TheVirginianunlockedtheroominthehotelwherehekeptstoredhistent,hisblankets,hispack-saddles,andhismanyaccoutrementsforthebridaljourneyinthemountains。Outofthewindowhesawthemountainsblueinshadow,butsomecottonwoodsdistantintheflatbetweenwerestillbrightgreeninthesun。
Fromamonghispossessionshetookquicklyapistol,wipingandloadingit。Thenfromitsholsterheremovedthepistolwhichhehadtriedandmadesureofinthemorning。This,accordingtohiswontwhengoingintoarisk,heshovedbetweenhistrousersandhisshirtinfront。Theuntriedweaponheplacedintheholster,lettingithangvisiblyathiship。Heglancedoutofthewindowagain,andsawthemountainsofthesamedeepblue。Butthecottonwoodswerenolongerinthesunlight。Theshadowhadcomepastthem,nearerthetown;forfifteenofthefortyminutesweregone。“Thebishopiswrong,“hesaid。“Thereisnosenseintellingher。“Andheturnedtothedoor,justasshecametoitherself。
“Oh!“shecriedoutatonce,andrushedtohim。
Hesworeasheheldherclose。“Thefools!“hesaid。“Thefools!“
“Ithasbeensofrightfulwaitingforyou,“saidshe,leaningherheadagainsthim。
“Whohadtotellyouthis?“hedemanded。
“Idon’tknow。Somebodyjustcameandsaidit。
“Thisismeanluck,“hemurmured,pattingher。“Thisismeanluck。“
Shewenton:“Iwantedtorunoutandfindyou;butIdidn’t!I
didn’t!Istayedquietinmyroomtilltheysaidyouhadcomeback。“
“Itismeanluck。Mightymean,“herepeated。
“Howcouldyoubesolong?“sheasked。“Nevermind,I’vegotyounow。Itisover。“
Angerandsorrowfilledhim。“Imighthaveknownsomefoolwouldtellyou,“hesaid。
“It’sallover。Nevermind。“Herarmstightenedtheirholdofhim。Thenshelethimgo。“Whatshallwedo?“shesaid。“Whatnow?“
“Now?“heanswered。“Nothingnow。“
Shelookedathimwithoutunderstanding。
“Iknowitisaheapworseforyou,“hepursued,speakingslowly。
“Iknewitwouldbe。“
“Butitisover!“sheexclaimedagain。
Hedidnotunderstandhernow。Hekissedher。“Didyouthinkitwasover?“hesaidsimply。“Thereissomewaitingstillbeforeus。Iwishyoudidnothavetowaitalone。Butitwillnotbelong。“Hewaslookingdown,anddid;notseethehappinessgrowchilleduponherface,andthenfadeintobewilderedfear。“Ididmybest,hewenton。“IthinkIdid。IknowItried。Ilethimsaytomebeforethemallwhatnomanhaseversaid,oreverwillagain。Ikeptthinkinghardofyou——withallmymight,orI
reckonI’dhavekilledhimrightthere。AndIgavehimashowtochangehismind。Igaveittohimtwice。IspokeasquietasIamspeakingtoyounow。Buthestoodtoit。AndIexpectheknowshewenttoofarinthehearingofotherstogobackonhisthreat。
Hewillhavetogoontothefinishnow。“
“Thefinish?“sheechoed,almostvoiceless。
“Yes,“heansweredverygently。
Herdilatedeveswerefixeduponhim。“But——“shecouldscarceformutterance,“butyou?“
“Ihavegotmyselfready,“hesaid。“Didyouthink——why,whatdidyouthink?“
Sherecoiledastep。“Whatareyougoing——“Sheputhertwohandstoherhead。“Oh,God!“shealmostshrieked,“youaregoing——“Hemadeastep,andwouldhaveputhisarmroundher,butshebackedagainstthewall,staringspeechlessathim。
“Iamnotgoingtolethimshootme,“hesaidquietly。
“Youmean——youmean——butyoucancomeaway!“shecried。“It’snottoolateyet。Youcantakeyourselfoutofhisreach。Everybodyknowsthatyouarebrave。Whatishetoyou?Youcanleavehiminthisplace。I’llgowithyouanywhere。Toanyhouse,tothemountains,toanywhereaway。We’llleavethishorribleplacetogetherand——and——oh,won’tyoulistentome?“Shestretchedherhandstohim。“Won’tyoulisten?“
Hetookherhands。“Imuststayhere。“
Herhandsclungtohis。“No,no,no。There’ssomethingelse。
There’ssomethingbetterthansheddingbloodincoldblood。Onlythinkwhatitmeans!Onlythinkofhavingtoremembersuchathing!Why,it’swhattheyhangpeoplefor!It’smurder!“
Hedroppedherhands。“Don’tcallitthatname,“hesaidsternly。
“Whentherewasthechoice!“sheexclaimed,halftoherself,likeapersonstunnedandspeakingtotheair。“Togetreadyforitwhenyouhavethechoice!“
“Hedidthechoosing,“answeredtheVirginian。“Listentome。Areyoulistening?“heasked,forhergazewasdull。
Shenodded。
“Iworkhyeh。Ibelonghyeh。It’smylife。IffolkscametothinkIwasacoward——“
“Whowouldthinkyouwereacoward?“
“Everybody。Myfriendswouldbesorryandashamed,andmyenemieswouldwalkaroundsayingtheyhadalwayssaidso。Icouldnotholdupmyheadagainamongenemiesorfriends。“
“Whenitwasexplained——“
“There’dbenothingtoexplain。There’djustbethefact。“Hewasnearlyangry。
“Thereisahighercouragethanfearofoutsideopinion,“saidtheNewEnglandgirl。
HerSouthernloverlookedather。“Cert’nlythereis。That’swhatI’mshowingingoingagainstyours。
“Butifyouknowthatyouarebrave,andifIknowthatyouarebrave,oh,mydear,mydear!whatdifferencedoestheworldmake?
