第40章

类别:其他 作者:Owen Wister字数:4995更新时间:18/12/26 17:11:26
or,presentlyagain,“Ineverhadsuchanidea!“Andhermindopenedwithdelighttothesenewthingswhichcamefromtheman’smindsosimpleanddirect。ToBrowningtheydidcomeback,buttheVirginian,thoughinterested,conceivedadislikeforhim。 “Heisasmarty,“saidhe,onceortwice。 “Nowhereissomething,“saidMolly。“Ihaveneverknownwhattothink。“ “Oh,Heavens!“murmuredthesickman,smiling。“Isitshort?“ “Veryshort。Nowpleaseattend。“Andshereadhimtwelvelinesaboutaloverwhorowedtoabeachinthedusk,crossedafield,tappedatapane,andwasadmitted。 “Thatisthebestyet,“saidtheVirginian。“There’sonlyonethingyu’canthinkaboutthat。“ “Butwait,“saidthegirl,swiftly。“Hereishowtheyparted:—— “Roundthecapeofasuddencamethesea,Andthesunlookedoverthemountain’srim—— Andstraightwasapathofgoldforhim,Andtheneedofaworldofmenforme。“ “Thatisvery,verytrue,“murmuredtheVirginian,droppinghiseyesfromthegirl’sintentones。 “Hadtheyquarrelled?“sheinquired。 “Oh,no!“ “But——“ “Ireckonhelovedherverymuch。“ “Thenyou’resuretheyhadn’tquarrelled?“ “Deadsure,ma’am。Hewouldcomebackaftehhehadplayedsomemoreofthegame。“ “Thegame?“ “Life,ma’am。Whateverhewasa-doin’intheworldofmen。That’sabed-rockpiece,ma’am!“ “Well,Idon’tseewhyyouthinkit’ssomuchbetterthansomeoftheothers。“ “Icouldsca’celyexplain,“answeredtheman。“Butthatwriterdoesknowsomething。“ “Iamgladtheyhadn’tquarrelled,“saidMolly,thoughtfully。Andshebegantolikehavingheropinionsrefuted。 Hisbandages,becomingalittleirksome,hadtobeshifted,andthisturnedtheirdiscoursefromliteraturetoWyoming;andMollyinquired,hadheeverbeenshotbefore?Onlyonce,hetoldher。 “Ihavebeenluckyinhavingfewfusses,“saidhe。“Ihatethem。 Ifamanhastobekilled——“ “Younever——“brokeinMolly。Shehadstartedbackalittle。 “Well,“sheaddedhastilydon’ttellmeif——“ “Ishouldn’twonderifIgotoneofthoseIndians,“hesaidquietly。“ButIwasn’twaitin’tosee!ButIcamemightyneardoingforawhitemanthatday。Hehadbeenhurtin’ahawss。 “Hurting?“saidMolly。 “Injurin。’Iwillnottellyu’aboutthat。Itwouldhurtyu’tohearsuchthings。Buthawsses——don’ttheydependonus?Ain’ttheysomethin’likechildren?Ididnotlayupthemanverybad。 Hewasabletotravel’mostrightaway。Why,you’dhavewantedtokillhimyourself!“ SotheVirginiantalked,norknewwhathewasdoingtothegirl。 NorwassheawareofwhatshewasreceivingfromhimasheunwittinglyspokehimselfouttoherintheseBrowningmeetingstheyhealeachday。ButMrs。Taylorgrewpleased。Thekindlydamewouldsometimescrosstheroadtoseeifshewereneeded,andstealawayagainafterapeepatthewindow。There,inside,amongtherestoredhometreasures,satthetwo:therosyalertgirl,sweetasshetalkedorreadtohim;andhe,thegrave,half-weakgiantamonghiswraps,watchingher。 Ofherdelayedhomevisitheneveragainspoke,eithertoherortoMrs。Taylor;andMollyveeredasidefromanytrendoftalksheforesawwasleadingtowardthatsubject。Butinthosehourswhennovisitorscame,andhewasbyhimselfinthequiet,hewouldlieoftensombrelycontemplatingthegirl’sroom,herlittledaintyknickknacks,herhomephotographs,allthedelicatemanifestationsofwhatshecamefromandwhatshewas。Strengthwasflowingbackintohimeachday,andJudgeHenry’slatestmessengerhadbroughthimclothesandmailfromSunkCreekandmanyinquiriesofkindness,andreturnedtakingthenewsofthecow-puncher’simprovement,andhowsoonhewouldbepermittedthefreshair。