellasinbody。Onlythememoryoftheseafrightenedhim,withthatvagueterrorthatisleftbyabaddream。Hishomewasfaraway;andhedidnotwantnowtogotoAmerica。Ihadoftenexplainedtohimthatthereisnoplaceonearthwheretruegoldcanbefoundlyingreadyandtobegotforthetroubleofthepickingup。Howthen,heasked,couldheeverreturnhomewithemptyhandswhentherehadbeensoldacow,twoponies,andabitoflandtopayforhisgoing?Hiseyeswouldfillwithtears,and,avertingthemfromtheimmenseshimmerofthesea,hewouldthrowhim— selffacedownonthegrass。Butsometimes,cock— inghishatwithalittleconqueringair,hewoulddefymywisdom。Hehadfoundhisbitoftruegold。ThatwasAmyFoster’sheart;whichwas’agoldenheart,andsofttopeople’smisery,’hewouldsayintheaccentsofoverwhelmingconvic— tion。 \"HewascalledYanko。HehadexplainedthatthismeantlittleJohn;butashewouldalsorepeatveryoftenthathewasamountaineer(somewordsoundinginthedialectofhiscountrylikeGoorall) hegotitforhissurname。Andthisistheonlytraceofhimthatthesucceedingagesmayfindinthemarriageregisteroftheparish。Thereitstands——YankoGoorall——intherector’shandwrit— ing。Thecrookedcrossmadebythecastaway,acrosswhosetracingnodoubtseemedtohimthemostsolemnpartofthewholeceremony,isallthatremainsnowtoperpetuatethememoryofhisname。 \"Hiscourtshiphadlastedsometime——eversincehegothisprecariousfootinginthecommunity。ItbeganbyhisbuyingforAmyFosteragreensatinribboninDarnford。Thiswaswhatyoudidinhiscountry。YouboughtaribbonataJew’sstallonafair—day。Idon’tsupposethegirlknewwhattodowithit,butheseemedtothinkthathishonoura— bleintentionscouldnotbemistaken。 \"ItwasonlywhenhedeclaredhispurposetogetmarriedthatIfullyunderstoodhow,forahun— dredfutileandinappreciablereasons,how——shallIsayodious?——hewastoallthecountryside。 Everyoldwomaninthevillagewasupinarms。 Smith,cominguponhimnearthefarm,promisedtobreakhisheadforhimifhefoundhimaboutagain。Buthetwistedhislittleblackmoustachewithsuchabellicoseairandrolledsuchbig,blackfierceeyesatSmiththatthispromisecametonoth— ing。Smith,however,toldthegirlthatshemustbemadtotakeupwithamanwhowassurelywronginhishead。Allthesame,whensheheardhiminthegloamingwhistlefrombeyondtheorchardacoupleofbarsofaweirdandmournfultune,shewoulddropwhatevershehadinherhand——shewouldleaveMrs。Smithinthemiddleofasentence——andshewouldrunouttohiscall。Mrs。Smithcalledherashamelesshussy。Sheanswerednoth— ing。Shesaidnothingatalltoanybody,andwentonherwayasifshehadbeendeaf。SheandIaloneallintheland,Ifancy,couldseehisveryrealbeauty。Hewasverygood—looking,andmostgracefulinhisbearing,withthatsomethingwildasofawoodlandcreatureinhisaspect。Hermoth— ermoanedoverherdismallywheneverthegirlcametoseeheronherdayout。Thefatherwassurly,butpretendednottoknow;andMrs。Finnoncetoldherplainlythat’thisman,mydear,willdoyousomeharmsomedayyet。’Andsoitwenton。 Theycouldbeseenontheroads,shetrampingstol— idlyinherfinery——greydress,blackfeather,stoutboots,prominentwhitecottonglovesthatcaughtyoureyeahundredyardsaway;andhe,hiscoatslungpicturesquelyoveroneshoulder,pacingbyherside,gallantofbearingandcastingtenderglancesuponthegirlwiththegoldenheart。I wonderwhetherhesawhowplainshewas。Perhapsamongtypessodifferentfromwhathehadeverseen,hehadnotthepowertojudge;orperhapshewasseducedbythedivinequalityofherpity。 \"Yankowasingreattroublemeantime。Inhiscountryyougetanoldmanforanambassadorinmarriageaffairs。Hedidnotknowhowtopro— ceed。