第51章

类别:其他 作者:Owen Wister字数:5185更新时间:18/12/26 17:11:26
“Howbeautiful!howIloveit!“whisperedthegirl“But,oh,howbigitis!“Andsheleanedagainstherloverforaninstant。Itwasherspiritseekingshelter。To-day,thisvastbeauty,thisprimalcalm,hadinitforhersomethingalmostofdread。Thesmall,comfortable,greenhillsofhomerosebeforeher。SheclosedhereyesandsawVermont。avillagestreet,andthepost-office,andIvycoveringanoldfrontdoor,andhermotherpickingsomeyellowrosesfromabush。 Atasound,hereyesquicklyopened;andherewasherloverturnedinhissaddle,watchinganotherhorsemanapproach。ShesawtheVirginian’shandinacertainposition,andknewthathispistolwasready。Buttheothermerelyovertookandpassedthem,astheystoodatthebrowofthehill。 ThemanhadgivenonenodtotheVirginian,andtheVirginianonetohim;andnowhewasalreadybelowthemonthedescendingroad。 ToMollyWoodhewasastranger;butshehadseenhiseyeswhenhenoddedtoherlover,andsheknew,evenwithoutthepistol,thatthiswasnotenmityatfirstsight。Itwasnotindeed。Fiveyearsofgatheredhatehadlookedoutoftheman’seyes。Andsheaskedherloverwhothiswas。 “Oh,“saidhe,easily,“justamanIseenowandthen。“ “IshisnameTrampas?“saidMollyWood。 TheVirginianlookedatherinsurprise。“Why,wherehaveyouseenhim?“heasked。 “Nevertillnow。ButIknew。“ “Mygracious!Yu’nevertoldmeyu’hadmind-readingpowers。“Andhesmiledserenelyather。 “IknewitwasTrampasassoonasIsawhiseyes。“ “Mygracious!“herloverrepeatedwithindulgentirony。“Imustbemightycarefulofmyeyeswhenyou’relookin’at’em。“ “Ibelievehedidthatmurder,“saidthegirl。 “Whosemindareyu’readin’now?“hedrawledaffectionately。 Buthecouldnotjokeheroffthesubject。Shelookhisstronghandinhers,tremulously,somuchofitasherlittlehandcouldhold。“Iknowsomethingaboutthat——that——lastautumn,“shesaid,shrinkingfromwordsmoredefinite。“AndIknowthatyouonlydid——“ “WhatIhadto,“hefinished,verysadly,butsternly,too。 “Yes,“sheasserted,keepingholdofhishand。“Isupposethat——lynching——“(shealmostwhisperedtheword)“istheonlyway。Butwhentheyhadtodiejustforstealinghorses,itseemssowickedthatthismurderer——“ “Whocanproveit?“askedtheVirginian。 “Butdon’tyouknowit?“ “Iknowaheapo’thingsinsidemyheart。Butthat’snotproving。 Therewasonlythebody,andthehoofprints——andwhatfolksguessed。“ “Hewasneverevenarrested!“thegirlsaid。 “No。Hehelpedelectthesheriffinthatcounty。“ ThenMollyventuredastepinsidetheborderofherlover’sreticence。“Isaw——“shehesitated,“justnow,Isawwhatyoudid。“ Hereturnedtohiscaressingirony。“You’llhavemeplumbscaredifyoukeeponseein’things。“ “Youhadyourpistolreadyforhim。“ “Why,IbelieveIdid。Itwasmightyunnecessary。“AndtheVirginiantookoutthepistolagain,andshookhisheadoverit,likeonewhohasbeencaughtinablunder。 Shelookedathim,andknewthatshemuststepoutsidehisreticenceagain。Byloveandhersurrendertohimtheirpositionshadbeenexchanged。 Hewasnotnow,asthroughhislongcourtinghehadbeen,herhalf-obeying,half-refractoryworshipper。Shewasnolongerhishalf-indulgent,half-scornfulsuperior。Herbetterbirthandschoolingthathadoncebeenweaponstokeephimathisdistance,orbringheroffvictoriousintheirencounters,hadgivenwaybeforetheonsetofthenaturalmanhimself。Sheknewhercow-boylover,withallthathelacked,tobemorethanevershecouldbe,withallthatshehad。Hewasherworshipperstill,buthermaster,too。Thereforenow,againstthebafflingsmilehegaveher,shefeltpowerless。Andonceagainapangofyearningforhermothertobenearherto-dayshotthroughthegirl。ShelookedfromheruntamedmantotheuntameddesertofWyoming,andthetownwhereshewastotakehimasherweddedhusband。