HenceMollyfoundhimwaitinginaflannelshirtofhighlybecomingshade,andwithasilkhandkerchiefknottedroundhisthroat;andhetoldheritwasgoodtofeelrespectableagain。 Shehadcometoreadtohimfortheallottedtime;andshethrewaroundhisshouldersthescarletandblackNavajoblanket,stripedwithitssplendidzigzagsofbarbarity。Thushehalfsat,halfleaned,languidbutatease。Inhislaplayoneofthelettersbroughtoverbythemessenger:andthoughshewasmidwayinabookthatengagedhisfullattention——DAVIDCOPPERFELD——hissilenceandabsentlookthismorningstoppedher,andsheaccusedhimofnotattending。 “No,“headmitted;“Iamthinkingofsomethingelse。“ Shelookedathimwiththatapprehensionwhichheknew。 “Ithadtocome,“saidhe。“Andto-dayIseemythoughtsstraighterthanI’vebeenuptomanagingsince——sincemyhardgotclear。AndnowImustsaythesethoughts——ifIcan,ifIcan!“Hestopped。Hiseyeswereintentuponher;onehandwasgrippingthearmofhischair。 “Youpromised——“trembledMolly。 “Ipromisedyoushouldloveme,“hesternlyinterrupted。 “Promisedthattomyself。Ihavebrokenthatword。“ SheshutDAVIDCOPPERHEADmechanically,andgrewwhite。 “Yourletterhascometomehyeh,“hecontinued,gentleagain。 “My——“Shehadforgottenit。 “Theletteryouwrotetotellmegood-by。Youwroteitalittlewhileago——notamonthyet,butit’sawayandawaylonggoneforme。“ “Ihaveneverletyouknow——“beganMolly。 “Thedoctor,“heinterruptedoncemore,butverygentlynow,“hegaveawdehsImustbekeptquiet。Ireckonyu’thoughttellin’memight——“ “Forgiveme!“criedthegirl。“IndeedIoughttohavetoldyousooner!IndeedIhadnoexcuse!“ “Why,shouldyu’tellmeifyu’preferrednot?Youhadwritten。 Andyouspeak“(heliftedtheletter)“ofneverbeingabletorepaykindness;butyouhaveturnedthetables。Icanneverrepayyoubyanything!byanything!SoIhadfiguredIwouldjustjogbacktoSunkCreekandletyougetaway,ifyoudidnotwanttosaythatkindofgood-by。ForIsawtheboxes。Mrs。Tayloristooniceawomantoknowthetrickoflyin’,andshecouldnotdeceiveme。Ihaveknowedyu’weregoingawayforgoodeversinceIsawthoseboxes。Butnowhyehcomesyourletter,anditseemsnowaybutImustspeak。Ihavethoughtadeal,lyin’inthisroom。And——to-day——IcansaywhatIhavethought。Icouldnotmakeyouhappy。“Hestopped,butshedidnotanswer。Hisvoicehadgrownsofterthanwhispering,butyetwasnotawhisper。Fromitsquietsyllablessheturnedaway,blindedwithsuddentears。 “Once,Ithoughtlovemustsurelybeenough,“hecontinued。“AndIthoughtifIcouldmakeyouloveme,youcouldlearnmetobeless——less-moreyourkind。AndIthinkIcouldgiveyouaprettygoodsortoflove。Butthatdon’thelpthelittlemeanpeskythingsofdaybydaythatmakeroughnessorsmoothnessforfolkstiedtogethersoawfulclose。Mrs。Taylorhyeh——shedon’tknowanythingbetterthanTaylordoes。Shedon’twantanythinghecan’tgiveher。Herfriendswilldoforhimandhisforher。AndwhenIdreamedofyouinmyhome——“heclosedhiseyesanddrewalongbreath。Atlasthelookedatheragain。“Thisisnocountryforalady。Willyu’forgetandforgivethebotheringIhavedone?“ “Oh!“criedMolly。“Oh!“Andsheputherhandstohereyes。Shehadrisenandstoodwithherfacecovered。 “Isurelyhadtotellyouthisallout,didn’tI?“saidthecow-puncher,faintly,inhischair。“Oh!“saidMollyagain“Ihaveputitclearhowitis,“hepursued。“IoughttohaveseenfromthestartIwasnotthesorttokeepyouhappy。“ “But,“saidMolly——“butI——youought——pleasetrytokeepmehappy!“Andsinkingbyhischair,shehidherfaceonhisknees。 Speechless,liebentdownandfoldedherround,puttinghishandsonthehairthathadbeenalwayshisdelight。Presentlyhewhispered:-“Youhavebeatme;howcanIfightthis?