第36章

类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:3121更新时间:18/12/27 08:43:26
Isawonemiddle-agedcoupleonGoatIsland,whileyouweredownattheCaveoftheWinds,orsomewhere,withthechildren。Theyweresittingonsomesteps,heastepbelowher,andheseemedtowanttoputhisheadonherknee;butIgazedathimsternly,andhedidn’tdare。Weshouldlooklikethem,ifweyieldedtoanyoutburstofaffection。Don’tyouthinkweshouldlooklikethem?“ “Idon’tknow,“saidBasil。“Youarecertainlyalittlewrinkled,mydear。“ “Andyouareveryfat,Basil。“ Theyglancedateachotherwithaflashofresentment,andthentheybothlaughed。“Wecouldn’tlookyoungifwequarreledaweek,“hesaid。 “Wehadbettercontentourselveswithfeelingyoung,asIhopeweshalldoifwelivetobeninety。Itwillbethelossofothersiftheydon’tseeourbloomuponus。ShallIgetyouapaperofcherries,Isabel?Thechildrenseemtobeenjoyingthem。“ Isabelspranguponheroffspringwithacryofdespair。“Oh,whatshallIdo?Nowweshallnothaveawinkofsleepwiththemto-night。Whereisthatnux?“Shehuntedforthemedicineinherbag,andthechildrensubmitted;fortheyhadeatenallthecherries,andtheytooktheirmedicinewithoutamurmur。“Iwonderatyourlettingthemeatthesourthings,Basil,“saidtheirmother,whenthechildrenbadrunofftothenewsstandagain。 “Iwonderthatyouleftmetoseewhattheyweredoing,“promptlyretortedtheirfather。 “Itwasyournonsenseaboutthebrides,“saidIsabel;“andIthinkthishasbeenalessontous。Don’tletthemgetanythingelsetoeat,dearest。“ “Theyaresafe;theyhavenomoremoney。TheyarefrugallyconfiningthemselvestotheadmirationoftheJapanesebowsandarrowsyonder。WhyhaveourIndianstakentomakingJapanesebowsandarrows?“ Isabeldespisedthesmallpleasantry。“Thenyousawnobodyatthehotel?“sheasked。 “NoteventheEllisons,“saidBasil。 “Ah,yes,“saidIsabel;“thatwaswherewemetthem。Howlongagoitseems!AndpoorlittleKitty!Iwonderwhathasbecomeofthem?ButI’mgladthey’renothere。That’swhatmakesyourealizeyourage: meetingthesamepeopleinthesameplaceagreatwhileafter,andseeinghowold——they’vegrown。Idon’tthinkIcouldbeartoseeKittyEllisonagain。I’mgladshedidn’tcometovisitusinBoston,though,afterwhathappened,shecouldn’t,poorthing!Iwonderifshe’severregrettedherbreakingwithhiminthewayshedid。It’saverypainfulthingtothinkof,——suchaninconclusiveconclusion;italwaysseemedasiftheyoughttomeetagain,somewhere。“ “Idon’tbelievesheeverwishedit。“ “Amancan’ttellwhatawomanwishes。“ “Well,neithercanawoman,“returnedBasil,lightly。 Hiswiferemainedserious。“Itwasaveryfinepoint,——averylittlethingtorejectamanfor。IfeltthatwhenIfirstreadherletteraboutit。“ Basilyawned。“Idon’tbelieveIeverknewjustwhatthepointwas。“ “Ohyes,youdid;butyouforgeteverything。YouknowthattheymettwoBostonladiesjustaftertheywereengaged,andshebelievedthathedidn’tintroduceherbecausehewasashamedofhercountrifiedappearancebeforethem。“ “Itwasaprettyfinepoint,“saidBasil,andhelaughedprovokingly。 “Hemightnothavemeanttoignoreher,“answeredIsabelthoughtfully; “hemighthavechosennottointroduceherbecausehefelttooproudofhertosubjecthertoanypossiblemisappreciationfromthem。Youmighthavelookedatitinthatway。“ “Whydidn’tyoulookatitinthatway?Youadvisedheragainstgivinghimanotherchance。Whydidyou?“ “Why?