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类别:其他 作者:H。 G。 Wells字数:4491更新时间:18/12/27 08:56:22
“WhatisyourfriendLeonard?“askedMissWinchelseaabruptly。 “He’sthemostenthusiasticpedestrianIevermet,“theyoungmanreplied,amusingly,butalittleunsatisfactorily,MissWinchelseathought。Theyhadsomeglorioustimes,andFannycouldnotthinkwhattheywouldhavedonewithouthim。MissWinchelsea’sinterestandFanny’senormouscapacityforadmirationwereinsatiable。Theyneverflagged——throughpicturesandsculpturegalleries,immensecrowdedchurches,ruinsandmuseums,Judastreesandpricklypears,winecartsandpalaces,theyadmiredtheirwayunflinchingly。Theyneversawastonepineoraeucalyptusbuttheynamedandadmiredit; theyneverglimpsedSoractebuttheyexclaimed。Theircommonwaysweremadewonderfulbyimaginativeplay。“HereCaesarmayhavewalked,“theywouldsay。“RaphaelmayhaveseenSoractefromthisverypoint。“TheyhappenedonthetombofBibulus。“OldBibulus,“ saidtheyoungman。“TheoldestmonumentofRepublicanRome!“ saidMissWinchelsea。 “I’mdreadfullystupid,“saidFanny,“butwhoWASBibulus?“ Therewasacuriouslittlepause。 “Wasn’thethepersonwhobuiltthewall?“saidHelen。 Theyoungmanglancedquicklyatherandlaughed。“ThatwasBalbus,“ hesaid。Helenreddened,butneitherhenorMissWinchelseathrewanylightuponFanny’signoranceaboutBibulus。 Helenwasmoretaciturnthantheotherthree,butthenshewasalwaystaciturn,andusuallyshetookcareofthetramticketsandthingslikethat,orkepthereyeonthemiftheyoungmantookthem,andtoldhimwheretheywerewhenhewantedthem。Glorioustimestheyhad,theseyoungpeople,inthatpalebrowncleanlycityofmemoriesthatwasoncetheworld。Theironlysorrowwastheshortnessofthetime。Theysaidindeedthattheelectrictramsandthe’70 buildings,andthatcriminaladvertisementthatglaresupontheForum,outragedtheiraestheticfeelingsunspeakably;butthatwasonlypartofthefun。AndindeedRomeissuchawonderfulplacethatitmadeMissWinchelseaforgetsomeofhermostcarefullypreparedenthusiasmsattimes,andHelen,takenunawares,wouldsuddenlyadmitthebeautyofunexpectedthings。YetFannyandHelenwouldhavelikedashopwindoworsointheEnglishquarterifMissWinchelsea’suncompromisinghostilitytoallotherEnglishvisitorshadnotrenderedthatdistrictimpossible。 TheintellectualandaestheticfellowshipofMissWinchelseaandthescholarlyyoungmanpassedinsensiblytowardsadeeperfeeling。 TheexuberantFannydidherbesttokeeppacewiththeirreconditeadmirationbyplayingher“beautiful,“withvigour,andsaying“Oh! LET’Sgo,“withenormousappetitewheneveranewplaceofinterestwasmentioned。ButHelendevelopedacertainwantofsympathytowardstheend,thatdisappointedMissWinchelseaalittle。Sherefusedto“seeanything“inthefaceofBeatriceCenci——Shelley’sBeatriceCenci!——intheBarberinigallery;andoneday,whentheyweredeploringtheelectrictrams,shesaidrathersnappishlythat“peoplemustgetaboutsomehow,andit’sbetterthantorturinghorsesupthesehorridlittlehills。“ShespokeoftheSevenHillsofRomeas“horridlittlehills!“ AndthedaytheywentonthePalatine——thoughMissWinchelseadidnotknowofthis——sheremarkedsuddenlytoFanny,“Don’thurrylikethat,mydear;THEYdon’twantustoovertakethem。