第12章

类别:其他 作者:Anton Chekhov字数:4422更新时间:18/12/27 08:30:00
The“noblegentleman“utteredallthisinasoft,sugarytenor,wrinklinguphisnarrowforeheadandemittingcreakingsoundsfromhisred,frozenlittlenose。Ptahalistenedandlookedaskanceathiminwonder,continuallyshrugginghisshoulders。 Aftergoingnearlyfivemilestheconstablesandthetrampsatdownonamoundtorest。 “Evenadogknowshisname,“Ptahamuttered。“MynameisAndryushka,hisisNikandr;everymanhashisholyname,anditcan’tbeforgotten。Nohow。“ “Whohasanyneedtoknowmyname?“sighedthetramp,leaninghischeekonhisfist。“Andwhatadvantagewoulditbetomeiftheydidknowit?IfIwereallowedtogowhereIwould——butitwouldonlymakethingsworse。Iknowthelaw,Christianbrothers。 NowIamatrampwhodoesn’trememberhisname,andit’stheverymostiftheysendmetoEasternSiberiaandgivemethirtyorfortylashes;butifIweretotellthemmyrealnameanddescriptiontheywouldsendmebacktohardlabour,Iknow!“ “Why,haveyoubeenaconvict?“ “Ihave,dearfriend。ForfouryearsIwentaboutwithmyheadshavedandfettersonmylegs。“ “Whatfor?“ “Formurder,mygoodman!WhenIwasstillaboyofeighteenorso,mymammaaccidentallypouredarsenicinsteadofsodaandacidintomymaster’sglass。Therewereboxesofallsortsinthestoreroom,numbersofthem;itwaseasytomakeamistakeoverthem。“ Thetrampsighed,shookhishead,andsaid: “Shewasapiouswoman,but,whoknows?anotherman’ssoulisaslumberingforest!Itmayhavebeenanaccident,ormaybeshecouldnotenduretheaffrontofseeingthemasterpreferanotherservant。Perhapssheputitinonpurpose,Godknows!Iwasyoungthen,anddidnotunderstanditallnowIrememberthatourmasterhadtakenanothermistressandmammawasgreatlydisturbed。Ourtriallastednearlytwoyears。Mammawascondemnedtopenalservitudefortwentyyears,andI,onaccountofmyyouth,onlytoseven。“ “Andwhywereyousentenced?“ “Asanaccomplice。Ihandedtheglasstothemaster。Thatwasalwaysthecustom。MammapreparedthesodaandIhandedittohim。OnlyItellyouallthisasaChristian,brothers,asI wouldsayitbeforeGod。Don’tyoutellanybody。“ “Oh,nobody’sgoingtoaskus,“saidPtaha。“Soyou’verunawayfromprison,haveyou?“ “Ihave,dearfriend。Fourteenofusranaway。Somefolks,Godblessthem!ranawayandtookmewiththem。Nowyoutellme,onyourconscience,goodman,whatreasonhaveItodisclosemyname?Theywillsendmebacktopenalservitude,youknow!AndI amnotfitforpenalservitude!Iamarefinedmanindelicatehealth。Iliketosleepandeatincleanliness。WhenIpraytoGodIliketolightalittlelamporacandle,andnottohaveanoisearoundme。WhenIbowdowntothegroundIlikethefloornottobedirtyorspatupon。AndIbowdownfortytimeseverymorningandevening,prayingformamma。“ Thetramptookoffhiscapandcrossedhimself。 “AndletthemsendmetoEasternSiberia,“hesaid;“Iamnotafraidofthat。“ “Surelythat’snobetter?“ “Itisquiteadifferentthing。Inpenalservitudeyouarelikeacrabinabasket:crowding,crushing,jostling,there’snoroomtobreathe;it’sdownrighthell——suchhell,maytheQueenofHeavenkeepusfromit!Youarearobberandtreatedlikearobber——worsethananydog。Youcan’tsleep,youcan’teatorevensayyourprayers。Butit’snotlikethatinasettlement。InasettlementIshallbeamemberofacommunelikeotherpeople。 Theauthoritiesareboundbylawtogivememyshareye-es! Theysaythelandcostsnothing,nomorethansnow;youcantakewhatyoulike!Theywillgivemecornlandandbuildinglandandgarden。Ishallploughmyfieldslikeotherpeople,sowseed。Ishallhavecattleandstockofallsorts,bees,sheep,anddogs。ASiberiancat,thatratsandmicemaynotdevourmygoods。Iwillputupahouse,Ishallbuyikons。 PleaseGod,I’llgetmarried,Ishallhavechildren。“ Thetrampmutteredandlooked,notathislisteners,butawayintothedistance。Naiveashisdreamswere,theywereutteredinsuchagenuineandheartfelttonethatitwasdifficultnottobelieveinthem。Thetramp’slittlemouthwasscrewedupinasmile。Hiseyesandlittlenoseandhiswholefacewerefixedandblankwithblissfulanticipationofhappinessinthedistantfuture。Theconstableslistenedandlookedathimgravely,notwithoutsympathy。They,too,believedinhisdreams。 “IamnotafraidofSiberia,“thetrampwentonmuttering。 “SiberiaisjustasmuchRussiaandhasthesameGodandTsarashere。TheyarejustasorthodoxChristiansasyouandI。Onlythereismorefreedomthereandpeoplearebetteroff。Everythingisbetterthere。Taketheriversthere,forinstance;theyarefarbetterthanthosehere。There’snoendoffish;andallsortsofwildfowl。Andmygreatestpleasure,brothers,isfishing。 Givemenobreadtoeat,butletmesitwithafishhook。Yes,indeed!Ifishwithahookandwithawireline,andsetcreels,andwhentheicecomesIcatchwithanet。Iamnotstrongtodrawupthenet,soIshallhireamanforfivekopecks。