第23章

类别:其他 作者:Virginia Woolf字数:5149更新时间:18/12/27 08:07:33
“Idon’tlosethings,“saidHewet。“Imislaythem。ThatwasthereasonwhyHirstrefusedtoshareacabinwithmeonthevoyageout。“ “Youcameouttogether?“Helenenquired。 “Iproposethateachmemberofthispartynowgivesashortbiographicalsketchofhimselforherself,“saidHirst,sittingupright。 “MissVinrace,youcomefirst;begin。“ Rachelstatedthatshewastwenty-fouryearsofage,thedaughterofaship-owner,thatshehadneverbeenproperlyeducated; playedthepiano,hadnobrothersorsisters,andlivedatRichmondwithaunts,hermotherbeingdead。 “Next,“saidHirst,havingtakeninthesefacts;hepointedatHewet。 “IamthesonofanEnglishgentleman。Iamtwenty-seven,“ Hewetbegan。“Myfatherwasafox-huntingsquire。HediedwhenI wasteninthehuntingfield。Icanrememberhisbodycominghome,onashutterIsuppose,justasIwasgoingdowntotea,andnoticingthattherewasjamfortea,andwonderingwhetherI shouldbeallowed——“ “Yes;butkeeptothefacts,“Hirstputin。 “IwaseducatedatWinchesterandCambridge,whichIhadtoleaveafteratime。Ihavedoneagoodmanythingssince——“ “Profession?“ “None——atleast——“ “Tastes?“ “Literary。I’mwritinganovel。“ “Brothersandsisters?“ “Threesisters,nobrother,andamother。“ “Isthatallwe’retohearaboutyou?“saidHelen。Shestatedthatshewasveryold——fortylastOctober,andherfatherhadbeenasolicitorinthecitywhohadgonebankrupt,forwhichreasonshehadneverhadmucheducation——theylivedinoneplaceafteranother—— butanelderbrotherusedtolendherbooks。 “IfIweretotellyoueverything——“shestoppedandsmiled。 “Itwouldtaketoolong,“sheconcluded。“ImarriedwhenIwasthirty,andIhavetwochildren。Myhusbandisascholar。Andnow—— it’syourturn,“shenoddedatHirst。 “You’veleftoutagreatdeal,“hereprovedher。“MynameisSt。JohnAlaricHirst,“hebeganinajauntytoneofvoice。 “I’mtwenty-fouryearsold。I’mthesonoftheReverendSidneyHirst,vicarofGreatWappynginNorfolk。Oh,Igotscholarshipseverywhere——Westminster——King’s。I’mnowafellowofKing’s。Don’titsounddreary?Parentsbothalive(alas)。 Twobrothersandonesister。I’maverydistinguishedyoungman,“headded。 “Oneofthethree,orisitfive,mostdistinguishedmeninEngland,“ Hewetremarked。 “Quitecorrect,“saidHirst。 “That’sallveryinteresting,“saidHelenafterapause。 “Butofcoursewe’veleftouttheonlyquestionsthatmatter。 Forinstance,areweChristians?“ “Iamnot,““Iamnot,“boththeyoungmenreplied。 “Iam,“Rachelstated。 “YoubelieveinapersonalGod?“Hirstdemanded,turningroundandfixingherwithhiseyeglasses。 “Ibelieve——Ibelieve,“Rachelstammered,“Ibelievetherearethingswedon’tknowabout,andtheworldmightchangeinaminuteandanythingappear。“ AtthisHelenlaughedoutright。“Nonsense,“shesaid。“You’renotaChristian。You’veneverthoughtwhatyouare——Andtherearelotsofotherquestions,“shecontinued,“thoughperhapswecan’taskthemyet。“Althoughtheyhadtalkedsofreelytheywerealluncomfortablyconsciousthattheyreallyknewnothingabouteachother。 “Theimportantquestions,“Hewetpondered,“thereallyinterestingones。 Idoubtthatoneeverdoesaskthem。“ Rachel,whowasslowtoacceptthefactthatonlyaveryfewthingscanbesaidevenbypeoplewhoknoweachotherwell,insistedonknowingwhathemeant。 “Whetherwe’veeverbeeninlove?“sheenquired。“Isthatthekindofquestionyoumean?“ AgainHelenlaughedather,benignantlystrewingherwithhandfulsofthelongtasselledgrass,forshewassobraveandsofoolish。 “Oh,Rachel,“shecried。“It’slikehavingapuppyinthehousehavingyouwithone——apuppythatbringsone’sunderclothesdownintothehall。“ Butagainthesunnyearthinfrontofthemwascrossedbyfantasticwaveringfigures,theshadowsofmenandwomen。 “Theretheyare!“exclaimedMrs。Elliot。Therewasatouchofpeevishnessinhervoice。“Andwe’vehad_such_ahunttofindyou。 Doyouknowwhatthetimeis?“ Mrs。ElliotandMr。andMrs。Thornburynowconfrontedthem;Mrs。Elliotwasholdingoutherwatch,andplayfullytappingitupontheface。 Hewetwasrecalledtothefactthatthiswasapartyforwhichhewasresponsible,andheimmediatelyledthembacktothewatch-tower,wheretheyweretohaveteabeforestartinghomeagain。Abrightcrimsonscarfflutteredfromthetopofthewall,whichMr。PerrottandEvelynweretyingtoastoneastheotherscameup。Theheathadchangedjustsofarthatinsteadofsittingintheshadowtheysatinthesun,whichwasstillhotenoughtopainttheirfacesredandyellow,andtocolourgreatsectionsoftheearthbeneaththem。 “There’snothinghalfsoniceastea!“saidMrs。Thornbury,takinghercup。 “Nothing,“saidHelen。“Can’tyourememberasachildchoppinguphay——“shespokemuchmorequicklythanusual,andkepthereyefixeduponMrs。Thornbury,“andpretendingitwastea,andgettingscoldedbythenurses——whyIcan’timagine,exceptthatnursesaresuchbrutes,won’tallowpepperinsteadofsaltthoughthere’snoearthlyharminit。Weren’tyournursesjustthesame?“ DuringthisspeechSusancameintothegroup,andsatdownbyHelen’sside。AfewminuteslaterMr。Venningstrolledupfromtheoppositedirection。Hewasalittleflushed,andinthemoodtoanswerhilariouslywhateverwassaidtohim。 “Whathaveyoubeendoingtothatoldchap’sgrave?“heasked,pointingtotheredflagwhichfloatedfromthetopofthestones。 “Wehavetriedtomakehimforgethismisfortuneinhavingdiedthreehundredyearsago,“saidMr。Perrott。 “Itwouldbeawful——tobedead!“ejaculatedEvelynM。 “Tobedead?“saidHewet。“Idon’tthinkitwouldbeawful。 It’squiteeasytoimagine。Whenyougotobedto-nightfoldyourhandsso——breatheslowerandslower——“Helaybackwithhishandsclaspeduponhisbreast,andhiseyesshut,“Now,“hemurmuredinanevenmonotonousvoice,“Ishallnever,never,nevermoveagain。“ Hisbody,lyingflatamongthem,didforamomentsuggestdeath。 “Thisisahorribleexhibition,Mr。Hewet!“criedMrs。Thornbury。 “Morecakeforus!“saidArthur。 “Iassureyouthere’snothinghorribleaboutit,“saidHewet,sittingupandlayinghandsuponthecake。 “It’ssonatural,“herepeated。“Peoplewithchildrenshouldmakethemdothatexerciseeverynight……NotthatIlookforwardtobeingdead。“ “Andwhenyoualludetoagrave,“saidMr。Thornbury,whospokealmostforthefirsttime,“haveyouanyauthorityforcallingthatruinagrave? IamquitewithyouinrefusingtoacceptthecommoninterpretationwhichdeclaresittobetheremainsofanElizabethanwatch-tower—— anymorethanIbelievethatthecircularmoundsorbarrowswhichwefindonthetopofourEnglishdownswerecamps。 Theantiquariescalleverythingacamp。Iamalwaysaskingthem,Wellthen,wheredoyouthinkourancestorskepttheircattle? HalfthecampsinEnglandaremerelytheancientpoundorbartonaswecallitinmypartoftheworld。Theargumentthatnoonewouldkeephiscattleinsuchexposedandinaccessiblespotshasnoweightatall,ifyoureflectthatinthosedaysaman’scattlewerehiscapital,hisstock-in-trade,hisdaughter’sdowries。 Withoutcattlehewasaserf,anotherman’sman……“Hiseyesslowlylosttheirintensity,andhemutteredafewconcludingwordsunderhisbreath,lookingcuriouslyoldandforlorn。 HughlingElliot,whomighthavebeenexpectedtoengagetheoldgentlemaninargument,wasabsentatthemoment。Henowcameupholdingoutalargesquareofcottonuponwhichafinedesignwasprintedinpleasantbrightcoloursthatmadehishandlookpale。 “Abargain,“heannounced,layingitdownonthecloth。“I’vejustboughtitfromthebigmanwiththeear-rings。