“Intolerable……Theywantmetobeapeerandaprivycouncillor。
I’vecomeoutherepartlyinordertosettlethematter。It’sgottobesettled。EitherImustgotothebar,orImuststayoninCambridge。
Ofcourse,thereareobviousdrawbackstoeach,buttheargumentscertainlydoseemtomeinfavourofCambridge。Thiskindofthing!“
hewavedhishandatthecrowdedballroom。“Repulsive。I’mconsciousofgreatpowersofaffectiontoo。I’mnotsusceptible,ofcourse,inthewayHewetis。I’mveryfondofafewpeople。Ithink,forexample,thatthere’ssomethingtobesaidformymother,thoughsheisinmanywayssodeplorable……AtCambridge,ofcourse,Ishouldinevitablybecomethemostimportantmanintheplace,butthereareotherreasonswhyIdreadCambridge——“
heceased。
“Areyoufindingmeadreadfulbore?“heasked。Hechangedcuriouslyfromafriendconfidinginafriendtoaconventionalyoungmanataparty。
“Notintheleast,“saidHelen。“Ilikeitverymuch。“
“Youcan’tthink,“heexclaimed,speakingalmostwithemotion,“whatadifferenceitmakesfindingsomeonetotalkto!
DirectlyIsawyouIfeltyoumightpossiblyunderstandme。
I’mveryfondofHewet,buthehasn’ttheremotestideawhatI’mlike。
You’retheonlywomanI’veevermetwhoseemstohavethefaintestconceptionofwhatImeanwhenIsayathing。“
Thenextdancewasbeginning;itwastheBarcarolleoutofHoffman,whichmadeHelenbeathertoeintimetoit;butshefeltthataftersuchacomplimentitwasimpossibletogetupandgo,and,besidesbeingamused,shewasreallyflattered,andthehonestyofhisconceitattractedher。Shesuspectedthathewasnothappy,andwassufficientlyfemininetowishtoreceiveconfidences。
“I’mveryold,“shesighed。
“TheoddthingisthatIdon’tfindyouoldatall,“hereplied。
“Ifeelasthoughwewereexactlythesameage。Moreover——“
herehehesitated,buttookcouragefromaglanceatherface,“IfeelasifIcouldtalkquiteplainlytoyouasonedoestoaman——
abouttherelationsbetweenthesexes,about……and……“
Inspiteofhiscertaintyaslightrednesscameintohisfaceashespokethelasttwowords。
Shereassuredhimatoncebythelaughwithwhichsheexclaimed,“Ishouldhopeso!“
Helookedatherwithrealcordiality,andthelineswhichweredrawnabouthisnoseandlipsslackenedforthefirsttime。
“ThankGod!“heexclaimed。“Nowwecanbehavelikecivilisedhumanbeings。“
Certainlyabarrierwhichusuallystandsfasthadfallen,anditwaspossibletospeakofmatterswhicharegenerallyonlyalludedtobetweenmenandwomenwhendoctorsarepresent,ortheshadowofdeath。Infiveminuteshewastellingherthehistoryofhislife。
Itwaslong,foritwasfullofextremelyelaborateincidents,whichledontoadiscussionoftheprinciplesonwhichmoralityisfounded,andthustoseveralveryinterestingmatters,whicheveninthisballroomhadtobediscussedinawhisper,lestoneofthepouterpigeonladiesorresplendentmerchantsshouldoverhearthem,andproceedtodemandthattheyshouldleavetheplace。
Whentheyhadcometoanend,or,tospeakmoreaccurately,whenHelenintimatedbyaslightslackeningofherattentionthattheyhadsattherelongenough,Hirstrose,exclaiming,“Sothere’snoreasonwhateverforallthismystery!“
“None,exceptthatweareEnglishpeople,“sheanswered。Shetookhisarmandtheycrossedtheball-room,makingtheirwaywithdifficultybetweenthespinningcouples,whowerenowperceptiblydishevelled,andcertainlytoacriticaleyebynomeanslovelyintheirshapes。
Theexcitementofundertakingafriendshipandthelengthoftheirtalk,madethemhungry,andtheywentinsearchoffoodtothedining-room,whichwasnowfullofpeopleeatingatlittleseparatetables。InthedoorwaytheymetRachel,goinguptodanceagainwithArthurVenning。Shewasflushedandlookedveryhappy,andHelenwasstruckbythefactthatinthismoodshewascertainlymoreattractivethanthegeneralityofyoungwomen。
Shehadnevernoticeditsoclearlybefore。
“Enjoyingyourself?“sheasked,astheystoppedforasecond。
“MissVinrace,“Arthuransweredforher,“hasjustmadeaconfession;
she’dnoideathatdancescouldbesodelightful。“
“Yes!“Rachelexclaimed。“I’vechangedmyviewoflifecompletely!“
“Youdon’tsayso!“Helenmocked。Theypassedon。
“That’stypicalofRachel,“shesaid。“Shechangesherviewoflifeabouteveryotherday。D’youknow,Ibelieveyou’rejustthepersonIwant,“shesaid,astheysatdown,“tohelpmecompletehereducation?
