第36章

类别:其他 作者:E。 Phillips Oppenheim字数:3752更新时间:18/12/26 17:06:22
Hisfacewastroubled。 “MissFentolin,“hesaid,“IwilltellyoufranklythatuptonowIhavenotsucceededinsolvingtheproblemofyouruncle’scharacter。Tomepersonallyhehasbeenmostcourteous。Helivesapparentlyastudiousandanunselfishlife。Ihaveheardhimevenspokenofasaphilanthropist。Andyetyouthree-you,yourmother,andyourbrother,whoarenearesttohim,wholiveinhishouseandunderhisprotection,havetheairofpassingyourdaysinmortalfearofhim。“ “Mr。Hamel,“sheexclaimednervously,“youdon’tbelievethat!Heisalwaysverykind。“ “Apparently,“Hamelobserveddrily。“Andyetyoumustrememberthatyou,too,areafraidofhim。Ineednotremindyouofourconversations,buttherethetruthis。Youpraisehisvirtuesandhischarities,youpityhim,andyetyougoaboutwithaloadoffear,and-forgiveme-ofsecretterrorinyourheart,youandGerald,too。Asforyourmother-“ “Don’t!“sheinterruptedsuddenly。“Whydoyoubringmeheretotalklikethis?Youcannotalterthings。Nothingcanbealtered。“ “Can’tit!“hereplied。“Well,Iwilltellyoutherealreasonofmyhavingbroughtyouhereandofmyhavingmadethisconfession。 IbroughtyouherebecauseIcouldnotbeartogoonliving,ifnotunderyourroof,atanyrateintheneighbourhood,withouttellingyouthetruth。Nowyouknowit。IamheretowatchMr。Fentolin。 Iamgoingonwatchinghim。Youcanputhimonhisguard,ifyoulike;Ishan’tcomplain。Oryoucan-“ Hepausedsolongthatshelookedathim。Hemovedalittleclosertoher,hisfingerssuddenlygrippedherhand。 “Oryoucanmarrymeandcomeawayfromitall,“heconcludedquietly。“Forgiveme,please-Imeanit。“ Foramomentthestartledlightinhereyeswasfollowedbyadelicioussoftness。Herlipswereparted,sheleanedalittletowardshim。Thensuddenlysheseemedtoremember。Sherosewithswiftalertnesstoherfeet。 “Ithink,“shesaid,“thatwehadbetterplaygolf。“ “ButIhaveaskedyoutomarryme,“heprotested,ashescrambledup。 “Yourcaddyhasfoundyourballalongtimeago,“shepointedout,walkingswiftlyonahead。 Heplayedhisshotandcaughtherup。 “MissFentolin-Esther,“hepleadedeagerly,“doyouthinkthatI amnotinearnest?BecauseIam。Imeanit。EvenifIhaveonlyknownyouforafewdays,ithasbeenenough。IthinkthatIknewitwascomingfromthemomentthatyousteppedintomyrailwaycarriage。“ “Youknewthatwhatwascoming?“sheasked,raisinghereyessuddenly。 “ThatIshouldcareforyou。“ “It’sthefirsttimeyou’vetoldmesheremindedhim,withaqueerlittlesmile。“Oh,forgiveme,please!Ididn’tmeantosaythat。 Idon’twanttohaveyoutellmeso。It’salltooridiculousandimpossible。“ “Isit?Andwhy?“ “Ihaveonlyknownyouforthreedays。“ “Wecanmakeupforthat。“ “ButIdon’t-careaboutyou。Ihaveneverthoughtofanyoneinthatway。Itisabsurd,“shewenton。 “You’llhaveto,sometimeorother,“hedeclared。“I’lltakeyoutravellingwithme,showyoutheworld,newworlds,unnamedrivers,untroddenmountains。Ordoyouwanttogoandseewherethelittlebrownpeopleliveamongthemimosaandthecherryblossoms?I’lltakeyousofarawaythatthisplaceandthislifewillseemlikeadream。“ Herbreathcaughtalittle。 “Don’t,please,“shebegged。“Youknowverywell-orratheryoudon’tknow,perhaps,butImusttellyou-thatIcouldn’t。Iamhere,tiedandbound,andIcan’tescape。“ “Ah!dear,don’tbelieveit,“hewentonearnestly。“Thereisn’tanybondsostrongthatIwon’tbreakitforyou,noknotIwon’tuntie,ifyougivemetheright。“ Theywereclimbingslowlyontothetee。Hesteppedforwardandpulledherup。Herhandwascold。Hereyeswereraisedtohis,verysoftlyyetalmostpleadingly。 “Pleasedon’tsayanythingmore,“shebegged。“Ican’t-quitebearitjustnow。Youknow,youmustremember-thereismymother。DoyouthinkthatIcouldleavehertostrugglealone?“ Hiscaddy,whohadteedtheball,andwhohadregardedtheproceedingswithamoderatelytolerantair,feltcalleduponatlasttointerfere。 “We’dbestgeton,“heremarked,pointingtotwofiguresinthedistance,“orthey’llsaywe’vecutin。“ Hamelsmotehisballfarandtrue。