第46章

类别:其他 作者:Daniel Defoe字数:4082更新时间:18/12/26 16:40:16
thegoodnewsofhisbeingverywell,buthadthebadnews thathisbusinesswouldnotpermithimtocomeawaysosoon asheexpected,andsoIwasliketogobackagainwithouthim。 Mylandladycomplimentedmeuponthegoodnewshowever, thatIhadheardhewaswell。 ’ForIhaveobserved,madam,’ saysshe,’youhadn’tbeensopleasantasyouusedtobe;you havebeenoverheadandearsincareforhim,Idaresay,’says thegoodwoman;’’tiseasytobeseenthere’sanalterationin youforthebetter,’saysshe。 ’Well,Iamsorrytheesquire can’tcomeyet,’saysmylandlord;’Ishouldhavebeenheartily gladtohaveseenhim。 ButIhope,whenyouhavecertain newsofhiscoming,you’lltakeastephitheragain,madam,’ sayshe;’youshallbeverywelcomewheneveryoupleaseto come。; Withallthesefinecomplimentsweparted,andIcamemerry enoughtoLondon,andfoundmygovernessaswellpleased asIwas。 Andnowshetoldmeshewouldneverrecommend anypartnertomeagain,forshealwaysfound,shesaid,that IhadthebestluckwhenIventuredbymyself。 Andsoindeed Ihad,forIwasseldominanydangerwhenIwasbymyself, orifIwas,IgotoutofitwithmoredexteritythanwhenIwas entangledwiththedullmeasuresofotherpeople,whohad perhapslessforecast,andweremorerashandimpatientthan I;forthoughIhadasmuchcouragetoventureasanyofthem, yetIusedmorecautionbeforeIundertookathing,andhad morepresenceofmindwhenIwastobringmyselfoff。 Ihaveoftenwonderedevenatmyownhardinessanother way,thatwhenallmycompanionsweresurprisedandfellso suddenlyintothehandofjustice,andthatIsonarrowlyescaped, yetIcouldnotallthiswhileenterintooneseriousresolution toleaveoffthistrade,andespeciallyconsideringthatIwas nowveryfarfrombeingpoor;thatthetemptationofnecessity, whichisgenerallytheintroductionofallsuchwickedness,was nowremoved;forIhadnear#500bymeinreadymoney,on whichImighthavelivedverywell,ifIhadthoughtfittohave retired;butIsay,Ihadnotsomuchastheleastinclinationto leaveoff;no,notsomuchasIhadbeforewhenIhadbut#200 beforehand,andwhenIhadnosuchfrightfulexamplesbefore myeyesasthesewere。 Fromhence’tisevidenttome,that whenoncewearehardenedincrime,nofearcanaffectus, noexamplegiveusanywarning。 Ihadindeedonecomradewhosefatewentverynearmefor agoodwhile,thoughIworeitofftoointime。 Thatcasewas indeedveryunhappy。 Ihadmadeaprizeofapieceofvery gooddamaskinamercer’sshop,andwentclearoffmyself, buthadconveyedthepiecetothiscompanionofminewhen wewentoutoftheshop,andshewentonewayandIwent another。 Wehadnotbeenlongoutoftheshopbutthemercer missedhispieceofstuff,andsenthismessengers,oneone wayandoneanother,andtheypresentlyseizedherthathad thepiece,withthedamaskuponher。 Asforme,Ihadvery luckilysteppedintoahousewheretherewasalacechamber, uponepairofstairs,andhadthesatisfaction,ortheterror indeed,oflookingoutofthewindowuponthenoisethey made,andseeingthepoorcreaturedraggedawayintriumph tothejustice,whoimmediatelycommittedhertoNewgate。 Iwascarefultoattemptnothinginthelacechamber,but tumbledtheirgoodsprettymuchtospendtime;thenbought afewyardsofedgingandpaidforit,andcameawayvery sad-heartedindeedforthepoorwoman,whowasintribulation forwhatIonlyhadstolen。 Hereagainmyoldcautionstoodmeingoodstead;namely, thatthoughIoftenrobbedwiththesepeople,yetIneverlet themknowwhoIwas,orwhereIlodged,norcouldtheyever findoutmylodging,thoughtheyoftenendeavouredtowatch metoit。 TheyallknewmebythenameofMollFlanders, thoughevensomeofthemratherbelievedIwasshethanknew metobeso。 Mynamewaspublicamongthemindeed,but howtofindmeouttheyknewnot,norsomuchashowto guessatmyquarters,whethertheywereattheeastendofthe townorthewest;andthiswarinesswasmysafetyuponall theseoccasions。 Ikeptcloseagreatwhileupontheoccasionofthiswoman’s disaster。 IknewthatifIshoulddoanythingthatshould miscarry,andshouldbecarriedtoprison,shewouldbethere andreadytowitnessagainstme,andperhapssaveherlifeat myexpense。 IconsideredthatIbegantobeverywellknown bynameattheOldBailey,thoughtheydidnotknowmyface, andthatifIshouldfallintotheirhands,Ishouldbetreatedas anoldoffender;andforthisreasonIwasresolvedtoseewhat thispoorcreature’sfateshouldbebeforeIstirredabroad, thoughseveraltimesinherdistressIconveyedmoneytoher forherrelief。 Atlengthshecametohertrial。 Shepleadedshedidnotsteal thething,butthatoneMrs。