第2章

类别:其他 作者:Daniel Defoe字数:4321更新时间:18/12/26 16:40:16
Mytruenameissowellknownintherecordsorregisters atNewgate,andintheOldBailey,andtherearesomethings ofsuchconsequencestilldependingthere,relatingtomy particularconduct,thatitisnotbeexpectedIshouldsetmy nameortheaccountofmyfamilytothiswork;perhaps,after mydeath,itmaybebetterknown;atpresentitwouldnotbe proper,nonotthoughageneralpardonshouldbeissued,even withoutexceptionsandreserveofpersonsorcrimes。 Itisenoughtotellyou,thatassomeofmyworstcomrades, whoareoutofthewayofdoingmeharm(havinggoneoutof theworldbythestepsandthestring,asIoftenexpectedtogo), knewmebythenameofMollFlanders,soyoumaygiveme leavetospeakofmyselfunderthatnametillIdareownwho Ihavebeen,aswellaswhoIam。 Ihavebeentoldthatinoneofneighbournations,whetherit beinFranceorwhereelseIknownot,theyhaveanorderfrom theking,thatwhenanycriminaliscondemned,eithertodie, ortothegalleys,ortobetransported,iftheyleaveanychildren, assucharegenerallyunprovidedfor,bythepovertyorforfeiture oftheirparents,sotheyareimmediatelytakenintothecareof theGovernment,andputintoahospitalcalledtheHouseof Orphans,wheretheyarebredup,clothed,fed,taught,and whenfittogoout,areplacedouttotradesortoservices,so astobewellabletoprovideforthemselvesbyanhonest, industriousbehaviour。 Hadthisbeenthecustominourcountry,Ihadnotbeenleft apoordesolategirlwithoutfriends,withoutclothes,without helporhelperintheworld,aswasmyfate;andbywhichI wasnotonlyexposedtoverygreatdistresses,evenbeforeI wascapableeitherofunderstandingmycaseorhowtoamend it,butbroughtintoacourseoflifewhichwasnotonlyscandalous initself,butwhichinitsordinarycoursetendedtotheswift destructionbothofsoulandbody。 Butthecasewasotherwisehere。 Mymotherwasconvicted offelonyforacertainpettytheftscarceworthnaming,viz。 havinganopportunityofborrowingthreepiecesoffineholland ofacertaindraperinCheapside。 Thecircumstancesaretoo longtorepeat,andIhaveheardthemrelatedsomanyways, thatIcanscarcebecertainwhichistherightaccount。 Howeveritwas,thistheyallagreein,thatmymotherpleaded herbelly,andbeingfoundquickwithchild,shewasrespited foraboutsevenmonths;inwhichtimehavingbroughtmeinto theworld,andbeingaboutagain,shewascalleddown,asthey termit,toherformerjudgment,butobtainedthefavourof beingtransportedtotheplantations,andleftmeabouthalfa yearold;andinbadhands,youmaybesure。 Thisistoonearthefirsthoursofmylifeformetorelate anythingofmyselfbutbyhearsay;itisenoughtomention, thatasIwasborninsuchanunhappyplace,Ihadnoparish tohaverecoursetoformynourishmentinmyinfancy;nor canIgivetheleastaccounthowIwaskeptalive,otherthan that,asIhavebeentold,somerelationofmymother’stook meawayforawhileasanurse,butatwhoseexpense,orby whosedirection,Iknownothingatallofit。 ThefirstaccountthatIcanrecollect,orcouldeverlearnof myself,wasthatIhadwanderedamongacrewofthosepeople theycallgypsies,orEgyptians;butIbelieveitwasbutavery littlewhilethatIhadbeenamongthem,forIhadnothadmy skindiscolouredorblackened,astheydoveryyoungtoallthe childrentheycarryaboutwiththem;norcanItellhowIcame amongthem,orhowIgotfromthem。 ItwasatColchester,inEssex,thatthosepeopleleftme;and IhaveanotioninmyheadthatIleftthemthere(thatis,that Ihidmyselfandwouldnotgoanyfartherwiththem),butIam notabletobeparticularinthataccount;onlythisIremember, thatbeingtakenupbysomeoftheparishofficersofColchester, IgaveanaccountthatIcameintothetownwiththegypsies, butthatIwouldnotgoanyfartherwiththem,andthatsothey hadleftme,butwhithertheyweregonethatIknewnot,nor couldtheyexpectitofme;forthoughtheysendroundthe countrytoinquireafterthem,itseemstheycouldnotbefound。 Iwasnowinawaytobeprovidedfor;forthoughIwasnota parishchargeuponthisorthatpartofthetownbylaw,yetas mycasecametobeknown,andthatIwastooyoungtodoany work,beingnotabovethreeyearsold,compassionmovedthe magistratesofthetowntoordersomecaretobetakenofme, andIbecameoneoftheirownasmuchasifIhadbeenborn intheplace。 Intheprovisiontheymadeforme,itwasmygoodhaptobe puttonurse,astheycallit,toawomanwhowasindeedpoor buthadbeeninbettercircumstances,andwhogotalittle livelihoodbytakingsuchasIwassupposedtobe,andkeeping themwithallnecessaries,tilltheywereatacertainage,in whichitmightbesupposedtheymightgotoserviceorget theirownbread。 Thiswomanhadalsohadalittleschool,whichshekeptto teachchildrentoreadandtowork;andhaving,asIhavesaid, livedbeforethatingoodfashion,shebredupthechildrenshe tookwithagreatdealofart,aswellaswithagreatdealofcare。 