“repeatedIsabel,absently。“Oh,awomandoesn’tjudgeamanbywhathedoes,butbywhatheis!Iknewthatifshedismissedhimitwasbecausesheneverreallyhadtrustedorcouldtrusthislove;andI thoughtshehadbetternotmakeanothertrial。“ “Well,verypossiblyyouwereright。Atanyrate,youhavetheconsolationofknowingthatit’stoolatetohelpitnow。“ “Yes,it’stoolate,“saidIsabel;andherthoughtswentbacktohermeetingwiththeyounggirlwhomshehadlikedsomuch,andwhoseafterhistoryhadinterestedhersopainfully。Itseemedtoherahardworldthatcouldcometonothingbetterthanthatforthegirlwhomshehadseeninherfirstglimpseofitthatnight。Wherewasshenow?Whathadbecomeofher?Ifshehadmarriedthatman,wouldshehavebeenanyhappier?Marriagewasnotthepoeticdreamofperfectunionthatagirlimaginesit;sheherselfhadfoundthatout。Itwasastateoftrial,ofprobation;itwasanordeal,notanecstasy。IfsheandBasilhadbrokeneachother’sheartsandparted,wouldnotthefragmentsoftheirliveshavebeenonamuchfiner,muchhigherplane?Hadnotthecommonplace,every-dayexperiencesofmarriagevulgarizedthemboth? Tobesure,therewerethechildren;butiftheyhadneverhadthechildren,shewouldneverhavemissedthem;andifBasilhad,forexample,diedjustbeforetheyweremarried——Shestartedfromthiswickedreverie,andrantowardsherhusband,whosebroad,honestback,withnovisibleneckorshirt-collar,wasturnedtowardsher,ashestood,withhisheadthrownup,studyingatime-tableonthewall;shepassedherarmconvulsivelythroughhis,andpulledhimaway。 “It’stimetobegettingourbagsouttothetrain,Basil!Come,Bella! Tom,we’regoing!“ Thechildrenreluctantlyturnedfromthenewsman’strumpery,andtheyallwentouttothetrack,andtookseatsonthebenchesunderthecolonnade。 Whiletheywaited;thetrainforBuffalodrewin,andtheyremainedwatchingittillitstarted。Inthelastcarthatpassedthem,whenitwasfairlyunderway,afacelookedfullatIsabelfromoneofthewindows。Inthatmomentofastonishmentsheforgottoobservewhetheritwassadorglad;sheonlysaw,orbelievedshesaw,thelightofrecognitiondawnintoitseyes,andthenitwasgone。 “Basil!“shecried,“stopthetrain!ThatwasKittyEllison!“ “Ohno,itwasn’t,“saidBasil,easily。“Itlookedlikeher;butitlookedatleasttenyearsolder。“ “Why,ofcourseitwas!We’realltenyearsolder,“returnedhiswifeinsuchindignationathisstupiditythatsheneglectedtoinsistuponhisstoppingthetrain,whichwasrapidlydiminishingintheperspective。 Hedeclareditwasonlyafanciedresemblance;shecontendedthatthiswasintheneighborhoodofEriecreek,anditmustbeKitty;andthusoneoftheirmostinveteratedisagreementsbegan。 Theirowntraindrewintothedepot,andtheydisputeduponthefactinquestiontilltheyenteredonthepassageoftheSuspensionBridge。ThenBasilroseandcalledthechildrentohisside。Onthelefthand,faruptheriver,thegreatFallshows,withitsmistsatitsfootanditsrainbowonitsbrow,assilentandstillasifitwerevastlypaintedthere;andbelowthebridgeontheright,leaptheRapidsinthenarrowgorge,likeseasonarockyshore。“Lookonbothsides,now,“hesaidtothechildren。“Isabelyoumustseethis!“ IsabelhadbeenpreparingforthepassageofthisbridgeeversincesheleftBoston。“Never!“sheexclaimed。Sheinstantlyclosedhereyes,andhidherfaceinherhandkerchief。Thankstothisprecautionofhers,thetraincrossedthebridgeinperfectsafety。 End