第17章

类别:其他 作者:Virginia Woolf字数:5247更新时间:18/12/27 08:07:33
“Butyoudidn’tgetoutofbedtotellmethat,“headdedseverely。 “Igotoutofbed,“saidHewetvaguely,“merelytotalkIsuppose。“ “MeanwhileIshallundress,“saidHirst。Whennakedofallbuthisshirt,andbentoverthebasin,Mr。Hirstnolongerimpressedonewiththemajestyofhisintellect,butwiththepathosofhisyoungyetuglybody,forhestooped,andhewassothinthatthereweredarklinesbetweenthedifferentbonesofhisneckandshoulders。 “Womeninterestme,“saidHewet,who,sittingonthebedwithhischinrestingonhisknees,paidnoattentiontotheundressingofMr。Hirst。 “They’resostupid,“saidHirst。“You’resittingonmypyjamas。“ “Isupposethey_are_stupid?“Hewetwondered。 “Therecan’tbetwoopinionsaboutthat,Iimagine,“saidHirst,hoppingbrisklyacrosstheroom,“unlessyou’reinlove——thatfatwomanWarrington?“heenquired。 “Notonefatwoman——allfatwomen,“Hewetsighed。 “ThewomenIsawto-nightwerenotfat,“saidHirst,whowastakingadvantageofHewet’scompanytocuthistoe-nails。 “Describethem,“saidHewet。 “YouknowIcan’tdescribethings!“saidHirst。“Theyweremuchlikeotherwomen,Ishouldthink。Theyalwaysare。“ “No;that’swherewediffer,“saidHewet。“Isayeverything’sdifferent。 Notwopeopleareintheleastthesame。Takeyouandmenow。“ “SoIusedtothinkonce,“saidHirst。“Butnowthey’realltypes。 Don’ttakeus,——takethishotel。Youcoulddrawcirclesroundthewholelotofthem,andthey’dneverstrayoutside。“ (“Youcankillahenbydoingthat“),Hewetmurmured。 “Mr。HughlingElliot,Mrs。HughlingElliot,MissAllan,Mr。andMrs。Thornbury——onecircle,“Hirstcontinued。“MissWarrington,Mr。ArthurVenning,Mr。Perrott,EvelynM。anothercircle; thenthereareawholelotofnatives;finallyourselves。“ “Areweallaloneinourcircle?“askedHewet。 “Quitealone,“saidHirst。“Youtrytogetout,butyoucan’t。 Youonlymakeamessofthingsbytrying。“ “I’mnotaheninacircle,“saidHewet。“I’madoveonatree-top。“ “Iwonderifthisiswhattheycallaningrowingtoe-nail?“ saidHirst,examiningthebigtoeonhisleftfoot。 “Iflitfrombranchtobranch,“continuedHewet。“Theworldisprofoundlypleasant。“Helaybackonthebed,uponhisarms。 “Iwonderifit’sreallynicetobeasvagueasyouare?“askedHirst,lookingathim。“It’sthelackofcontinuity——that’swhat’ssooddboutyou,“hewenton。“Attheageoftwenty-seven,whichisnearlythirty,youseemtohavedrawnnoconclusions。 Apartyofoldwomenexcitesyoustillasthoughyouwerethree。“ Hewetcontemplatedtheangularyoungmanwhowasneatlybrushingtherimsofhistoe-nailsintothefire-placeinsilenceforamoment。 “Irespectyou,Hirst,“heremarked。 “Ienvyyou——somethings,“saidHirst。“One:yourcapacityfornotthinking;two:peoplelikeyoubetterthantheylikeme。 Womenlikeyou,Isuppose。“ “Iwonderwhetherthatisn’treallywhatmattersmost?“saidHewet。 Lyingnowflatonthebedhewavedhishandinvaguecirclesabovehim。 “Ofcourseitis,“saidHirst。“Butthat’snotthedifficulty。 Thedifficultyis,isn’tit,tofindanappropriateobject?“ “Therearenofemalehensinyourcircle?“askedHewet。 “Nottheghostofone,“saidHirst。 AlthoughtheyhadknowneachotherforthreeyearsHirsthadneveryetheardthetruestoryofHewet’sloves。Ingeneralconversationitwastakenforgrantedthattheyweremany,butinprivatethesubjectwasallowedtolapse。Thefactthathehadmoneyenoughtodonowork,andthathehadleftCambridgeaftertwotermsowingtoadifferencewiththeauthorities,andhadthentravelledanddrifted,madehislifestrangeatmanypointswherehisfriends’ livesweremuchofapiece。 “Idon’tseeyourcircles——Idon’tseethem,“Hewetcontinued。 “Iseeathinglikeateetotumspinninginandout——knockingintothings—— dashingfromsidetoside——collectingnumbers——moreandmoreandmore,tillthewholeplaceisthickwiththem。