第15章

类别:其他 作者:H。 G。 Wells字数:4072更新时间:18/12/27 08:56:22
Whenhespokeagainitwasclearthathisformersweethearthadcleanvanishedfromhismind,andthatthetalkhadbroughtbacktheFairyLadytriumphantinhisheart。Hetalkedofher——soonhewaslettingouttheoddestthings,queerlovesecretsitwouldbetreacherytorepeat。Ithink,indeed,thatwasthequeerestthinginthewholeaffair,tohearthatneatlittlegrocermanafterhisstorywasdone,withaglassofwhiskybesidehimandacigarbetweenhisfingers,witnessing,withsorrowstill,thoughnow,indeed,withatime-bluntedanguish,oftheinappeasablehungeroftheheartthatpresentlycameuponhim。“Icouldn’teat,“hesaid,“Icouldn’tsleep。Imademistakesinordersandgotmixedwithchange。Thereshewasdayandnight,drawingmeanddrawingme。Oh,Iwantedher。Lord!howIwantedher!Iwasupthere,mosteveningsIwasupthereontheKnoll,oftenevenwhenitrained。IusedtowalkovertheKnollandrounditandroundit,callingforthemtoletmein。Shouting。NearblubberingIwasattimes。DaftIwasandmiserable。Ikeptonsayingitwasallamistake。AndeverySundayafternoonIwentupthere,wetandfine,thoughIknewaswellasyoudoitwasn’tnogoodbyday。AndI’vetriedtogotosleepthere。“ Hestoppedsharplyanddecidedtodrinksomewhisky。 “I’vetriedtogotosleepthere,“hesaid,andIcouldswearhislipstrembled。“I’vetriedtogotosleepthere,oftenandoften。And,youknow,Icouldn’t,sir——never。I’vethoughtifIcouldgotosleepthere,theremightbesomething。ButI’vesatupthereandlaidupthere,andIcouldn’t——notforthinkingandlonging。It’sthelonging……I’vetried——“ Heblew,drankuptherestofhiswhiskyspasmodically,stoodupsuddenlyandbuttonedhisjacket,staringcloselyandcriticallyatthecheapoleographsbesidethemantelmeanwhile。Thelittleblacknotebookinwhichherecordedtheordersofhisdailyroundprojectedstifflyfromhisbreastpocket。Whenallthebuttonswerequitedone,hepattedhischestandturnedonmesuddenly。“Well,“ hesaid,“Imustbegoing。“ Therewassomethinginhiseyesandmannerthatwastoodifficultforhimtoexpressinwords。“Onegetstalking,“hesaidatlastatthedoor,andsmiledwanly,andsovanishedfrommyeyes。 AndthatisthetaleofMr。SkelmersdaleinFairylandjustashetoldittome。 ThesceneamidstwhichClaytontoldhislaststorycomesbackveryvividlytomymind。Therehesat,forthegreaterpartofthetime,inthecorneroftheauthenticsettlebythespaciousopenfire,andSandersonsatbesidehimsmokingtheBroseleyclaythatborehisname。 TherewasEvans,andthatmarvelamongactors,Wish,whoisalsoamodestman。WehadallcomedowntotheMermaidClubthatSaturdaymorning,exceptClayton,whohadsleptthereovernight——whichindeedgavehimtheopeningofhisstory。Wehadgolfeduntilgolfingwasinvisible;wehaddined,andwewereinthatmoodoftranquilkindlinesswhenmenwillsufferastory。WhenClaytonbegantotellone,wenaturallysupposedhewaslying。Itmaybethatindeedhewaslying——ofthatthereaderwillspeedilybeabletojudgeaswellasI。 Hebegan,itistrue,withanairofmatter-of-factanecdote,butthatwethoughtwasonlytheincurableartificeoftheman。 “Isay!“heremarked,afteralongconsiderationoftheupwardrainofsparksfromthelogthatSandersonhadthumped,“youknowIwasaloneherelastnight?“ “Exceptforthedomestics,“saidWish。 “Whosleepintheotherwing,“saidClayton。“Yes。Well——“Hepulledathiscigarforsomelittletimeasthoughhestillhesitatedabouthisconfidence。Thenhesaid,quitequietly,“Icaughtaghost!“ “Caughtaghost,didyou?“saidSanderson。“Whereisit?“ AndEvans,whoadmiresClaytonimmenselyandhasbeenfourweeksinAmerica,shouted,“CAUGHTaghost,didyou,Clayton?I’mgladofit!Tellusallaboutitrightnow。“ Claytonsaidhewouldinaminute,andaskedhimtoshutthedoor。 Helookedapologeticallyatme。“There’snoeavesdroppingofcourse,butwedon’twanttoupsetourveryexcellentservicewithanyrumoursofghostsintheplace。There’stoomuchshadowandoakpanellingtotriflewiththat。Andthis,youknow,wasn’taregularghost。 Idon’tthinkitwillcomeagain——ever。“ “Youmeantosayyoudidn’tkeepit?“saidSanderson。 “Ihadn’ttheheartto,“saidClayton。 AndSandersonsaidhewassurprised。 Welaughed,andClaytonlookedaggrieved。“Iknow,“hesaid,withtheflickerofasmile,“butthefactisitreallyWASaghost,andI’massureofitasIamthatIamtalkingtoyounow。I’mnotjoking。ImeanwhatIsay。