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类别:其他 作者:Virginia Woolf字数:4971更新时间:18/12/27 08:07:33
Therewasapause。 “JenkinsonofCats——d’youstillkeepupwithhim?“askedAmbrose。 “Asmuchasoneeverdoes,“saidMr。Pepper。“Wemeetannually。 Thisyearhehashadthemisfortunetolosehiswife,whichmadeitpainful,ofcourse。“ “Verypainful,“Ridleyagreed。 “There’sanunmarrieddaughterwhokeepshouseforhim,Ibelieve,butit’sneverthesame,notathisage。“ Bothgentlemennoddedsagelyastheycarvedtheirapples。 “Therewasabook,wasn’tthere?“Ridleyenquired。 “There_was_abook,buttherenever_will_beabook,“saidMr。Pepperwithsuchfiercenessthatbothladieslookedupathim。 “Thereneverwillbeabook,becausesomeoneelsehaswrittenitforhim,“saidMr。Pepperwithconsiderableacidity。 “That’swhatcomesofputtingthingsoff,andcollectingfossils,andstickingNormanarchesonone’spigsties。“ “IconfessIsympathise,“saidRidleywithamelancholysigh。 “Ihaveaweaknessforpeoplewhocan’tbegin。“ “……Theaccumulationsofalifetimewasted,“continuedMr。pepper。 “Hehadaccumulationsenoughtofillabarn。“ “It’savicethatsomeofusescape,“saidRidley。“OurfriendMileshasanotherworkoutto-day。“ Mr。Peppergaveanacidlittlelaugh。“Accordingtomycalculations,“ hesaid,“hehasproducedtwovolumesandahalfannually,which,allowingfortimespentinthecradleandsoforth,showsacommendableindustry。“ “Yes,theoldMaster’ssayingofhimhasbeenprettywellrealised,“ saidRidley。 “Awaytheyhad,“saidMr。Pepper。“YouknowtheBrucecollection?—— notforpublication,ofcourse。“ “Ishouldsupposenot,“saidRidleysignificantly。“ForaDivinehewas——remarkablyfree。“ “ThePumpinNeville’sRow,forexample?“enquiredMr。Pepper。 “Precisely,“saidAmbrose。 Eachoftheladies,beingafterthefashionoftheirsex,highlytrainedinpromotingmen’stalkwithoutlisteningtoit,couldthink——abouttheeducationofchildren,abouttheuseoffogsirensinanopera——withoutbetrayingherself。OnlyitstruckHelenthatRachelwasperhapstoostillforahostess,andthatshemighthavedonesomethingwithherhands。 “Perhaps——?“shesaidatlength,uponwhichtheyroseandleft,vaguelytothesurpriseofthegentlemen,whohadeitherthoughtthemattentiveorhadforgottentheirpresence。 “Ah,onecouldtellstrangestoriesoftheolddays,“theyheardRidleysay,ashesankintohischairagain。Glancingback,atthedoorway,theysawMr。Pepperasthoughhehadsuddenlyloosenedhisclothes,andhadbecomeavivaciousandmaliciousoldape。 Windingveilsroundtheirheads,thewomenwalkedondeck。 Theywerenowmovingsteadilydowntheriver,passingthedarkshapesofshipsatanchor,andLondonwasaswarmoflightswithapaleyellowcanopydroopingaboveit。Therewerethelightsofthegreattheatres,thelightsofthelongstreets,lightsthatindicatedhugesquaresofdomesticcomfort,lightsthathunghighinair。Nodarknesswouldeversettleuponthoselamps,asnodarknesshadsettleduponthemforhundredsofyears。Itseemeddreadfulthatthetownshouldblazeforeverinthesamespot; dreadfulatleasttopeoplegoingawaytoadventureuponthesea,andbeholdingitasacircumscribedmound,eternallyburnt,eternallyscarred。Fromthedeckoftheshipthegreatcityappearedacrouchedandcowardlyfigure,asedentarymiser。 Leaningovertherail,sidebyside,Helensaid,“Won’tyoubecold?“ Rachelreplied,“No……Howbeautiful!“sheaddedamomentlater。 Verylittlewasvisible——afewmasts,ashadowoflandhere,alineofbrilliantwindowsthere。Theytriedtomakeheadagainstthewind。 “Itblows——itblows!“gaspedRachel,thewordsrammeddownherthroat。 