第45章

类别:其他 作者:Virginia Woolf字数:5385更新时间:18/12/27 08:07:33
Forprotectionagainstboredom,Helenputabookofmemoirsbeneathherarm,andMrs。Flushingherpaint-box,and,thusequipped,theyallowedthemselvestobesetonshoreonthevergeoftheforest。 TheyhadnotstrolledmorethanafewhundredyardsalongthetrackwhichranparallelwiththeriverbeforeHelenprofessedtofinditwasunbearablyhot。Theriverbreezehadceased,andahotsteamyatmosphere,thickwithscents,camefromtheforest。 “Ishallsitdownhere,“sheannounced,pointingtothetrunkofatreewhichhadfallenlongagoandwasnowlacedacrossandacrossbycreepersandthong-likebrambles。Sheseatedherself,openedherparasol,andlookedattheriverwhichwasbarredbythestemsoftrees。 Sheturnedherbacktothetreeswhichdisappearedinblackshadowbehindher。 “Iquiteagree,“saidMrs。Flushing,andproceededtoundoherpaint-box。Herhusbandstrolledabouttoselectaninterestingpointofviewforher。HirstclearedaspaceonthegroundbyHelen’sside,andseatedhimselfwithgreatdeliberation,asifhedidnotmeantomoveuntilhehadtalkedtoherforalongtime。 TerenceandRachelwereleftstandingbythemselveswithoutoccupation。 Terencesawthatthetimehadcomeasitwasfatedtocome,butalthoughherealisedthishewascompletelycalmandmasterofhimself。HechosetostandforafewmomentstalkingtoHelen,andpersuadinghertoleaveherseat。Racheljoinedhimtooinadvisinghertocomewiththem。 “OfallthepeopleI’veevermet,“hesaid,“you’retheleastadventurous。 YoumightbesittingongreenchairsinHydePark。Areyougoingtosittherethewholeafternoon?Aren’tyougoingtowalk?“ “Oh,no,“saidHelen,“one’sonlygottouseone’seye。 There’severythinghere——everything,“sherepeatedinadrowsytoneofvoice。“Whatwillyougainbywalking?“ “You’llbehotanddisagreeablebytea-time,weshallbecoolandsweet,“ putinHirst。Intohiseyesashelookedupatthemhadcomeyellowandgreenreflectionsfromtheskyandthebranches,robbingthemoftheirintentness,andheseemedtothinkwhathedidnotsay。 ItwasthustakenforgrantedbythemboththatTerenceandRachelproposedtowalkintothewoodstogether;withonelookateachothertheyturnedaway。 “Good-bye!“criedRachel。 “Good-by。Bewareofsnakes,“Hirstreplied。HesettledhimselfstillmorecomfortablyundertheshadeofthefallentreeandHelen’sfigure。Astheywent,Mr。Flushingcalledafterthem,“Wemuststartinanhour。Hewet,pleaserememberthat。Anhour。“ Whethermadebyman,orforsomereasonpreservedbynature,therewasawidepathwaystrikingthroughtheforestatrightanglestotheriver。ItresembledadriveinanEnglishforest,savethattropicalbusheswiththeirsword-likeleavesgrewattheside,andthegroundwascoveredwithanunmarkedspringymossinsteadofgrass,starredwithlittleyellowflowers。 Astheypassedintothedepthsoftheforestthelightgrewdimmer,andthenoisesoftheordinaryworldwerereplacedbythosecreakingandsighingsoundswhichsuggesttothetravellerinaforestthatheiswalkingatthebottomofthesea。Thepathnarrowedandturned; itwashedgedinbydensecreeperswhichknottedtreetotree,andbursthereandthereintostar-shapedcrimsonblossoms。 Thesighingandcreakingupabovewerebrokeneverynowandthenbythejarringcryofsomestartledanimal。Theatmospherewascloseandtheaircameattheminlanguidpuffsofscent。Thevastgreenlightwasbrokenhereandtherebyaroundofpureyellowsunlightwhichfellthroughsomegapintheimmenseumbrellaofgreenabove,andintheseyellowspacescrimsonandblackbutterflieswerecirclingandsettling。TerenceandRachelhardlyspoke。 Notonlydidthesilenceweighuponthem,buttheywerebothunabletoframeanythoughts。Therewassomethingbetweenthemwhichhadtobespokenof。Oneofthemhadtobegin,butwhichofthemwasittobe? ThenHewetpickeduparedfruitandthrewitashighashecould。 Whenitdropped,hewouldspeak。Theyheardtheflappingofgreatwings;theyheardthefruitgopatteringthroughtheleavesandeventuallyfallwithathud。