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类别:其他 作者:Virginia Woolf字数:5344更新时间:18/12/27 08:07:33
Inthislandwherethepopulationwascentredinthetownsitwaspossibletolosesightofcivilisationinaveryshorttime,passingonlyanoccasionalfarmhouse,wherethewomenwerehandlingredrootsinthecourtyard;oralittleboylyingonhiselbowsonthehillsidesurroundedbyaflockofblackstrong-smellinggoats。 Saveforathreadofwateratthebottom,theriverwasmerelyadeepchannelofdryyellowstones。OnthebankgrewthosetreeswhichHelenhadsaiditwasworththevoyageoutmerelytosee。 Aprilhadbursttheirbuds,andtheyborelargeblossomsamongtheirglossygreenleaveswithpetalsofathickwax-likesubstancecolouredanexquisitecreamorpinkordeepcrimson。Butfilledwithoneofthoseunreasonableexultationswhichstartgenerallyfromanunknowncause,andsweepwholecountriesandskiesintotheirembrace,shewalkedwithoutseeing。Thenightwasencroachingupontheday。 Herearshummedwiththetunesshehadplayedthenightbefore; shesang,andthesingingmadeherwalkfasterandfaster。 Shedidnotseedistinctlywhereshewasgoing,thetreesandthelandscapeappearingonlyasmassesofgreenandblue,withanoccasionalspaceofdifferentlycolouredsky。Facesofpeopleshehadseenlastnightcamebeforeher;sheheardtheirvoices; shestoppedsinging,andbegansayingthingsoveragainorsayingthingsdifferently,orinventingthingsthatmighthavebeensaid。 Theconstraintofbeingamongstrangersinalongsilkdressmadeitunusuallyexcitingtostridethusalone。Hewet,Hirst,Mr。Venning,MissAllan,themusic,thelight,thedarktreesinthegarden,thedawn,——asshewalkedtheywentsurgingroundinherhead,atumultuousbackgroundfromwhichthepresentmoment,withitsopportunityofdoingexactlyassheliked,sprungmorewonderfullyvivideventhanthenightbefore。 Soshemighthavewalkeduntilshehadlostallknowledgeofherway,haditnotbeenfortheinterruptionofatree,which,althoughitdidnotgrowacrossherpath,stoppedheraseffectivelyasifthebrancheshadstruckherintheface。Itwasanordinarytree,buttoheritappearedsostrangethatitmighthavebeentheonlytreeintheworld。Darkwasthetrunkinthemiddle,andthebranchesspranghereandthere,leavingjaggedintervalsoflightbetweenthemasdistinctlyasifithadbutthatsecondrisenfromtheground。 Havingseenasightthatwouldlastherforalifetime,andforalifetimewouldpreservethatsecond,thetreeoncemoresankintotheordinaryranksoftrees,andshewasabletoseatherselfinitsshadeandtopicktheredflowerswiththethingreenleaveswhichweregrowingbeneathit。Shelaidthemsidebyside,flowertoflowerandstalktostalk,caressingthemforwalkingalone。 Flowersandevenpebblesintheearthhadtheirownlifeanddisposition,andbroughtbackthefeelingsofachildtowhomtheywerecompanions。 Lookingup,hereyewascaughtbythelineofthemountainsflyingoutenergeticallyacrosstheskylikethelashofacurlingwhip。 Shelookedatthepaledistantsky,andthehighbareplacesonthemountain-topslyingexposedtothesun。Whenshesatdownshehaddroppedherbooksontotheearthatherfeet,andnowshelookeddownonthemlyingthere,sosquareinthegrass,atallstembendingoverandticklingthesmoothbrowncoverofGibbon,whilethemottledblueBalzaclaynakedinthesun。Withafeelingthattoopenandreadwouldcertainlybeasurprisingexperience,sheturnedthehistorian’spageandreadthat—— Hisgenerals,intheearlypartofhisreign,attemptedthereductionofAethiopiaandArabiaFelix。Theymarchednearathousandmilestothesouthofthetropic;buttheheatoftheclimatesoonrepelledtheinvadersandprotectedtheunwarlikenativesofthosesequesteredregions……ThenortherncountriesofEuropescarcelydeservedtheexpenseandlabourofconquest。 TheforestsandmorassesofGermanywerefilledwithahardyraceofbarbarians,whodespisedlifewhenitwasseparatedfromfreedom。 Neverhadanywordsbeensovividandsobeautiful——ArabiaFelix—— Aethiopia。