第6章

类别:其他 作者:Daniel Defoe字数:3998更新时间:18/12/26 16:40:16
Theresheis。’ ’Why,sister,’saysthegentlemanvery gravely,’whatdoyoumean? Ionlydesirehertodointothe HighStreet’(andthenhepullsoutaturnover),’tosuchashop’; andthenhetellsthemalongstoryoftwofineneckclothshe hadbidmoneyfor,andhewantedtohavemegoandmakean errandtobuyanecktotheturnoverthatheshowed,toseeif theywouldtakemymoneyfortheneckcloths;tobidashilling more,andhagglewiththem;andthenhemademoreerrands, andsocontinuedtohavesuchpettybusinesstodo,thatIshould besuretostayagoodwhile。 Whenhehadgivenmemyerrands,hetoldthemalongstory ofavisithewasgoingtomaketoafamilytheyallknew,and wherewastobesuch-and-suchgentlemen,andhowmerry theyweretobe,andveryformallyaskshissisterstogowith him,andtheyasformallyexcusedthemselves,becauseof companythattheyhadnoticewastocomeandvisitthemthat afternoon;which,bytheway,hehadcontrivedonpurpose。 Hehadscarcedonespeakingtothem,andgivingmemy errand,buthismancameuptotellhimthatSirW——H——’s coachstoppedatthedoor;soherunsdown,andcomesup againimmediately。 ’Alas!’sayshealoud,’there’sallmy mirthspoiledatonce;sirW——hassenthiscoachforme, anddesirestospeakwithmeuponsomeearnestbusiness。’ ItseemsthisSirW——wasagentlemanwholivedaboutthree milesoutoftown,towhomhehadspokenonpurposetheday before,tolendhimhischariotforaparticularoccasion,and hadappointedittocallforhim,asitdid,aboutthreeo’clock。 Immediatelyhecallsforhisbestwig,hat,andsword,and orderinghismantogototheotherplacetomakehisexcuse—— thatwastosay,hemadeanexcusetosendhismanaway——he preparestogointothecoach。 Ashewasgoing,hestoppeda while,andspeaksmightyearnestlytomeabouthisbusiness, andfindsanopportunitytosayverysoftlytome,’Comeaway, mydear,assoonaseveryoucan。’ Isaidnothing,butmadea curtsy,asifIhaddonesotowhathesaidinpublic。 Inabout aquarterofanhourIwentouttoo;Ihadnodressotherthan before,exceptthatIhadahood,amask,afan,andapairof glovesinmypocket;sothattherewasnottheleastsuspicion inthehouse。 Hewaitedformeinthecoachinaback-lane, whichheknewImustpassby,andhaddirectedthecoachman whithertogo,whichwastoacertainplace,calledMileEnd, wherelivedaconfidantofhis,wherewewentin,andwhere wasalltheconvenienceintheworldtobeaswickedaswe pleased。 Whenweweretogetherhebegantotalkverygravelytome, andtotellmehedidnotbringmetheretobetrayme;thathis passionformewouldnotsufferhimtoabuseme;thathe resolvedtomarrymeassoonashecametohisestate;thatin themeantime,ifIwouldgranthisrequest,hewouldmaintain meveryhonourably;andmademeathousandprotestations ofhissincerityandofhisaffectiontome;andthathewould neverabandonme,andasImaysay,madeathousandmore preamblesthanheneedtohavedone。 However,ashepressedmetospeak,ItoldhimIhadno reasontoquestionthesincerityofhislovetomeaftersomany protestations,but——andthereIstopped,asifIlefthimto guesstherest。 ’Butwhat,mydear?’sayshe。 ’Iguesswhat youmean: whatifyoushouldbewithchild? Isnotthatit? Why,then,’sayshe,’I’lltakecareofyouandprovideforyou, andthechildtoo;andthatyoumayseeIamnotinjest,’says he,’here’sanearnestforyou,’andwiththathepullsoutasilk purse,withanhundredguineasinit,andgaveitme。 ’AndI’ll giveyousuchanother,’sayshe,’everyyeartillImarryyou。’ Mycolourcameandwent,atthesightofthepurseandwith thefireofhisproposaltogether,sothatIcouldnotsayaword, andheeasilyperceivedit;soputtingthepurseintomybosom, Imadenomoreresistancetohim,butlethimdojustwhathe pleased,andasoftenashepleased;andthusIfinishedmy owndestructionatonce,forfromthisday,beingforsakenof myvirtueandmymodesty,Ihadnothingofvalueleftto recommendme,eithertoGod’sblessingorman’sassistance。 Butthingsdidnotendhere。 Iwentbacktothetown,didthe businesshepubliclydirectedmeto,andwasathomebefore anybodythoughtmelong。 Asformygentleman,hestayed out,ashetoldmehewould,tilllateatnight,andtherewas nottheleastsuspicioninthefamilyeitheronhisaccountor onmine。 Wehad,afterthis,frequentopportunitiestorepeatourcrime—— chieflybyhiscontrivance——especiallyathome,whenhis motherandtheyoungladieswentabroada-visiting,whichhe watchedsonarrowlyasnevertomiss;knowingalways beforehandwhentheywentout,andthenfailednottocatch meallalone,andsecurelyenough;sothatwetookourfillof ourwickedpleasurefornearhalfayear;andyet,whichwas themosttomysatisfaction,Iwasnotwithchild。 