第6章

类别:其他 作者:Virginia Woolf字数:4751更新时间:18/12/27 08:07:33
Momentarythoughitseemed,neverthelesstheinterruptionwasupsetting; everyonewasmoreorlessputoutbyit,fromMr。Grice,thesteward,toRidleyhimself。AfewminuteslaterRachelpassedthesmoking-room,andfoundHelenmovingarm-chairs。Shewasabsorbedinherarrangements,andonseeingRachelremarkedconfidentially: “Ifonecangivemenaroomtothemselveswheretheywillsit,it’salltothegood。Arm-chairsare_the_importantthings——“ Shebeganwheelingthemabout。“Now,doesitstilllooklikeabaratarailwaystation?“ Shewhippedaplushcoveroffatable。Theappearanceoftheplacewasmarvellouslyimproved。 Again,thearrivalofthestrangersmadeitobvioustoRachel,asthehourofdinnerapproached,thatshemustchangeherdress; andtheringingofthegreatbellfoundhersittingontheedgeofherberthinsuchapositionthatthelittleglassabovethewashstandreflectedherheadandshoulders。Intheglasssheworeanexpressionoftensemelancholy,forshehadcometothedepressingconclusion,sincethearrivaloftheDalloways,thatherfacewasnotthefaceshewanted,andinallprobabilityneverwouldbe。 However,punctualityhadbeenimpressedonher,andwhateverfaceshehad,shemustgointodinner。 ThesefewminuteshadbeenusedbyWilloughbyinsketchingtotheDallowaysthepeopletheyweretomeet,andcheckingthemuponhisfingers。 “There’smybrother-in-law,Ambrose,thescholar(Idaresayyou’veheardhisname),hiswife,myoldfriendPepper,averyquietfellow,butknowseverything,I’mtold。Andthat’sall。 We’reaverysmallparty。I’mdroppingthemonthecoast。“ Mrs。Dalloway,withherheadalittleononeside,didherbesttorecollectAmbrose——wasitasurname?——butfailed。Shewasmadeslightlyuneasybywhatshehadheard。Sheknewthatscholarsmarriedanyone——girlstheymetinfarmsonreadingparties; orlittlesuburbanwomenwhosaiddisagreeably,“OfcourseIknowit’smyhusbandyouwant;not_me_。“ ButHelencameinatthatpoint,andMrs。Dallowaysawwithreliefthatthoughslightlyeccentricinappearance,shewasnotuntidy,heldherselfwell,andhervoicehadrestraintinit,whichsheheldtobethesignofalady。Mr。Pepperhadnottroubledtochangehisneatuglysuit。 “Butafterall,“ClarissathoughttoherselfasshefollowedVinraceintodinner,“_every__one’s_interestingreally。“ Whenseatedatthetableshehadsomeneedofthatassurance,chieflybecauseofRidley,whocameinlate,lookeddecidedlyunkempt,andtooktohissoupinprofoundgloom。 Animperceptiblesignalpassedbetweenhusbandandwife,meaningthattheygraspedthesituationandwouldstandbyeachotherloyally。 WithscarcelyapauseMrs。DallowayturnedtoWilloughbyandbegan: “WhatIfindsotiresomeabouttheseaisthattherearenoflowersinit。Imaginefieldsofhollyhocksandvioletsinmid-ocean! Howdivine!“ “Butsomewhatdangeroustonavigation,“boomedRichard,inthebass,likethebassoontotheflourishofhiswife’sviolin。“Why,weedscanbebadenough,can’tthey,Vinrace?Iremembercrossinginthe_Mauretania_once,andsayingtotheCaptain——Richards——didyouknowhim?——’Nowtellmewhatperilsyoureallydreadmostforyourship,CaptainRichards?’expectinghimtosayicebergs,orderelicts,orfog,orsomethingofthatsort。Notabitofit。I’vealwaysrememberedhisanswer。’_Sedgius__aquatici_,’hesaid,whichI taketobeakindofduck-weed。“ Mr。Pepperlookedupsharply,andwasabouttoputaquestionwhenWilloughbycontinued: “They’veanawfultimeofit——thosecaptains!Threethousandsoulsonboard!