第15章

类别:其他 作者:Virginia Woolf字数:5264更新时间:18/12/27 08:07:33
Thenextfewmonthspassedaway,asmanyyearscanpassaway,withoutdefiniteevents,andyet,ifsuddenlydisturbed,itwouldbeseenthatsuchmonthsoryearshadacharacterunlikeothers。 ThethreemonthswhichhadpassedhadbroughtthemtothebeginningofMarch。Theclimatehadkeptitspromise,andthechangeofseasonfromwintertospringhadmadeverylittledifference,sothatHelen,whowassittinginthedrawing-roomwithapeninherhand,couldkeepthewindowsopenthoughagreatfireoflogsburntononesideofher。Below,theseawasstillblueandtheroofsstillbrownandwhite,thoughthedaywasfadingrapidly。 Itwasduskintheroom,which,largeandemptyatalltimes,nowappearedlargerandemptierthanusual。Herownfigure,asshesatwritingwithapadonherknee,sharedthegeneraleffectofsizeandlackofdetail,fortheflameswhichranalongthebranches,suddenlydevouringlittlegreentufts,burntintermittentlyandsentirregularilluminationsacrossherfaceandtheplasterwalls。 Therewerenopicturesonthewallsbuthereandthereboughsladenwithheavy-petalledflowersspreadwidelyagainstthem。 Ofthebooksfallenonthebarefloorandheapeduponthelargetable,itwasonlypossibleinthislighttotracetheoutline。 Mrs。Ambrosewaswritingaverylongletter。Beginning“DearBernard,“ itwentontodescribewhathadbeenhappeningintheVillaSanGervasioduringthepastthreemonths,as,forinstance,thattheyhadhadtheBritishConsultodinner,andhadbeentakenoveraSpanishman-of-war,andhadseenagreatmanyprocessionsandreligiousfestivals,whichweresobeautifulthatMrs。Ambrosecouldn’tconceivewhy,ifpeoplemusthaveareligion,theydidn’tallbecomeRomanCatholics。 Theyhadmadeseveralexpeditionsthoughnoneofanylength。Itwasworthcomingifonlyforthesakeofthefloweringtreeswhichgrewwildquitenearthehouse,andtheamazingcoloursofseaandearth。 Theearth,insteadofbeingbrown,wasred,purple,green。“Youwon’tbelieveme,“sheadded,“thereisnocolourlikeitinEngland。“ Sheadopted,indeed,acondescendingtonetowardsthatpoorisland,whichwasnowadvancingchillycrocusesandnippedvioletsinnooks,incopses,incosycorners,tendedbyrosyoldgardenersinmufflers,whowerealwaystouchingtheirhatsandbobbingobsequiously。 Shewentontoderidetheislandersthemselves。RumoursofLondonallinafermentoveraGeneralElectionhadreachedthemevenouthere。 “Itseemsincredible,“shewenton,“thatpeopleshouldcarewhetherAsquithisinorAustenChamberlinout,andwhileyouscreamyourselveshoarseaboutpoliticsyoulettheonlypeoplewhoaretryingforsomethinggoodstarveorsimplylaughatthem。Whenhaveyoueverencouragedalivingartist?Orboughthisbestwork?Whyareyouallsouglyandsoservile?Heretheservantsarehumanbeings。 Theytalktooneasiftheywereequals。AsfarasIcantelltherearenoaristocrats。“ PerhapsitwasthementionofaristocratsthatremindedherofRichardDallowayandRachel,forsheranonwiththesamepenfultodescribeherniece。 “It’sanoddfatethathasputmeinchargeofagirl,“shewrote,“consideringthatIhavenevergotonwellwithwomen,orhadmuchtodowiththem。However,ImustretractsomeofthethingsthatI havesaidagainstthem。IftheywereproperlyeducatedIdon’tseewhytheyshouldn’tbemuchthesameasmen——assatisfactoryImean; though,ofcourse,verydifferent。Thequestionis,howshouldoneeducatethem。Thepresentmethodseemstomeabominable。 Thisgirl,thoughtwenty-four,hadneverheardthatmendesiredwomen,and,untilIexplainedit,didnotknowhowchildrenwereborn。 Herignoranceuponothermattersasimportant“(hereMrs。Ambrose’slettermaynotbequoted)……“wascomplete。Itseemstomenotmerelyfoolishbutcriminaltobringpeopleuplikethat。Letalonethesufferingtothem,itexplainswhywomenarewhattheyare—— thewonderisthey’renoworse。