第45章

类别:其他 作者:Owen Wister字数:4734更新时间:18/12/26 17:11:26
AtthisIlookedathimblankly。“Itisn’tpossiblethat——“ Againhecutmeshortwithalaughalmostsavage。“Youneedn’ttoworryaboutSteve。Hestayedgame。“ WhatthenhadbeenthematterthatheshouldkeepseeingSteve——thathisvisionshouldsoobliteratefromhimwhatIstillshiveredat,andsoshakehimnow?ForheseemedtobegrowingmorestirredasIgrewless。Iaskedhimnofurtherquestions,however,andwewentonforseveralminutes,hebroodingalwaysinthesamefashion,untilheresumedwiththehardindifferencethathadbeforesurprisedme:-“SoEdgaveyoufeelings!Dumbagueandsoforth。“ “Nodoubtwe’renotmadethesameway,“Iretorted。 Hetooknonoticeofthis。“Andyou’dhavebeenmorecomfortableifhe’dactedsameasStevedid。Itcert’nlywasbadseeingEdtakeitthatway,Ireckon。Andyoudidn’tseehimwhenthetimecameforbusiness。Well,here’swhatitis:amanmaybesuchaconfirrnedmiscreantthatkilling’stheonlycureforhim;butstillhe’syourownspecies,andyoudon’twanttohavehimfallaroundandgrabyourlaigsandshowyouhisfearnaked。Itmakesyoufeelashamed。SoEdgaveyoufeelings,andStevemadeeverythingrighteasyforyou!“Therewasironyinhisvoiceashesurveyedme,butitfellawayatonceintosadness。“Bothwasmiscreants。ButifStevehadplayedthecoward,too,itwouldhavebeenawholeheapeasierforme。“Hepausedbeforeadding,“AndStevewasnotamiscreantonce。“ Hisvoicehadtrembled,andIfeltthedeepemotionthatseemedtogainuponhimnowthatactionwasoverandhehadnothingtodobutthink。Andhisviewwassimpleenough:youmustdiebrave。 Failureisasortoftreasontothebrotherhood,andforfeitspity。ItwasSteve’sperfectbearingthathadcaughthisheartsothatheforgotevenhisscornoftheotherman。 Butthiswasbynomeansallthatwastocome。Heharkedbacktothatnotionofaprisonerhelpingtomakeiteasyforhisexecutioner。“Easyplumbtotheend,“hepursued,hismindreviewingtheactsofthemorning。“Why,hetriedtogivemeyournewspaper。Ididn’t——“ “Oh,no,“Isaidhastily。“Ihadfinishedwithit。“ “Well,hetookdyingasnaturallyashetookliving。Likeamanshould。LikeIhopeto。“Againhelookedatthepicturesinhismind。“Noplay-actingnorlastwords。Hejusttoldgood-bytotheboysasweledhishorseunderthelimb——youneedn’ttolooksodainty,“hebrokeoff。“Youain’tgoingtogetanymoreshockingparticulars。“ “IknowI’mwhite-livered,“Isaidwithaspeciesoflaugh。“I nevercrowdandstarewhensomebodyishurtinthestreet。Igetaway。“ Hethoughtthisover。“Youdon’tmeanallofthat。You’dnothavespokejustthatwayaboutcrowdingandstaringifyouthoughtwellofthemthatstare。Staringain’tcourage;it’strashycuriosity。Nowyoudidnothavethisthing——“ Hehadstretchedouthishandtopoint,butitfell,andhisutterancestopped,andhejerkedhishorsetoastand。Mynervesspranglikeawireathissuddenness,andIlookedwherehewaslooking。Therewerethecottonwoods,closeinfrontofus。Aswehadtravelledandtalkedwehadforgottenthem。Nowtheywereloomingwithinahundredyards;andourtraillaystraightthroughthem。 “Let’sgoaroundthem,“saidtheVirginian。 Whenwehadcomebackfromourcircuitintothetrailhecontinued:“Youdidnothavethatthingtodo。Butamangoesthroughwithhisresponsibilities——andIreckonyoucould。“ “Ihopeso,“Ianswered。“HowaboutEd?“ “Hewasnotaman,thoughwethoughthewastillthis。SteveandIstartedpunchingcattletogetherattheBordeauxoutfit,northofCheyenne。