第5章

类别:其他 作者:Daniel Defoe字数:4128更新时间:18/12/26 16:40:16
However,nothingelsepassedatthattime;itwasbutasur- prise,andwhenhewasgoneIsoonrecoveredmyselfagain。 Hehadstayedlongerwithme,buthehappenedtolookout atthewindowandseehissisterscomingupthegarden,so hetookhisleave,kissedmeagain,toldmehewasveryserious, andIshouldhearmoreofhimveryquickly,andawayhewent, leavingmeinfinitelypleased,thoughsurprised;andhadthere notbeenonemisfortuneinit,Ihadbeenintheright,butthe mistakelayhere,thatMrs。Bettywasinearnestandthe gentlemanwasnot。 Fromthistimemyheadranuponstrangethings,andImay trulysayIwasnotmyself;tohavesuchagentlemantalkto meofbeinginlovewithme,andofmybeingsuchacharming creature,ashetoldmeIwas;thesewerethingsIknewnot howtobear,myvanitywaselevatedtothelastdegree。 Itis trueIhadmyheadfullofpride,but,knowingnothingofthe wickednessofthetimes,Ihadnotonethoughtofmyown safetyorofmyvirtueaboutme;andhadmyyoungmaster offereditatfirstsight,hemighthavetakenanylibertyhe thoughtfitwithme;buthedidnotseehisadvantage,which wasmyhappinessforthattime。 Afterthisattackitwasnotlongbuthefoundanopportunity tocatchmeagain,andalmostinthesameposture;indeed,it hadmoreofdesigninitonhispart,thoughnotonmypart。 wasthus: theyoungladieswereallgonea-visitingwiththeir mother;hisbrotherwasoutoftown;andasforhisfather,he hadbeeninLondonforaweekbefore。 Hehadsowellwatched methatheknewwhereIwas,thoughIdidnotsomuchasknow thathewasinthehouse;andhebrisklycomesupthestairsand, seeingmeatwork,comesintotheroomtomedirectly,and beganjustashedidbefore,withtakingmeinhisarms,and kissingmeforalmostaquarterofanhourtogether。 Itwashisyoungersister’schamberthatIwasin,andasthere wasnobodyinthehousebutthemaidsbelow-stairs,hewas, itmaybe,theruder;inshort,hebegantobeinearnestwithme indeed。 Perhapshefoundmealittletooeasy,forGodknows Imadenoresistancetohimwhileheonlyheldmeinhisarms andkissedme;indeed,Iwastoowellpleasedwithittoresist himmuch。 However,asitwere,tiredwiththatkindofwork,wesatdown, andtherehetalkedwithmeagreatwhile;hesaidhewas charmedwithme,andthathecouldnotrestnightordaytill hehadtoldmehowhewasinlovewithme,and,ifIwasable tolovehimagain,andwouldmakehimhappy,Ishouldbethe savingofhislife,andmanysuchfinethings。 Isaidlittleto himagain,buteasilydiscoveredthatIwasafool,andthatI didnotintheleastperceivewhathemeant。 Endof Thenhewalkedabouttheroom,andtakingmebythehand, Iwalkedwithhim;andbyandby,takinghisadvantage,he threwmedownuponthebed,andkissedmetheremost violently;but,togivehimhisdue,offerednomannerof rudenesstome,onlykissedagreatwhile。 Afterthishe thoughthehadheardsomebodycomeupstairs,sogotofffrom thebed,liftedmeup,professingagreatdealofloveforme, buttoldmeitwasallanhonestaffection,andthathemeant noilltome;andwiththatheputfiveguineasintomyhand, andwentawaydownstairs。 IwasmoreconfoundedwiththemoneythanIwasbeforewith thelove,andbegantobesoelevatedthatIscarceknewthe groundIstoodon。 Iamthemoreparticularinthispart,that ifmystorycomestobereadbyanyinnocentyoungbody,they maylearnfromittoguardthemselvesagainstthemischiefs whichattendanearlyknowledgeoftheirownbeauty。 Ifa youngwomanoncethinksherselfhandsome,sheneverdoubts thetruthofanymanthattellsherheisinlovewithher;forif shebelievesherselfcharmingenoughtocaptivatehim,’tis naturaltoexpecttheeffectsofit。 Thisyounggentlemanhadfiredhisinclinationasmuchashe hadmyvanity,and,asifhehadfoundthathehadanopportunity andwassorryhedidnottakeholdofit,hecomesupagainin halfanhourorthereabouts,andfallstoworkwithmeagainas before,onlywithalittlelessintroduction。 Andfirst,whenheenteredtheroom,heturnedaboutandshut thedoor。 ’Mrs。Betty,’saidhe,’Ifanciedbeforesomebody wascomingupstairs,butitwasnotso;however,’addshe, ’iftheyfindmeintheroomwithyou,theyshan’tcatchme a-kissingofyou。’ItoldhimIdidnotknowwhoshouldbe comingupstairs,forIbelievedtherewasnobodyinthehouse butthecookandtheothermaid,andtheynevercameupthose stairs。 ’Well,mydear,’sayshe,’’tisgoodtobesure,however’; andsohesitsdown,andwebegantotalk。 