第56章

类别:其他 作者:Virginia Woolf字数:5322更新时间:18/12/27 08:07:33
“Twodegreeshigherthanitwasyesterday,“saidSt。John。 “Iwonderwherethesenutscomefrom,“heobserved,takinganutoutoftheplate,turningitoverinhisfingers,andlookingatitcuriously。 “London,Ishouldthink,“saidTerence,lookingatthenuttoo。 “Acompetentmanofbusinesscouldmakeafortunehereinnotime,“ St。Johncontinued。“Isupposetheheatdoessomethingfunnytopeople’sbrains。EventheEnglishgoalittlequeer。Anyhowthey’rehopelesspeopletodealwith。Theykeptmethree-quartersofanhourwaitingatthechemist’sthismorning,fornoreasonwhatever。“ Therewasanotherlongpause。ThenRidleyenquired,“Rodriguezseemssatisfied?“ “Quite,“saidTerencewithdecision。“It’sjustgottorunitscourse。“ WhereuponRidleyheavedadeepsigh。Hewasgenuinelysorryforeveryone,butatthesametimehemissedHelenconsiderably,andwasalittleaggrievedbytheconstantpresenceofthetwoyoungmen。 Theymovedbackintothedrawing-room。 “Lookhere,Hirst,“saidTerence,“there’snothingtobedonefortwohours。“Heconsultedthesheetpinnedtothedoor。 “Yougoandliedown。I’llwaithere。ChaileysitswithRachelwhileHelenhasherluncheon。“ ItwasaskingagooddealofHirsttotellhimtogowithoutwaitingforasightofHelen。TheselittleglimpsesofHelenweretheonlyrespitesfromstrainandboredom,andveryoftentheyseemedtomakeupforthediscomfortoftheday,althoughshemightnothaveanythingtotellthem。However,astheywereonanexpeditiontogether,hehadmadeuphismindtoobey。 Helenwasverylateincomingdown。Shelookedlikeapersonwhohasbeensittingforalongtimeinthedark。Shewaspaleandthinner,andtheexpressionofhereyeswasharassedbutdetermined。 Sheateherluncheonquickly,andseemedindifferenttowhatshewasdoing。ShebrushedasideTerence’senquiries,andatlast,asifhehadnotspoken,shelookedathimwithaslightfrownandsaid: “Wecan’tgoonlikethis,Terence。Eitheryou’vegottofindanotherdoctor,oryoumusttellRodrigueztostopcoming,andI’llmanageformyself。It’snouseforhimtosaythatRachel’sbetter; she’snotbetter;she’sworse。“ Terencesufferedaterrificshock,likethatwhichhehadsufferedwhenRachelsaid,“Myheadaches。“HestilleditbyreflectingthatHelenwasoverwrought,andhewasupheldinthisopinionbyhisobstinatesensethatshewasopposedtohimintheargument。 “Doyouthinkshe’sindanger?“heasked。 “Noonecangoonbeingasillasthatdayafterday——“Helenreplied。 Shelookedathim,andspokeasifshefeltsomeindignationwithsomebody。 “Verywell,I’lltalktoRodriguezthisafternoon,“hereplied。 Helenwentupstairsatonce。 NothingnowcouldassuageTerence’sanxiety。Hecouldnotread,norcouldhesitstill,andhissenseofsecuritywasshaken,inspiteofthefactthathewasdeterminedthatHelenwasexaggerating,andthatRachelwasnotveryill。Buthewantedathirdpersontoconfirmhiminhisbelief。 DirectlyRodriguezcamedownhedemanded,“Well,howisshe? Doyouthinkherworse?“ “Thereisnoreasonforanxiety,Itellyou——none,“RodriguezrepliedinhisexecrableFrench,smilinguneasily,andmakinglittlemovementsallthetimeasiftogetaway。 Hewetstoodfirmlybetweenhimandthedoor。Hewasdeterminedtoseeforhimselfwhatkindofmanhewas。Hisconfidenceinthemanvanishedashelookedathimandsawhisinsignificance,hisdirtyappearance,hisshiftiness,andhisunintelligent,hairyface。Itwasstrangethathehadneverseenthisbefore。 “Youwon’tobject,ofcourse,ifweaskyoutoconsultanotherdoctor?“ hecontinued。 Atthisthelittlemanbecameopenlyincensed。 “Ah!“hecried。“Youhavenotconfidenceinme?Youobjecttomytreatment?Youwishmetogiveupthecase?“ “Notatall,“Terencereplied,“butinseriousillnessofthiskind——“ Rodriguezshruggedhisshoulders。 “Itisnotserious,Iassureyou。Youareoveranxious。Theyoungladyisnotseriouslyill,andIamadoctor。