However,onedayinthemidstofsheepinafield(hewasnowSwaffer’sunder—shepherdwithFoster)hetookoffhishattothefatherandde— claredhimselfhumbly。’Idaresayshe’sfoolenoughtomarryyou,’wasallFostersaid。’Andthen,’heusedtorelate,’heputshishatonhishead,looksblackatmeasifhewantedtocutmythroat,whistlesthedog,andoffhegoes,leavingmetodothework。’TheFosters,ofcourse,didn’tliketolosethewagesthegirlearned:Amyusedtogiveallhermoneytohermother。ButtherewasinFosteraverygenuineaversiontothatmatch。Hecon— tendedthatthefellowwasverygoodwithsheep,butwasnotfitforanygirltomarry。Foronething,heusedtogoalongthehedgesmutteringtohimselflikeadam’fool;andthen,theseforeign— ersbehaveveryqueerlytowomensometimes。Andperhapshewouldwanttocarryheroffsomewhere——orrunoffhimself。Itwasnotsafe。Hepreachedittohisdaughterthatthefellowmightill—useherinsomeway。Shemadenoanswer。Itwas,theysaidinthevillage,asifthemanhaddonesomethingtoher。Peoplediscussedthematter。Itwasquiteanexcitement,andthetwowenton’walkingout’togetherinthefaceofopposition。 Thensomethingunexpectedhappened。 \"Idon’tknowwhetheroldSwaffereverunder— stoodhowmuchhewasregardedinthelightofafatherbyhisforeignretainer。Anywaytherela— tionwascuriouslyfeudal。SowhenYankoaskedformallyforaninterview——’andtheMisstoo’(hecalledthesevere,deafMissSwaffersimplyMiss) ——itwastoobtaintheirpermissiontomarry。 Swafferheardhimunmoved,dismissedhimbyanod,andthenshoutedtheintelligenceintoMissSwaffer’sbestear。Sheshowednosurprise,andonlyremarkedgrimly,inaveiledblankvoice,’Hecertainlywon’tgetanyothergirltomarryhim。’ \"ItisMissSwafferwhohasallthecreditofthemunificence:butinaveryfewdaysitcameoutthatMr。SwafferhadpresentedYankowithacot— tage(thecottageyou’veseenthismorning)andsomethinglikeanacreofground——hadmadeitovertohiminabsoluteproperty。Willcoxexpe— ditedthedeed,andIrememberhimtellingmehehadagreatpleasureinmakingitready。Itre— cited:’Inconsiderationofsavingthelifeofmybelovedgrandchild,BerthaWillcox。’ \"Ofcourse,afterthatnopoweronearthcouldpreventthemfromgettingmarried。 \"Herinfatuationendured。Peoplesawhergo— ingouttomeethimintheevening。Shestaredwithunblinking,fascinatedeyesuptheroadwherehewasexpectedtoappear,walkingfreely,withaswingfromthehip,andhummingoneofthelove— tunesofhiscountry。Whentheboywasborn,hegotelevatedatthe’CoachandHorses,’essayedagainasongandadance,andwasagainejected。 PeopleexpressedtheircommiserationforawomanmarriedtothatJack—in—the—box。Hedidn’tcare。 Therewasamannow(hetoldmeboastfully)towhomhecouldsingandtalkinthelanguageofhiscountry,andshowhowtodanceby—and—by。 \"ButIdon’tknow。Tomeheappearedtohavegrownlessspringyofstep,heavierinbody,lesskeenofeye。Imagination,nodoubt;butitseemstomenowasifthenetoffatehadbeendrawncloserroundhimalready。 \"OnedayImethimonthefootpathovertheTalfourdHill。Hetoldmethat’womenwerefun— ny。’Ihadheardalreadyofdomesticdifferences。 PeopleweresayingthatAmyFosterwasbegin— ningtofindoutwhatsortofmanshehadmarried。 Helookedupontheseawithindifferent,unseeingeyes。Hiswifehadsnatchedthechildoutofhisarmsonedayashesatonthedoorstepcrooningtoitasongsuchasthemotherssingtobabiesinhismountains。Sheseemedtothinkhewasdoingitsomeharm。Womenarefunny。Andshehadob— jectedtohimprayingaloudintheevening。Why? Heexpectedtheboytorepeattheprayeraloudafterhimby—and—by,asheusedtodoafterhisoldfatherwhenhewasachild——inhisowncountry。 AndIdiscoveredhelongedfortheirboytogrowupsothathecouldhaveamantotalkwithinthatlanguagethattoourearssoundedsodisturbing,sopassionate,andsobizarre。