She’sbeenbroughtuppracticallyinanunnery。Herfather’stooabsurd。
I’vebeendoingwhatIcan——butI’mtooold,andI’mawoman。
Whyshouldn’tyoutalktoher——explainthingstoher——talktoher,Imean,asyoutalktome?“
“Ihavemadeoneattemptalreadythisevening,“saidSt。John。
“Iratherdoubtthatitwassuccessful。Sheseemstomesoveryyoungandinexperienced。IhavepromisedtolendherGibbon。“
“It’snotGibbonexactly,“Helenpondered。“It’sthefactsoflife,Ithink——d’youseewhatImean?Whatreallygoeson,whatpeoplefeel,althoughtheygenerallytrytohideit?There’snothingtobefrightenedof。It’ssomuchmorebeautifulthanthepretences——
alwaysmoreinteresting——alwaysbetter,Ishouldsay,than_that_
kindofthing。“
Shenoddedherheadatatablenearthem,wheretwogirlsandtwoyoungmenwerechaffingeachotherveryloudly,andcarryingonanarchinsinuatingdialogue,sprinkledwithendearments,about,itseemed,apairofstockingsorapairoflegs。Oneofthegirlswasflirtingafanandpretendingtobeshocked,andthesightwasveryunpleasant,partlybecauseitwasobviousthatthegirlsweresecretlyhostiletoeachother。
“Inmyoldage,however,“Helensighed,“I’mcomingtothinkthatitdoesn’tmuchmatterinthelongrunwhatonedoes:
peoplealwaysgotheirownway——nothingwilleverinfluencethem。“
Shenoddedherheadatthesupperparty。
ButSt。Johndidnotagree。Hesaidthathethoughtonecouldreallymakeagreatdealofdifferencebyone’spointofview,booksandsoon,andaddedthatfewthingsatthepresenttimematteredmorethantheenlightenmentofwomen。Hesometimesthoughtthatalmosteverythingwasduetoeducation。
Intheballroom,meanwhile,thedancerswerebeingformedintosquaresforthelancers。ArthurandRachel,SusanandHewet,MissAllanandHughlingElliotfoundthemselvestogether。
MissAllanlookedatherwatch。
“Half-pastone,“shestated。“AndIhavetodespatchAlexanderPopeto-morrow。“
“Pope!“snortedMr。Elliot。“WhoreadsPope,Ishouldliketoknow?
Andasforreadingabouthim——No,no,MissAllan;bepersuadedyouwillbenefittheworldmuchmorebydancingthanbywriting。“
ItwasoneofMr。Elliot’saffectationsthatnothingintheworldcouldcomparewiththedelightsofdancing——nothingintheworldwassotediousasliterature。Thushesoughtpatheticallyenoughtoingratiatehimselfwiththeyoung,andtoprovetothembeyondadoubtthatthoughmarriedtoaninnyofawife,andratherpaleandbentandcarewornbyhisweightoflearning,hewasasmuchaliveastheyoungestofthemall。
“It’saquestionofbreadandbutter,“saidMissAllancalmly。
“However,theyseemtoexpectme。“Shetookupherpositionandpointedasquareblacktoe。
“Mr。Hewet,youbowtome。“ItwasevidentatoncethatMissAllanwastheonlyoneofthemwhohadathoroughlysoundknowledgeofthefiguresofthedance。
Afterthelancerstherewasawaltz;afterthewaltzapolka;
andthenaterriblethinghappened;themusic,whichhadbeensoundingregularlywithfive-minutepauses,stoppedsuddenly。
Theladywiththegreatdarkeyesbegantoswatheherviolininsilk,andthegentlemanplacedhishorncarefullyinitscase。
TheyweresurroundedbycouplesimploringtheminEnglish,inFrench,inSpanish,ofonemoredance,oneonly;itwasstillearly。
Buttheoldmanatthepianomerelyexhibitedhiswatchandshookhishead。Heturnedupthecollarofhiscoatandproducedaredsilkmuffler,whichcompletelydashedhisfestiveappearance。
Strangeasitseemed,themusicianswerepaleandheavy-eyed;theylookedboredandprosaic,asifthesummitoftheirdesirewascoldmeatandbeer,succeededimmediatelybybed。