Ihavetakenituponmyselftoenlightenher,andnow,thoughstillagooddealprejudicedandliabletoexaggerate,sheismoreorlessareasonablehumanbeing。 Keepingthemignorant,ofcourse,defeatsitsownobject,andwhentheybegintounderstandtheytakeitallmuchtooseriously。 Mybrother-in-lawreallydeservedacatastrophe——whichhewon’tget。 Inowprayforayoungmantocometomyhelp;someone,Imean,whowouldtalktoheropenly,andprovehowabsurdmostofherideasaboutlifeare。Unluckilysuchmenseemalmostasrareasthewomen。 TheEnglishcolonycertainlydoesn’tprovideone;artists,merchants,cultivatedpeople——theyarestupid,conventional,andflirtatious……“Sheceased,andwithherpeninherhandsatlookingintothefire,makingthelogsintocavesandmountains,forithadgrowntoodarktogoonwriting。Moreover,thehousebegantostirasthehourofdinnerapproached;shecouldheartheplatesbeingchinkedinthedining-roomnextdoor,andChaileyinstructingtheSpanishgirlwheretoputthingsdowninvigorousEnglish。Thebellrang; sherose,metRidleyandRacheloutside,andtheyallwentintodinner。 ThreemonthshadmadebutlittledifferenceintheappearanceeitherofRidleyorRachel;yetakeenobservermighthavethoughtthatthegirlwasmoredefiniteandself-confidentinhermannerthanbefore。 Herskinwasbrown,hereyescertainlybrighter,andsheattendedtowhatwassaidasthoughshemightbegoingtocontradictit。 Themealbeganwiththecomfortablesilenceofpeoplewhoarequiteattheireasetogether。ThenRidley,leaningonhiselbowandlookingoutofthewindow,observedthatitwasalovelynight。 “Yes,“saidHelen。Sheadded,“Theseason’sbegun,“lookingatthelightsbeneaththem。SheaskedMariainSpanishwhetherthehotelwasnotfillingupwithvisitors。Mariainformedherwithpridethattherewouldcomeatimewhenitwaspositivelydifficulttobuyeggs——theshopkeeperswouldnotmindwhatpricestheyasked; theywouldgetthem,atanyrate,fromtheEnglish。 “That’sanEnglishsteamerinthebay,“saidRachel,lookingatatriangleoflightsbelow。“Shecameinearlythismorning。“ “Thenwemayhopeforsomelettersandsendoursback,“saidHelen。 ForsomereasonthementionoflettersalwaysmadeRidleygroan,andtherestofthemealpassedinabriskargumentbetweenhusbandandwifeastowhetherhewasorwasnotwhollyignoredbytheentirecivilisedworld。 “Consideringthelastbatch,“saidHelen,“youdeservebeating。 Youwereaskedtolecture,youwereofferedadegree,andsomesillywomanpraisednotonlyyourbooksbutyourbeauty——shesaidhewaswhatShelleywouldhavebeenifShelleyhadlivedtofifty-fiveandgrownabeard。Really,Ridley,Ithinkyou’rethevainestmanIknow,“ sheended,risingfromthetable,“whichImaytellyouissayingagooddeal。“ Findingherletterlyingbeforethefiresheaddedafewlinestoit,andthenannouncedthatshewasgoingtotakethelettersnow—— Ridleymustbringhis——andRachel? “Ihopeyou’vewrittentoyourAunts?It’shightime。“ Thewomenputoncloaksandhats,andafterinvitingRidleytocomewiththem,whichheemphaticallyrefusedtodo,exclaimingthatRachelheexpectedtobeafool,butHelensurelyknewbetter,theyturnedtogo。Hestoodoverthefiregazingintothedepthsofthelooking-glass,andcompressinghisfaceintothelikenessofacommandersurveyingafieldofbattle,oramartyrwatchingtheflameslickhistoes,ratherthanthatofasecludedProfessor。 Helenlaidholdofhisbeard。 “AmIafool?“shesaid。 “Letmego,Helen。“ “AmIafool?“sherepeated。 “Vilewoman!“heexclaimed,andkissedher。 “We’llleaveyoutoyourvanities,“shecalledbackastheywentoutofthedoor。 Itwasabeautifulevening,stilllightenoughtoseealongwaydowntheroad,thoughthestarswerecomingout。Thepillar-boxwasletintoahighyellowwallwherethelanemettheroad,andhavingdroppedthelettersintoit,Helenwasforturningback。 “No,no,“saidRachel,takingherbythewrist。“We’regoingtoseelife。Youpromised。