“ Sheanswerednothing。TheNavajo’sscarletandblackfoldsfelloverboth。Notwithwords,notevenwithmeetingeyes,didthetwoplighttheirtrothinthisfirstnewhour。Sotheyremainedlong,thefairheadnestinginthegreatarms,andtheblackheadlaidagainstit,whileoverthesilentroompresidedthelittleGrandmotherStarkinherframe,rosy,blue,andflaxen,notquitefamiliar,notquitesmiling。 Foralongwhileaftershehadlefthim,helaystill,stretchedinhischair。Hiseyeswerefixedsteadilyupontheopenwindowandthesunshineoutside。Therehewatchedthemovementoftheleavesuponthegreencottonwoods。Whathadshesaidtohimwhenshewent?Shehadsaid,“NowIknowhowunhappyIhavebeen。“ Thesesweetwordsherepeatedtohimselfoverandover,fearinginsomewaythathemightlosethem。Theyalmostslippedfromhimattimes;butwithajumpofhismindhecaughtthemagainandheldthem,——andthen-“I’mnotallstrongyet,“hemurmured。“I musthavebeenverysick。“And,weakfromhisbulletwoundandfever,heclosedhiseyeswithoutknowingit。Therewerethecottonwoodsagain,waving,waving;andhefeltthecool,pleasantairfromthewindow。Hesawthelightdraughtstirtheashesinthegreatstonefireplace。“Ihavebeenasleep,“hesaid。“Butshewascert’nlyhereherself。Oh,yes。Surely。Shealwayshastogoawayeverydaybecausethedoctorsays——why,shewasreadin’!“ hebrokeoff,aloud。“DAVIDCOPPERFIELD。“Thereitwasonthefloor。“Aha!nailedyouanyway!“hesaid。“ButhowscaredIamofmyself!——You’reafool。Ofcourseit’sso。Nofeverbusinesscouldmakeyu’feellikethis。“ Hiseyedweltawhileonthefireplace,nextonthedeerhorns,andnextittravelledtowardtheshelfwhereherbookswere;butitstoppedbeforereachingthem。 “BettersayoffthenamesbeforeIlook,“saidhe。“I’vehadaheapo’misreadingvisions。And——andsupposin’——ifthiswasjustmysicknessfoolingmesomemore——I’dwanttodie。Iwoulddie! Nowwe’llsee。IfCOPPERFIELDisonthefloor“(helookedstealthilytobesurethatitwas),“thenshewasreadin’tomewheneverythinghappened,andthenthereshouldbeaholeinthebookrow,top,left。Top,left,“herepeated,andwarilybroughthisglancetotheplace。“Proved!“hecried。“It’sallso!“ HenownoticedtheminiatureofGrandmotherStark。“Youareawfullikeher,“hewhispered。“You’recert’nlyawfullikeher。MayI kissyoutoo,ma’am?“ Then,tottering,herosefromhissick-chair。TheNavajoblanketfellfromhisshoulders,andgradually,experimentally,hestoodupright。 Helpinghimselfwithhishandslowlyalongthewalloftheroom,androundtotheoppositewallwithmanyapause,hereachedthepicture,andverygentlytouchedtheforeheadoftheancestraldamewithhislips。“Ipromisetomakeyourlittlegirlhappy,hewhispered。 Healmostfellinstoopingtotheportrait,butcaughthimselfandstoodcarefullyquiet,trembling,andspeakingtohimself。 “Whereisyourstrength?“hedemanded。“Ireckonitisjoythathasunsteadiedyourlaigs。“ Thedooropened。Itwasshe,comebackwithhisdinner。 “MyHeavens!“shesaid;andsettingthetraydown,sherushedtohim。Shehelpedhimbacktohischair,andcoveredhimagain。Hehadsufferednohurt,butsheclungtohim;andpresentlyhemovedandlethimselfkissherwithfullerpassion。 “Iwillbegood,“hewhispered。 “Youmust,“shesaid。“Youlookedsopale!“ “Youarespeakin’lowlikeme,“heanswered。“Butwehavenodreamwecanwakefrom。“ Hadshesurrenderedonthisdaytohercowpuncher,herwildman? Wassheforeverwhollyhis?HadtheVirginian’sfiresomeltedherheartthatnoriftinitremained?Soshewouldhavethoughtifanythoughthadcometoher。Butinhisarmsto-day,thoughtwaslostinsomethingmoredivine。