Wedideverythingtogetherinthosedays——workandplay。Sixyearsago。Stevehadmanygoodpointsonced。“ Wemusthavegonetwomilesbeforehespokeagain。“Youprob’lydidn’tnoticeSteve?Imeanthewayheactedtome?“Itwasaquestion,buthedidnotwaitformyanswer。“Steveneversaidawordtomeallthrough。Heshunnedit。Andyousawhowneighborlyhetalkedtotheotherboys。“ “Wherehavetheyallgone?“Iasked。 Hesmiledatme。“Itcert’nlyislonesomenow,forafact。“ “Ididn’tknowyoufeltit,“saidI。 “Feelit!——they’vewenttotherailroad。ThreeofthemarewitnessesinacaseatEvanston,andtheJudgewantsouroutfitatMedicineBow。Steveshunnedme。DidhethinkIwasgoingbackonhim?“ “Whatifhedid?Youwerenot。Andsonobody’sgoingtoWindRiverbutyou?“ “No。DidyounoticeStevewouldnotgiveusanyinformationaboutShorty?Thatwasright。Iwouldhaveactedthatway,too。“Thus,eachtime,hebroughtmebacktothesubject。 Thesunwasnowshiningwarmduringtwoorthreeminutestogether,andgulfsofblueopenedinthegreatwhiteclouds。 Thesemovedandmetamongeachother,andparted,likehandsspreadout,slowlyweavingaspellofsleepoverthedayafterthewakefulnightstorm。Thehugecontoursoftheearthlaybaskinganddrying,andnotonelivingcreature,birdorbeast,wasinsight。Quietwasreturningtomyrevivedspirits,buttherewasnonefortheVirginian。Andashereasonedmattersoutaloud,hismoodgrewmoreovercast。 “Youhaveafriend,andhiswaysareyourways。Youtraveltogether,youspreetogetherconfidentially,andyousuiteachotherdowntotheground。Thenonedayyoufindhimputtinghisirononanotherman’scalf。Youtellhimfairandsquarethosewayshaveneverbeenyourwaysandain’tgoingtobeyourways。 Well,thatdoesnotchangehimany,foritseemshe’sdisturbedovergettingrichquickandbeingabigmanintheTerritory。Andtheyearsgoon,untilyouareforemanofJudgeHenry’sranchandhe——isdanglingbackinthecottonwoods。Whatcanheclaim?Whomadethechoice?Hecannotsay,’HereismyoldfriendthatI wouldhavestoodby。’Canhesaythat?“ “Buthedidn’tsayit,“Iprotested。 “No。Heshunnedme。“ “Listen,“Isaid。“Supposewhileyouwereonguardhehadwhispered,’Getmeoff’——wouldyouhavedoneit?“ “No,sir!“saidtheVirginian,hotly。 “Thenwhatdoyouwant?“Iasked。“Whatdidyouwant?“ Hecouldnotanswerme——butIhadnotansweredhim,Isaw;soI pusheditfarther。“Didyouwantindorsementfromthemanyouwerehanging?That’saskingalittletoomuch。“ Buthehadnowanotherconfusion。“StevestoodbyShorty,“hesaidmusingly。“ItwasShorty’smistakecosthimhislife,butallthesamehedidn’twantustocatch——“ “Youaremixingthings,“Iinterrupted。“Ineverheardyoumixthingsbefore。AnditwasnotShorty’smistake。“ Heshowedmomentaryinterest。“Whosethen?“ “Themistakeofwhoevertookafoolintotheirenterprise。“ “That’scorrect。Well,TrampastookShortyin,andStevewouldnottellonhimeither。“ Istilltriedit,saying,“Theywereallinthesameboat。“Butlogicwasuseless;hehadlosthisbearingsinafogofsentiment。Heknew,knewpassionately,thathehaddoneright; butthesilenceofhisoldfriendtohimthroughthoselasthoursleftastingthatnoreasoningcouldassuage。“Hetoldgood-bytotherestoftheboys;butnottome。“AndnothingthatIcouldpointoutincommonsenseturnedhimfromthethreadofhisownargument。Heworkedroundthecircleagaintoself-justification。 “WasithimIwasdeserting?WasnotthedesertingdonebyhimthedayIspokemymindaboutstealingcalves?Ihavekeptmywaysthesame。