“ Sandersondrewdeeplyathispipe,withonereddisheyeonClayton,andthenemittedathinjetofsmokemoreeloquentthanmanywords。 Claytonignoredthecomment。“Itisthestrangestthingthathaseverhappenedinmylife。Youknow,Ineverbelievedinghostsoranythingofthesort,before,ever;andthen,youknow,Ibagoneinacorner;andthewholebusinessisinmyhands。“ Hemeditatedstillmoreprofoundly,andproducedandbegantopierceasecondcigarwithacuriouslittlestabberheaffected。 “Youtalkedtoit?“askedWish。 “Forthespace,probably,ofanhour。“ “Chatty?“Isaid,joiningthepartyofthesceptics。 “Thepoordevilwasintrouble,“saidClayton,bowedoverhiscigar-endandwiththeveryfaintestnoteofreproof。 “Sobbing?“someoneasked。 Claytonheavedarealisticsighatthememory。“GoodLord!“hesaid; “yes。“Andthen,“Poorfellow!yes。“ “Wheredidyoustrikeit?“askedEvans,inhisbestAmericanaccent。 “Ineverrealised,“saidClayton,ignoringhim,“thepoorsortofthingaghostmightbe,“andhehungusupagainforatime,whilehesoughtformatchesinhispocketandlitandwarmedtohiscigar。 “Itookanadvantage,“hereflectedatlast。 Wewerenoneofusinahurry。“Acharacter,“hesaid,“remainsjustthesamecharacterforallthatit’sbeendisembodied。That’sathingwetoooftenforget。Peoplewithacertainstrengthorfixityofpurposemayhaveghostsofacertainstrengthandfixityofpurpose——mosthauntingghosts,youknow,mustbeasone-idea’dasmonomaniacsandasobstinateasmulestocomebackagainandagain。 Thispoorcreaturewasn’t。“Hesuddenlylookedupratherqueerly,andhiseyewentroundtheroom。“Isayit,“hesaid,“inallkindliness,butthatistheplaintruthofthecase。Evenatthefirstglancehestruckmeasweak。“ Hepunctuatedwiththehelpofhiscigar。 “Icameuponhim,youknow,inthelongpassage。HisbackwastowardsmeandIsawhimfirst。RightoffIknewhimforaghost。Hewastransparentandwhitish;cleanthroughhischestIcouldseetheglimmerofthelittlewindowattheend。Andnotonlyhisphysiquebuthisattitudestruckmeasbeingweak。Helooked,youknow,asthoughhedidn’tknowintheslightestwhateverhemeanttodo。Onehandwasonthepanellingandtheotherflutteredtohismouth。Like——SO!“ “Whatsortofphysique?“saidSanderson。 “Lean。Youknowthatsortofyoungman’sneckthathastwogreatflutingsdowntheback,hereandhere——so!Andalittle,meanishheadwithscrubbyhair——Andratherbadears。Shouldersbad,narrowerthanthehips;turn-downcollar,ready-madeshortjacket,trousersbaggyandalittlefrayedattheheels。That’showhetookme。 Icameveryquietlyupthestaircase。Ididnotcarryalight,youknow——thecandlesareonthelandingtableandthereisthatlamp—— andIwasinmylistslippers,andIsawhimasIcameup。Istoppeddeadatthat——takinghimin。Iwasn’tabitafraid。Ithinkthatinmostoftheseaffairsoneisnevernearlysoafraidorexcitedasoneimaginesonewouldbe。Iwassurprisedandinterested。 Ithought,’GoodLord!Here’saghostatlast!AndIhaven’tbelievedforamomentinghostsduringthelastfive-and-twentyyears。’“ “Um,“saidWish。 “IsupposeIwasn’tonthelandingamomentbeforehefoundoutI wasthere。Heturnedonmesharply,andIsawthefaceofanimmatureyoungman,aweaknose,ascrubbylittlemoustache,afeeblechin。 Soforaninstantwestood——helookingoverhisshoulderatmeandregardedoneanother。Thenheseemedtorememberhishighcalling。 Heturnedround,drewhimselfup,projectedhisface,raisedhisarms,spreadhishandsinapprovedghostfashion——cametowardsme。 Ashedidsohislittlejawdropped,andheemittedafaint,drawn-out’Boo。’No,itwasn’t——notabitdreadful。I’ddined。I’dhadabottleofchampagne,andbeingallalone,perhapstwoorthree——perhapsevenfourorfive——whiskies,soIwasassolidasrocksandnomorefrightenedthanifI’dbeenassailedbyafrog。’Boo!’Isaid。 ’Nonsense。Youdon’tbelongtoTHISplace。Whatareyoudoinghere?’ “Icouldseehimwince。’Boo-oo,’hesaid。 “’Boo——behanged!Areyouamember?’Isaid;andjusttoshowIdidn’tcareapinforhimIsteppedthroughacornerofhimandmadetolightmycandle。’Areyouamember?’Irepeated,lookingathimsideways。 “Hemovedalittlesoastostandclearofme,andhisbearingbecamecrestfallen。’No,’hesaid,inanswertothepersistentinterrogationofmyeye;’I’mnotamember——I’maghost。’ “’Well,thatdoesn’tgiveyoutherunoftheMermaidClub。Isthereanyoneyouwanttosee,oranythingofthatsort?’anddoingitassteadilyaspossibleforfearthatheshouldmistakethecarelessnessofwhiskyforthedistractionoffear,Igotmycandlealight。