第36章

类别:其他 作者:H。 G。 Wells字数:4711更新时间:18/12/27 08:56:22
Fannycouldnotkeepthesecret,andcameandtoldherthatnightunderatransparentpretextofneededadvice。“Mr。Snooks,“saidFanny,“wantstowritetome。Fancy!Ihadnoidea。ButshouldIlethim?“Theytalkeditoverlongandearnestly,andMissWinchelseawascarefultokeeptheveiloverherheart。Shewasalreadyrepentinghisdisregardedhints。Whyshouldshenothearofhimsometimes——painfulthoughhisnamemustbetoher?MissWinchelseadecideditmightbepermitted,andFannykissedhergood-nightwithunusualemotion。 AftershehadgoneMissWinchelseasatforalongtimeatthewindowofherlittleroom。Itwasmoonlight,anddownthestreetamansang“SantaLucia“withalmostheart-dissolvingtenderness…… Shesatverystill。 Shebreathedawordverysoftlytoherself。Thewordwas“SNOOKS。“ Thenshegotupwithaprofoundsigh,andwenttobed。Thenextmorninghesaidtohermeaningly,“Ishallhearofyouthroughyourfriend。“ Mr。SnookssawthemofffromRomewiththatpatheticinterrogativeperplexitystillonhisface,andifithadnotbeenforHelenhewouldhaveretainedMissWinchelsea’shold-allinhishandasasortofencyclopaedickeepsake。OntheirwaybacktoEnglandMissWinchelseaonsixseparateoccasionsmadeFannypromisetowritetoherthelongestoflongletters。Fanny,itseemed,wouldbequitenearMr。Snooks。Hernewschool——shewasalwaysgoingtonewschools——wouldbeonlyfivemilesfromSteelyBank,anditwasintheSteelyBankPolytechnic,andoneortwofirst-classschools,thatMr。Snooksdidhisteaching。Hemightevenseeherattimes。Theycouldnottalkmuchofhim——sheandFannyalwaysspokeof“him,“neverofMr。Snooks,——becauseHelenwasapttosayunsympatheticthingsabouthim。Hernaturehadcoarsenedverymuch,MissWinchelseaperceived,sincetheoldTrainingCollegedays; shehadbecomehardandcynical。Shethoughthehadaweakface,mistakingrefinementforweaknessaspeopleofherstampareapttodo,andwhensheheardhisnamewasSnooks,shesaidshehadexpectedsomethingofthesort。MissWinchelseawascarefultospareherownfeelingsafterthat,butFannywaslesscircumspect。 ThegirlspartedinLondon,andMissWinchelseareturned,withanewinterestinlife,totheGirls’HighSchoolinwhichshehadbeenanincreasinglyvaluableassistantforthelastthreeyears。 HernewinterestinlifewasFannyasacorrespondent,andtogiveheraleadshewroteheralengthydescriptiveletterwithinafortnightofherreturn。Fannyanswered,verydisappointingly。Fannyindeedhadnoliterarygift,butitwasnewtoMissWinchelseatofindherselfdeploringthewantofgiftsinafriend。ThatletterwasevencriticisedaloudinthesafesolitudeofMissWinchelsea’sstudy,andhercriticism,spokenwithgreatbitterness,was“Twaddle!“ ItwasfullofjustthethingsMissWinchelsea’sletterhadbeenfullof,particularsoftheschool。AndofMr。Snooks,onlythismuch:“IhavehadaletterfromMr。Snooks,andhehasbeenovertoseemeontwoSaturdayafternoonsrunning。HetalkedaboutRomeandyou;webothtalkedaboutyou。Yourearsmusthaveburnt,mydear……“ MissWinchelsearepressedadesiretodemandmoreexplicitinformation,andwrotethesweetestlongletteragain。“Tellmeallaboutyourself,dear。Thatjourneyhasquiterefreshedourancientfriendship,andIdosowanttokeepintouchwithyou。“AboutMr。SnooksshesimplywroteonthefifthpagethatshewasgladFannyhadseenhim,andthatifheSHOULDaskafterher,shewastoberememberedtohimVERYKINDLY(underlined)。