Heistheonethattooktonewones。ThemanI usedtotravelwithisnotthemanbackthere。Samename,tobesure。Andsamebody。Butdifferentin——andyethehadthememory! Youcan’tneverchangeyourmemory!“ Hegaveasob。ItwasthefirstIhadeverheardfromhim,andbeforeIknewwhatIwasdoingIhadreinedmyhorseuptohisandputmyarmaroundhisshoulders。Ihadnosoonertouchedhimthanhewasutterlyovercome。“IknewSteveawfulwell,“hesaid。 Thuswehadactuallycometochangeplaces;forearlyinthemorninghehadbeenfirmwhileIwasunnerved,whilenowitwasI whoattemptedtosteadyandcomforthim。 Ihadthesensetokeepsilent,andpresentlyheshookmyhand,notlookingatmeashedidso。Hewasalwaysveryshyofdemonstration。Andhetooktopattingtheneckofhispony。“YouMontehawss,“saidhe,“youthinkyouarewise,butthere’salotofthingsyoudon’tsavvy。“Thenhemadeanewbeginningoftalkbetweenus。 “ItiskindofpitifulaboutShorty。“ “Verypitiful,“Isaid。“Doyouknowabouthim?“theVirginianasked。 “Iknowthere’snorealharminhim,andsomerealgood,andthathehasnotgotthebrainsnecessarytobeahorsethief。“ “That’sso。That’sverytrue。Trampashasledhimindeeperthanhisstaturecanstand。NowbackEastyoucanbemiddlingandgetalong。ButifyougototryathingoninthisWesterncountry,you’vegottodoitWELL。You’vegottodealcyardsWELL;you’vegottostealWELL;andifyouclaimtobequickwithyourgun,youmustbequick,foryou’reapublictemptation,andsomemanwillnotresisttryingtoproveheisthequicker。YoumustbreakalltheCommandmentsWELLinthisWesterncountry,andShortyshouldhavestayedinBrooklyn,forhewillbeanovicehislivelongdays。Youdon’tknowabouthim?Hehastoldmehiscircumstances。Hedon’trememberhisfather,anditwaslikehecouldhaveclaimedthreeorfour。AndIexpecthismotherwasnotmuchinterestedinhimbeforeorafterhewasborn。Heranaround,andwhenhewaseighteenhegottobehelptoagroceryman。Butagirlheranwithkepttakingallhispayandteasinghimformore,andsoonedaythegrocerymancaughtShortyrobbinghistill,andfiredhim。Therewasn’tnoonetotellgood-byto,forthegirlhadtogotothecountrytoseeheraunt,shesaid。SoShortyhungaroundthestoreandkissedthegrocerycatgood-by。He’dbeenusedtofeedingthecat,andshe’dsitinhislapandpurr,hetoldme。Hesendsmoneybacktothatgirlnow。ThishyehcountryisnocountryforShorty,forhewillbeaconspicuousnoviceallhisdays。“ “Perhapshe’llpreferhonestyafterhisnarrowshave,“Isaid。 ButtheVirginianshookhishead。“Trampashasgotholdofhim。“ Thedaywasnowallblueabove,andallwarmanddrybeneath。Wehadbeguntowindinandriseamongthefirstslopesofthefoot-hills,andwehadtalkedourselvesintosilence。Atthefirstrunningwaterwemadealongnooning,andIsleptonthebareground。MybodywaslodgedsofastanddeepinslumberthatwhentheVirginianshookmeawakeIcouldnotcomebacktolifeatonce;itwastheclumpofcottonwoods,smallandfaroutintheplainbelowus,thatrecalledme。 “It’llnotbewatchingusmuchlonger,“saidtheVirginian。Hemadeitasortofjoke;butIknewthatbothofusweregladwhenpresentlywerodeintoasteepercountry,andamongitsfoldsandcarvingslostallsightoftheplain。Hehadnotslept,Ifound。 Hisexplanationwasthatthepacksneededbetterbalancing,andafterthathehadgoneupanddownthestreamonthechanceoftrout。Buthishauntedeyesgavemetherealreason——theyspokeofSteve,nomatterwhathespokeof;itwastobenoshortthingwithhim。