Thesilencewasagainprofound。 “Doesthisfrightenyou?“Terenceaskedwhenthesoundofthefruitfallinghadcompletelydiedaway。 “No,“sheanswered。“Ilikeit。“ Sherepeated“Ilikeit。“Shewaswalkingfast,andholdingherselfmoreerectthanusual。Therewasanotherpause。 “Youlikebeingwithme?“Terenceasked。 “Yes,withyou,“shereplied。 Hewassilentforamoment。Silenceseemedtohavefallenupontheworld。 “ThatiswhatIhavefelteversinceIknewyou,“hereplied。 “Wearehappytogether。“Hedidnotseemtobespeaking,orshetobehearing。 “Veryhappy,“sheanswered。 Theycontinuedtowalkforsometimeinsilence。Theirstepsunconsciouslyquickened。 “Weloveeachother,“Terencesaid。 “Weloveeachother,“sherepeated。 Thesilencewasthenbrokenbytheirvoiceswhichjoinedintonesofstrangeunfamiliarsoundwhichformednowords。Fasterandfastertheywalked;simultaneouslytheystopped,claspedeachotherintheirarms,thenreleasingthemselves,droppedtotheearth。 Theysatsidebyside。Soundsstoodoutfromthebackgroundmakingabridgeacrosstheirsilence;theyheardtheswishofthetreesandsomebeastcroakinginaremoteworld。 “Weloveeachother,“Terencerepeated,searchingintoherface。 Theirfaceswerebothverypaleandquiet,andtheysaidnothing。 Hewasafraidtokissheragain。Bydegreesshedrewclosetohim,andrestedagainsthim。Inthispositiontheysatforsometime。 Shesaid“Terence“once;heanswered“Rachel。“ “Terrible——terrible,“shemurmuredafteranotherpause,butinsayingthisshewasthinkingasmuchofthepersistentchurningofthewaterasofherownfeeling。Onandonitwentinthedistance,thesenselessandcruelchurningofthewater。 SheobservedthatthetearswererunningdownTerence’scheeks。 Thenextmovementwasonhispart。Averylongtimeseemedtohavepassed。Hetookouthiswatch。 “Flushingsaidanhour。We’vebeengonemorethanhalfanhour。“ “Andittakesthattogetback,“saidRachel。Sheraisedherselfveryslowly。Whenshewasstandingupshestretchedherarmsanddrewadeepbreath,halfasigh,halfayawn。Sheappearedtobeverytired。Hercheekswerewhite。“Whichway?“sheasked。 “There,“saidTerence。 Theybegantowalkbackdownthemossypathagain。Thesighingandcreakingcontinuedfaroverhead,andthejarringcriesofanimals。 Thebutterflieswerecirclingstillinthepatchesofyellowsunlight。 AtfirstTerencewascertainofhisway,butastheywalkedhebecamedoubtful。Theyhadtostoptoconsider,andthentoreturnandstartoncemore,foralthoughhewascertainofthedirectionoftheriverhewasnotcertainofstrikingthepointwheretheyhadlefttheothers。Rachelfollowedhim,stoppingwherehestopped,turningwhereheturned,ignorantoftheway,ignorantwhyhestoppedorwhyheturned。 “Idon’twanttobelate,“hesaid,“because——“Heputaflowerintoherhandandherfingerscloseduponitquietly。“We’resolate—— solate——sohorriblylate,“herepeatedasifheweretalkinginhissleep。“Ah——thisisright。Weturnhere。“ Theyfoundthemselvesagaininthebroadpath,likethedriveintheEnglishforest,wheretheyhadstartedwhentheylefttheothers。 Theywalkedoninsilenceaspeoplewalkingintheirsleep,andwereoddlyconsciousnowandagainofthemassoftheirbodies。 ThenRachelexclaimedsuddenly,“Helen!“ InthesunnyspaceattheedgeoftheforesttheysawHelenstillsittingonthetree-trunk,herdressshowingverywhiteinthesun,withHirststillproppedonhiselbowbyherside。 Theystoppedinstinctively。Atthesightofotherpeopletheycouldnotgoon。Theystoodhandinhandforaminuteortwoinsilence。 Theycouldnotbeartofaceotherpeople。 “Butwemustgoon,“Rachelinsistedatlast,inthecuriousdulltoneofvoiceinwhichtheyhadbothbeenspeaking,andwithagreatefforttheyforcedthemselvestocovertheshortdistancewhichlaybetweenthemandthepairsittingonthetree-trunk。 Astheyapproached,Helenturnedroundandlookedatthem。 Shelookedatthemforsometimewithoutspeaking,andwhentheywereclosetohershesaidquietly: “DidyoumeetMr。