第47章

类别:其他 作者:Owen Wister字数:5194更新时间:18/12/26 17:11:26
“Smokingissnug,too,“saidI。Andwemarkedourpointsforanhour,withnowordssaveaboutthecards。 “I’llbeprettyneargladwhenwegetoutofthesemountains,“ saidtheVirginian。“They’remosttoobig。“ Thepineshadaltogetherceased;buttheirsilencewasastremendousastheirroarhadbeen。 “Idon’tknow,though,“heresumed。“There’stimeswhentheplainscanbeawfulbig,too。“ Presentlywefinishedahand,andhesaid,“Letmeseethatpaper。“ Hesatreadin,itapparentlythrough,whileIarrangedmyblanketstomakeawarmbed。Then,sincethepapercontinuedtoabsorbhim,Igotmyselfready,andslidbetweenmyblanketsforthenight。“You’llneedanothercandlesooninthatlantern,“ saidI。 Heputthepaperdown。“Iwoulddoitalloveragain,“hebegan。 “Thewholethingjustthesame。Heknowedthecustomsofthecountry,andheplayedthegame。Nocalltoblamemeforthecustomsofthecountry。Youleaveotherfolks’cattlealone,oryoutaketheconsequences,anditwasallknowntoStevefromthestart。WouldhehavemetaketheJudge’swagesandgivehimthewink?HemusthavechangedaheapfromtheSteveIknewifheexpectedthat。Idon’tbelieveheexpectedthat。Heknewwellenoughtheonlythingthatwouldhavelethimoffwouldhavebeenaregularjury。ForthethieveshavegotholdofthejuriesinJohnsonCounty。Iwoulddoitallover,justthesame。“ Theexpiringflameleapedinthelantern,andfellblue。Hebrokeoffinhiswordsasiftoarrangethelight,butdidnot,sittingsilentinstead,justvisible,andseemingtowatchthedeathstruggleoftheflame。Icouldfindnothingtosaytohim,andI believedhewasnowwinninghiswaybacktoserenitybyhimself。 HekepthisoutwardmansonearlynaturalthatIforgotaboutthatcoldtouchofhishand,andneverguessedhowfaroutfromreasonthetideofemotionwasevennowwhirlinghim。“IrememberatCheyenneonced,“heresumed。AndhetoldmeofaThanksgivingvisittotownthathehadmadewithSteve。“Wewasjustcoltsthen,“hesaid。Hedweltontheircoltishdoings,theiradventuressoughtandwroughtintheperfectfellowshipofyouth。 “ForSteveandmemostalwayshuntedincouplesbackinthemgamesomeyears,“heexplained。Andhefellintotheelementaltalkofsex,suchtalkaswouldbeanelk’sortiger’s;andspokensobyhim,simplyandnaturally,aswespeakoftheseasons,orofdeath,orofanyactuality,itwaswithoutoffense。ItwouldbeoffenseshouldIrepeatit。Then,abruptlyendingthesememoriesofhimselfandSteve,hewentoutofthetent,andIheardhimdraggingalogtothefire。Whenithadblazedup,thereonthetentwallwashisshadowandthatofthelogwherehesatwithhishalf-brokenheart。AndallthewhileI supposedhewasmasterofhimself,andself-justifiedagainstSteve’somissiontobidhimgood-by。 Imusthavefallenasleepbeforehereturned,forIremembernothingexceptwakingandfindinghiminhisblanketsbesideme。 Thefireshadowwasgone,andgray,coldlightwasdimlyonthetent。Hesleptrestlessly,andhisforeheadwasploughedbylinesofpain。WhileIlookedathimhebegantomutter,andsuddenlystartedupwithviolence。“No!“hecriedout;“no!Justthesame!“andthuswakenedhimself,staring。“What’sthematter?“hedemanded。Hewasslowingettingbacktowherewewere;andfullconsciousnessfoundhimsittingupwithhiseyesfixedonmine。 Theyweremorehauntedthantheyhadbeenatall,andhisnextspeechcamestraightfromhisdream。“Maybeyou’dbetterquitme。 Thisain’tyourtrouble。“ Ilaughed。“Why,whatisthetrouble?“ Hiseyesstillintentlyfixedonmine。“Doyouthinkifwechangedourtrailwecouldlosethemfromus?“ IwasframingajocosereplyaboutOuncesbeingagoodwalker,whenthesoundofhoofsrushinginthedistancestoppedme,andheranoutofthetentwithhisrifle。WhenIfollowedwithminehewasupthebank,andallhispowersalert。