AndFannyrepliedmostobtuselyinthekeyofthat“ancientfriendship,“remindingMissWinchelseaofadozenfoolishthingsofthoseoldschoolgirldaysatthetrainingcollege,andsayingnotawordaboutMr。Snooks! FornearlyaweekMissWinchelseawassoangryatthefailureofFannyasago-betweenthatshecouldnotwritetoher。Andthenshewrotelesseffusively,andinherlettersheaskedpoint-blank,“HaveyouseenMr。Snooks?“Fanny’sletterwasunexpectedlysatisfactory。“IHAVEseenMr。Snooks,“shewrote,andhavingoncenamedhimshekeptonabouthim;itwasallSnooks——SnooksthisandSnooksthat。Hewastogiveapubliclecture,saidFanny,amongotherthings。YetMissWinchelsea,afterthefirstglowofgratification,stillfoundthisletteralittleunsatisfactory。FannydidnotreportMr。SnooksassayinganythingaboutMissWinchelsea,noraslookingalittlewhiteandworn,asheoughttohavebeendoing。Andbehold! beforeshehadreplied,cameasecondletterfromFannyonthesametheme,quiteagushingletter,andcoveringsixsheetswithherloosefemininehand。 AndaboutthissecondletterwasaratheroddlittlethingthatMissWinchelseaonlynoticedasshere-readitthethirdtime。 Fanny’snaturalfemininityhadprevailedevenagainsttheroundandcleartraditionsofthetrainingcollege;shewasoneofthoseshe-creaturesborntomakeallherm’sandn’sandu’sandr’sande’salike,andtoleavehero’sanda’sopenandheri’sundotted。SothatitwasonlyafteranelaboratecomparisonofwordwithwordthatMissWinchelseafeltassuredMr。Snookswasnotreally“Mr。Snooks“ atall!InFanny’sfirstletterofgushhewasMr。“Snooks,“inhersecondthespellingwaschangedtoMr。“Senoks。“MissWinchelsea’shandpositivelytrembledassheturnedthesheetover——itmeantsomuchtoher。ForithadalreadybeguntoseemtoherthateventhenameofMrs。Snooksmightbeavoidedattoogreataprice,andsuddenly——thispossibility!Sheturnedoverthesixsheets,alldappledwiththatcriticalname,andeverywherethefirstletterhadtheformofanE!Foratimeshewalkedtheroomwithahandpresseduponherheart。 Shespentawholedayponderingthischange,weighingaletterofinquirythatshouldbeatoncediscreetandeffectual,weighingtoowhatactionsheshouldtakeaftertheanswercame。ShewasresolvedthatifthisalteredspellingwasanythingmorethanaquaintfancyofFanny’s,shewouldwriteforthwithtoMr。Snooks。 Shehadnowreachedastagewhentheminorrefinementsofbehaviourdisappear。Herexcuseremaineduninvented,butshehadthesubjectofherletterclearinhermind,eventothehintthat“circumstancesinmylifehavechangedverygreatlysincewetalkedtogether。“Butshenevergavethathint。TherecameathirdletterfromthatfitfulcorrespondentFanny。Thefirstlineproclaimedher“thehappiestgirlalive。“ MissWinchelseacrushedtheletterinherhand——therestunread——andsatwithherfacesuddenlyverystill。Shehadreceiveditjustbeforemorningschool,andhadopeneditwhenthejuniormathematicianswerewellunderway。Presentlysheresumedreadingwithanappearanceofgreatcalm。Butafterthefirstsheetshewentonreadingthethirdwithoutdiscoveringtheerror:——“toldhimfranklyIdidnotlikehisname,“thethirdsheetbegan。“Hetoldmehedidnotlikeithimself——youknowthatsortofsuddenfrankwayhehas“——MissWinchelseadidknow。“SoIsaid’Couldn’tyouchangeit?’Hedidn’tseeitatfirst。Well,youknow,dear,hehadtoldmewhatitreallymeant; itmeansSevenoaks,onlyithasgotdowntoSnooks——bothSnooksandNoaks,dreadfullyvulgarsurnamesthoughtheybe,arereallywornformsofSevenoaks。