Andwedon’tsaytherightthingsforthemwhenweDOgetnear。“ “Iwasn’ttryingtoovertakethem,“saidFanny,slackeningherexcessivepace;“Iwasn’tindeed。“Andforaminuteshewasshortofbreath。 ButMissWinchelseahadcomeuponhappiness。Itwasonlywhenshecametolookbackacrossaninterveningtragedythatshequiterealisedhowhappyshehadbeen,pacingamongthecypress-shadowedruins,andexchangingtheveryhighestclassofinformationthehumanmindcanpossess,themostrefinedimpressionsitispossibletoconvey。Insensiblyemotioncreptintotheirintercourse,sunningitselfopenlyandpleasantlyatlastwhenHelen’smodernitywasnottoonear。Insensiblytheirinterestdriftedfromthewonderfulassociationsaboutthemtotheirmoreintimateandpersonalfeelings。 Inatentativewayinformationwassupplied;shespokeallusivelyofherschool,ofherexaminationsuccesses,ofhergladnessthatthedaysof“Cram“wereover。Hemadeitquiteclearthathealsowasateacher。Theyspokeofthegreatnessoftheircalling,ofthenecessityofsympathytofaceitsirksomedetails,ofacertainlonelinesstheysometimesfelt。 ThatwasintheColosseum,anditwasasfarastheygotthatday,becauseHelenreturnedwithFanny——shehadtakenherintotheuppergalleries。YettheprivatedreamsofMissWinchelsea,alreadyvividandconcreteenough,becamenowrealisticinthehighestdegree。 Shefiguredthatpleasantyoungman,lecturinginthemostedifyingwaytohisstudents,herselfmodestlyprominentashisintellectualmateandhelper;shefiguredarefinedlittlehome,withtwobureaus,withwhiteshelvesofhigh-classbooks,andautotypesofthepicturesofRossettiandBurne-Jones,withMorris’swallpapersandflowersinpotsofbeatencopper。Indeedshefiguredmanythings。OnthePinciothetwohadafewpreciousmomentstogether,whileHelenmarchedFannyofftoseethemuroTorto,andhespokeatonceplainly。Hesaidhehopedtheirfriendshipwasonlybeginning,thathealreadyfoundhercompanyveryprecioustohim,thatindeeditwasmorethanthat。 Hebecamenervous,thrustingathisglasseswithtremblingfingersasthoughhefanciedhisemotionsmadethemunstable。“Ishouldofcourse,“hesaid,“tellyouthingsaboutmyself。Iknowitisratherunusualmyspeakingtoyoulikethis。Onlyourmeetinghasbeensoaccidental——orprovidential——andIamsnatchingatthings。 IcametoRomeexpectingalonelytour……andIhavebeensoveryhappy,soveryhappy。QuiterecentlyIfoundmyselfinaposition—— Ihavedaredtothink。And——“ Heglancedoverhisshoulderandstopped。Hesaid“Damn!“quitedistinctly——andshedidnotcondemnhimforthatmanlylapseintoprofanity。ShelookedandsawhisfriendLeonardadvancing。Hedrewnearer;heraisedhishattoMissWinchelsea,andhissmilewasalmostagrin。“I’vebeenlookingforyoueverywhere,Snooks,“hesaid。“YoupromisedtobeonthePiazzastepshalfanhourago。“ Snooks!ThenamestruckMissWinchelsealikeablowintheface。 Shedidnothearhisreply。ShethoughtafterwardsthatLeonardmusthaveconsideredherthevaguest-mindedperson。TothisdaysheisnotsurewhethershewasintroducedtoLeonardornot,norwhatshesaidtohim。Asortofmentalparalysiswasuponher。 Ofalloffensivesurnames——Snooks! HelenandFannywerereturning,therewerecivilities,andtheyoungmenwerereceding。Byagreateffortshecontrolledherselftofacetheenquiringeyesofherfriends。