Butthosewerenotmorenoblethantheothers,hardybarbarians,forests,andmorasses。Theyseemedtodriveroadsbacktotheverybeginningoftheworld,oneithersideofwhichthepopulationsofalltimesandcountriesstoodinavenues,andbypassingdownthemallknowledgewouldbehers,andthebookoftheworldturnedbacktotheveryfirstpage。 Suchwasherexcitementatthepossibilitiesofknowledgenowopeningbeforeherthatsheceasedtoread,andabreezeturningthepage,thecoversofGibbongentlyruffledandclosedtogether。Shethenroseagainandwalkedon。Slowlyhermindbecamelessconfusedandsoughttheoriginsofherexaltation,whichweretwofoldandcouldbelimitedbyanefforttothepersonsofMr。HirstandMr。Hewet。 Anyclearanalysisofthemwasimpossibleowingtothehazeofwonderinwhichtheywereenveloped。Shecouldnotreasonaboutthemasaboutpeoplewhosefeelingswentbythesameruleasherowndid,andherminddweltonthemwithakindofphysicalpleasuresuchasiscausedbythecontemplationofbrightthingshanginginthesun。 Fromthemalllifeseemedtoradiate;theverywordsofbooksweresteepedinradiance。Shethenbecamehauntedbyasuspicionwhichshewassoreluctanttofacethatshewelcomedatripandstumbleoverthegrassbecausethusherattentionwasdispersed,butinasecondithadcollecteditselfagain。Unconsciouslyshehadbeenwalkingfasterandfaster,herbodytryingtooutrunhermind; butshewasnowonthesummitofalittlehillockofearthwhichroseabovetheriveranddisplayedthevalley。Shewasnolongerabletojugglewithseveralideas,butmustdealwiththemostpersistent,andakindofmelancholyreplacedherexcitement。Shesankdownontotheearthclaspingherkneestogether,andlookingblanklyinfrontofher。Forsometimesheobservedagreatyellowbutterfly,whichwasopeningandclosingitswingsveryslowlyonalittleflatstone。 “Whatisittobeinlove?“shedemanded,afteralongsilence; eachwordasitcameintobeingseemedtoshoveitselfoutintoanunknownsea。Hypnotisedbythewingsofthebutterfly,andawedbythediscoveryofaterriblepossibilityinlife,shesatforsometimelonger。Whenthebutterflyflewaway,sherose,andwithhertwobooksbeneathherarmreturnedhomeagain,muchasasoldierpreparedforbattle。 Thesunofthatsamedaygoingdown,duskwassalutedasusualatthehotelbyaninstantaneoussparkleofelectriclights。 Thehoursbetweendinnerandbedtimewerealwaysdifficultenoughtokill,andthenightafterthedancetheywerefurthertarnishedbythepeevishnessofdissipation。Certainly,intheopinionofHirstandHewet,wholaybackinlongarm-chairsinthemiddleofthehall,withtheircoffee-cupsbesidethem,andtheircigarettesintheirhands,theeveningwasunusuallydull,thewomenunusuallybadlydressed,themenunusuallyfatuous。Moreover,whenthemailhadbeendistributedhalfanhouragotherewerenolettersforeitherofthetwoyoungmen。Aseveryotherperson,practically,hadreceivedtwoorthreeplumplettersfromEngland,whichtheywerenowengagedinreading,thisseemedhard,andpromptedHirsttomakethecausticremarkthattheanimalshadbeenfed。 Theirsilence,hesaid,remindedhimofthesilenceinthelion-housewheneachbeastholdsalumpofrawmeatinitspaws。Hewenton,stimulatedbythiscomparison,tolikensometohippopotamuses,sometocanarybirds,sometoswine,sometoparrots,andsometoloathsomereptilescurledroundthehalf-decayedbodiesofsheep。 Theintermittentsounds——nowacough,nowahorriblewheezingorthroat-clearing,nowalittlepatterofconversation——werejust,hedeclared,whatyouhearifyoustandinthelion-housewhenthebonesarebeingmauled。ButthesecomparisonsdidnotrouseHewet,who,afteracarelessglanceroundtheroom,fixedhiseyesuponathicketofnativespearswhichweresoingeniouslyarrangedastoruntheirpointsatyouwhicheverwayyouapproachedthem。 Hewasclearlyobliviousofhissurroundings;whereuponHirst,perceivingthatHewet’smindwasacompleteblank,fixedhisattentionmorecloselyuponhisfellow-creatures。