第35章

类别:其他 作者:Henry Rider Haggard字数:4067更新时间:18/12/27 08:10:05
haveotherbusinesstoattendtojustnowthansuchdeath-bedgossip。 Thesethingsdonotcometomyears。“ IlookedatIreneandIrenelookedatme。 “Augusta,“Isaid,“Idonotbelieveyourstory。NospearwoundedHeliodorewhileIwasnearher,andwhenIwasnotnearheryourGreeksweretoofarawayforanyspearstobethrown。Indeed,unlessyoustabbedhersecretly,shewasnotwounded,andIamsurethat,howevermuchyouhavehatedher,thisyouwouldnothavedaredtodoforyourownlife’ssake。Augusta,foryourownpurposesyouaretryingtodeceiveme。Iwillnotmarryyou。Doyourworst。YouhaveliedtomeaboutthewomanwhomIlove,andthoughIforgiveyoualltherest,thisIdonotforgive。YouknowwellthatHeliodorestilllivesbeneaththesun。“ “Ifso,“answeredtheEmpress,“youhavelookedyourlastuponthesunand——her。NeveragainshallyoubeholdthebeautyofHeliodore。Haveyouaughttosay?Thereisstilltime。“ “Nothing,Augusta,atpresent,exceptthis。OflateIhavelearnedtobelieveinaGod。IsummonyoutomeetmebeforethatGod。TherewewillargueoutourcaseandabideHisjudgment。IfthereisnoGodtherewillbenojudgment,andIsaluteyou,Empress,whotriumph。If,asIbelieveandasyousayyoubelieve,thereisaGod,thinkwhom/you/willbecalledupontosalutewhenthatGodhasheardthetruth。 MeanwhileIrepeatthatHeliodoretheEgyptianstilllivesbeneaththesun。“ Irenerosefromthestoolonwhichshesatandthoughtamoment。I gazedthroughthebarsofthewindow-placeinmycelloutatthenightabove。Ayoungmoonwasfloatinginthesky,andneartoithungastar。Alittlepassingcloudwithadentededgedriftedoverthestarandthelowerhornofthemoon。Itwentby,andtheyshoneoutagainuponthebackgroundoftheblueheavens。Alsoanowlflittedacrossthewindow-placeofmycell。Ithadamouseinitsbeak,andtheshadowofitandofthewrithingmouseforamomentlayuponIrene’sbreast,forIturnedmyheadandsawthem。Itcameintomymindthatherewasanallegory。Irenewasthenight-hawk,andIwasthewrithingmousethatfeditsappetite。Doubtlessitwasdecreedthattheowlmustbeandthemousemustbe,butbeyondthemboth,hiddeninthoseblueheavens,stoodthatJusticewhichwecallGod。 ThesewerethelastthingsthatIsawinthislifeofmine,andthereforeIrememberthemwell,orrather,almostthelast。TheverylastofwhichItooknotewasIrene’sface。Ithadgrownliketothatofadevil。Thegreateyesinitstaredoutbetweenthepuffedandpurpleeyelids。Thepaintedcheekshadsunkinandwerepallidbeneathandroundthepaint。Theteethshowedintwowhitelines,thechinworked。Shewasnolongerabeautifulwoman,shewasafiend。 Ireneknockedthriceuponthedoor。Boltswerethrownback,andmenentered。 “Blindhim!“shesaid。 Thedaysandthenightswentby,butwhichwasdayandwhichwasnightIknewnot,saveforthevisitsofthejailerswithmymeals——Iwhowasblind,Iwhoshouldneverseethelightagain。AtfirstIsufferedmuch,butbydegreesthepaindiedaway。Alsoaphysiciancametotendmyhurts,askilfulman。SoonIdiscovered,however,thathehadanotherobject。Hepitiedmystate,somuch,indeed,hesaid,thatheofferedtosupplymewithadrugthat,ifIwerewillingtotakeit,wouldmakeanendofmepainlessly。NowIunderstoodatoncethatIrenedesiredmydeath,and,fearingtocauseit,setthemeansofself-murderwithinmyreach。 Ithankedthemanandbeggedhimtogivemethedrug,whichhedid,whereonIhiditawayinmygarments。WhenitwasseenthatIstilllivedalthoughIhadaskedforthemedicine,IthinkthatIrenebelievedthiswasbecauseithadfailedtowork,orthatsuchameansofdeathdidnotpleaseme。Soshefoundanother。Oneeveningwhenajailerbroughtmysupperhepressedsomethingheavyintomyhand,whichIfelttobeasword。 “Whatweaponisthis?“Iasked,“andwhydoyougiveittome?“ “Itisyourownsword,“answeredtheman,“whichIwascommandedtoreturntoyou。Iknownomore。“ Thenhewentaway,leavingtheswordwithme。 Idrewthefamiliarbladefromitssheath,theredbladethattheWandererhadworn,andtouchingitskeenedgewithmyfingers,weptfrommyblindedeyestothinkthatneveragaincouldIholditaloftinwarorseethelightflashfromitasIsmote。Yes,Iweptinmyweakness,tillIrememberedthatIhadnolongeranywishtobethedeathofmen。SoIsheathedthegoodswordandhiditbeneathmymattresslestsomejailershouldstealit,which,asIcouldnotseehim,hemightdoeasily。AlsoIdesiredtoputawaytemptation。 