第2章

类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:4600更新时间:18/12/27 08:43:26
Peopleconstantlycameandwentinthewaiting-room,whichwassometimesquitefull,andagainemptyofallbutthemselves。Inthecourseoftheirobservationstheyformedmanycordialfriendshipsandbitterenmitiesuponthegroundofpersonalappearance,orparticularsofdress,withpeoplewhomtheysawforhalfaminuteuponanaverage;andtheytooksuchakeeninterestineveryone,thatitwouldbehardtosaywhethertheyweremoreconcernedinanoldgentlemanwithvigorouslyuprightiron-grayhair,whosatfrontingthem,andreadingalltheeveningpapers,orayoungmanwhohurledhimselfthroughthedoor,boughtaticketwithterrificprecipitation,burstoutagain,andthenrandownadepartingtrainbeforeitgotoutofthestation:theylovedtheoldgentlemanforacertainstubbornbenevolenceofexpression,andiftheyhadbeenfriendsoftheyoungmanandhisfamilyforgenerationsandfeltboundifanyharmbefellhimtogoandbreakthenewsgentlytohisparents,theirnervescouldnothavebeenmoreintimatelywroughtuponbyhishazardousbehavior。Still,astheyhadtheirticketsforNewYork,andhewasgoingoutonamerelylocaltrain,——toBrookline,I believe,theycouldnot,evenintheiranxiety,repressafeelingofcontemptforhisunambitiousdestination。 TheywerealreadyascompletelycutofffromlocalassociationsandsympathiesasiftheywereathousandmilesandmanymonthsawayfromBoston。Theyenjoyedthelonelyflaringofthegas-jetsasagustofwinddrewthroughthestation;theysharedthegloomandisolationofamanwhotookaseatinthedarkestcorneroftheroom,andsattherewithfoldedarms,thegeniusofabsence。Inthepatronizingspiritoftravellersinaforeigncountrytheynotedandapprovedthevasesofcut- flowersintheboothoftheladywhocheckedpackages,andthepotsofivyinherwindows。“ThesepoorBostonians,“theysaid;“havesomeloveofthebeautifulintheirruggednatures。“ Butafterallwassaidandthought,itwasonlyeighto’clock,andtheystillhadanhourtowait。 Basilgrewrestless,andIsabelsaid,withasubtileinterpretationofhisuneasiness,“Idon’twantanythingtoeat,Basil,butIthinkIknowtheweaknessesofmen;andyouhadbettergoandpassthenexthalf-houroveraplateofsomethingindigestible。“ Thiswassaid’constizza’,theleastlittlesuggestionofit;butBasilrosewithshamefulalacrity。“Darling,ifit’syourwish——“ “It’smyfate,Basil,“saidIsabel。 “I’llgo,“heexclaimed,“becauseitisn’tbridal,andwillhelpustopassforoldmarriedpeople。“ “No,no,Basil,behonest;fibbingisn’tyourforte:Iwonderyouwentintotheinsurancebusiness;yououghttohavebeenalawyer。Gobecauseyoulikeeating,andarehungry,perhaps,orthinkyoumaybesobeforewegettoNewYork。 “Ishallamusemyselfwellenoughhere!“ Isupposeitisalwaysalittleshockingandgrievoustoawifewhensherecognizesarivalinbutchers’-meatandthevegetablesoftheseason。 Withherslenderrelishesforpastryandconfectioneryandherdaintyhabitsoflunching,shecannotreconcilewiththeidea(of)herhusband’scapacityforbreakfasting,dining,supping,andhotmealsatallhoursofthedayandnight——astheywriteitonthesign-boardsofbarbariceating-houses。ButisabelwouldhaveonlyherselftoblameifshehadnotperceivedthistraitofBasil’sbeforemarriage。Sherecurrednow,ashisfiguredisappeareddownthestation,tomemorableinstancesofhisappetiteintheirEuropeantravelsduringtheirfirstengagement。