Theladyofcourseisfrightened,“hesneered。“Iunderstandthatperfectly。“ “Thenameandaddressofthedoctoris——?“Terencecontinued。 “Thereisnootherdoctor,“Rodriguezrepliedsullenly。“Everyonehasconfidenceinme。Look!Iwillshowyou。“ HetookoutapacketofoldlettersandbeganturningthemoverasifinsearchofonethatwouldconfuteTerence’ssuspicions。 Ashesearched,hebegantotellastoryaboutanEnglishlordwhohadtrustedhim——agreatEnglishlord,whosenamehehad,unfortunately,forgotten。 “Thereisnootherdoctorintheplace,“heconcluded,stillturningovertheletters。 “Nevermind,“saidTerenceshortly。“Iwillmakeenquiriesformyself。“ Rodriguezputthelettersbackinhispocket。 “Verywell,“heremarked。“Ihavenoobjection。“ Heliftedhiseyebrows,shruggedhisshoulders,asiftorepeatthattheytooktheillnessmuchtooseriouslyandthattherewasnootherdoctor,andslippedout,leavingbehindhimanimpressionthathewasconsciousthathewasdistrusted,andthathismalicewasaroused。 AfterthisTerencecouldnolongerstaydownstairs。Hewentup,knockedatRachel’sdoor,andaskedHelenwhetherhemightseeherforafewminutes。Hehadnotseenheryesterday。Shemadenoobjection,andwentandsatatatableinthewindow。 Terencesatdownbythebedside。Rachel’sfacewaschanged。 Shelookedasthoughshewereentirelyconcentratedupontheeffortofkeepingalive。Herlipsweredrawn,andhercheeksweresunkenandflushed,thoughwithoutcolour。Hereyeswerenotentirelyshut,thelowerhalfofthewhitepartshowing,notasifshesaw,butasiftheyremainedopenbecauseshewastoomuchexhaustedtoclosethem。Sheopenedthemcompletelywhenhekissedher。 Butsheonlysawanoldwomanslicingaman’sheadoffwithaknife。 “Thereitfalls!“shemurmured。ShethenturnedtoTerenceandaskedhimanxiouslysomequestionaboutamanwithmules,whichhecouldnotunderstand。“Whydoesn’thecome?Whydoesn’thecome?“ sherepeated。Hewasappalledtothinkofthedirtylittlemandownstairsinconnectionwithillnesslikethis,andturninginstinctivelytoHelen,butshewasdoingsomethingatatableinthewindow,anddidnotseemtorealisehowgreattheshocktohimmustbe。 Herosetogo,forhecouldnotenduretolistenanylonger; hisheartbeatquicklyandpainfullywithangerandmisery。 AshepassedHelensheaskedhiminthesameweary,unnatural,butdeterminedvoicetofetchhermoreice,andtohavethejugoutsidefilledwithfreshmilk。 WhenhehaddonetheseerrandshewenttofindHirst。Exhaustedandveryhot,St。Johnhadfallenasleeponabed,butTerencewokehimwithoutscruple。 “Helenthinksshe’sworse,“hesaid。“There’snodoubtshe’sfrightfullyill。Rodriguezisuseless。Wemustgetanotherdoctor。“ “Butthereisnootherdoctor,“saidHirstdrowsily,sittingupandrubbinghiseyes。 “Don’tbeadamnedfool!“Terenceexclaimed。“Ofcoursethere’sanotherdoctor,and,ifthereisn’t,you’vegottofindone。Itoughttohavebeendonedaysago。I’mgoingdowntosaddlethehorse。“ Hecouldnotstaystillinoneplace。 InlessthantenminutesSt。Johnwasridingtothetowninthescorchingheatinsearchofadoctor,hisordersbeingtofindoneandbringhimbackifhehadtobefetchedinaspecialtrain。 “Weoughttohavedoneitdaysago,“Hewetrepeatedangrily。 Whenhewentbackintothedrawing-roomhefoundthatMrs。Flushingwasthere,standingveryerectinthemiddleoftheroom,havingarrived,aspeopledidinthesedays,bythekitchenorthroughthegardenunannounced。 “She’sbetter?“Mrs。Flushingenquiredabruptly;theydidnotattempttoshakehands。 “No,“saidTerence。“Ifanything,theythinkshe’sworse。“ Mrs。Flushingseemedtoconsiderforamomentortwo,lookingstraightatTerenceallthetime。 “Letmetellyou,“shesaid,speakinginnervousjerks,“it’salwaysabouttheseventhdayonebeginstogetanxious。Idaresayyou’vebeensittin’hereworryin’byyourself。Youthinkshe’sbad,butanyonecomin’withafresheyewouldseeshewasbetter。 Mr。