Strugglingbyherside,Helenwassuddenlyovercomebythespiritofmovement,andpushedalongwithherskirtswrappingthemselvesroundherknees,andbotharmstoherhair。Butslowlytheintoxicationofmovementdieddown,andthewindbecameroughandchilly。 Theylookedthroughachinkintheblindandsawthatlongcigarswerebeingsmokedinthedining-room;theysawMr。Ambrosethrowhimselfviolentlyagainstthebackofhischair,whileMr。Peppercrinkledhischeeksasthoughtheyhadbeencutinwood。 Theghostofaroaroflaughtercameouttothem,andwasdrownedatonceinthewind。Inthedryyellow-lightedroomMr。PepperandMr。Ambrosewereobliviousofalltumult;theywereinCambridge,anditwasprobablyabouttheyear1875。 “They’reoldfriends,“saidHelen,smilingatthesight。 “Now,istherearoomforustositin?“ Rachelopenedadoor。 “It’smorelikealandingthanaroom,“shesaid。Indeedithadnothingoftheshutstationarycharacterofaroomonshore。 Atablewasrootedinthemiddle,andseatswerestucktothesides。 Happilythetropicalsunshadbleachedthetapestriestoafadedblue-greencolour,andthemirrorwithitsframeofshells,theworkofthesteward’slove,whenthetimehungheavyinthesouthernseas,wasquaintratherthanugly。Twistedshellswithredlipslikeunicorn’shornsornamentedthemantelpiece,whichwasdrapedbyapallofpurpleplushfromwhichdependedacertainnumberofballs。 Twowindowsopenedontothedeck,andthelightbeatingthroughthemwhentheshipwasroastedontheAmazonshadturnedtheprintsontheoppositewalltoafaintyellowcolour,sothat“TheColiseum“ wasscarcelytobedistinguishedfromQueenAlexandraplayingwithherSpaniels。Apairofwickerarm-chairsbythefiresideinvitedonetowarmone’shandsatagratefullofgiltshavings; agreatlampswungabovethetable——thekindoflampwhichmakesthelightofcivilisationacrossdarkfieldstoonewalkinginthecountry。 “It’soddthateveryoneshouldbeanoldfriendofMr。Pepper’s,“ Rachelstartednervously,forthesituationwasdifficult,theroomcold,andHelencuriouslysilent。 “Isupposeyoutakehimforgranted?“saidheraunt。 “He’slikethis,“saidRachel,lightingonafossilisedfishinabasin,anddisplayingit。 “Iexpectyou’retoosevere,“Helenremarked。 Rachelimmediatelytriedtoqualifywhatshehadsaidagainstherbelief。 “Idon’treallyknowhim,“shesaid,andtookrefugeinfacts,believingthatelderlypeoplereallylikethembetterthanfeelings。 SheproducedwhatsheknewofWilliamPepper。ShetoldHelenthathealwayscalledonSundayswhentheywereathome;heknewaboutagreatmanythings——aboutmathematics,history,Greek,zoology,economics,andtheIcelandicSagas。HehadturnedPersianpoetryintoEnglishprose,andEnglishproseintoGreekiambics; hewasanauthorityuponcoins;and——oneotherthing——ohyes,shethoughtitwasvehiculartraffic。 Hewashereeithertogetthingsoutofthesea,ortowriteupontheprobablecourseofOdysseus,forGreekafterallwashishobby。 “I’vegotallhispamphlets,“shesaid。“Littlepamphlets。 Littleyellowbooks。“Itdidnotappearthatshehadreadthem。 “Hasheeverbeeninlove?“askedHelen,whohadchosenaseat。 Thiswasunexpectedlytothepoint。 “Hisheart’sapieceofoldshoeleather,“Racheldeclared,droppingthefish。Butwhenquestionedshehadtoownthatshehadneveraskedhim。 “Ishallaskhim,“saidHelen。 “ThelasttimeIsawyou,youwerebuyingapiano,“shecontinued。 “Doyouremember——thepiano,theroomintheattic,andthegreatplantswiththeprickles?“ “Yes,andmyauntssaidthepianowouldcomethroughthefloor,butattheirageonewouldn’tmindbeingkilledinthenight?“ sheenquired。 “IheardfromAuntBessienotlongago,“Helenstated。