Roundandroundtheygo—— outthere,overtherim——outofsight。“ Hisfingersshowedthatthewaltzingteetotumshadspunovertheedgeofthecounterpaneandfallenoffthebedintoinfinity。 “Couldyoucontemplatethreeweeksaloneinthishotel?“askedHirst,afteramoment’spause。 Hewetproceededtothink。 “Thetruthofitisthatoneneverisalone,andoneneverisincompany,“heconcluded。 “Meaning?“saidHirst。 “Meaning?Oh,somethingaboutbubbles——auras——whatd’youcall’em? Youcan’tseemybubble;Ican’tseeyours;allweseeofeachotherisaspeck,likethewickinthemiddleofthatflame。 Theflamegoesaboutwithuseverywhere;it’snotourselvesexactly,butwhatwefeel;theworldisshort,orpeoplemainly;allkindsofpeople。“ “Anicestreakybubbleyoursmustbe!“saidHirst。 “Andsupposingmybubblecouldrunintosomeoneelse’sbubble——“ “Andtheybothburst?“putinHirst。 “Then——then——then——“ponderedHewet,asiftohimself,“itwouldbeane-nor-mousworld,“hesaid,stretchinghisarmstotheirfullwidth,asthoughevensotheycouldhardlyclaspthebillowyuniverse,forwhenhewaswithHirsthealwaysfeltunusuallysanguineandvague。 “Idon’tthinkyoualtogetherasfoolishasIusedto,Hewet,“ saidHirst。“Youdon’tknowwhatyoumeanbutyoutrytosayit。“ “Butaren’tyouenjoyingyourselfhere?“askedHewet。 “Onthewhole——yes,“saidHirst。“Ilikeobservingpeople。 Ilikelookingatthings。Thiscountryisamazinglybeautiful。 Didyounoticehowthetopofthemountainturnedyellowto-night? Reallywemusttakeourlunchandspendthedayout。You’regettingdisgustinglyfat。“HepointedatthecalfofHewet’sbareleg。 “We’llgetupanexpedition,“saidHewetenergetically。“We’llasktheentirehotel。We’llhiredonkeysand——“ “Oh,Lord!“saidHirst,“doshutit!IcanseeMissWarringtonandMissAllanandMrs。Elliotandtherestsquattingonthestonesandquacking,’Howjolly!’“ “We’llaskVenningandPerrottandMissMurgatroyd——everyonewecanlayhandson,“wentonHewet。“What’sthenameofthelittleoldgrasshopperwiththeeyeglasses?Pepper?——Peppershallleadus。“ “ThankGod,you’llnevergetthedonkeys,“saidHirst。 “Imustmakeanoteofthat,“saidHewet,slowlydroppinghisfeettothefloor。“HirstescortsMissWarrington;Pepperadvancesaloneonawhiteass;provisionsequallydistributed——orshallwehireamule? Thematrons——there’sMrs。Paley,byJove!——shareacarriage。“ “That’swhereyou’llgowrong,“saidHirst。“Puttingvirginsamongmatrons。“ “Howlongshouldyouthinkthatanexpeditionlikethatwouldtake,Hirst?“askedHewet。 “FromtwelvetosixteenhoursIwouldsay,“saidHirst。“Thetimeusuallyoccupiedbyafirstconfinement。“ “Itwillneedconsiderableorganisation,“saidHewet。Hewasnowpaddingsoftlyroundtheroom,andstoppedtostirthebooksonthetable。Theylayheapedoneuponanother。 “Weshallwantsomepoetstoo,“heremarked。“NotGibbon;no; d’youhappentohave_Modern__Love_or_John__Donne_?Yousee,Icontemplatepauseswhenpeoplegettiredoflookingattheview,andthenitwouldbenicetoreadsomethingratherdifficultaloud。“ “Mrs。Paley_will_enjoyherself,“saidHirst。 “Mrs。Paleywillenjoyitcertainly,“saidHewet。“It’soneofthesaddestthingsIknow——thewayelderlyladiesceasetoreadpoetry。 Andyethowappropriatethisis: IspeakasonewhoplumbsLife’sdimprofound,OnewhoatlengthcansoundClearviewsandcertain。 But——afterlovewhatcomes? Ascenethatlours,Afewsadvacanthours,Andthen,theCurtain。 IdaresayMrs。Paleyistheonlyoneofuswhocanreallyunderstandthat。“ “We’llaskher,“saidHirst。“Please,Hewet,ifyoumustgotobed,drawmycurtain。Fewthingsdistressmemorethanthemoonlight。“ Hewetretreated,pressingthepoemsofThomasHardybeneathhisarm,andintheirbedsnextdoortoeachotherboththeyoungmenweresoonasleep。 