“ “Seeinglife“wasthephrasetheyusedfortheirhabitofstrollingthroughthetownafterdark。ThesociallifeofSantaMarinawascarriedonalmostentirelybylamp-light,whichthewarmthofthenightsandthescentsculledfromflowersmadepleasantenough。 Theyoungwomen,withtheirhairmagnificentlysweptincoils,aredflowerbehindtheear,satonthedoorsteps,orissuedoutontobalconies,whiletheyoungmenrangedupanddownbeneath,shoutingupagreetingfromtimetotimeandstoppinghereandtheretoenterintoamoroustalk。Attheopenwindowsmerchantscouldbeseenmakinguptheday’saccount,andolderwomenliftingjarsfromshelftoshelf。Thestreetswerefullofpeople,menforthemostpart,whointerchangedtheirviewsoftheworldastheywalked,orgatheredroundthewine-tablesatthestreetcorner,whereanoldcripplewastwanginghisguitarstrings,whileapoorgirlcriedherpassionatesonginthegutter。ThetwoEnglishwomenexcitedsomefriendlycuriosity,butnoonemolestedthem。 Helensaunteredon,observingthedifferentpeopleintheirshabbyclothes,whoseemedsocarelessandsonatural,withsatisfaction。 “JustthinkoftheMallto-night!“sheexclaimedatlength。 “It’sthefifteenthofMarch。Perhapsthere’saCourt。“ Shethoughtofthecrowdwaitinginthecoldspringairtoseethegrandcarriagesgoby。“It’sverycold,ifit’snotraining,“ shesaid。“Firsttherearemensellingpicturepostcards;thentherearewretchedlittleshop-girlswithroundbandboxes;thentherearebankclerksintailcoats;andthen——anynumberofdressmakers。 PeoplefromSouthKensingtondriveupinahiredfly;officialshaveapairofbays;earls,ontheotherhand,areallowedonefootmantostandupbehind;dukeshavetwo,royaldukes——soIwastold—— havethree;theking,Isuppose,canhaveasmanyashelikes。 Andthepeoplebelieveinit!“ OuthereitseemedasthoughthepeopleofEnglandmustbeshapedinthebodylikethekingsandqueens,knightsandpawnsofthechessboard,sostrangeweretheirdifferences,somarkedandsoimplicitlybelievedin。 Theyhadtopartinordertocircumventacrowd。 “TheybelieveinGod,“saidRachelastheyregainedeachother。 ShemeantthatthepeopleinthecrowdbelievedinHim;forsherememberedthecrosseswithbleedingplasterfiguresthatstoodwherefoot-pathsjoined,andtheinexplicablemysteryofaserviceinaRomanCatholicchurch。 “Weshallneverunderstand!“shesighed。 Theyhadwalkedsomewayanditwasnownight,buttheycouldseealargeirongatealittlewayfartherdowntheroadontheirleft。 “Doyoumeantogorightuptothehotel?“Helenasked。 Rachelgavethegateapush;itswungopen,and,seeingnooneaboutandjudgingthatnothingwasprivateinthiscountry,theywalkedstraighton。Anavenueoftreesranalongtheroad,whichwascompletelystraight。Thetreessuddenlycametoanend; theroadturnedacorner,andtheyfoundthemselvesconfrontedbyalargesquarebuilding。Theyhadcomeoutuponthebroadterracewhichranroundthehotelandwereonlyafewfeetdistantfromthewindows。Arowoflongwindowsopenedalmosttotheground。 Theywereallofthemuncurtained,andallbrilliantlylighted,sothattheycouldseeeverythinginside。Eachwindowrevealedadifferentsectionofthelifeofthehotel。Theydrewintooneofthebroadcolumnsofshadowwhichseparatedthewindowsandgazedin。Theyfoundthemselvesjustoutsidethedining-room。Itwasbeingswept;awaiterwaseatingabunchofgrapeswithhislegacrossthecornerofatable。Nextdoorwasthekitchen,wheretheywerewashingup;whitecooksweredippingtheirarmsintocauldrons,whilethewaitersmadetheirmealvoraciouslyoffbrokenmeats,soppingupthegravywithbitsofcrumb。Movingon,theybecamelostinaplantationofbushes,andthensuddenlyfoundthemselvesoutsidethedrawing-room,wheretheladiesandgentlemen,havingdinedwell,laybackindeeparm-chairs,occasionallyspeakingorturningoverthepagesofmagazines。Athinwomanwasflourishingupanddownthepiano。