Whyhiswifeshoulddisliketheideahecouldn’ttell。Butthatwouldpass,hesaid。Andtiltinghisheadknow— ingly,hetappedhisbreastbonetoindicatethatshehadagoodheart:nothard,notfierce,opentocom— passion,charitabletothepoor! \"Iwalkedawaythoughtfully;Iwonderedwhetherhisdifference,hisstrangeness,werenotpenetratingwithrepulsionthatdullnaturetheyhadbegunbyirresistiblyattracting。Iwon— dered……\" TheDoctorcametothewindowandlookedoutatthefrigidsplendourofthesea,immenseinthehaze,asifenclosingalltheearthwithalltheheartslostamongthepassionsofloveandfear。 \"Physiologically,now,\"hesaid,turningawayabruptly,\"itwaspossible。Itwaspossible。\" Heremainedsilent。Thenwenton—— \"Atallevents,thenexttimeIsawhimhewasill——lungtrouble。Hewastough,butIdaresayhewasnotacclimatisedaswellasIhadsupposed。Itwasabadwinter;and,ofcourse,thesemountain— eersdogetfitsofhomesickness;andastateofde— pressionwouldmakehimvulnerable。Hewaslyinghalfdressedonacouchdownstairs。 \"Atablecoveredwithadarkoilclothtookupallthemiddleofthelittleroom。Therewasawickercradleonthefloor,akettlespoutingsteamonthehob,andsomechild’slinenlaydryingonthefender。Theroomwaswarm,butthedooropensrightintothegarden,asyounoticedperhaps。 \"Hewasveryfeverish,andkeptonmutteringtohimself。Shesatonachairandlookedathimfixedlyacrossthetablewithherbrown,blurredeyes。’Whydon’tyouhavehimupstairs?’I asked。Withastartandaconfusedstammershesaid,’Oh!ah!Icouldn’tsitwithhimupstairs,Sir。’ \"Igavehercertaindirections;andgoingout— side,Isaidagainthatheoughttobeinbedup— stairs。Shewrungherhands。’Icouldn’t。I couldn’t。Hekeepsonsayingsomething——Idon’tknowwhat。’Withthememoryofallthetalkagainstthemanthathadbeendinnedintoherears,Ilookedathernarrowly。Ilookedintohershort— sightedeyes,atherdumbeyesthatonceinherlifehadseenanenticingshape,butseemed,staringatme,toseenothingatallnow。ButIsawshewasuneasy。 \"’What’sthematterwithhim?’sheaskedinasortofvacanttrepidation。’Hedoesn’tlookveryill。Ineverdidseeanybodylooklikethisbe— fore……’ \"’Doyouthink,’Iaskedindignantly,’heisshamming?’ \"’Ican’thelpit,sir,’shesaidstolidly。Andsuddenlysheclappedherhandsandlookedrightandleft。’Andthere’sthebaby。Iamsofright— ened。Hewantedmejustnowtogivehimthebaby。Ican’tunderstandwhathesaystoit。’ \"’Can’tyouaskaneighbourtocomeinto— night?’Iasked。 \"’Please,sir,nobodyseemstocaretocome,’shemuttered,dullyresignedallatonce。 \"Iimpresseduponherthenecessityofthegreatestcare,andthenhadtogo。Therewasagooddealofsicknessthatwinter。’Oh,Ihopehewon’ttalk!’sheexclaimedsoftlyjustasIwasgo— ingaway。 \"Idon’tknowhowitisIdidnotsee——butI didn’t。Andyet,turninginmytrap,Isawherlingeringbeforethedoor,verystill,andasifmed— itatingaflightupthemiryroad。 \"Towardsthenighthisfeverincreased。 \"Hetossed,moaned,andnowandthenmutteredacomplaint。Andshesatwiththetablebetweenherandthecouch,watchingeverymovementandeverysound,withtheterror,theunreasonableter— ror,ofthatmanshecouldnotunderstandcreepingoverher。Shehaddrawnthewickercradleclosetoherfeet。Therewasnothinginhernowbutthematernalinstinctandthatunaccountablefear。 \"Suddenlycomingtohimself,parched,hede— mandedadrinkofwater。Shedidnotmove。Shehadnotunderstood,thoughhemayhavethoughthewasspeakinginEnglish。Hewaited,lookingather,burningwithfever,amazedathersilenceandimmobility,andthenheshoutedimpatiently,’Water!Givemewater!’ \"Shejumpedtoherfeet,snatchedupthechild,andstoodstill。Hespoketoher,andhispassion— ateremonstrancesonlyincreasedherfearofthatstrangeman。Ibelievehespoketoherforalongtime,entreating,wondering,pleading,ordering,I suppose。Shesayssheboreitaslongasshecould。 Andthenagustofragecameoverhim。 \"Hesatupandcalledoutterriblyoneword—— someword。Thenhegotupasthoughhehadn’tbeenillatall,shesays。Andasinfevereddismay,indignation,andwonderhetriedtogettoherroundthetable,shesimplyopenedthedoorandranoutwiththechildinherarms。Sheheardhimcalltwiceafterherdowntheroadinaterriblevoice—— andfled……Ah!butyoushouldhaveseenstir— ringbehindthedull,blurredglanceoftheseeyesthespectreofthefearwhichhadhuntedheronthatnightthreemilesandahalftothedoorofFos— ter’scottage!Ididthenextday。 \"AnditwasIwhofoundhimlyingfacedownandhisbodyinapuddle,justoutsidethelittlewicket—gate。 \"Ihadbeencalledoutthatnighttoanurgentcaseinthevillage,andonmywayhomeatday— breakpassedbythecottage。Thedoorstoodopen。 Mymanhelpedmetocarryhimin。Welaidhimonthecouch。Thelampsmoked,thefirewasout,thechillofthestormynightoozedfromthecheer— lessyellowpaperonthewall。’Amy!’Icalledaloud,andmyvoiceseemedtoloseitselfintheemptinessofthistinyhouseasifIhadcriedinadesert。Heopenedhiseyes。’Gone!’hesaiddis— tinctly。’Ihadonlyaskedforwater——onlyforalittlewater……’ \"Hewasmuddy。Icoveredhimupandstoodwaitinginsilence,catchingapainfullygaspedwordnowandthen。Theywerenolongerinhisownlanguage。Thefeverhadlefthim,takingwithittheheatoflife。Andwithhispantingbreastandlustrouseyesheremindedmeagainofawildcreatureunderthenet;ofabirdcaughtinasnare。Shehadlefthim。Shehadlefthim——sick——helpless——thirsty。Thespearofthehunterhadenteredhisverysoul。’Why?’hecriedinthepen— etratingandindignantvoiceofamancallingtoaresponsibleMaker。Agustofwindandaswishofrainanswered。 \"AndasIturnedawaytoshutthedoorhepro— nouncedtheword’Merciful!’andexpired。 \"EventuallyIcertifiedheart—failureastheim— mediatecauseofdeath。Hisheartmusthavein— deedfailedhim,orelsehemighthavestoodthisnightofstormandexposure,too。Iclosedhiseyesanddroveaway。NotveryfarfromthecottageI metFosterwalkingsturdilybetweenthedrippinghedgeswithhiscollieathisheels。 \"’Doyouknowwhereyourdaughteris?’I asked。 \"’Don’tI!’hecried。’Iamgoingtotalktohimabit。Frighteningapoorwomanlikethis。’ \"’Hewon’tfrightenheranymore,’Isaid。 ’Heisdead。’ \"Hestruckwithhisstickatthemud。 \"’Andthere’sthechild。’ \"Then,afterthinkingdeeplyforawhile—— \"’Idon’tknowthatitisn’tforthebest。’ \"That’swhathesaid。Andshesaysnothingatallnow。Notawordofhim。Never。Ishisim— ageasutterlygonefromhermindashislitheandstridingfigure,hiscarollingvoicearegonefromourfields?Heisnolongerbeforehereyestoex— citeherimaginationintoapassionofloveorfear; andhismemoryseemstohavevanishedfromherdullbrainasashadowpassesawayuponawhitescreen。ShelivesinthecottageandworksforMissSwaffer。SheisAmyFosterforeverybody,andthechildis’AmyFoster’sboy。’ShecallshimJohnny——whichmeansLittleJohn。 \"Itisimpossibletosaywhetherthisnamere— callsanythingtoher。Doessheeverthinkofthepast?Ihaveseenherhangingovertheboy’scotinaverypassionofmaternaltenderness。Thelit— tlefellowwaslyingonhisback,alittlefrightenedatme,butverystill,withhisbigblackeyes,withhisflutteredairofabirdinasnare。AndlookingathimIseemedtoseeagaintheotherone——thefather,castoutmysteriouslybytheseatoperishinthesupremedisasteroflonelinessanddespair。\"