SoIsaid——evenIhavemybrightideasattimes——’ifitgotdownfromSevenoakstoSnooks,whynotgetitbackfromSnookstoSevenoaks?’Andthelongandtheshortofitis,dear,hecouldn’trefuseme,andhechangedhisspellingthereandthentoSenoksforthebillsofthenewlecture。Andafterwards,whenwearemarried,weshallputintheapostropheandmakeitSe’noks。Wasn’titkindofhimtomindthatfancyofmine,whenmanymenwouldhavetakenoffence?Butitisjustlikehimallover; heisaskindasheisclever。BecauseheknewaswellasIdidthatIwouldhavehadhiminspiteofit,hadhebeententimesSnooks。Buthediditallthesame。“ Theclasswasstartledbythesoundofpaperbeingviciouslytorn,andlookeduptoseeMissWinchelseawhiteintheface,andwithsomeverysmallpiecesofpaperclenchedinonehand。Forafewsecondstheystaredatherstare,andthenherexpressionchangedbacktoamorefamiliarone。“Hasanyonefinishednumberthree?“sheaskedinaneventone。Sheremainedcalmafterthat。Butimpositionsruledhighthatday。AndshespenttwolaboriouseveningswritinglettersofvarioussortstoFanny,beforeshefoundadecentcongratulatoryvein。HerreasonstruggledhopelesslyagainstthepersuasionthatFannyhadbehavedinanexceedinglytreacherousmanner。 Onemaybeextremelyrefinedandstillcapableofaverysoreheart。 CertainlyMissWinchelsea’sheartwasverysore。Shehadmoodsofsexualhostility,inwhichshegeneraliseduncharitablyaboutmankind。“Heforgothimselfwithme,“shesaid。“ButFannyispinkandprettyandsoftandafool——averyexcellentmatchforaMan。“ AndbywayofaweddingpresentshesentFannyagracefullyboundvolumeofpoetrybyGeorgeMeredith,andFannywrotebackagrosslyhappylettertosaythatitwas“ALLbeautiful。“MissWinchelseahopedthatsomedayMr。Senoksmighttakeupthatslimbookandthinkforamomentofthedonor。Fannywroteseveraltimesbeforeandabouthermarriage,pursuingthatfondlegendoftheir“ancientfriendship,“andgivingherhappinessinthefullestdetail。AndMissWinchelseawrotetoHelenforthefirsttimeaftertheRomanjourney,sayingnothingaboutthemarriage,butexpressingverycordialfeelings。 TheyhadbeeninRomeatEaster,andFannywasmarriedintheAugustvacation。ShewroteagarrulouslettertoMissWinchelsea,describingherhome-coming,andtheastonishingarrangementsoftheir“teenyweeny“littlehouse。Mr。Se’nokswasnowbeginningtoassumearefinementinMissWinchelsea’smemoryoutofallproportiontothefactsofthecase,andshetriedinvaintoimaginehisculturedgreatnessina“teenyweeny“littlehouse。“Ambusyenamellingacoseycorner,“saidFanny,sprawlingtotheendofherthirdsheet,“soexcusemore。“MissWinchelseaansweredinherbeststyle,gentlypokingfunatFanny’sarrangementsandhopingintenselythatMr。Sen’oksmightseetheletter。Onlythishopeenabledhertowriteatall,answeringnotonlythatletterbutoneinNovemberandoneatChristmas。 ThetwolattercommunicationscontainedurgentinvitationsforhertocometoSteelyBankonaVisitduringtheChristmasholidays。 ShetriedtothinkthatHEhadtoldhertoaskthat,butitwastoomuchlikeFanny’sopulentgood-nature。Shecouldnotbutbelievethathemustbesickofhisblunderbythistime;andshehadmorethanahopethathewouldpresentlywriteheraletterbeginning“DearFriend。“Somethingsubtlytragicintheseparationwasagreatsupporttoher,asadmisunderstanding。Tohavebeenjiltedwouldhavebeenintolerable。Butheneverwrotethatletterbeginning“DearFriend。“