“ “Yes,indeed,“saidClarissa。SheturnedtoHelenwithanairofprofundity。“I’mconvincedpeoplearewrongwhentheysayit’sworkthatwearsone;it’sresponsibility。That’swhyonepaysone’scookmorethanone’shousemaid,Isuppose。“ “Accordingtothat,oneoughttopayone’snursedouble; butonedoesn’t,“saidHelen。 “No;butthinkwhatajoytohavetodowithbabies,insteadofsaucepans!“ saidMrs。Dalloway,lookingwithmoreinterestatHelen,aprobablemother。 “I’dmuchratherbeacookthananurse,“saidHelen。“Nothingwouldinducemetotakechargeofchildren。“ “Mothersalwaysexaggerate,“saidRidley。“Awell-bredchildisnoresponsibility。I’vetravelledalloverEuropewithmine。 Youjustwrap’emupwarmandput’emintherack。“ Helenlaughedatthat。Mrs。Dallowayexclaimed,lookingatRidley: “Howlikeafather!Myhusband’sjustthesame。Andthenonetalksoftheequalityofthesexes!“ “Doesone?“saidMr。Pepper。 “Oh,somedo!“criedClarissa。“Myhusbandhadtopassanirateladyeveryafternoonlastsessionwhosaidnothingelse,Iimagine。“ “Shesatoutsidethehouse;itwasveryawkward,“saidDalloway。 “AtlastIpluckedupcourageandsaidtoher,’Mygoodcreature,you’reonlyinthewaywhereyouare。You’rehinderingme,andyou’redoingnogoodtoyourself。’“ “Andthenshecaughthimbythecoat,andwouldhavescratchedhiseyesout——“Mrs。Dallowayputin。 “Pooh——that’sbeenexaggerated,“saidRichard。“No,Ipitythem,Iconfess。Thediscomfortofsittingonthosestepsmustbeawful。“ “Servethemright,“saidWilloughbycurtly。 “Oh,I’mentirelywithyouthere,“saidDalloway。“NobodycancondemntheutterfollyandfutilityofsuchbehaviourmorethanIdo; andasforthewholeagitation,well!mayIbeinmygravebeforeawomanhastherighttovoteinEngland!That’sallIsay。“ Thesolemnityofherhusband’sassertionmadeClarissagrave。 “It’sunthinkable,“shesaid。“Don’ttellmeyou’reasuffragist?“ sheturnedtoRidley。 “Idon’tcareafigonewayort’other,“saidAmbrose。 “Ifanycreatureissodeludedastothinkthatavotedoeshimorheranygood,lethimhaveit。He’llsoonlearnbetter。“ “You’renotapolitician,Isee,“shesmiled。 “Goodness,no,“saidRidley。 “I’mafraidyourhusbandwon’tapproveofme,“saidDallowayaside,toMrs。Ambrose。ShesuddenlyrecollectedthathehadbeeninParliament。 “Don’tyoueverfinditratherdull?“sheasked,notknowingexactlywhattosay。 Richardspreadhishandsbeforehim,asifinscriptionsweretobereadinthepalmsofthem。 “IfyouaskmewhetherIeverfinditratherdull,“hesaid,“Iamboundtosayyes;ontheotherhand,ifyouaskmewhatcareerdoyouconsideronthewhole,takingthegoodwiththebad,themostenjoyableandenviable,nottospeakofitsmoreseriousside,ofallcareers,foraman,Iamboundtosay,’ThePolitician’s。’“ “TheBarorpolitics,Iagree,“saidWilloughby。“Yougetmorerunforyourmoney。“ “Allone’sfacultieshavetheirplay,“saidRichard。“Imaybetreadingondangerousground;butwhatIfeelaboutpoetsandartistsingeneralisthis:onyourownlines,youcan’tbebeaten—— granted;butoffyourownlines——puff——onehastomakeallowances。 Now,Ishouldn’tliketothinkthatanyonehadtomakeallowancesforme。“ “Idon’tquiteagree,Richard,“saidMrs。Dalloway。“ThinkofShelley。 Ifeelthatthere’salmosteverythingonewantsin’Adonais。’“ “Read’Adonais’byallmeans,“Richardconceded。“ButwheneverI hearofShelleyIrepeattomyselfthewordsofMatthewArnold,’Whataset!Whataset!’