Howmuchhighercouragetogoyourowncourse——“
“Iamgoin’myowncourse,“hebrokein。“Can’tyu’seehowitmustbeaboutaman?It’snotfortheirbenefit,friendsorenemies,thatIhavegotthisthingtodo。IfanymanhappenedtosayIwasathiefandIheardaboutit,wouldIlethimgoonspreadin’suchathingofme?Don’tIowemyownhonestysomethingbetterthanthat?WouldIsitdowninacornerrubbin’
myhonestyandwhisperin’toit,’There!there!Iknowyouain’tathief“?No,seh;notalittlebit!Whatmensayaboutmynatureisnotjustmerelyanoutsidething。ForthefactthatIlet’emkeeponsayin’itisaproofIdon’tvaluemynatureenoughtoshielditfromtheirslanderandgivethemtheirpunishment。Andthat’sbeingapoorsortofajay。“
Shehadgrownverywhite。
“Can’tyu’seehowitmustbeaboutaman?“herepeated。
“Icannot,“sheanswered,inavoicethatscarcelyseemedherown。“IfIoughtto,Icannot。Toshedbloodincoldblood。WhenIheardaboutthatlastfall,——aboutthekillingofthosecattlethieves,——Ikeptsayingtomyself:’Hehadtodoit。Itwasapublicduty。’AndlyingsleeplessIgotusedtoWyomingbeingdifferentfromVermont。Butthis——“shegaveashudder——“whenI
thinkofto-morrow,ofyouandme,andof——Ifyoudothis,therecanbenoto-morrowforyouandme。“
Atthesewordshealsoturnedwhite。
“Doyoumean——“heasked,andcouldgonofarther。
Norcouldsheanswerhim,butturnedherheadaway。
“Thiswouldbetheend?“heasked。
Herheadfaintlymovedtosignifyyes。
Hestoodstill,hishandshakingalittle。“Willyoulookatmeandsaythat?“hemurmuredatlength。Shedidnotmove。“Canyoudoit?“hesaid。
Hissweetnessmadeherturn,butcouldnotpierceherfrozenresolve。Shegazedathimacrossthegreatdistanceofherdespair。
“Thenitisreallyso?“hesaid。
Herlipstriedtoformwords,butfailed。
Helookedoutofthewindow,andsawnothingbutshadow。Theblueofthemountainswasnowbecomeadeeppurple。Suddenlyhishandclosedhard。
“Good-by,then,“hesaid。
Atthatwordshewasathisfeet,clutchinghim。“Formysake,“
shebeggedhim。“Formysake。“
Atremblepassedthroughhisframe。Shefelthislegsshakeassheheldthem,and,lookingup,shesawthathiseyeswereclosedwithmisery。Thenheopenedthem,andintheirsteadylookshereadheranswer。Heunclaspedherhandsfromholdinghim,andraisedhertoherfeet。
“Ihavenorighttokissyouanymore,“hesaid。Andthen,beforehisdesirecouldbreakhimdownfromthis,hewasgone,andshewasalone。
Shedidnotfall,ortotter,butstoodmotionless。Andnext——itseemedamomentanditseemedeternity——sheheardinthedistanceashot,andthentwoshots。Outofthewindowshesawpeoplebeginningtorun。Atthatsheturnedandfledtoherroom,andflungherselffacedownwarduponthefloor。
Trampashaddepartedintosolitudefromthesaloon,leavingbehindhimhisULTIMATUM。Hisloudandpublicthreatwastownknowledgealready,wouldverylikelybecountyknowledgeto-night。Riderswouldtakeitwiththemtoentertaindistantcabinsuptheriveranddowntheriver;andbydarkthestagewouldgosouthwiththenewsofit——andthenewsofitsoutcome。
Foreverythingwouldbeoverbydark。Afterfiveyears,herewastheendcoming——comingbeforedark。Trampashadgotupthismorningwithnosuchthought。Itseemedverystrangetolookbackuponthemorning;itlaysodistant,soirrevocable。Andhethoughtofhowhehadeatenhisbreakfast。Howwouldheeathissupper?Forsupperwouldcomeafterward。Somepeoplewereeatingtheirsnow,withnothinglikethisbeforethem。Hisheartachedandgrewcoldtothinkofthem,easyandcomfortablewithplatesandcupsofcoffee。