Flanders,assheheardhercalled (forshedidnotknowher),gavethebundletoherafterthey cameoutoftheshop,andbadehercarryithometoherlodging。 TheyaskedherwherethisMrs。Flanderswas,butshecould notproduceher,neithercouldshegivetheleastaccountof me;andthemercer’smenswearingpositivelythatshewasin theshopwhenthegoodswerestolen,thattheyimmediately missedthem,andpursuedher,andfoundthemuponher, thereuponthejurybroughtheringuilty;buttheCourt, consideringthatshewasreallynotthepersonthatstolethe goods,aninferiorassistant,andthatitwasverypossibleshe couldnotfindoutthisMrs。Flanders,meaningme,thoughit wouldsaveherlife,whichindeedwastrue——Isay,considering allthis,theyallowedhertobetransported,whichwasthe utmostfavourshecouldobtain,onlythattheCourttoldher thatifshecouldinthemeantimeproducethesaidMrs。Flanders, theywouldintercedeforherpardon;thatistosay,ifshecould findmeout,andhandme,sheshouldnotbetransported。 This Itookcaretomakeimpossibletoher,andsoshewasshipped offinpursuanceofhersentencealittlewhileafter。 Imustrepeatitagain,thatthefateofthispoorwomantroubled meexceedingly,andIbegantobeverypensive,knowingthat Iwasreallytheinstrumentofherdisaster;butthepreservation ofmyownlife,whichwassoevidentlyindanger,tookoffall mytenderness;andseeingthatshewasnotputtodeath,Iwas veryeasyathertransportation,becauseshewasthenoutof thewayofdoingmeanymischief,whatevershouldhappen。 Thedisasterofthiswomanwassomemonthsbeforethatof thelast-recitedstory,andwasindeedpartlyoccasionofmy governessproposingtodressmeupinmen’sclothes,thatI mightgoaboutunobserved,asindeedIdid;butIwassoon tiredofthatdisguise,asIhavesaid,forindeeditexposedme totoomanydifficulties。 Iwasnoweasyastoallfearofwitnessesagainstme,forall thosethathadeitherbeenconcernedwithme,orthatknew mebythenameofMollFlanders,wereeitherhangedor transported;andifIshouldhavehadthemisfortunetobe taken,Imightcallmyselfanythingelse,aswellasMollFlanders, andnooldsinscouldbeplacedintomyaccount;soIbegan toruna-tickagainwiththemorefreedom,andseveral successfuladventuresImade,thoughnotsuchasIhadmade before。 Wehadatthattimeanotherfirehappenednotagreatwayoff fromtheplacewheremygovernesslived,andImadeanattempt there,asbefore,butasIwasnotsoonenoughbeforethecrowd ofpeoplecamein,andcouldnotgettothehouseIaimedat, insteadofaprize,Igotamischief,whichhadalmostputaperiod tomylifeandallmywickeddoingstogether;forthefirebeing veryfurious,andthepeopleinagreatfrightinremovingtheir goods,andthrowingthemoutofwindow,awenchfromout ofawindowthrewafeather-bedjustuponme。 Itistrue,the bedbeingsoft,itbrokenobones;butastheweightwasgreat, andmadegreaterbythefall,itbeatmedown,andlaidme deadforawhile。 Nordidthepeopleconcernthemselvesmuch todelivermefromit,ortorecovermeatall;butIlaylikeone deadandneglectedagoodwhile,tillsomebodygoingto removethebedoutoftheway,helpedmeup。 Itwasindeed awonderthepeopleinthehousehadnotthrownothergoods outafterit,andwhichmighthavefallenuponit,andthenI hadbeeninevitablykilled;butIwasreservedforfurther afflictions。 Thisaccident,however,spoiledmymarketforthattime,and Icamehometomygovernessverymuchhurtandbruised, andfrightedtothelastdegree,anditwasagoodwhilebefore shecouldsetmeuponmyfeetagain。 Itwasnowamerrytimeoftheyear,andBartholomewFair wasbegun。 Ihadnevermadeanywalksthatway,norwas thecommonpartofthefairofmuchadvantagetome;butI tookaturnthisyearintothecloisters,andamongtherestI fellintooneoftherafflingshops。 Itwasathingofnogreat consequencetome,nordidIexpecttomakemuchofit;but therecameagentlemanextremelywelldressedandveryrich, andas’tisfrequenttotalktoeverybodyinthoseshops,he singledmeout,andwasveryparticularwithme。 Firsthetold mehewouldputinformetoraffle,anddidso;andsome smallmattercomingtohislot,hepresentedittome(Ithink itwasafeathermuff);thenhecontinuedtokeeptalkingto mewithamorethancommonappearanceofrespect,butstill verycivil,andmuchlikeagentleman。 Heheldmeintalksolong,tillatlasthedrewmeoutofthe rafflingplacetotheshop-door,andthentoawalkinthecloister, stilltalkingofathousandthingscursorilywithoutanythingto thepurpose。 Atlasthetoldmethat,withoutcompliment,he wascharmedwithmycompany,andaskedmeifIdursttrust