Onamoremoderatescaleshefollowedhisexample。Theydescendedthestepstogether。 “Love-makingisn’tgoingtospoilourgolf,“hewhispered,smiling,ashetouchedherfingersoncemore。 Shelookedathimalmostshyly。 “Isthislove-making?“sheasked。 Theywalkedtogetherfromtheeighteenthgreentowardstheclub-house。Acurioussilenceseemedsuddenlytohaveenvelopedthem。Hamelwasconsciousofastrangeexhilaration,aqueerupheavalofideas,anexcitementwhichnothinginhispreviouslifehadyetbeenabletoyieldhim。Thewonderofitamazedhim,kepthimsilent。Itwasnotuntiltheyreachedthesteps,indeed,thathespoke。 “Onourwayhome-“hebegan。 Sheseemedsuddenlytohavestiffened。Helookedather,surprised。 Shewasstandingquitestill,herhandgrippingthepost,hereyesfixeduponthewaitingmotor-car。Thedelicatesoftnesshadgonefromherface。Oncemorethatlookofpartlyveiledsufferingwasthere,sufferingmingledwithfear。 “Look!“shewhispered,underherbreath。“Look!ItisMr。Fentolin! Hehascomeforushimself;heisthereinthecar。“ Mr。Fentolin,astrangelittlefigurelyingbackamongthecushionsofthegreatDaimler,raisedhishatandwavedittothem。 “Comealong,children,“hecried。“Yousee,Iamheretofetchyoumyself。Thesunshinehastemptedme。Whataheavenlymorning! Comeandsitbymyside,Esther,andfightyourbattlealloveragain。Thatisoneofthejoysofgolf,isn’tit?“heasked,turningtoHamel。“Youneednotbeafraidofboringme。To-dayisoneofmybrightdays。Isupposethatitisthesunshineandthewarmwind。Onthewayherewepassedsomefields。IcouldswearthatIsmeltviolets。Whereareyougoing,Esther? “Totakemyclubstomylockerandpaymycaddy,“shereplied。 “Mr。Hamelwilldothatforyou,“Mr。Fentolindeclared。“Comeandtakeyourseatbymyside,andletuswaitforhim。Iamtiredofbeingalone。“ Shegaveupherclubsreluctantly。Allthelifeseemedtohavegonefromherface。 “Whydidn’tmothercomewithyou?“sheaskedsimply。 “Totellyouthetruth,dearEsther,“heanswered,“whenIstarted,Ihadafancytobealone。Ithink-infactIamsure-thatyourmotherwantedtocome。Thesunshine,too,wastemptingher。Perhapsitwasselfishofmenottobringher,butthen,thereisagreatdealtobeforgivenme,isn’tthere,Esther?“ “Agreatdeal,“sheechoed,lookingsteadilyaheadofher。 “Icame,“hewenton,“becauseitoccurredtomethat,afterall,Ihadmydutiesasyourguardian,dearEsther。Iamnotsurethatwecanpermitflirtations,youknow。Letmesee,howoldareyou?“ “Twenty-one,“shereplied。 “InamagazineIwasreadingtheotherday,“hecontinued,“Iwasinterestedtoobservethatthemodernideaasregardsmarriageisachangedone。Awoman,theysay,shouldnotmarryuntilsheistwenty-sevenortwenty-eight-averyexcellentidea。Ithinkweagree,dowenot,onthat,Esther?“ “Idon’tknow,“shereplied。“Ihaveneverthoughtaboutthematter。“ “Then,“hewenton,“wewillmakeupourmindstoagree。 Twenty-sevenortwenty-eight,letussay。Averyexcellentage! Agirlshouldknowherownmindbythen。Andmeanwhile,dearEsther,woulditbewise,Iwonder,toseealittlelessofourfriendMr。 Hamel?Heleavesusto-day,Ithink。Heisveryobstinateaboutthat。Ifhewerestayingstillinthehouse,well,itmightbedifferent。Butifhepersistsinleavingus,youwillnotforget,dear,thatassociationwithaguestisonething;associationwithayoungmanlivingoutofthehouseisanother。AgreatdeallessofMr。HamelIthinkthatwemustsee。“ Shemadenoreplywhatever。Hamelwascomingnowtowardsthem。 “Reallyaverypersonableyoungman,“Mr。Fentolinremarked,studyinghimthroughhiseyeglass。“Isitmyfancy,Iwonder,asanobservantperson,orishejustalittle-justalittletakenwithyou,Esther?Apityifitisso-agreatpity。“ Shesaidnothing,butherhandwhichrestedupontherugwastremblingalittle。 “Ifyouhaveanopportunity,“Mr。Fentolinsuggested,droppinghisvoice,“youmightverydelicately,youknow-girlsaresocleveratthatsortofthing-conveymyviewstoMr。Hamelasregardshisleavingusanditseffectuponyourcompanionship。Youunderstandme,Iamsure?“ Forthefirsttimesheturnedherheadtowardshim。