Helookedatthemountains,andsawthesunabovetheirridges,andtheshadowcomingfromtheirfeet。Andthereclosebehindhimwasthemorninghecouldnevergobackto。Hecouldseeitclearly;histhoughtsreachedoutlikearmstotouchitoncemore,andbeinitagain。Thenightthatwascominghecouldnotsee,andhiseyesandhisthoughtsshrankfromit。Hehadgivenhisenemyuntilsundown。Hecouldnottracethepathwhichhadledhimtothis。Herememberedtheirfirstmeeting——fiveyearsback,inMedicineBow,andthewordswhichatoncebeganhishate。No,itwasbeforeanywords;itwastheencounteroftheireyes。Foroutoftheeyesofeverystrangerlookseitherafriendoranenemy,waitingtobeknown。Buthowhadfiveyearsofhatecometoplayhimsuchatrick,suddenly,today?Sincelastautumnhehadmeantsometimetogetevenwiththismanwhoseemedtostandateveryturnofhiscrookedness,androbhimofhisspoils。Buthowhadhecometochoosesuchawayofgettingevenasthis,facetoface?Heknewmanybetterways;andnowhisownrashproclamationhadtrappedhim。Hiswordswerelikedoorsshuttinghimintoperformhisthreattotheletter,withwitnessesathandtoseethathedidso。
Trampaslookedatthesunandtheshadowagain。Hehadtillsundown。Theheartinsidehimwasturningitroundinthisoppositeway:itwastoHIMSELFthatinhisragehehadgiventhislesseningmarginofgrace。Buthedarednotleavetowninalltheworld’ssightafteralltheworldhadheardhim。Evenhisfriendswouldfallfromhimaftersuchanact。Couldhe——thethoughtactuallycametohim——couldhestrikebeforethetimeset?Butthethoughtwasuseless。Evenifhisfriendscouldharborhimaftersuchadeed,hisenemieswouldfindhim,andhislifewouldbeforfeittoacertainty。Hisowntrapwasclosinguponhim。
Hecameuponthemainstreet,andsawsomedistanceofftheVirginianstandingintalkwiththebishop。Heslunkbetweentwohouses,andcursedbothofthem。Thesighthadbeengoodforhim,bringingsomewarmthofragebacktohisdesperateheart。Andhewentintoaplaceanddranksomewhiskey。
“Inyourshoes,“saidthebarkeeper,“I’dbeafraidtotakesomuch。“
ButthenervesofTrampaswerealmostbeyondthereachofintoxication,andheswallowedsomemore,andwentoutagain。
Presentlyhefellinwithsomeofhisbrothersincattlestealing,andwalkedalongwiththemforalittle。
“Well,itwillnotbelongnow,“theysaidtohim。Andhehadneverheardwordssodesolate。
“No,“hemadeouttosay;“soonnow。“Theircheerfulnessseemedunearthlytohim,andhisheartalmostbrokebeneathit。
“We’llhaveonetoyoursuccess,“theysuggested。
Sowiththemherepairedtoanotherplace;andthesightofamanleaningagainstthebarmadehimstartsothattheynoticedhim。
Thenhesawthatthemanwasastrangerwhomhehadneverlaideyesontillnow。
“ItlookedlikeShorty,“hesaid,andcouldhavebittenhistongueoff。
“ShortyisquietupintheTetons,“saidafriend。“Youdon’twanttobethinkingabouthim。Here’show!“
Thentheyclappedhimonthebackandheleftthem。Hethoughtofhisenemyandhishate,beatinghisragelikeafailinghorse,andtreadingthecourageofhisdrink。AcrossaspacehesawWiggin,walkingwithMcLeanandScipio。Theywerewatchingthetowntoseethathisfriendsmadenofoulplay。
“We’regivingyouaclearfield,“saidWiggin。