Butbeforethishalf-yearwasexpired,hisyoungerbrother,of whomIhavemadesomementioninthebeginningofthestory, fallstoworkwithme;andhe,findingmealonginthegarden oneevening,beginsastoryofthesamekindtome,made goodhonestprofessionsofbeinginlovewithme,andinshort, proposesfairlyandhonourablytomarryme,andthatbefore hemadeanyotheroffertomeatall。 Iwasnowconfounded,anddriventosuchanextremityas thelikewasneverknown;atleastnottome。 Iresistedthe proposalwithobstinacy;andnowIbegantoarmmyselfwith arguments。 Ilaidbeforehimtheinequalityofthematch;the treatmentIshouldmeetwithinthefamily;theingratitudeit wouldbetohisgoodfatherandmother,whohadtakenme intotheirhouseuponsuchgenerousprinciples,andwhenI wasinsuchalowcondition;and,inshort,Isaideverything todissuadehimfromhisdesignthatIcouldimagine,except tellinghimthetruth,whichwouldindeedhaveputanendto Itall,butthatIdurstnotthinkofmentioning。 ButherehappenedacircumstancethatIdidnotexpect indeed,whichputmetomyshifts;forthisyounggentleman, ashewasplainandhonest,sohepretendedtonothingwith mebutwhatwassotoo;and,knowinghisowninnocence,he wasnotsocarefultomakehishavingakindnessforMrs。Betty asecretIthehouse,ashisbrotherwas。 Andthoughhedid notletthemknowthathehadtalkedtomeaboutit,yethe saidenoughtolethissistersperceivehelovedme,andhis mothersawittoo,which,thoughtheytooknonoticeofitto me,yettheydidtohim,animmediatelyIfoundtheircarriage tomealtered,morethaneverbefore。 Isawthecloud,thoughIdidnotforeseethestorm。 Itwas easy,Isay,toseethattheircarriagetomewasaltered,and thatitgrewworseandworseeveryday;tillatlastIgot informationamongtheservantsthatIshould,inaverylittle while,bedesiredtoremove。 Iwasnotalarmedatthenews,havingafullsatisfactionthat Ishouldbeotherwiseprovidedfor;andespeciallyconsidering thatIhadreasoneverydaytoexpectIshouldbewithchild, andthatthenIshouldbeobligedtoremovewithoutany pretencesforit。 Aftersometimetheyoungergentlemantookanopportunity totellmethatthekindnesshehadformehadgotventinthe family。 Hedidnotchargemewithit,hesaid,forheknow wellenoughwhichwayitcameout。 Hetoldmehisplainway of talkinghadbeentheoccasionofit,forthathedidnotmake hisrespectformesomuchasecretashemighthavedone, andthereasonwas,thathewasatapoint,thatifIwould consenttohavehim,hewouldtellthemallopenlythathe lovedme,andthatheintendedtomarryme;thatitwastrue hisfatherandmothermightresentit,andbeunkind,butthat hewasnowinawaytolive,beingbredtothelaw,andhedid notfearmaintainingmeagreeabletowhatIshouldexpect; andthat,inshort,ashebelievedIwouldnotbeashamedof him,sohewasresolvednottobeashamedofme,andthathe scornedtobeafraidtoownmenow,whomheresolvedto ownafterIwashiswife,andthereforeIhadnothingtodobut togivehimmyhand,andhewouldanswerforalltherest。 Iwasnowinadreadfulconditionindeed,andnowIrepented heartilymyeasinesswiththeeldestbrother;notfromany reflectionofconscience,butfromaviewofthehappinessI mighthaveenjoyed,andhadnowmadeimpossible;forthough Ihadnogreatscruplesofconscience,asIhavesaid,tostruggle with,yetIcouldnotthinkofbeingawhoretoonebrotherand awifetotheother。 Butthenitcameintomythoughtsthatthe firstbrotherhadpromisedtomademehiswifewhenhecame tohisestate;butIpresentlyrememberedwhatIhadoften thoughtof,thathehadneverspokenawordofhavingmefor awifeafterhehadconqueredmeforamistress;andindeed, tillnow,thoughIsaidIthoughtofitoften,yetitgavemeno disturbanceatall,forashedidnotseemintheleasttolessen hisaffectiontome,soneitherdidhelessenhisbounty,though hehadthediscretionhimselftodesiremenottolayouta pennyofwhathegavemeinclothes,ortomaketheleastshow extraordinary,becauseitwouldnecessarilygivejealousyin thefamily,sinceeverybodyknowIcouldcomeatsuchthings nomannerofordinaryway,butbysomeprivatefriendship, whichtheywouldpresentlyhavesuspected。 ButIwasnowinagreatstrait,andknewnotwhatto do。 Themaindifficultywasthis: theyoungerbrothernot onlylaidclosesiegetome,butsufferedittobeseen。