Elliot’shadfever;he’sallrightnow,“shethrewout。 “Itwasn’tanythin’shecaughtontheexpedition。What’sitmatter—— afewdays’fever?Mybrotherhadfeverfortwenty-sixdaysonce。 Andinaweekortwohewasupandabout。Wegavehimnothin’butmilkandarrowroot——“ HereMrs。Chaileycameinwithamessage。 “I’mwantedupstairs,“saidTerence。 “Yousee——she’llbebetter,“Mrs。Flushingjerkedoutashelefttheroom。HeranxietytopersuadeTerencewasverygreat,andwhenheleftherwithoutsayinganythingshefeltdissatisfiedandrestless;shedidnotliketostay,butshecouldnotbeartogo。 Shewanderedfromroomtoroomlookingforsomeonetotalkto,butalltheroomswereempty。 Terencewentupstairs,stoodinsidethedoortotakeHelen’sdirections,lookedoveratRachel,butdidnotattempttospeaktoher。 Sheappearedvaguelyconsciousofhispresence,butitseemedtodisturbher,andsheturned,sothatshelaywithherbacktohim。 Forsixdaysindeedshehadbeenobliviousoftheworldoutside,becauseitneededallherattentiontofollowthehot,red,quicksightswhichpassedincessantlybeforehereyes。 Sheknewthatitwasofenormousimportancethatsheshouldattendtothesesightsandgrasptheirmeaning,butshewasalwaysbeingjusttoolatetohearorseesomethingwhichwouldexplainitall。 Forthisreason,thefaces,——Helen’sface,thenurse’s,Terence’s,thedoctor’s,——whichoccasionallyforcedthemselvesveryclosetoher,wereworryingbecausetheydistractedherattentionandshemightmisstheclue。However,onthefourthafternoonshewassuddenlyunabletokeepHelen’sfacedistinctfromthesightsthemselves; herlipswidenedasshebentdownoverthebed,andshebegantogabbleunintelligiblyliketherest。Thesightswereallconcernedinsomeplot,someadventure,someescape。Thenatureofwhattheyweredoingchangedincessantly,althoughtherewasalwaysareasonbehindit,whichshemustendeavourtograsp。Nowtheywereamongtreesandsavages,nowtheywereonthesea,nowtheywereonthetopsofhightowers;nowtheyjumped;nowtheyflew。 Butjustasthecrisiswasabouttohappen,somethinginvariablyslippedinherbrain,sothatthewholeefforthadtobeginoveragain。 Theheatwassuffocating。Atlastthefaceswentfurtheraway; shefellintoadeeppoolofstickywater,whicheventuallyclosedoverherhead。Shesawnothingandheardnothingbutafaintboomingsound,whichwasthesoundofthesearollingoverherhead。 Whileallhertormentorsthoughtthatshewasdead,shewasnotdead,butcurledupatthebottomofthesea。Thereshelay,sometimesseeingdarkness,sometimeslight,whileeverynowandthensomeoneturnedheroveratthebottomofthesea。 AfterSt。Johnhadspentsomehoursintheheatofthesunwranglingwithevasiveandverygarrulousnatives,heextractedtheinformationthattherewasadoctor,aFrenchdoctor,whowasatpresentawayonaholidayinthehills。Itwasquiteimpossible,sotheysaid,tofindhim。Withhisexperienceofthecountry,St。Johnthoughtitunlikelythatatelegramwouldeitherbesentorreceived;buthavingreducedthedistanceofthehilltown,inwhichhewasstaying,fromahundredmilestothirtymiles,andhavinghiredacarriageandhorses,hestartedatoncetofetchthedoctorhimself。 Hesucceededinfindinghim,andeventuallyforcedtheunwillingmantoleavehisyoungwifeandreturnforthwith。TheyreachedthevillaatmiddayonTuesday。 Terencecameouttoreceivethem,andSt。Johnwasstruckbythefactthathehadgrownperceptiblythinnerintheinterval;hewaswhitetoo; hiseyeslookedstrange。ButthecurtspeechandthesulkymasterfulmannerofDr。Lesageimpressedthembothfavourably,althoughatthesametimeitwasobviousthathewasverymuchannoyedatthewholeaffair。Comingdownstairshegavehisdirectionsemphatically,butitneveroccurredtohimtogiveanopinioneitherbecauseofthepresenceofRodriguezwhowasnowobsequiousaswellasmalicious,orbecausehetookitforgrantedthattheyknewalreadywhatwastobeknown。