Butnothingcameoutofthedimnesssaveourthreestampededhorses。Theycrashedoverfallentimberandacrosstheopentowheretheirpicketedcomradegrazedattheendofhisrope。Byhimtheycametoastand,andtoldhim,Isuppose,whattheyhadseen;forallfournowfacedinthesamedirection,lookingawayintothemysteriousdawn。Welikewisestoodpeering,andmyriflebarrelfeltcoldinmyhand。Thedawnwasallwesaw,theinscrutabledawn,comingandcomingthroughtheblackpinesandthegrayopenofthebasin。Thereaboveliftedthepeaks,nosunyetonthem,andbehindusourstreammadealittletinkling。 “Abear,Isuppose,“saidI,atlength。 Hisstrangelookfixedmeagain,andthenhiseyeswenttothehorses。“Theysmellthingswecan’tsmell,“saidhe,veryslowly。 “Willyouprovetometheydon’tseethingswecan’tsee?“ Achillshotthroughme,andIcouldnothelpafrightenedglancewherewehadbeenwatching。ButoneofthehorsesbegantograzeandIhadawholesomethought。“He’stiredofwhateverhesees,then,“saidI,pointing。 AsmilecameforamomentintheVirginian’sface。“Mustbeapoorshow,“heobserved。Allthehorsesweregrazingnow,andheadded,“Itain’thurttheirappetitesany。“ Wemadeourownbreakfastthen。AndwhatuncannydreadImayhavebeentouchedwithuptothistimehenceforthleftmeinthefaceofarealalarm。TheshockofStevewasworkingupontheVirginian。Hewasawareofithimself;hewasfightingitwithallhismight;andhewasbeingovercome。Hewasindeedlikeagallantswimmeragainstwhombothwindandtidehaveconspired。 Andinthisnowforebodingsolitudetherewasonlymyselftothrowhimropes。Hisstrokesforsafetywereasboldaswastheundertowthatceaselesslyannulledthem。 “IreckonImadeafussinthetent?“saidhe,feelinghiswaywithme。 Ithrewhimarope。“Yes。Nightmare——indigestion——toomuchnewspaperbeforeretiring。 Hecaughttherope。“That’scorrect!Ihadahellofafoolishdreamforagrowed-upman。You’dnotthinkitofme。“ “Oh,yes,Ishould。I’vehadthemafterprolongedlobsterandchampagne。“ “Ah,“hemurmured,“prolonged!Prolongediswhatdoesit。“Heglancedbehindhim。“Stevecameback——“ “Inyourlobsterdream,“Iputin。 Buthemissedthisrope。“Yes,“heanswered,withhiseyessearchingme。“Andhehandedmethepaper——“ “Bytheway,whereisthat?“Iasked。 “Ibuiltthefirewithit。ButwhenItookitfromhimitwasasix-shooterIhadholdof,andpointingatmybreast。AndthenStevespoke。’Doyouthinkyou’refittolive?’Stevesaid;andI gothotathim,andIreckonImusthavetoldhimwhatIthoughtofhim。Youheardme,Iexpect?“ “GladIdidn’t。Yourlanguagesometimesis——“ Helaughedout。“Oh,Iaccountforallthisthat’shappeningjustlikeyoudo。Ifwegaveourexplanations,they’dbeprettyneartwins。“ “Thehorsessawabear,then?“ “Maybeabear。Maybe“——butherethetidecaughthimagain——“What’syourideaaboutdreams?“ Myropeswereallout。“Liver——nerves,“wasthebestIcoulddo。 Butnowheswamstronglybyhimself。 “YoumaythinkI’mdiscreditable,“hesaid,“butIknowIam。Itoughttotakemorethan——well,menhavelosttheirfriendshipsbefore。Feudsandwarshaveclovenarightsmartofbondsintwain。Andifmyhaidisgoingtogetshookbyalittleoldpieceofnewspaper——I’mashamedIburnedthat。I’mashamedtohavebeenthatweak。“ “Anymangetsunstrung,“Itoldhim。Myropeshadbecomestraws; andIstrovetoframesomepolicyforthenexthours。 Wenowfinishedbreakfastandsetforthtocatchthehorses。AswedrovetheminIfoundthattheVirginianwastellingmeaghoststory。“Athalf-pastthreeinthemorningshesawherrunawaydaughterstandingwithababeinherarms;butwhenshemoveditwasallgone。LatertheyfounditwastheverysamehourtheyoungmotherdiedinNogales。Andshesentforthechildandraiseditherself。Iknowedthembothbackhome。Doyoubelievethat?“ Isaidnothing。 “NomoredoIbelieveit,“heasserted。