Allthatafternoonshelivedthelifeofaheroineundertheindescribableoutrageofthatname,chatting,observing,with“Snooks“gnawingatherheart。Fromthemomentthatitfirstranguponherears,thedreamofherhappinesswasprostrateinthedust。Alltherefinementshehadfiguredwasruinedanddefacedbythatcognomen’sunavoidablevulgarity。 Whatwasthatrefinedlittlehometohernow,spiteofautotypes,Morrispapers,andbureaus?Athwartitinlettersoffirerananincredibleinscription:“Mrs。Snooks。“Thatmayseemalittlethingtothereader,butconsiderthedelicaterefinementofMissWinchelsea’smind。Beasrefinedasyoucanandthenthinkofwritingyourselfdown:——“Snooks。“SheconceivedherselfbeingaddressedasMrs。Snooksbyallthepeopleshelikedleast,conceivedthepatronymictouchedwithavaguequalityofinsult。Shefiguredacardofgreyandsilverbearing“Winchelsea,“triumphantlyeffacedbyanarrow,Cupid’sarrow,infavourof“Snooks。“Degradingconfessionoffeminineweakness!Sheimaginedtheterriblerejoicingsofcertaingirlfriends,ofcertaingrocercousinsfromwhomhergrowingrefinementhadlongsinceestrangedher。Howtheywouldmakeitsprawlacrosstheenvelopethatwouldbringtheirsarcasticcongratulations。Wouldevenhispleasantcompanycompensateherforthat?“Itisimpossible,“ shemuttered;“impossible!SNOOKS!“ Shewassorryforhim,butnotsosorryasshewasforherself。 Forhimshehadatouchofindignation。Tobesonice,sorefined,whileallthetimehewas“Snooks,“tohideunderapretentiousgentilityofdemeanourthebadgesinisterofhissurnameseemedasortoftreachery。Toputitinthelanguageofsentimentalscienceshefelthehad“ledheron。“ Therewereofcoursemomentsofterriblevacillation,aperiodevenwhensomethingalmostlikepassionbidherthrowrefinementtothewinds。Andtherewassomethinginher,anunexpurgatedvestigeofvulgarity,thatmadeastrenuousattemptatprovingthatSnookswasnotsoverybadanameafterall。AnyhoveringhesitationflewbeforeFanny’smanner,whenFannycamewithanairofcatastrophetotellthatshealsoknewthehorror。Fanny’svoicefelltoawhisperwhenshesaidSNOOKS。MissWinchelseawouldnotgivehimanyanswerwhenatlast,intheBorghese,shecouldhaveaminutewithhim; butshepromisedhimanote。 Shehandedhimthatnoteinthelittlebookofpoetryhehadlenther,thelittlebookthathadfirstdrawnthemtogether。Herrefusalwasambiguous,allusive。Shecouldnomoretellhimwhysherejectedhimthanshecouldhavetoldacrippleofhishump。Hetoomustfeelsomethingoftheunspeakablequalityofhisname。Indeedhehadavoidedadozenchancesoftellingit,shenowperceived。Soshespokeof“obstaclesshecouldnotreveal“——“reasonswhythethinghespokeofwasimpossible。“Sheaddressedthenotewithashiver,“E。K。 Snooks。“ Thingswereworsethanshehaddreaded;heaskedhertoexplain。 HowCOULDsheexplain?ThoselasttwodaysinRomeweredreadful。 Shewashauntedbyhisairofastonishedperplexity。Sheknewshehadgivenhimintimatehopes,shehadnotthecouragetoexaminehermindthoroughlyfortheextentofherencouragement。Sheknewhemustthinkherthemostchangeableofbeings。Nowthatshewasinfullretreat,shewouldnotevenperceivehishintsofapossiblecorrespondence。Butinthatmatterhedidathingthatseemedtoheratoncedelicateandromantic。Hemadeago-betweenofFanny。