BetweentheextinctionofHewet’scandleandtherisingofaduskySpanishboywhowasthefirsttosurveythedesolationofthehotelintheearlymorning,afewhoursofsilenceintervened。Onecouldalmosthearahundredpeoplebreathingdeeply,andhoweverwakefulandrestlessitwouldhavebeenhardtoescapesleepinthemiddleofsomuchsleep。Lookingoutofthewindows,therewasonlydarknesstobeseen。Allovertheshadowedhalfoftheworldpeoplelayprone,andafewflickeringlightsinemptystreetsmarkedtheplaceswheretheircitieswerebuilt。RedandyellowomnibuseswerecrowdingeachotherinPiccadilly;sumptuouswomenwererockingatastandstill;buthereinthedarknessanowlflittedfromtreetotree,andwhenthebreezeliftedthebranchesthemoonflashedasifitwereatorch。Untilallpeopleshouldawakeagainthehouselessanimalswereabroad,thetigersandthestags,andtheelephantscomingdowninthedarknesstodrinkatpools。 Thewindatnightblowingoverthehillsandwoodswaspurerandfresherthanthewindbyday,andtheearth,robbedofdetail,moremysteriousthantheearthcolouredanddividedbyroadsandfields。Forsixhoursthisprofoundbeautyexisted,andthenastheeastgrewwhiterandwhiterthegroundswamtothesurface,theroadswererevealed,thesmokeroseandthepeoplestirred,andthesunshoneuponthewindowsofthehotelatSantaMarinauntiltheywereuncurtained,andthegongblaringallthroughthehousegavenoticeofbreakfast。 Directlybreakfastwasover,theladiesasusualcircledvaguely,pickinguppapersandputtingthemdownagain,aboutthehall。 “Andwhatareyougoingtodoto-day?“askedMrs。ElliotdriftingupagainstMissWarrington。 Mrs。Elliot,thewifeofHughlingtheOxfordDon,wasashortwoman,whoseexpressionwashabituallyplaintive。Hereyesmovedfromthingtothingasthoughtheyneverfoundanythingsufficientlypleasanttorestuponforanylengthoftime。 “I’mgoingtotrytogetAuntEmmaoutintothetown,“saidSusan。 “She’snotseenathingyet。“ “Icallitsospiritedofheratherage,“saidMrs。Elliot,“comingallthiswayfromherownfireside。“ “Yes,wealwaystellhershe’lldieonboardship,“Susanreplied。 “Shewasbornonone,“sheadded。 “Intheolddays,“saidMrs。Elliot,“agreatmanypeoplewere。 Ialwayspitythepoorwomenso!We’vegotalottocomplainof!“ Sheshookherhead。Hereyeswanderedaboutthetable,andsheremarkedirrelevantly,“ThepoorlittleQueenofHolland! Newspaperreporterspractically,onemaysay,atherbedroomdoor!“ “WereyoutalkingoftheQueenofHolland?“saidthepleasantvoiceofMissAllan,whowassearchingforthethickpagesof_The_ _Times_amongalitterofthinforeignsheets。 “Ialwaysenvyanyonewholivesinsuchanexcessivelyflatcountry,“ sheremarked。 “Howverystrange!“saidMrs。Elliot。“Ifindaflatcountrysodepressing。“ “I’mafraidyoucan’tbeveryhappyherethen,MissAllan,“ saidSusan。 “Onthecontrary,“saidMissAllan,“Iamexceedinglyfondofmountains。“ Perceiving_The__Times_atsomedistance,shemovedofftosecureit。 “Well,Imustfindmyhusband,“saidMrs。Elliot,fidgetingaway。 “AndImustgotomyaunt,“saidMissWarrington,andtakingupthedutiesofthedaytheymovedaway。 Whethertheflimsinessofforeignsheetsandthecoarsenessoftheirtypeisanyproofoffrivolityandignorance,thereisnodoubtthatEnglishpeoplescarceconsidernewsreadthereasnews,anymorethanaprogrammeboughtfromamaninthestreetinspiresconfidenceinwhatitsays。Averyrespectableelderlypair,havinginspectedthelongtablesofnewspapers,didnotthinkitworththeirwhiletoreadmorethantheheadlines。 “Thedebateonthefifteenthshouldhavereachedusbynow,“ Mrs。Thornburymurmured。Mr。Thornbury,whowasbeautifullycleanandhadredrubbedintohishandsomewornfaceliketracesofpaintonaweather-beatenwoodenfigure,lookedoverhisglassesandsawthatMissAllanhad_The__Times_。