Butforhissakeshewouldnotlethimguessherloneliness。 HesatonhishorseMonte,consideringthepistol。Thenheshowedherarattlesnakecoiledbytherootsofsomesage-brush。“CanI hitit?“heinquired。 “Youdon’toftenmissthem,“saidshe,strivingtobecheerful。 “Well,I’mtoldgettingmarriedunstringssomemen。“Heaimed,andthesnakewasshattered。“Maybeit’stooearlyyetfortheunstringingtobegin!“Andwithsomedeliberationhesentthreemorebulletsintothesnake。“Ireckonthat’senough,“saidhe。 “Wasnotthefirstone?“ “Oh,yes,forthesnake。“Andthen,withonelegcrookedcow-boyfashionacrossinfrontofhissaddle-horn,hecleanedhispistol,andreplacedtheemptycartridges。 Oncemoresheventurednearthelineofhisreticence。“Has——hasTrampasseenyoumuchlately?“ “Why,no;notforarightsmartwhile。ButIreckonhehasnotmissedme。“ TheVirginianspokethisinhisgentlestvoice。Buthisrebuffedsweetheartturnedherfaceaway,andfromhereyesshebrushedatear。 HereinedhishorseMontebesideher,anduponhercheekshefelthiskiss。“Youarenottheonlymind-reader,“saidhe,verytenderly。Andatthissheclungtohim,andlaidherheaduponhisbreast。“Ihadbeenthinking,“hewenton,“thatthewayourmarriageistobewasthemostbeautifulway。“ “Itisthemostbeautiful,“shemurmured。 Heslowlyspokeouthisthought,asifshehadnotsaidthis。“Nofolkstostare,nofuss,nojokesandribbonsandbestbonnets,nopubliceyenortalkin’oftongueswhenmostyu’wanttohearnothingandsaynothing。“ Sheansweredbyholdinghimcloser。 “JustthebishopofWyomingtojoinus,andnotevenhimafterwe’reoncejoined。IdidthinkthatwouldbeaheadofallwaystogetmarriedIhaveseen。“ Hepausedagain,andshemadenorejoinder。 “Butwehaveleftoutyourmother。“ Shelookedinhisfacewithquickastonishment。Itwasasifhisspirithadheardthecryofherspirit。 “Thatisnowherenearright,“hesaid。“Whatiswrong。“ “Shecouldneverhavecomehere,“saidthegirl。 “Weshouldhavegonethere。Idon’tknowhowIcanaskhertoforgiveme。“ “Butitwasnotyou!“criedMolly。 “Yes。BecauseIdidnotobject。Ididnottellyouwemustgotoher。Imissedthepoint,thinkingsomuchaboutmyownfeelings。 Foryousee——andI’veneversaidthistoyouuntilnow——yourmotherdidhurtme。Whenyousaidyouwouldhavemeaftermyyearsofwaiting,andIwroteherthatlettertellingherallaboutmyself,andhowmyfamilywasnotlikeyours,and——and——alltherestItoldher,whyyouseeithurtmenevertogetawordbackfromherexceptjustmessagesthroughyou。ForIhadtalkedtoheraboutmyhopesandmyfailings。IhadsaidmorethaneverI’vesaidtoyou,becauseshewasyourmother。Iwantedhertoforgiveme,ifshecould,andfeelthatmaybeIcouldtakegoodcareofyouafterall。ForitwasbadenoughtohaveherdaughterquitherhometoteachschoolouthyehonBearCreek。Badenoughwithouthavin’metocomealongandmakeitworse。Ihavemissedthepointinthinkingofmyownfeelings。“ “Butit’snotyourdoing!“repeatedMolly。 Withhisdeepdelicacyhehadputthewholematterasahardshiptohermotheralone。Hehadsavedheranypainofconfessionordenial。“Yes,itismydoing,“henowsaid。“Shallwegiveitup?“ “Givewhat——?“Shedidnotunderstand。 “Why,theorderwe’vegotitfixedin。Plansare——well,they’renomorethanplans。Ihatethenotionofchanging,butIhatehurtingyourmothermore。Or,anyway,IOUGHTtohateitmore。Sowecanshift,ifyu’sayso。It’snottoolate。“ “Shift?“shefaltered。 “Imean,wecangotoyourhomenow。Wecanstartbythestageto-night。Yourmothercanseeusmarried。Wecancomebackandfinishinthemountainsinsteadofbeginninginthem。It’llbejustmerelyshifting,yu’sec。“ Hecouldscarcelybringhimselftosaythisatall;yethesaiditalmostasifhewereurgingit。Itimpliedarenunciationthathecouldhardlybeartothinkof。