And,Lord,whatapleasureitis!Youcatchaneel-poutoraroachofsomesortandareaspleasedasthoughyouhadmetyourownbrother。Andwouldyoubelieveit,there’saspecialartforeveryfish:youcatchonewithalivebait,youcatchanotherwithagrub,thethirdwithafrogoragrasshopper。Onehastounderstandallthat,ofcourse!Forexample,taketheeel-pout。 Itisnotadelicatefish——itwilltakeaperch;andapikelovesagudgeon,the_shilishper_likesabutterfly。Ifyoufishforaroachinarapidstreamthereisnogreaterpleasure。Youthrowthelineofseventyfeetwithoutlead,withabutterflyorabeetle,sothatthebaitfloatsonthesurface;youstandinthewaterwithoutyourtrousersandletitgowiththecurrent,andtug!theroachpullsatit!Onlyyouhavegottobeartfulthathedoesn’tcarryoffthebait,thedamnedrascal。Assoonashetugsatyourlineyoumustwhipitup;it’snogoodwaiting。It’swonderfulwhatalotoffishI’vecaughtinmytime。Whenwewererunningawaytheotherconvictswouldsleepintheforest;Icouldnotsleep,butIwasofftotheriver。Theriverstherearewideandrapid,thebanksaresteep——awfully! It’sallslumberingforestsonthebank。Thetreesaresotallthatifyoulooktothetopitmakesyoudizzy。Everypinewouldbeworthtenroublesbythepriceshere。“ Intheoverwhelmingrushofhisfancies,ofartisticimagesofthepastandsweetpresentimentsofhappinessinthefuture,thepoorwretchsankintosilence,merelymovinghislipsasthoughwhisperingtohimself。Thevacant,blissfulsmileneverlefthislips。Theconstablesweresilent。Theywereponderingwithbentheads。Intheautumnstillness,whenthecold,sullenmistthatrisesfromtheearthlieslikeaweightontheheart,whenitstandslikeaprisonwallbeforetheeyes,andremindsmanofthelimitationofhisfreedom,itissweettothinkofthebroad,rapidrivers,withsteepbankswildandluxuriant,oftheimpenetrableforests,oftheboundlesssteppes。Slowlyandquietlythefancypictureshowearlyinthemorning,beforetheflushofdawnhasleftthesky,amanmakeshiswayalongthesteepdesertedbanklikeatinyspeck:theancient,mast-likepinesriseupinterracesonbothsidesofthetorrent,gazesternlyatthefreemanandmurmurmenacingly;rocks,hugestones,andthornybushesbarhisway,butheisstronginbodyandboldinspirit,andhasnofearofthepine-trees,norstones,norofhissolitude,norofthereverberatingechowhichrepeatsthesoundofeveryfootstepthathetakes。 Thepeasantscalledupapictureofafreelifesuchastheyhadneverlived;whethertheyvaguelyrecalledtheimagesofstoriesheardlongagoorwhethernotionsofafreelifehadbeenhandeddowntothemwiththeirfleshandbloodfromfar-offfreeancestors,Godknows! ThefirsttobreakthesilencewasNikandrSapozhnikov,whohadnottillthenletfallasingleword。Whetherheenviedthetramp’stransparenthappiness,orwhetherhefeltinhisheartthatdreamsofhappinesswereoutofkeepingwiththegreyfogandthedirtybrownmud——anyway,helookedsternlyatthetrampandsaid: “It’sallverywell,tobesure,onlyyouwon’treachthoseplenteousregions,brother。Howcouldyou?Beforeyou’dgonetwohundredmilesyou’dgiveupyoursoultoGod。Justlookwhataweaklingyouare!Hereyou’vehardlygonefivemilesandyoucan’tgetyourbreath。“ ThetrampturnedslowlytowardNikandr,andtheblissfulsmilevanishedfromhisface。Helookedwithascaredandguiltyairatthepeasant’sstaidface,apparentlyrememberedsomething,andbenthishead。Asilencefollowedagain。Allthreewerepondering。ThepeasantswererackingtheirbrainsintheefforttograspintheirimaginationwhatcanbegraspedbynonebutGod——thatis,thevastexpansedividingthemfromthelandoffreedom。Intothetramp’smindthrongedclearanddistinctpicturesmoreterriblethanthatexpanse。Beforehimrosevividlythepictureofthelonglegaldelaysandprocrastinations,thetemporaryandpermanentprisons,theconvictboats,thewearisomestoppagesontheway,thefrozenwinters,illnesses,deathsofcompanions。 Thetrampblinkedguiltily,wipedthetinydropsofsweatfromhisforeheadwithhissleeve,drewadeepbreathasthoughhehadjustleaptoutofaveryhotbath,thenwipedhisforeheadwiththeothersleeveandlookedroundfearfully。 “That’strue;youwon’tgetthere!“Ptahaagreed。“Youarenotmuchofawalker!Lookatyou——nothingbutskinandbone! You’lldie,brother!“ “Ofcoursehe’lldie!Whatcouldhedo?“saidNikandr。“He’sfitforthehospitalnow。Forsure!“ Themanwhohadforgottenhisnamelookedatthestern,unconcernedfacesofhissinistercompanions,andwithouttakingoffhiscap,hurriedlycrossedhimself,staringwithwide-openeyes。Hetrembled,hisheadshook,andhebegantwitchingallover,likeacaterpillarwhenitissteppedupon。 “Well,it’stimetogo,“saidNikandr,gettingup;“we’vehadarest。“ Aminutelatertheyweresteppingalongthemuddyroad。Thetrampwasmorebentthanever,andhethrusthishandsfurtheruphissleeves。Ptahawassilent。