Andnow,though Iwasstillallonfirewithhisfirstvisit,andsaidlittle,hedid asitwereputwordsinmymouth,tellingmehowpassionately helovedme,andthatthoughhecouldnotmentionsuchathing tillhecametothisestate,yethewasresolvedtomakemehappy then,andhimselftoo;thatistosay,tomarryme,andabundance ofsuchfinethings,whichI,poorfool,didnotunderstandthe driftof,butactedasiftherewasnosuchthingasanykindof lovebutthatwhichtendedtomatrimony;andifhehadspoke ofthat,Ihadnoroom,aswellasnopower,tohavesaidno; butwewerenotcomethatlengthyet。 Wehadnotsatlong,buthegotup,and,stoppingmyvery breathwithkisses,threwmeuponthebedagain;butthen beingbothwellwarmed,hewentfartherwithmethandecency permitsmetomention,norhaditbeeninmypowertohave deniedhimatthatmoment,hadheofferedmuchmorethan hedid。 However,thoughhetookthesefreedomswithme,itdidnot gotothatwhichtheycallthelastfavour,which,todohim justice,hedidnotattempt;andhemadethatself-denialofhis apleaforallhisfreedomswithmeuponotheroccasionsafter this。 Whenthiswasover,hestayedbutalittlewhile,buthe putalmostahandfulofgoldinmyhand,andleftme,making athousandprotestationsofhispassionforme,andofhis lovingmeaboveallthewomenintheworld。 ItwillnotbestrangeifInowbegantothink,butalas!itwas butwithverylittlesolidreflection。 Ihadamostunbounded stockofvanityandpride,andbutaverylittlestockofvirtue。 Ididindeedcasesometimeswithmyselfwhatyoungmaster aimedat,butthoughtofnothingbutthefinewordsandthe gold;whetherheintendedtomarryme,ornottomarryme, seemedamatterofnogreatconsequencetome;nordidmy thoughtssomuchassuggesttomethenecessityofmaking anycapitulationformyself,tillhecametomakeakindof formalproposaltome,asyoushallhearpresently。 ThusIgaveupmyselftoareadinessofbeingruinedwithout theleastconcernandamafairmementotoallyoungwomen whosevanityprevailsovertheirvirtue。 Nothingwaseverso stupidonbothsides。 HadIactedasbecameme,andresisted asvirtueandhonourrequire,thisgentlemanhadeitherdesisted hisattacks,findingnoroomtoexpecttheaccomplishmentof hisdesign,orhadmadefairandhonourableproposalsof marriage;inwhichcase,whoeverhadblamedhim,nobody couldhaveblamedme。 Inshort,ifhehadknownme,and howeasythetrifleheaimedatwastobehad,hewouldhave troubledhisheadnofarther,buthavegivenmefourorfive guineas,andhavelainwithmethenexttimehehadcomeatme。 AndifIhadknownhisthoughts,andhowhardhethoughtI wouldbetobegained,Imighthavemademyowntermswith him;andifIhadnotcapitulatedforanimmediatemarriage, Imightforamaintenancetillmarriage,andmighthavehad whatIwould;forhewasalreadyrichtoexcess,besideswhat hehadinexpectation;butIseemedwhollytohaveabandoned allsuchthoughtsasthese,andwastakenuponlywiththepride ofmybeauty,andofbeingbelovedbysuchagentleman。 forthegold,Ispentwholehoursinlookinguponit;Itoldthe guineasoverandoverathousandtimesaday。 Neverpoor vaincreaturewassowraptupwitheverypartofthestoryas Iwas,notconsideringwhatwasbeforeme,andhownearmy ruinwasatthedoor;indeed,IthinkIratherwishedforthat ruinthanstudiedtoavoidit。 Inthemeantime,however,Iwascunningenoughnottogive theleastroomtoanyinthefamilytosuspectme,ortoimagine thatIhadtheleastcorrespondencewiththisyounggentleman。 Iscarceeverlookedtowardshiminpublic,oransweredifhe spoketomewhenanybodywasnearus;butforallthat,we hadeverynowandthenalittleencounter,wherewehadroom forawordortwo,annowandthenakiss,butnofairopportunity forthemischiefintended;andespeciallyconsideringthathe mademorecircumlocutionthan,ifhehadknownbythoughts, hehadoccasionfor;andtheworkappearingdifficulttohim, hereallymadeitso。 Butasthedevilisanunweariedtempter,soheneverfailsto findopportunityforthatwickednessheinvitesto。 Itwasone eveninethatIwasinthegarden,withhistwoyoungersisters andhimself,andallveryinnocentlymerry,whenhefound meanstoconveyanoteintomyhand,bywhichhedirected metounderstandthathewouldto-morrowdesiremepublicly togoofanerrandforhimintothetown,andthatIshouldsee himsomewherebytheway。 Accordingly,afterdinner,heverygravelysaystome,his sistersbeingallby,’Mrs。Betty,Imustaskafavourofyou。’ ’What’sthat?’sayshissecondsister。 ’Nay,sister,’sayshe verygravely,’ifyoucan’tspareMrs。Bettyto-day,anyother timewilldo。’ Yes,theysaid,theycouldspareherwellenough, andthesisterbeggedpardonforasking,whichtheydidbutof merecourse,withoutanymeaning。 ’Well,but,brother,’says theeldestsister,’youmusttellMrs。Bettywhatitis;ifitbe anyprivatebusinessthatwemustnothear,youmaycallher