Toputoffhisweddingday,theblissuponwhosethresholdhestoodafterhisthreeyearsoffaithfulbattleforit,andthatweddingjourneyhehadarranged: fortherewerethemountainsinsight,thewoodsandcanyonswherehehadplannedtogowithherafterthebishophadjoinedthem;thesolitudeswhereonlythewildanimalswouldbe,besidesthemselves。Hishorses,histent,hisrifle,hisrod,allwerewaitingreadyinthetownfortheirstartto-morrow。Hehadprovidedmanydaintythingstomakehercomfortable。Well,hecouldwaitalittlemore,havingwaitedthreeyears。Itwouldnotbewhathisheartmostdesired:therewouldbethe“publiceyeandthetalkingoftongues“——buthecouldwait。Thehourwouldcomewhenhecouldbealonewithhisbrideatlast。Andsohespokeasifheurgedit。 “Never!“shecried。“Never,never!“ Shepusheditfromher。Shewouldnotbrooksuchsacrificeonhispart。Weretheynotgoingtohermotherinfourweeks?Ifherfamilyhadwarmlyacceptedhim——buttheyhadnot;andinanycase,ithadgonetoofar,itwastoolate。Shetoldherloverthatshewouldnothearhim,thatifhesaidanymoreshewouldgallopintotownseparatelyfromhim。Andforhissakeshewouldhidedeepfromhimthislonelinessofhers,andthehurtthathehadgivenherinrefusingtosharewithherhistroublewithTrampas,whenothersmustknowofit。 Accordingly,theydescendedthehillslowlytogether,lingeringtospinouttheselastmileslong。Manyrideshadtaughttheirhorsestogosidebyside,andsotheywentnow:thegirlsweetandthoughtfulinhersedategrayhabit;andthemaninhisleathernchapsandcartridgebeltandflannelshirt,lookinggravelyintothedistancewiththelevelgazeofthefrontier。 Havingreadhissweetheart’smindveryplainly,thelovernowbrokehisdearestcustom。Itwashiscodenevertospeakillofanymantoanywoman。Men’squarrelswerenotforwomen’sears。 Inhisscheme,goodwomenweretoknowonlyafragmentofmen’slives。Hehadlivedmanyoutlawyears,andhiswideknowledgeofevilmadeinnocencedoublyprecioustohim。Butto-dayhemustdepartfromhiscode,havingreadhermindwell。Hewouldspeakevilofonemantoonewoman,becausehisreticencehadhurther——andwasshenotfarfromhermother,andverylonely,dowhathecould?Sheshouldknowthestoryofhisquarrelinlanguageaslightandcasualashecouldveilitwith。 Hemadeanobliquestart。Hedidnotsaytoher:“I’lltellyouaboutthis。YousawmegetreadyforTrampasbecauseIhavebeenreadyforhimanytimethesefiveyears。“Hebeganfarofffromthepointwiththatrootedcautionofhis——thatcautionwhichissharedbytheprimalsavageandtheperfecteddiplomat。 “There’scert’nlyarightsmarto’differencebetweenmenandwomen,“heobserved。 “You’requitesure?“sheretorted。 “Ain’titfortunate?——thatthere’sboth,Imean。“ “Idon’tknowaboutfortunate。Machinerycouldprobablydoalltheheavyworkforuswithoutyourhelp。 “Andwho’dinventthemachinery?“ Shelaughed。“Weshouldn’tneedthehuge,noisythingsyoudo。 Ourworldwouldbeagentleone。“ “Oh,mygracious!“ “Whatdoyoumeanbythat?“ “Oh,mygracious!Getalong,Monte!Agentleworldallfullofladies!“ “Doyoucallmengentle?“inquiredMolly。 “Nowit’safunnythingaboutthat。Haveyu’evernoticedajokeaboutfathers-in-law?There’sjustasmanyfathers-asmothers-in-law;butwhichsideareyourjokes?“ Mollywasnotvanquished。“That’sbecausethemenwritethecomicpapers,“saidshe。 “Hearthat,Monte?Themenwrite’em。Well,iftheladieswroteacomicpaper,Iexpectthatmightbegentle。“ Shegaveupthisbattleinmirth;andheresumed:-“Butdon’tyoureallyreckonit’suncommontomeetafather-in-lawflouncin’ aroundthehouse?Asforgentle——OnceIhadtosleepinaroomnextaladies’temperancemeetin’。Oh,heavens!Well,Icouldn’tchangemyroom,andthehotelman,heapologizedtomenextmawnin’。Saiditdidn’tsurprisehimthehusbandsdranksome。“