Rachelwasoneofthosewhohadbeggedthemtocontinue。Whentheyrefusedshebeganturningoverthesheetsofdancemusicwhichlayuponthepiano。Thepiecesweregenerallyboundincolouredcovers,withpicturesonthemofromanticscenes——gondoliersastrideonthecrescentofthemoon,nunspeeringthroughthebarsofaconventwindow,oryoungwomenwiththeirhairdownpointingagunatthestars。Sherememberedthatthegeneraleffectofthemusictowhichtheyhaddancedsogailywasoneofpassionateregretfordeadloveandtheinnocentyearsofyouth;dreadfulsorrowshadalwaysseparatedthedancersfromtheirpasthappiness。
“Nowondertheygetsickofplayingstufflikethis,“sheremarkedreadingabarortwo;“they’rereallyhymntunes,playedveryfast,withbitsoutofWagnerandBeethoven。“
“Doyouplay?Wouldyouplay?Anything,solongaswecandancetoit!“Fromallsideshergiftforplayingthepianowasinsistedupon,andshehadtoconsent。Asverysoonshehadplayedtheonlypiecesofdancemusicshecouldremember,shewentontoplayanairfromasonatabyMozart。
“Butthat’snotadance,“saidsomeonepausingbythepiano。
“Itis,“shereplied,emphaticallynoddingherhead。“Inventthesteps。“
Sureofhermelodyshemarkedtherhythmboldlysoastosimplifytheway。Helencaughttheidea;seizedMissAllanbythearm,andwhirledroundtheroom,nowcurtseying,nowspinninground,nowtrippingthiswayandthatlikeachildskippingthroughameadow。
“Thisisthedanceforpeoplewhodon’tknowhowtodance!“
shecried。Thetunechangedtoaminuet;St。Johnhoppedwithincredibleswiftnessfirstonhisleftleg,thenonhisright;
thetuneflowedmelodiously;Hewet,swayinghisarmsandholdingoutthetailsofhiscoat,swamdowntheroominimitationofthevoluptuousdreamydanceofanIndianmaidendancingbeforeherRajah。
Thetunemarched;andMissAllenadvancedwithskirtsextendedandbowedprofoundlytotheengagedpair。Oncetheirfeetfellinwiththerhythmtheyshowedacompletelackofselfconsciousness。
FromMozartRachelpassedwithoutstoppingtooldEnglishhuntingsongs,carols,andhymntunes,for,asshehadobserved,anygoodtune,withalittlemanagement,becameatuneonecoulddanceto。
Bydegreeseverypersonintheroomwastrippingandturninginpairsoralone。Mr。Pepperexecutedaningeniouspointedstepderivedfromfigure-skating,forwhichheonceheldsomelocalchampionship;
whileMrs。Thornburytriedtorecallanoldcountrydancewhichshehadseendancedbyherfather’stenantsinDorsetshireintheolddays。
AsforMr。andMrs。Elliot,theygallopadedroundandroundtheroomwithsuchimpetuositythattheotherdancersshiveredattheirapproach。
Somepeoplewereheardtocriticisetheperformanceasaromp;
toothersitwasthemostenjoyablepartoftheevening。
“Nowforthegreatrounddance!“Hewetshouted。Instantlyagiganticcirclewasformed,thedancersholdinghandsandshoutingout,“D’youkenJohnPeel,“astheyswungfasterandfasterandfaster,untilthestrainwastoogreat,andonelinkofthechain——
Mrs。Thornbury——gaveway,andtherestwentflyingacrosstheroominalldirections,tolanduponthefloororthechairsorineachother’sarmsasseemedmostconvenient。
Risingfromthesepositions,breathlessandunkempt,itstruckthemforthefirsttimethattheelectriclightsprickedtheairveryvainly,andinstinctivelyagreatmanyeyesturnedtothewindows。Yes——therewasthedawn。Whiletheyhadbeendancingthenighthadpassed,andithadcome。Outside,themountainsshowedverypureandremote;thedewwassparklingonthegrass,andtheskywasflushedwithblue,saveforthepaleyellowsandpinksintheEast。Thedancerscamecrowdingtothewindows,pushedthemopen,andhereandthereventuredafootuponthegrass。