第43章

类别:其他 作者:E。 Phillips Oppenheim字数:3343更新时间:18/12/26 17:06:22
“Youareafoolishperson,“shesaidcalmly。“Youaresofoolishthatyouarenot,inallprobability,intheslightestdegreedangerous。Believeme,oursisanunequalduel。Thereisabelluponthistablewhichhasapparentlyescapedyournotice。Isitwithmyfingeruponthebutton-so。Ihaveonlytopressit,andtheservantswillbehere。Idonotwishtopressit。Idonotdesirethatyoushouldbe,asyoucertainlywouldbe,banishedfromthishouse。“ Hewasimmenselypuzzled。Shehadnotresentedhisstrangeintrusion。Shehadacceptedit,indeed,withcuriousequanimity。 Herforefingerlingeredstilloverthelittleivoryknobofthebellattachedtoherdesk。Heshruggedhisshoulders。 “Youhavetheadvantageofme,“headmitted,alittlecurtly。“Allthesame,IthinkIcouldpossessmyselfofthosesheetsofpaper,youknow,beforethebellwasanswered。“ “Woulditbewise,Iwonder,then,toensuretheirsafety?“sheaskedcoolly。 Herfingerpressedthebell。Hetookaquickstepforward。Sheheldoutherhand。 “Stop!“sheordered。“Thesesheetswilltellyounothingwhichyoudonotknowalreadyunlessyouareafool。Nevermindthebell。 Thatismyaffair。Iamsendingyouaway。“ Heleanedalittletowardsher。 “Itwouldn’tbepossibletobribeyou,Isuppose?“ Sheshookherhead。 “Iwonderyouhaven’ttriedthatbefore。No,itwouldnot-notwithmoney,thatistosay。“ “You’lltellMr。Fentolin,Ipresume?“heaskedquickly。 “Ihavenothingtotellhim,“shereplied。“Nothinghashappened。 Richards,“shewenton,asaservantenteredtheroom,“Mr。HamelislookingforMissFentolin。Willyouseeifyoucanfindher?“ Theman’sexpressionwasfullofpoliteregret。 “MissFentolinwentovertoLeghWoodsearlythismorning,sir,“ heannounced。“SheisstayingtolunchwithLadySaxthorpe。“ Hamelstoodquitestillforamoment。Thenheturnedtothewindow。 InthefardistancehecouldcatchaglimpseoftheTower。Mr。 Fentolin’schairhaddisappearedfromthewalk。 “Iamsorry,“hesaid。“Imusthavemadeamistake。Iwillhurryback。“ Thereweremorequestionswhichhewaslongingtoask,butthecoldnegativenessofhermannerchilledhim。Shesatwithherfingerspoisedoverthekeys,waitingforhisdeparture。Heturnedandlefttheroom。 Mr。Fentolin,hiscarriagedrawnupclosetothebeach,waspaintingsteadilywhenHamelstoodoncemorebyhisside。Hiseyesmovedonlyfromtheseatothecanvas。Heneverturnedhishead。 “Soyourwooinghasnotprospered,myyoungfriend,“heremarkedgently。“Iamsorry。IsthereanythingIcando?“ “Yourniecehasgoneouttolunch,“Hamelrepliedshortly。 Mr。Fentolinstoppedpainting。HisfacewasfullofconcernashelookedupatHamel。 “Mydearsir,“heexclaimed,“howcanIapologise!Ofcourseshehasgoneouttolunch。ShehasgoneouttoLadySaxthorpe’s。I rememberthesubjectbeingdiscussed。Imyself,infact,wastheinstigatorofhergoing。Ioweyouathousandapologies,Mr。Hamel。 Letmemakewhatamendsarepossibleforyouruselessjourney。 Dinewithusto-night。“ “Youareverykind。“ “Apooramends,“Mr。Fentolincontinued。“Amorninglikethiswasmadeforlovers。Sunshineandbluesky,asaltbreezeflavouredjustalittlewiththatlavender,andastrollthroughmyspringgardens,wheremyhyacinthsarelikeafieldofpurpleandgold,amantleofjewelsuponthebrownearth。Ah,well!One’sthoughtswillwandertothebeautifulthingsoflife。Therewereoncewomenwholovedme,Mr。Hamel。“ Hamellookeddoubtfullyatthestrangelittlefigureinthechair。 Wasthisgenuine,hewondered,avoluntaryoutburst,orwasitsomesubtleattempttoincitesympathy?Mr。Fentolinseemedalmosttohavereadhisthought。 “ItisnotforthesakeofyourpitythatIsaythis,“hecontinued。 “Mineisonlythepassingacrossthelinewhichageaswellasinfirmitymakesinevitable。Nooneintheworldwholivestogrowold,andwhohaslovedandfeltthefireofitinhisveins,canpassthatlinewithoutsorrow,orlookbackwithoutapang。Iamamongagreatarmy。Well,well,Ishallpaintnomoreto-day,“heconcludedabruptly。 “Whereisyourservant?“Hamelasked。 Mr。Fentolinglancedaroundhimcarelessly。 “Hehaswanderedawayoutofsight。HeknowswellhownecessarysolitudeistomeifonceItakethebrushbetweenmyfingers-solitudenaturalandentire,Imean。IfanyoneiswithinadozenyardsofmeIknowit,eventhoughIcannotseethem。 MeekinsiswanderingsomewheretheothersideoftheTower。“ “ShallIcallhim?“ “Onnoaccount,“Mr。Fentolinbegged。“Presentlyhewillappear,inplentyoftime。Thereisthemorningtobepassed-barelyeleveno’clock,Ithink,now。Ishallsitinmychair,andsinkalittledown,anddreamofthesebeautifullights,theserolling,foam-fleckedwaves,thesepatchesofblueandshiftinggreen。I canformtheminmybrain。Icanmakeapicturethere,eventhoughmyfingersrefusetomove。Youarenotanaesthete,Ithink,Mr。 Hamel?Thestudyofbeautydoesnotmeantoyouwhatitdidtoyourfather,andmyfather,and,inasmallerwaytome。“ “Perhapsnot,“Hamelconfessed。“IbelieveIfeelthesethingssomewhere,becausetheybringaqueersenseofcontentwiththem。 Iamafraid,though,thatmyartisticperceptionsarenotsokeenassomemen’s。“ Mr。Fentolinlookedathimthoughtfully。 “Itisthephysicallifeinyourveins-toosplendidtopermityouabstractpleasures。Compensationsagain,yousee-compensations。 Iwonderwhatthelawisthatgovernsthesethings。Ihaveforgottensometimes,“hewenton,“forgottenmyowninfirmitiesinthesoftintoxicationofawonderfulseascape。Only,“hewenton,hisfacealittlegrey,“itisthephysicalinlifewhichtriumphs。 Therearethehungryhourswhichnothingwillsatisfy。“ Hisheadsank,hischinresteduponhischest。Hehadalltheappearancenowofamanwhotalksinbitterearnest。YetHamelwondered。HelookedtowardstheTower;therewasnosignofMeekins。 Thesea-gullswentscreamingabovetheirheads。Mr。Fentolinnevermoved。Hiseyesseemedhalfclosed。ItwasonlywhenHamelrosetohisfeetthathelookedswiftlyup。 “Staywithme,Ibegyou,Mr。Hamel,“hesaid。“Iaminoneofthemoodswhensolitude,evenforamoment,isdangerous。DoyouknowwhatIhavesometimesthoughttomyself?“ Hepointedtotheplankedwaywhichleddownthesteep,pebblybeachtothesea。 “Ihavesometimesthought,“hewenton,“thatitwouldbeglorioustofindafriendtostandbymysideatthetopoftheplanks,justthere,whenthetidewashigh,andtobidhimloosemychairandtosteeritmyself,tosteeritdownthenarrowpathintothearmsofthesea。Thefirsttouchofthesaltwaves,thelasttouchoflife。 Whynot?Onesleepswithoutfear。“ Heliftedhisheadsuddenly。Meekinshadampeared,comingroundfromthebackoftheTower。InstantlyMr。Fentolin’swholemannerchanged。Hesatupinhischair。 “Itisarranged,then,“hesaid。“Youdinewithusto-night。Fortheothermattersofwhichyouhavespoken,well,letthemrestinthehandsofthegods。Youarenotverykindtome。IamnotsurewhetheryouwouldmakeEstheragoodhusband。Iamnotsure,even,thatIlikeyou。Youtakenopainstomakeyourselfagreeable。 Consideringthatyourfatherwasanartist,youseemtomeratheradullanduninspiredyoungman。Butwhocantell?Theremaybethingsstirringbeneaththattorpidbrainofyoursofwhichnootherpersonknowssaveyourself。“ TheconcentratedgazeofMr。Fentolin’skeeneyeswashardtomeet,butHamelcameoutoftheordealwithoutflinching。 “Ateighto’clock,Mr。Fentolin,“heanswered。“IcanseethatI