“Andseehere!NogalestimeisthreehoursdifferentfromRichmond。Ididn’tknowaboutthatpointthen。“ Onceoutofthesemountains,Iknewhecouldrighthimself;butevenI,whohadnoStevetodreamabout,feltthissilenceofthepeakswaspreyingonme。 “Herdaughterandhermighthavebeenthinkin’mightyhardabouteachotherjustthen,“hepursued。“ButSteveisdead。Finished。 Youcert’nlydon’tbelievethere’sanythingmore?“ “IwishIcould,“Itoldhim。 “No,I’msatisfied。Heavendidn’tneverinterestmemuch。Butiftherewasaworldofdreamsafteryouwent——“Hestoppedhimselfandturnedhissearchingeyesawayfrommine。“There’saheapo’ darknesswhereveryoutrytostep,“hesaid,“andIthoughtI’dleftoffwastingthoughtsonthesubject。Yousee“——hedexterouslyropedahorse,andoncemorehissplendidsanitywasturnedtogoldbyhisimagination——“Iexpectinmany“rowed-upmenyou’dcallsensiblethere’salittleboysleepin’——thelittlekidtheyoncedwas——thatstillkeepshisfearofthedark。Youmentionedthedarkyourselfyesterday。Well,thisexperiencehaswokeupthatkidinme,andblamedifIcancoaxthelittlecusstogotosleepagain!Ikeepa-tellinghimdaylightwillsurecome,buthekeepsa-cryingandholdingontome。“ Somewherefarinthebasintherewasafaintsound,andwestoodstill。 “Hush!“hesaid。 Butitwaslikeourwatchingthedawn;nothingmorefollowed。 “Theyhaveshotthatbear,“Iremarked。 Hedidnotanswer,andweputthesaddlesonwithouttalk。Wemadenohaste,butwewerenotoverhalfanhour,Isuppose,ingettingoffwiththepacks。Itwasnotanewthingtohearashotwherewildgamewasinplenty;yetaswerodethatshotsoundedalreadyinmyminddifferentfromothers。PerhapsIshouldnotbelievethisto-daybutforwhatIlookbackto。Tomakecamplastnightwehadturnedoffthetrail,andnowfollowedthestreamdownforawhile,takingnextacutthroughthewood。Inthiswaywecameuponthetracksofourhorseswheretheyhadbeengallopingbacktothecampaftertheirfright。Theyhadkickedupthedampandmattedpineneedlesveryplainlyallalong。 “Nothinghasbeenherebutthemselves,though,“saidI。 “Andtheyain’tshowingsignsofrememberinganyscare,“saidtheVirginian。 Inalittlewhileweemergeduponanopen。 “Here’swheretheywasgrazing,“saidtheVirginian;andthesignswereclearenough。“Here’swheretheymusthavegottheirscare,“hepursued。“YoustaywiththemwhileIcirclealittle。“ SoIstayed;andcertainlyouranimalswereverycalmatvisitingthisscene。Whenyoubringahorsebacktowherehehasrecentlyencounteredawildanimalhisearsandhisnostrilsareapttobewideawake。 TheVirginianhadstoppedandwasbeckoningtome。 “Here’syourbear,“saidhe,asIarrived。“Two-legged,yousee。 Andhehadahawssofhisown。“Therewasastakedrivendownwhereananimalhadbeenpicketedforthenight。 “LookslikeOunces,“Isaid,consideringtheFootprints。 “It’sOunces。AndOunceswantedanotherhawssverybad,sohimandPoundscouldtravellikegentlemenshould。“ “ButPoundsdoesn’tseemtohavebeenwithhim。“ “Oh,Pounds,hewasmakingcoffee,somewheresinyonder,whenthishappened。Neitherofthemguessedthere’dbeotherhawsseswanderinghereinthenight,ortheybothwouldhavecome。“Heturnedbacktoourpackanimals。 “Thenyou’llnothuntforthiscamptomakesure?“ “Iprefermakingsurefirst。Wemightbeexpectedatthatcamp。“ Hetookouthisriflefrombeneathhislegandsetitacrosshissaddleathalf-cock。Ididthesame;andthuscautiouslyweresumedourjourneyinaslightlydifferentdirection。“Thisain’tallwe’regoingtofindout,“saidtheVirginian。“Ounceshadagoodidea;butIreckonhemadeabadmistakelater。“ Wehadfoundoutagooddealwithoutanymore,Ithought。Ounceshadgonetobringintheirsinglehorse,andcominguponthreemoreinthepasturehadundertakentocatchoneandfailed,merelydrivingthemwherehefearedtofollow。