Hewastoofarfromthem,however,tohearwhattheyweresaying,butitpleasedhimtoconstructlittletheoriesaboutthemfromtheirgesturesandappearance。 Mrs。Thornburyhadreceivedagreatmanyletters。Shewascompletelyengrossedinthem。Whenshehadfinishedapageshehandedittoherhusband,orgavehimthesenseofwhatshewasreadinginaseriesofshortquotationslinkedtogetherbyasoundatthebackofherthroat。“EviewritesthatGeorgehasgonetoGlasgow。 ’HefindsMr。Chadbournesonicetoworkwith,andwehopetospendChristmastogether,butIshouldnotliketomoveBettyandAlfredanygreatdistance(no,quiteright),thoughitisdifficulttoimaginecoldweatherinthisheat……EleanorandRogerdroveoverinthenewtrap……EleanorcertainlylookedmorelikeherselfthanI’veseenhersincethewinter。ShehasputBabyonthreebottlesnow,whichI’msureiswise(I’msureitistoo),andsogetsbetternights……Myhairstillfallsout。Ifinditonthepillow!ButIamcheeredbyhearingfromTottieHallGreen……MurielisinTorquayenjoyingherselfgreatlyatdances。 She_is_goingtoshowherblackputafterall。’……AlinefromHerbert——sobusy,poorfellow!Ah!Margaretsays,’PooroldMrs。Fairbankdiedontheeighth,quitesuddenlyintheconservatory,onlyamaidinthehouse,whohadn’tthepresenceofmindtoliftherup,whichtheythinkmighthavesavedher,butthedoctorsaysitmighthavecomeatanymoment,andonecanonlyfeelthankfulthatitwasinthehouseandnotinthestreet(Ishouldthinkso!)。 Thepigeonshaveincreasedterribly,justastherabbitsdidfiveyearsago……’“Whileshereadherhusbandkeptnoddinghisheadveryslightly,butverysteadilyinsignofapproval。 Nearby,MissAllanwasreadingherletterstoo。Theywerenotaltogetherpleasant,ascouldbeseenfromtheslightrigiditywhichcameoverherlargefinefaceasshefinishedreadingthemandreplacedthemneatlyintheirenvelopes。Thelinesofcareandresponsibilityonherfacemadeherresembleanelderlymanratherthanawoman。Thelettersbroughthernewsofthefailureoflastyear’sfruitcropinNewZealand,whichwasaseriousmatter,forHubert,heronlybrother,madehislivingonafruitfarm,andifitfailedagain,ofcourse,hewouldthrowuphisplace,comebacktoEngland,andwhatweretheytodowithhimthistime? Thejourneyouthere,whichmeantthelossofaterm’swork,becameanextravaganceandnotthejustandwonderfulholidayduetoherafterfifteenyearsofpunctuallecturingandcorrectingessaysuponEnglishliterature。Emily,hersister,whowasateacheralso,wrote:“Weoughttobeprepared,thoughIhavenodoubtHubertwillbemorereasonablethistime。“AndthenwentoninhersensiblewaytosaythatshewasenjoyingaveryjollytimeintheLakes。“Theyarelookingexceedinglyprettyjustnow。 Ihaveseldomseenthetreessoforwardatthistimeofyear。 Wehavetakenourlunchoutseveraldays。OldAliceisasyoungasever,andasksaftereveryoneaffectionately。Thedayspassveryquickly,andtermwillsoonbehere。Politicalprospects_not_good,Ithinkprivately,butdonotliketodampEllen’senthusiasm。 LloydGeorgehastakentheBillup,butsohavemanybeforenow,andwearewhereweare;buttrusttofindmyselfmistaken。 Anyhow,wehaveourworkcutoutforus……SurelyMeredithlacksthe_human_noteonelikesinW。W。?“sheconcluded,andwentontodiscusssomequestionsofEnglishliteraturewhichMissAllanhadraisedinherlastletter。 AtalittledistancefromMissAllan,onaseatshadedandmadesemi-privatebyathickclumpofpalmtrees,ArthurandSusanwerereadingeachother’sletters。Thebigslashingmanuscriptsofhockey-playingyoungwomeninWiltshirelayonArthur’sknee,whileSusandecipheredtightlittlelegalhandswhichrarelyfilledmorethanapage,andalwaysconveyedthesameimpressionofjocularandbreezygoodwill。 “IdohopeMr。Hutchinsonwilllikeme,Arthur,“shesaid,lookingup。 “Who’syourlovingFlo?“askedArthur。 “FloGraves——thegirlItoldyouabout,whowasengagedtothatdreadfulMr。Vincent,“saidSusan。“IsMr。Hutchinsonmarried?“ sheasked。