“Yes,heateterriblyatSusa,whenIwastoofullofthenotionofgettingintoItalytocareforbouillonandcoldroastchicken。AtRomeI thoughtImustbreakwithhimonaccountofthewild-boar;andatHeidelberg,thesausageandtheham!——howcouldhe,inmypresence?ButItookhimwithallhisfaults,——andwasgladtogethim,“sheadded,endinghermeditationwithalittleburstofcandor;andshedidnoteventhinkofBasil’sappetitewhenhereappeared。 Withthethrongingofmanysortsofpeople,inpartiesandsingly,intothewaitingroom,theybecameonceagainmereobserversoftheirkind,moreorlesscriticalintemper,untilthecrowdgrewsothatindividualtraitsweremergedinthecharacterofmultitude。Eventhen,theycouldcatchglimpsesoffacessosweetorfinethattheymadethemselvesfeltlikemomentsofreposeinthetumult,andhereandtherewassomethingsogrotesqueindressofmannerthatitshoweddistinctfromtherest。Theticket-seller’sstampclickedincessantlyashesoldticketstoallpointsSouthandWest:toNewYork,Philadelphia,Charleston;toNewOrleans,Chicago,Omaha;toSt。Paul,Duluth,St。Louis;anditwouldnothavebeenhardtofindinthatanxiousbustle,thatunsmilingeagerness,animageofthewholebusyaffairoflife。Itwasnotaparticularlysanespectacle,thatimpatiencetobeofftosomeplacethatlaynotonlyinthedistance,butalsointhefuture——towhichnolineofroadcarriesyouwithabsolutecertaintyacrossanintervaloftimefullofeveryimaginablechanceandinfluence。ItiseasyenoughtobuyatickettoCincinnati,butitissomewhathardertoarrivethere。Saythatallgoeswell,isitexactlyyouwhoarrive? Inthemidstofthedisquietthereenteredatlastanoldwoman,soveryinfirmthatshehadtobeupheldoneitherhandbyherhusbandandthehackmanwhohadbroughtthem,whileayounggirlwentbeforewithshawlsandpillowswhichshearrangedupontheseat。Theretheinvalidlaydown,andturnedtowardsthecrowdawhite,sufferingface,whichwasyetsoheavenlymeekandpeacefulthatitcomfortedwhoeverlookedatit。 Inspiritourhappyfriendsbowedthemselvesbeforeitandownedthattherewassomethingbetterthanhappinessinit。 “Whatisitlike,Isabel?“ “O,Idon’tknow,darling,“shesaid;butshethought,“Perhapsitislikesomeblessedsorrowthattakesusoutofthisprisonofaworld,andsetsusfreeofourevery-dayhatesanddesires,ouraims,ourfears。 ourselves。Maybealongandmortalsicknessmightcometowearsuchafaceinoneofustwo,andtheothercouldseeit,andnotregretthepoormaskofyouthandprettylooksthathadfallenaway。“ Sheroseandwentovertothesickwoman,onwhosefacebeamedatendersmile,asIsabelspoketoher。Achordthrilledintwoliveshithertounknowntoeachother;butwhatwassaidBasilwouldnotaskwhentheinvalidhadtakenIsabel’shandbetweenherown,asforadieu,andshecamebacktohissidewithswimmingeyes。Perhapshiswifecouldhavegivennogoodreasonforheremotion,ifhehadaskedit。Butitmadeherverysweetanddeartohim;andIsupposethatwhenatolerablyunselfishmanisoncesecureofawoman’slove,heisordinarilymoreaffectedbyhercompassionandtendernessforotherobjectsthanbyherfeelingstowardshimself。Helikeswellenoughtothink,“Shelovesme,“ butstillbetter,“Howkindandgoodsheis!“ Theylostsightoftheinvalidinthehurryofgettingplacesonthecars,andtheyneversawheragain。