Butthatwhichwasworthalltherest,shebredthemupvery religiously,beingherselfaverysober,piouswoman,veryhouse- wifelyandclean,andverymannerly,andwithgoodbehaviour。 Sothatinaword,expectingaplaindiet,coarselodging,and meanclothes,wewerebroughtupasmannerlyandasgenteelly asifwehadbeenatthedancing-school。 IwascontinuedheretillIwaseightyearsold,whenIwas terrifiedwithnewsthatthemagistrates(asIthinktheycalled them)hadorderedthatIshouldgotoservice。 Iwasableto dobutverylittleservicewhereverIwastogo,exceptitwas torunoferrandsandbeadrudgetosomecookmaid,andthis theytoldmeofoften,whichputmeintoagreatfright;forI hadathoroughaversiontogoingtoservice,astheycalledit (thatis,tobeaservant),thoughIwassoyoung;andItoldmy nurse,aswecalledher,thatIbelievedIcouldgetmyliving withoutgoingtoservice,ifshepleasedtoletme;forshehad taughtmetoworkwithmyneedle,andspinworsted,which isthechieftradeofthatcity,andItoldherthatifshewould keepme,Iwouldworkforher,andIwouldworkveryhard。 Italkedtoheralmosteverydayofworkinghard;and,inshort, Ididnothingbutworkandcryallday,whichgrievedthegood, kindwomansomuch,thatatlastshebegantobeconcerned forme,forshelovedmeverywell。 Onedayafterthis,asshecameintotheroomwhereallwe poorchildrenwereatwork,shesatdownjustoveragainstme, notinherusualplaceasmistress,butasifshesetherselfon purposetoobservemeandseemework。 Iwasdoingsomething shehadsetmeto;asIremember,itwasmarkingsomeshirts whichshehadtakentomake,andafterawhileshebeganto talktome。 ’Thoufoolishchild,’saysshe,’thouartalways crying(forIwascryingthen);’prithee,whatdostcryfor?’ ’Becausetheywilltakemeaway,’saysI,’andputmetoservice, andIcan’tworkhousework。’ ’Well,child,’saysshe,’but thoughyoucan’tworkhousework,asyoucallit,youwilllearn itintime,andtheywon’tputyoutohardthingsatfirst。’ ’Yes, theywill,’saysI,’andifIcan’tdoittheywillbeatme,andthe maidswillbeatmetomakemedogreatwork,andIambuta littlegirlandIcan’tdoit’;andthenIcriedagain,tillIcould notspeakanymoretoher。 Thismovedmygoodmotherlynurse,sothatshefromthat timeresolvedIshouldnotgotoserviceyet;soshebidmenot cry,andshewouldspeaktoMr。Mayor,andIshouldnotgoto servicetillIwasbigger。 Well,thisdidnotsatisfyme,fortothinkofgoingtoservice wassuchafrightfulthingtome,thatifshehadassuredmeI shouldnothavegonetillIwastwentyyearsold,itwouldhave beenthesametome;Ishouldhavecried,Ibelieve,allthe time,withtheveryapprehensionofitsbeingtobesoatlast。 WhenshesawthatIwasnotpacifiedyet,shebegantobe angrywithme。 ’Andwhatwouldyouhave?’saysshe;’don’t Itellyouthatyoushallnotgotoservicetillyourarebigger?’ ’Ay,’saidI,’butthenImustgoatlast。’ ’Why,what?’saidshe; ’isthegirlmad? Whatwouldyoube——agentlewoman?’ ’Yes,’saysI,andcriedheartilytillIroardoutagain。 Thissettheoldgentlewomana-laughingatme,asyoumaybe sureitwould。 ’Well,madam,forsooth,’saysshe,gibingatme, ’youwouldbeagentlewoman;andprayhowwillyoucometo beagentlewoman? What!willyoudoitbyyourfingers’end?’ ’Yes,’saysIagain,veryinnocently。 ’Why,whatcanyouearn?’saysshe;’whatcanyougetatyour work?’ ’Threepence,’saidI,’whenIspin,andfourpencewhenIwork plainwork。’ ’Alas!poorgentlewoman,’saidsheagain,laughing,’whatwill thatdoforthee?’ ’Itwillkeepme,’saysI,’ifyouwillletmelivewithyou。’ And thisIsaidinsuchapoorpetitioningtone,thatitmadethepoor woman’sheartyearntome,asshetoldmeafterwards。 ’But,’saysshe,’thatwillnotkeepyouandbuyyouclothes too;andwhomustbuythelittlegentlewomanclothes?’says she,andsmiledallthewhileatme。 ’Iwillworkharder,then,’saysI,’andyoushallhaveitall。’ ’Poorchild!itwon’tkeepyou,’saysshe;’itwillhardlykeep youinvictuals。’ ’ThenIwillhavenovictuals,’saysI,againveryinnocently; ’letmebutlivewithyou。’ ’Why,canyoulivewithoutvictuals?’saysshe。 ’Yes,’againsaysI,verymuchlikeachild,youmaybesure, andstillIcriedheartily。 Ihadnopolicyinallthis;youmayeasilyseeitwasallnature; butitwasjoinedwithsomuchinnocenceandsomuchpassion that,inshort,itsetthegoodmotherlycreaturea-weepingtoo, andshecriedatlastasfastasIdid,andthentookmeandled meoutoftheteaching-room。 ’Come,’saysshe,’youshan’t gotoservice;youshalllivewithme’;andthispacifiedme forthepresent。 Sometimeafterthis,shegoingtowaitontheMayor,and talkingofsuchthingsasbelongedtoherbusiness,atlastmy storycameup,andmygoodnursetoldMr。Mayorthewhole tale。