“Sheisafraidthatyouwillspoilyourarmsifyouinsistuponsomuchpractising。“ “Themusclesoftheforearm——andthenonewon’tmarry?“ “Shedidn’tputitquitelikethat,“repliedMrs。Ambrose。 “Oh,no——ofcourseshewouldn’t,“saidRachelwithasigh。 Helenlookedather。Herfacewasweakratherthandecided,savedfrominsipiditybythelargeenquiringeyes;deniedbeauty,nowthatshewasshelteredindoors,bythelackofcolouranddefiniteoutline。Moreover,ahesitationinspeaking,orratheratendencytousethewrongwords,madeherseemmorethannormallyincompetentforheryears。Mrs。Ambrose,whohadbeenspeakingmuchatrandom,nowreflectedthatshecertainlydidnotlookforwardtotheintimacyofthreeorfourweeksonboardshipwhichwasthreatened。 Womenofherownageusuallyboringher,shesupposedthatgirlswouldbeworse。SheglancedatRachelagain。Yes!howclearitwasthatshewouldbevacillating,emotional,andwhenyousaidsomethingtoheritwouldmakenomorelastingimpressionthanthestrokeofastickuponwater。Therewasnothingtotakeholdofingirls——nothinghard,permanent,satisfactory。DidWilloughbysaythreeweeks,ordidhesayfour?Shetriedtoremember。 Atthispoint,however,thedooropenedandatallburlymanenteredtheroom,cameforwardandshookHelen’shandwithanemotionalkindofheartiness,Willoughbyhimself,Rachel’sfather,Helen’sbrother-in-law。Asagreatdealoffleshwouldhavebeenneededtomakeafatmanofhim,hisframebeingsolarge,hewasnotfat;hisfacewasalargeframeworktoo,looking,bythesmallnessofthefeaturesandtheglowinthehollowofthecheek,morefittedtowithstandassaultsoftheweatherthantoexpresssentimentsandemotions,ortorespondtotheminothers。 “Itisagreatpleasurethatyouhavecome,“hesaid,“forbothofus。“ Rachelmurmuredinobediencetoherfather’sglance。 “We’lldoourbesttomakeyoucomfortable。AndRidley。Wethinkitanhonourtohavechargeofhim。Pepper’llhavesomeonetocontradicthim——whichIdaren’tdo。Youfindthischildgrown,don’tyou?Ayoungwoman,eh?“ StillholdingHelen’shandhedrewhisarmroundRachel’sshoulder,thusmakingthemcomeuncomfortablyclose,butHelenforboretolook。 “Youthinkshedoesuscredit?“heasked。 “Ohyes,“saidHelen。 “Becauseweexpectgreatthingsofher,“hecontinued,squeezinghisdaughter’sarmandreleasingher。“Butaboutyounow。“Theysatdownsidebysideonthelittlesofa。“Didyouleavethechildrenwell? They’llbereadyforschool,Isuppose。DotheytakeafteryouorAmbrose?They’vegotgoodheadsontheirshoulders,I’llbebound?“ AtthisHelenimmediatelybrightenedmorethanshehadyetdone,andexplainedthathersonwassixandherdaughterten。 EverybodysaidthatherboywaslikeherandhergirllikeRidley。 Asforbrains,theywerequickbrats,shethought,andmodestlysheventuredonalittlestoryaboutherson,——howleftaloneforaminutehehadtakenthepatofbutterinhisfingers,runacrosstheroomwithit,andputitonthefire——merelyforthefunofthething,afeelingwhichshecouldunderstand。 “Andyouhadtoshowtheyoungrascalthatthesetrickswouldn’tdo,eh?“ “Achildofsix?Idon’tthinktheymatter。“ “I’manold-fashionedfather。“ “Nonsense,Willoughby;Rachelknowsbetter。“ MuchasWilloughbywoulddoubtlesshavelikedhisdaughtertopraisehimshedidnot;hereyeswereunreflectingaswater,herfingersstilltoyingwiththefossilisedfish,hermindabsent。 TheelderpeoplewentontospeakofarrangementsthatcouldbemadeforRidley’scomfort——atableplacedwherehecouldn’thelplookingatthesea,farfromboilers,atthesametimeshelteredfromtheviewofpeoplepassing。Unlesshemadethisaholiday,whenhisbookswereallpacked,hewouldhavenoholidaywhatever;