Ithinkthatthishourafterthebringingofthesword,whichstirredupsomanymemories,wasthemostfearfulofallmyhours,sofearfulthat,haditbeenprolonged,deathwouldhavecometomeofitsownaccord。Ihadsunktomisery’slowestdeep,whodidnotknowthateventhenitstidewasturning,whocouldnotdreamofalltheblessedyearsthatlaybeforeme,theyearsofloveandofsuchpeacefuljoyaseventheblindmaywin。 ThatnightMartinacame——Martina,whowasHope’sharbinger。Iheardthedoorofmyprisonopenandclosesoftly,andsatstill,wonderingwhetherthemurderershadenteredatlast,wondering,too,whetherI shouldsnatchtheswordandstrikeblindlytillIfell。NextIheardanothersound,thatofawomanweeping;yes,andfeltmyhandliftedandpressedtoawoman’slips,whichkisseditagainandyetagain。A thoughtstruckme,andIbegantodrawitback。Asoftvoicespokebetweenitssobs。 “Havenofear,Olaf。IamMartina。Oh,nowIunderstandwhyyondertigresssentmeonthatdistantmission。“ “Howdidyoucomehere,Martina?“Iasked。 “Istillhavethesignet,Olaf,whichIrene,whobeginstomistrustme,forgets。OnlythismorningIlearnedthetruthonmyreturntothepalace;yetIhavenotbeenidle。WithinanhourJoddandtheNorthmenknewitalso。Withinthreetheyhadblindedeveryhostagewhomtheyheld,aye,andcaughttwoofthebruteswhodidthedeedonyou,andcrucifiedthemupontheirbarrackwalls。“ “Oh!Martina,“Ibrokein,“Ididnotdesirethatotherswhoareinnocentshouldsharemywoes。“ “NordidI,Olaf;buttheseNorthmenareilltoplaywith。Moreover,inasenseitwasneedful。YoudonotknowwhatIhavelearned——thatto-morrowIreneproposedtoslityourtonguealsobecauseyoucantelltoomuch,andafterwardstocutoffyourrighthandlestyou,whoarelearned,shouldwritedownwhatyouknow。ItoldtheNorthmen——nevermindhow。Theysentaherald,aGreekwhomtheyhadcaptured,and,coveringhimwitharrows,madehimcalloutthatifyourtonguewasslittheywouldknowofitandslitthetonguesofallthehostagesalso,andthatifyourhandwascutofftheycouldcutofftheirhands,andtakeanothervengeancewhichforthepresenttheykeepsecret。“ “Atleasttheyarefaithful,“Isaid。“But,oh!tellme,Martina,whatofHeliodore?“ “This,“shewhisperedintomyear。“Heliodoreandherfathersailedanhouraftersunsetandarenowsafeuponthesea,boundforEgypt。“ “ThenIwasright!WhenIrenetoldmeshewasdeadshelied。“ “Aye,ifshesaidthatshelied,thoughthriceshehasstriventomurderher,Ihavenotimetotellyouhow,butwasalwaysbaffledbythosewhowatched。Yetshemighthavesucceededatlast,so,althoughHeliodorefoughtagainstit,itwasbestthatsheshouldgo。Thosewhoarepartedmaymeetagain;buthowcanwemeetonewhoisdeaduntilwetooaredead?“ “Howdidshego?“ “Smuggledfromthecitydisguisedasaboyattendingonapriest,andthatpriestherfathershornofhisbeardandtonsured。TheBishopBarnabaspassedthemoutinhisfollowing。“ “ThenblessingsontheBishopBarnabas,“Isaid。 “Aye,blessingsonhim,sincewithouthishelpitcouldneverhavebeendone。Thesecretagentsattheportstaredhardatthosetwo,althoughthegoodbishopvouchedforthemandgavetheirnamesandoffices。Still,whentheysawsomerough-lookingfellowsdressedlikesailorsapproach,playingwiththehandlesoftheirknives,theagentsthoughtwelltoasknomorequestions。Moreover,nowthattheshiphassailed,fortheirownsakesthey’llswearthatnosuchpriestandboywentaboardofher。SoyourHeliodoreisawayunharmed,asisherfather,thoughhismissionhascometonaught。Still,hislifeisleftinhim,forwhichhemaybethankful,whoonsuchabusinessshouldhavebroughtnowoman。Ifhehadcomealone,Olaf,youreyeswouldhavebeenlefttoyou,andsetbynowupontheorbofempirethatyourhandhadgrasped。“ “YetIamgladthathedidnotcomealone,Martina。“ “Trulyyouhaveahighandfaithfulheart,andthatwomanshouldbehonouredwhomyoulove。Whatisthesecret?Theremustbemoreinitthanthemeredesireforawoman’sbeauty,thoughIknowthatattimesthiscanmakemenmad。Insuchabusinessthesoulmustplayitspart。“ “Ithinkso,Martina。Indeed,Ibelieveso,sinceotherwisewesuffermuchinvain。Nowtellme,howandwhendoIdie?“ “Ihopeyouwillnotdieatall,Olaf。CertainplansarelaidwhichevenhereIdarenotwhisper。To-morrowIheartheywillleadyouagainbeforethejudges,who,byIrene’sclemency,willchangeyoursentencetooneofbanishment,withsecretorderstokillyouonthevoyage。Butyouwillnevermakethatvoyage。Otherschemesareafoot; you’lllearnofthemafterwards。“ “Yet,Martina,ifyouknowtheseplotstheAugustaknowsthemalso,sinceyouandsheareone。“