Fine,isn’tit? Itwouldn’tsuiteveryone,ofcourse,butit’sjustthething—— isn’tit,Hilda?——forMrs。RaymondParry。“ “Mrs。RaymondParry!“criedHelenandMrs。Thornburyatthesamemoment。 Theylookedateachotherasthoughamisthithertoobscuringtheirfaceshadbeenblownaway。 “Ah——youhavebeentothosewonderfulpartiestoo?“Mrs。Elliotaskedwithinterest。 Mrs。Parry’sdrawing-room,thoughthousandsofmilesaway,behindavastcurveofwateronatinypieceofearth,camebeforetheireyes。Theywhohadhadnosolidityoranchoragebeforeseemedtobeattachedtoitsomehow,andatoncegrownmoresubstantial。 Perhapstheyhadbeeninthedrawing-roomatthesamemoment; perhapstheyhadpassedeachotheronthestairs;atanyratetheyknewsomeofthesamepeople。Theylookedoneanotherupanddownwithnewinterest。Buttheycoulddonomorethanlookateachother,fortherewasnotimetoenjoythefruitsofthediscovery。 Thedonkeyswereadvancing,anditwasadvisabletobeginthedescentimmediately,forthenightfellsoquicklythatitwouldbedarkbeforetheywerehomeagain。 Accordingly,remountinginorder,theyfiledoffdownthehillside。 Scrapsoftalkcamefloatingbackfromonetoanother。Therewerejokestobeginwith,andlaughter;somewalkedpartoftheway,andpickedflowers,andsentstonesboundingbeforethem。 “WhowritesthebestLatinverseinyourcollege,Hirst?“Mr。Elliotcalledbackincongruously,andMr。Hirstreturnedthathehadnoidea。 Theduskfellassuddenlyasthenativeshadwarnedthem,thehollowsofthemountainoneithersidefillingupwithdarknessandthepathbecomingsodimthatitwassurprisingtohearthedonkeys’hoovesstillstrikingonhardrock。Silencefelluponone,andthenuponanother,untiltheywereallsilent,theirmindsspillingoutintothedeepblueair。Thewayseemedshorterinthedarkthanintheday; andsoonthelightsofthetownwereseenontheflatfarbeneaththem。 Suddenlysomeonecried,“Ah!“ Inamomenttheslowyellowdroproseagainfromtheplainbelow; itrose,paused,openedlikeaflower,andfellinashowerofdrops。 “Fireworks,“theycried。 Anotherwentupmorequickly;andthenanother;theycouldalmosthearittwistandroar。 “SomeSaint’sday,Isuppose,“saidavoice。Therushandembraceoftherocketsastheysoaredupintotheairseemedlikethefierywayinwhichloverssuddenlyroseandunited,leavingthecrowdgazingupatthemwithstrainedwhitefaces。ButSusanandArthur,ridingdownthehill,neversaidawordtoeachother,andkeptaccuratelyapart。 Thenthefireworksbecameerratic,andsoontheyceasedaltogether,andtherestofthejourneywasmadealmostindarkness,themountainbeingagreatshadowbehindthem,andbushesandtreeslittleshadowswhichthrewdarknessacrosstheroad。Amongtheplane-treestheyseparated,bundlingintocarriagesanddrivingoff,withoutsayinggood-night,orsayingitonlyinahalf-muffledway。 Itwassolatethattherewasnotimefornormalconversationbetweentheirarrivalatthehotelandtheirretirementtobed。 ButHirstwanderedintoHewet’sroomwithacollarinhishand。 “Well,Hewet,“heremarked,onthecrestofagiganticyawn,“thatwasagreatsuccess,Iconsider。“Heyawned。“Buttakecareyou’renotlandedwiththatyoungwoman……Idon’treallylikeyoungwomen……“ Hewetwastoomuchdruggedbyhoursintheopenairtomakeanyreply。 Infacteveryoneofthepartywassoundasleepwithintenminutesorsoofeachother,withtheexceptionofSusanWarrington。 Shelayforaconsiderabletimelookingblanklyatthewallopposite,herhandsclaspedaboveherheart,andherlightburningbyherside。 Allarticulatethoughthadlongagodesertedher;herheartseemedtohavegrowntothesizeofasun,andtoilluminateherentirebody,sheddinglikethesunasteadytideofwarmth。 “I’mhappy,I’mhappy,I’mhappy,“sherepeated。“Iloveeveryone。 I’mhappy。“