Flushing?Hehasgonetofindyou。Hethoughtyoumustbelost,thoughItoldhimyouweren’tlost。“ Hirsthalfturnedroundandthrewhisheadbacksothathelookedatthebranchescrossingthemselvesintheairabovehim。 “Well,wasitworththeeffort?“heenquireddreamily。 Hewetsatdownonthegrassbyhissideandbegantofanhimself。 RachelhadbalancedherselfnearHelenontheendofthetreetrunk。 “Veryhot,“shesaid。 “Youlookexhaustedanyhow,“saidHirst。 “It’sfearfullycloseinthosetrees,“Helenremarked,pickingupherbookandshakingitfreefromthedriedbladesofgrasswhichhadfallenbetweentheleaves。Thentheywereallsilent,lookingattheriverswirlingpastinfrontofthembetweenthetrunksofthetreesuntilMr。Flushinginterruptedthem。Hebrokeoutofthetreesahundredyardstotheleft,exclaimingsharply: “Ah,soyoufoundthewayafterall。Butit’slate——muchlaterthanwearranged,Hewet。“ Hewasslightlyannoyed,andinhiscapacityasleaderoftheexpedition,inclinedtobedictatorial。Hespokequickly,usingcuriouslysharp,meaninglesswords。 “Beinglatewouldn’tmatternormally,ofcourse,“hesaid,“butwhenit’saquestionofkeepingthemenuptotime——“ Hegatheredthemtogetherandmadethemcomedowntotheriver-bank,wheretheboatwaswaitingtorowthemouttothesteamer。 Theheatofthedaywasgoingdown,andovertheircupsofteatheFlushingstendedtobecomecommunicative。ItseemedtoTerenceashelistenedtothemtalking,thatexistencenowwentonintwodifferentlayers。HereweretheFlushingstalking,talkingsomewherehighupintheairabovehim,andheandRachelhaddroppedtothebottomoftheworldtogether。Butwithsomethingofachild’sdirectness,Mrs。Flushinghadalsotheinstinctwhichleadsachildtosuspectwhatitselderswishtokeephidden。 ShefixedTerencewithhervividblueeyesandaddressedherselftohiminparticular。Whatwouldhedo,shewantedtoknow,iftheboatranuponarockandsank。 “Wouldyoucareforanythin’butsavin’yourself?ShouldI? No,no,“shelaughed,“notonescrap——don’ttellme。There’sonlytwocreaturestheordinarywomancaresabout,“shecontinued,“herchildandherdog;andIdon’tbelieveit’seventwowithmen。 Onereadsalotaboutlove——that’swhypoetry’ssodull。 Butwhathappensinreallife,he?Itain’tlove!“shecried。 Terencemurmuredsomethingunintelligible。Mr。Flushing,however,hadrecoveredhisurbanity。Hewassmokingacigarette,andhenowansweredhiswife。 “Youmustalwaysremember,Alice,“hesaid,“thatyourupbringingwasveryunnatural——unusual,Ishouldsay。Theyhadnomother,“ heexplained,droppingsomethingoftheformalityofhistone; “andafather——hewasaverydelightfulman,I’venodoubt,buthecaredonlyforracehorsesandGreekstatues。Tellthemaboutthebath,Alice。“ “Inthestable-yard,“saidMrs。Flushing。“Coveredwithiceinwinter。 Wehadtogetin;ifwedidn’t,wewerewhipped。Thestrongoneslived——theothersdied。Whatyoucallsurvivalofthefittest—— amostexcellentplan,Idaresay,ifyou’vethirteenchildren!“ “AndallthisgoingonintheheartofEngland,inthenineteenthcentury!“Mr。Flushingexclaimed,turningtoHelen。 “I’dtreatmychildrenjustthesameifIhadany,“saidMrs。Flushing。 EverywordsoundedquitedistinctlyinTerence’sears;butwhatweretheysaying,andwhoweretheytalkingto,andwhowerethey,thesefantasticpeople,detachedsomewherehighupintheair? Nowthattheyhaddrunktheirtea,theyroseandleantoverthebowoftheboat。Thesunwasgoingdown,andthewaterwasdarkandcrimson。 Theriverhadwidenedagain,andtheywerepassingalittleislandsetlikeadarkwedgeinthemiddleofthestream。Twogreatwhitebirdswithredlightsonthemstoodthereonstilt-likelegs,andthebeachoftheislandwasunmarked,savebytheskeletonprintofbirds’feet。Thebranchesofthetreesonthebanklookedmoretwistedandangularthanever,andthegreenoftheleaveswasluridandsplashedwithgold。ThenHirstbegantotalk,leaningoverthebow。