Themanatthewicket-gateleadingtothetrainhadthrownitup,andthepeoplewerepressingfuriouslythroughasiftheirliveshunguponthechanceofinstantpassage。Basilhadsecuredhisticketforthesleeping-car,andsoheandIsabelstoodasideandwatchedthetumult。Whentherashwasovertheypassedthrough,andastheywalkedupanddowntheplatformbesidethetrain,“Iwasthinking,“saidIsabel,“afterIspoketothatpooroldlady,ofwhatClaraWilliamssays:thatshewondersthehappiestwomenintheworldcanlookeachotherinthefacewithoutburstingintotears,theirhappinessissounreasonable,andsobuiltuponandhedgedaboutwithmisery。Shedeclaresthatthere’snothingsosadtoherasabride,unlessit’sayoungmother,oralittlegirlgrowingupintheinnocentgayetyofherheart。Shewonderstheycanlivethroughit。“ “Claraisverymuchofareformer,andwouldmakeanendofallofusmen,Isuppose,——exceptherfather,whosupportsherintheleisurethatenableshertodoherdeepthinking。Shelittleknowswhatwepoorfellowshavetosuffer,andhowoftenwebreakdowninbusinesshours,andsobupononeanother’snecks。Didthatoldladytalktoyouinthesamestrain?“ “Ono!shespokeverycalmlyofhersickness,andsaidshehadlivedablessedlife。Perhapsitwasthatmademeshedthosefewsmalltears。 Sheseemedaveryreligiousperson。“ “Yes,“saidBasil,“itisalmostapitythatreligionisgoingout。Butthenyouaretohavethefranchise。“ “Allaboard!“ Thiswarningcrysavedhimfromwhateverheresyhemighthavebeenabouttoutter;andpresentlythetraincarriedthemoutintothegas-sprinkleddarkness,withanever-growingspeedthatsoonleftthecitylampsfarbehind。Itisaphenomenonwhosecommonnessalonepreventsitfrombeingmostimpressive,thatdepartureofthenight-express。Thetwohundredmilesitistotravelstretchbeforeit,tracedbythoseslenderclews,tolosewhichisruin,andaboutwhichhangsomanydangers。Thedrawbridgesthatgapeupontheway,thetrainsthatstandsmokingandsteamingonthetrack,therailthathasbornethewearsolongthatitmustsoonsnapunderit,thedeepcutwheretheoverhangingmassofrocktremblestoitsfall,theobstructionthatapitilessmalicemayhaveplacedinyourpath,——youthinkoftheseafterthejourneyisdone,buttheyseldomhauntyourfancywhileitlasts。Theknowledgeofyourhelplessnessinanycircumstancesissoperfectthatitbegetsasenseofirresponsibility,almostofsecurity;andasyoudrowseuponthepalletofthesleepingcar,andfeelyourselfhurledforwardthroughtheobscurity,youarealmostthankfulthatyoucandonothing,foritisuponthisconditiononlythatyoucanendureit;andsomesuchconditionasthis,Isuppose,accountsformanyheroicfactsintheworld。Tothefantasticmoodwhichpossessesyouequally,sleepingorwaking,thestoppagesofthetrainhaveaweirdcharacter;andWorcester,Springfield,NewHaven,andStamfordareratherpointsindream-landthanwell-knowntownsofNewEngland。Asthetrainstopsyoudrowseifyouhavebeenwaking,andwakeifyouhavebeeninadoze;butinanycaseyouareawareofthelocomotivehissingandcoughingbeyondthestation,offlaringgas-jets,ofclatteringfeetofpassengersgettingonandoff; thenofsomeone,conductororstation-master,walkingthewholelengthofthetrain;andthenyouareawareofaninsanesatisfactioninrenewedflightthroughthedarkness。Youthinkhazilyofthefolkintheirbedsinthetownleftbehind,whostiruneasilyatthesoundofyourtrain’sdepartingwhistle;andsoallisablankvigilorablankslumber。