“ ThisrousedRidley’sattention。“MatthewArnold?Adetestableprig!“ hesnapped。 “Aprig——granted,“saidRichard;“but,Ithinkamanoftheworld。 That’swheremypointcomesin。Wepoliticiansdoubtlessseemtoyou“ (hegraspedsomehowthatHelenwastherepresentativeofthearts) “agrosscommonplacesetofpeople;butweseebothsides; wemaybeclumsy,butwedoourbesttogetagraspofthings。 Nowyourartists_find_thingsinamess,shrugtheirshoulders,turnasidetotheirvisions——whichIgrantmaybeverybeautiful—— and_leave_thingsinamess。Nowthatseemstomeevadingone’sresponsibilities。Besides,wearen’tallbornwiththeartisticfaculty。“ “It’sdreadful,“saidMrs。Dalloway,who,whileherhusbandspoke,hadbeenthinking。“WhenI’mwithartistsIfeelsointenselythedelightsofshuttingoneselfupinalittleworldofone’sown,withpicturesandmusicandeverythingbeautiful,andthenIgooutintothestreetsandthefirstchildImeetwithitspoor,hungry,dirtylittlefacemakesmeturnroundandsay,’No,I _can’t_shutmyselfup——I_won’t_liveinaworldofmyown。 Ishouldliketostopallthepaintingandwritingandmusicuntilthiskindofthingexistsnolonger。’Don’tyoufeel,“ shewoundup,addressingHelen,“thatlife’saperpetualconflict?“ Helenconsideredforamoment。“No,“shesaid。“Idon’tthinkIdo。“ Therewasapause,whichwasdecidedlyuncomfortable。 Mrs。Dallowaythengavealittleshiver,andaskedwhethershemighthaveherfurcloakbroughttoher。Assheadjustedthesoftbrownfuraboutherneckafreshtopicstruckher。 “Iown,“shesaid,“thatIshallneverforgetthe_Antigone_。 IsawitatCambridgeyearsago,andit’shauntedmeeversince。 Don’tyouthinkit’squitethemostmodernthingyoueversaw?“ sheaskedRidley。“ItseemedtomeI’dknowntwentyClytemnestras。 OldLadyDitchlingforone。Idon’tknowawordofGreek,butIcouldlistentoitforever——“ HereMr。Pepperstruckup: {SomeeditionsoftheworkcontainabriefpassagefromAntigone,inGreek,atthisspot。ed。} Mrs。Dallowaylookedathimwithcompressedlips。 “I’dgivetenyearsofmylifetoknowGreek,“shesaid,whenhehaddone。 “Icouldteachyouthealphabetinhalfanhour,“saidRidley,“andyou’dreadHomerinamonth。Ishouldthinkitanhonourtoinstructyou。“ Helen,engagedwithMr。Dallowayandthehabit,nowfallenintodecline,ofquotingGreekintheHouseofCommons,noted,inthegreatcommonplacebookthatliesopenbesideusaswetalk,thefactthatallmen,evenmenlikeRidley,reallypreferwomentobefashionable。 Clarissaexclaimedthatshecouldthinkofnothingmoredelightful。 Foraninstantshesawherselfinherdrawing-roominBrowneStreetwithaPlatoopenonherknees——PlatointheoriginalGreek。Shecouldnothelpbelievingthatarealscholar,ifspeciallyinterested,couldslipGreekintoherheadwithscarcelyanytrouble。 Ridleyengagedhertocometo-morrow。 “Ifonlyyourshipisgoingtotreatuskindly!“sheexclaimed,drawingWilloughbyintoplay。Forthesakeofguests,andtheseweredistinguished,Willoughbywasreadywithabowofhisheadtovouchforthegoodbehaviourevenofthewaves。 “I’mdreadfullybad;andmyhusband’snotverygood,“sighedClarissa。 “Iamneversick,“Richardexplained。“Atleast,Ihaveonlybeenactuallysickonce,“hecorrectedhimself。“ThatwascrossingtheChannel。Butachoppysea,Iconfess,orstillworse,aswell,makesmedistinctlyuncomfortable。Thegreatthingisnevertomissameal。Youlookatthefood,andyousay,’Ican’t’;